Chapter 30: No Choice

I couldn't forget what he told me…I couldn't let Remus die…next full moon was in 2 weeks I still had time. I researched in the library that a werewolf could only mark during the week of the full moon or the night of. I wanted Remus to do it…well if it was up to me I wouldn't do it at all yet but I've noticed little things, tiny things most people would, about Remus he was getting weaker, unnoticeable to everyone else but I saw it.

If the wolf did it when it wasn't full moon…the connection wouldn't be as strong, which is what I didn't understand but that's what the books said so I was fallowing it. Remus still had no idea what I was planning but I would fill him in later after I figure everything out first.

On top of everything else Draco wasn't letting go of when I came back to class all scratched and bruised. I had told him many times to just let it go but he wouldn't give.

It had been almost a month so the scratch was pretty much not there it was just a thin red line now and will probably be completely gone by next week.

"Still here" I heard him ask I jumped a little quickly hiding the book on Lycanthropy I had started to look into that also remembering that in a few short weeks I would be one of them…definitely not something I was looking forward to.

"When was the last time you slept?" he asked looking at me.

I turned and looked back at the blond staring at me.

"I sleep" I defended as I pulled other books over the books I was actually reading.

"Piper you've been here since supper and whenever your not in class you're here…" he said I was getting used to his gentler side it suited him a lot more.

"There's just something I got to do" I sighed now that he mentioned it I was truly tired.

"It's late why don't I walk you to your common room?" he asked.

"…actually I was going to go to Uncle Remus' I needed to ask him about Christmas holiday…what we're going to do" I shrugged rubbing my eyes and stretching.

"Okay…the Christmas ball is coming soon…who you going with?" he asked standing there fidgeting I was going to laugh at him, the great Draco Malfoy standing there fidgeting around as he made an attempt to ask me to the ball.

"um…I don't know…Uncle Remus was thinking of leaving early for Christmas…there is only 3 weeks of school left…that's what I'm going to ask" I shrugged as I started to close the books I did a quick little manoeuvre to close the ones about wolfs without him noticing, I had figured out how to do it a few weeks ago and was extremely happy with myself for it.

"You can't leave…Piper I know your uncle is a werewolf…you can't leave with him then, it's the full moon" he said and I cringed inward when I heard a trace of his old self.

"…he can't hurt me…look Draco this is my family, my choice, now I'll see you in class" I said throwing my book bag over my shoulder and walking past him.

When I finally got to where I've been longing to go but other wise scared I just about didn't go in.

"Hey Piper…everything alright" Remus asked as soon as he saw me. He was laying on his bed reading a book.

"…um yeah… listen…Remus…um I was wondering what we're doing for Christmas holiday?" I asked instead.

"…well I usually just spend it with Sirius but if you wanted to do something else we can." He said sitting his book on the side table I went and sat in front of him.

"Well…Paige…she's getting married before Christmas…during the holiday. So I was wondering if you wanted to go over there."

"Yeah sure, it'd be good to see them again" he said smiling.

I looked at him his hair was messy from laying in bed and he was wearing pyjama bottoms with no shirt. I smiled back seeing only my Remus there his blue-green eyes.

"Is something wrong Piper?" he asked taking my hands in his.

"…it's just…well Moony told me something" I had taken to calling his "wolf" side Moony.

"What did he tell you?" he asked

"…you can't take the wolf's bane potion anymore…please…he said it would make it less painful" I said.

"I can't stop taking it Piper that will allow him to take control" Remus said shaking his head.

"You won't hurt me Remus and neither will he. I thought we established this already. I am the safest I will ever be with you…we need you to connect with your other side…we need to trust him…it's hurting you too much…we need to learn to trust him with me" I said taking a big gulp. I didn't know what to think about Moony…I loved him, he was the other part of my man, but I was scared of him too. I was scared because I thought I had already knew everything about Remus, and now there was this whole other side of him I wasn't sure was safe.

I had no idea what the hell was going on now…everything changed so fast…Remus opened his arms up for me and we just laid there. I was completely confused….and I didn't know what my next move should be. I had no choice on the marking thingy now…I would have to get to trust Moony…so really I had no choice in what I had to do…no choice in what I was going to do. I was going to do it no matter what, I couldn't lose him.

OKay i know it's been a VERY long time since i've posted anything but...i am stuck....and i'm not even sure if this chapter even made any sense at all....review!!!!!! i NEED HELP!!!!!!!!! :P :D

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