Ok so this chapter is actually quite short comapred the previous chapters sorry about that but I didn't want to ruin by writing things just for the sake of it. Anyways Enjoyyyy!
"Let's just get back to the room Monkey Butt…I'm tired" I yawned as me and Adam got out of the car. We walked out of the car park passing Wade, Heath and Justin on the way.
"What's with calling me Monkey Butt?" Adam laughed as we walked towards the doors of the hotel.
"It suits you" I retorted as Adam quickly turned back and walked towards the car.
"I forgot my bag…You lot go ahead" He explained opening the car.
"Oh shit" I gasped seeing him standing by the doors.
"What's up?" Heath asked with a smile.
"No…" I pleaded as tears filled my eyes "No…Please no" I begged now, the memories of a past I would have much rather have forgotten came flooding back as I seem him standing there carelessly laughing with friends as if he had never done anything, no regrets.
"What's wrong Scarlett?" Wade asked clearly worried as he grabbed my hands from my face and looked into my tear filled eyes.
"Scarlett?" Adam said running over clearly worried at my suddenly erratic behaviour.
"It's him" Was all I managed to get out but of course none of them would have a clue what I was talking about, they had no idea what those two small but oh so significant words mean, they hadn't lived my life and I hadn't let anyone of them in on it either . Everyone was clueless as to what my problem was as I struggled not to breathe rapidly and tried with every ounce of strength in me to suppress the dizziness and clammy hands that were fast approaching me. To no avail, it was now only a matter of time before my world would be black and everyone would start to panic along with me.
"Scarlett…What are you talking about?" Adam asked grabbing my face to help me snap out of it.
"Please Adam…Keep…Him…Away" I pleaded breathlessly before everything went black.
"Is she ok?" I heard a familiar voice ask. I hadn't heard that voice in so long and the mere sound of it made me scream and writhe in terror as I lay on the cold floor outside of the hotel with everyone crowding me.
"Someone get her an ambulance…NOW!" I heard Adam demand, my eyes were still closed for fear of what I might see when I opened them so I blindly and helplessly clawed for Adam or Wade so I could pull them closer to me but to no avail, I couldn't find either of them and I knew if I truly wanted their protection I would need to face my fears. That meant opening my eyes evening if there was a chance he would be staring back at me. Slowly and still with tears streaming down my face I opened my eyes and came face to face with the man that had haunted me since I was 12 years old I screamed in terror again and quickly looked around for Adam or Wade and wrapped my arms tightly around Adams' neck as I tried to scramble to my feet in a blind panic and pull him towards me at the same time.
"Scarlett please…tell me what's wrong" Adam begged as he pulled me into his chest and hugged me tight to calm me down.
"Him" I sobbed pointing to my cousin who I hadn't seen in nearly 7 years now.
"What about him?" Wade asked as Adam picked me up bridal style and I buried my head in his shoulder.
"Please don't make me say it" I begged through the tears.
"Scar you've got to tell us now, I promise it's going to be ok" Wade reassured me as he took me from Adam, I caught a glimpse of his face as he see me willingly go to Wade. He looked hurt and worried.
"I'm scared" I whimpered burying my head in his neck trying not to look at my cousin.
"I don't know what I've done" My cousin said innocently.
"Yes you fucking do" I sniffed still refusing to look at him.
"Wade…Can I go to your room with you please?" I asked looking up at him as tears still ran down my cheeks.
"Ermm…Yeah sure" He stammered "But the ambulance will be here in a minute" He pointed out.
"I don't need to go to hospital" I said shaking my head.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"Yes" I assured him nodding my head "Please just take me to your room…I want to tell you" I explained, I felt us start to move but I quickly snapped my head back up. "Adam?" I said.
"Yeah" He said his head snapping up to look at me a hint of something in his eyes but I wasn't sure what it was.
"Can you come to?" I asked.
"Yeah course" He agreed nodding before whispering something to Heath and Justin who walked over to the man who had caused me all the distress and stopped him from going anywhere.
"What the fuck Scarlett?" Adam said looking really worried as I sat on the bed with my knees tucked under my chin.
For a moment I sat in silence not knowing what to say "He's my cousin" I whispered as fresh tears ran down my cheeks.
"Ok" The both nodded in unison scared as to why I'd react like that to my cousin.
"I can't" I choked still crying, Wade sighed sympathetically and sat next to me resting a hand on my back making me jump and crawl to the back of the bed where no one could get to me.
"What?" Wade said in confusion at my reaction.
"Take your time and just tell us" Adam smiled reassuringly sitting opposite me with his legs crossed.
"You're going to hate me" I sobbed "And I don't think I could handle you two hating me" I whimpered as yet again I began to cry.
"Scar I'm not going to hate you I promise" Adam reassured me.
"Me either…No way" Wade agreed shaking his head.
"You don't get it…I hate myself for it…I'm disgusting" I whimpered as this time Adam tried to place a comforting hand on my leg and I flinched again crawling away.
"Just tell us" Wade sighed his worry obviously growing by the second.
"When I was twelve…" I stammered crying again but not caring anymore I was so sure they were going to hate me after this I didn't care what I looked like "When I was twelve…" I started again "He forced me to…" Adams face dropped as he naturally thought the worst "He forced me to do stuff" I cried. Wades face instantly hardened and he looked as if he was about to kill someone.
"I'm really sorry about this Scarlett but I need you to actually say the words so I know for definite that there's no misunderstandings"
"You can't make her…" Wade started but I interrupted him.
"Heforcedmetohavesexwithhim" I said, it all came out in one word and Adam looked as if he was about to go and commit murder. "I'll understand if you don't wanna talk to me again" I whispered feeling dirty and like damaged goods.
"No…Why would we want that…This isn't your fault?" Wade sighed as Adam stood in shock obviously still angry.
"I knew it was wrong when it was happening but I didn't stop it…I should have stopped it" I cried wiping my eyes.
"No…It wasn't your fault…You were twelve" Wade soothed as he sat next to me and I leant forward pulling him to me for a bone crushing hug, I turned to give Adam a hug to but as I turned he was gone and the only thing I heard was the door slam.
"Shit…I should go after him" Wade sighed standing up
"I'll come to" I sniffed wiping my eyes.
"Are you sure?" He asked, I nodded in response and we exited the room. We walked down the corridor and into the elevator to go to reception to see if Adam had gone there. The elevator doors opened and upon seeing my cousin I grabbed Wades hand in comfort, he gave it a light squeeze and we walked over to Adam who currently had him pinned against the wall.
"ADAM NO!" I shouted still clutching on to Wades hand for dear life as we approached at a quick pace.
"After what you just told me you don't want me to kick the living shit out of him" Adam growled slamming him against the wall earning a groan from him. I had to admit I did want to see him hurting but I knew Adam would get in trouble for it so I knew it couldn't happen.
"Course I do but you'll be the one to get in trouble if you hurt him" I reasoned.
"I don't care" He seethed slamming him against the wall again.
"Seriously man…You're going to get fired" Wade pointed out but Adam wasn't listening he was far too angry he began punching my cousin and attacking him with an anger that frightened me. Wade made a move to go over and help everyone pull Adam off but I still clutched his hand in terror. "ADAM YOU'RE SCARING SCARLETT!" Wade screamed seeing it as the only way to get Adams attention. Adam took a deep breath and turned to me.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you" He said "I just can't believe…" He started but the pain in his eyes told me it was too much to say the words out loud.
"I want to go back to your room Wade" I whispered squeezing his hand tight in fear at both my cousin being in the same room as me and Adams anger getting the better of him again.
"Scarlett…Are you going to be ok?" Adam quickly asked as we turned to leave.
"Yeah" I nodded smiling at him but still terrified inside.
"Do you want me to order room service?" Wade asked as I sat down on the double bed.
"I'm not hungry" I sighed wiping my face before absentmindedly flicking through the TV channels.
"You've got to eat" He pleaded sitting next to me and pulling me into a hug.
"Why do I feel like I don't deserve to eat" I half laughed half cried.
"You do…Don't you ever think it's your fault Scarlett…It's all him" He whispered bowing his head so it was level to mine.
"Thank you for this" I whispered "Do you mind if I sleep here tonight?" I asked.
"No problem and yeah of course" He smiled as I lay on my head on his chest and listened to his heartbeat. Something about it was calming. "Now pick something" He commanded handing me the room service menu. We both eventually decided on a cheeseburger with chips and picked a movie whilst we wait for it to arrive.
"Wade" I said as we finished our food and watched the film.
"Yeah" He answered.
"I feel like his going to just turn up and do it again…I feel like I'm dirty and I'm damaged goods" I sobbed as for what felt like the millionth time that day I began to cry.
"He's not coming here I promise" He comforted "And I can assure you you're not dirty or damaged goods"
Me and Wade lay on the bed watching another film, it was nearing on two o'clock in the morning now and I lay on my side whilst Wade draped his arm around my waist pulling me close. Once the film was finished he moved to go and lay on the sofa.
"No…" I panicked grabbing his hand so he couldn't move from his position behind me "Don't go…" I whispered playing with his fingers "I feel safe when you're here" I whispered.
"Nothing and no one is going to hurt you whilst I'm here" Wade assured me kissing the back of my neck and giving me goose bumps. "Are you cold?" He asked as he wrapped the covers tighter around us.
"No" I laughed "I got goose bumps because you kissed the back of my neck" I explained turning so we were facing each other, our faces nanometres apart.
"Sorry…I didn't mean anything buy it" He whispered. "It's just…" He started before shaking his head.
"It's just what?" I asked.
"Now is not the right time for this conversation…We'll talk in the morning" He suggested.
"No…I want to talk now" I whispered looking up at him with huge pleading eyes.
"I don't want to scare you…After the day you've had" He explained.
"Tell me" I spoke seriously.
"We haven't known each other long but I really like you Scarlett" He admitted shyly. I didn't know what to say, I knew he had feelings for me but hearing it put it into perspective for me. I leant up and brought my lips gently to his, Wade returned the kiss with a passion and for a moment our tongues explored the confines of each other's mouths. My whole body melted to his and as we kissed I felt safe for the first time since I'd arrived back at the hotel just a few hours before. We broke apart and for a moment looked into each other's eyes.
"You should get some sleep…You've had a tough day" He stated as we both closed our eyes and fell asleep.
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