With the arrival of the next afternoon, the call from Esposito and Ryan came. I picked it up, I was in the bathroom, fresh out of the shower; Beckett came with me, she closed the door and I put the speaker in minimum volume:
- Hey guys - Ryan said.
- Hello – I replied.
- Hey, I know you're doing the best you can, but we do not swallow it. You have to show more love, not only kisses and hugs.
- And this is not because you know us? - Said Beckett a little angry.
- Just because we know you, we know that you can do it better. Come on, you know it, we too. - Intervened Esposito - You guys are explosive together. You remember when we were kidnapped by Lockwood? I saw you from a window.
Beckett and I looked each other; we thought that was just ours. I turned pale. "What they did?" We heard Ryan asking softly. Beckett was angry, I noticed even without looking at her:
- Esposito, that's private. In any case, that was because you were going to be killed, as a desperate measure - Beckett said. I felt die for those words. That had meant a lot to me.
- Beckett, none believes that, either you. I saw your face; you were right under the streetlight. You saw come to Castle and you still not stopped him. Maybe you want to believe what you just said. At least Castle accepts it...
- Esposito, I never said ... - I began.
- Come on, Castle! We are not blind. And she either, but she does. – Stopped me Ryan - When she got fired, all of we felt it was partly our fault, but you had accepted it all. - "That's true," said Esposito at the bottom - Until the stup... Until Josh threw you of the hospital and Gates of the precinct, you were with her all the time - I felt the eyes of Beckett on me – I don't know what occurred in the alley but I can get an idea ... And in that idea is very clear that you accept it and she flees.
- Guys, you are playing private issues ... Ah! And forgive me if I am human and I am afraid of rejection ... - Beckett said.
- Rejection?! - Lanie said. I stared at the phone, surprised. Beckett, incredulous.
- Lanie?! - Asked Beckett - You too?!
- Yeah, darling, I wanted to see what excuse you put now.
- Lanie, wait one moment... - I said. I could feel the sense of betrayal of Beckett.
- No, no, no ... I've been waiting four years seeing as you do damage to each other. – She stopped me - Rejection, you've said? Honey, the guy is crazy about you and, despite your little act, you're crazy about him!
- Why is everyone speaking by us?! - I half shouted - Did you know how I feel? You can have a small idea but no, you do not know. So, limit yourselves to advise us for this mission! - I added, turning the volume of my voice down - Please.
I knew that they were all surprised, except perhaps Beckett, she had already seen me pissed with her before.
- Let ... – I sighed - Let the things that happened in an alley in the alley. The hospitals in hospitals. The feelings of each in the hands of each other. Yes! We suffer for each other but it's up to us. - I let my voice trail off.
- All right, bro - said Esposito - just do it better, okay? You know how to do it, something else is you want to do it. In short, do what you want to. - And he hanged up.
We were silent for a while; we only can hear our breaths.