Inuyasha Fanfic: Simply Love

Chapter 1: feelings and Mother?

It was the middle of the night. The full moon shown through a blanket of clouds. Topaz eye's shown brightly as the light from the moon hit them just right. Triangular ears twitched, as the eyes glanced around at the humans on the ground. These features all belonged to a long silver-haired half-demon. He looked around again and snuck off. Not wanting to wake his companions. He knew that he'd get nagged at once he returned, but he didn't care he had to go visit the only person who ever saw him as a person and not as a filthy piece of trash. His mother.

He ran as fast as he could to the grave of his mother, Izayoi. When he arrived at her grave he placed beautiful pink Azalia flowers. Remembering them as his mothers favorite flower. He sighed and sat in front of it and put his hands together and prayed. After a few minutes he looked up and dusted off the top of the stone and pulled the tall grass and weeds away.

Ten minutes later he started talking to her, explaining things he'd never be able to reveal to anyone. He told her how much he missed her and wished her here with him now, but he knew inside it wouldn't ever happen. He bowed his head and silently cried. Looking up he wiped his eyes as the moon came into view. Remembering the last thing his mother told him he scoffed, smiled and sat there soakig up the moon light. , imagining it being her arms around him

"Master Inuyasha?" an old hoarse voice came out of the tree root near the grave. Inuyasha froze and looked around.

"Oh, it's you Myoga. Hi" Inuyasha looked away as Myoga jumped on to his Master's nose.

"What is the mater Master Inuyasha?" Myoga asked, jumping onto Inuyasha's shoulder.

"I just can't get things out of my head." Inuyasha said as he walked to the tree, right behind his mothers grave and leaned against it. His right foot touching the back of the grave. Myoga stayed quiet as Inuyasha continued. "I've been thinking about mother and what has happened in the past." Inuyasha sighed. "I can't stop thinking about Kikyo and all the hurt I've put on her. I then think about Kagome and all the suffering she's endured because of me. I think of Sango and all the pain she's went through of seeing her father and villagers be slain and her brother taken by Naraku. Then of Miroku; having to endure the curse past down from his late grandfather. Shippo lost his father too and is all alone. I know I've been mean to him but I don't know."

"What are you going to do?" Myoga asked.

: I don't know." Inuyasha said and sighed. He looked up and stared at the moon. "I wish I knew what to do. I don't want to hurt anymore people. More people I care about die because of me." Inuyasha gritted his teeth and clenched his fist. He was trying not to cry again, "I just- I just want things to stop I want to- "Inuyasha stopped and bowed his head and cried. "I don't even know why father left the Tetsusaiga to me. I know to protect me but there has to be more to it." Inuyasha put his hands to his face and trembled.

"Master Inuyasha, I've never seen you so upset let alone cry. It's not like you." Myoga said soothingly. "I cannot tell you what your father intended, but he knew that you would one day do something great and he believed in you and in the fact that you would master the Tetsusaiga no matter what."

"But why mother?" Inuyasha said whipping his face with the back of his hand. "She left me alone"

Myoga closed his eyes and scoffed. "Her intention was not to leave you when she did. Lady Izayoi wanted to full fill your fathers wish to live long with you."

"Pff oh yeah she lived long alright." Inuyasha said as a new set of tears threatened to fall. "I was so small when she died. I want her back damn it!" After hitting the tree Inuyasha screamed.

'Inuyasha do not cry, my boy?' a sweet melodic voice said from behind him.

Inuyasha gasped, his eyes widening, His mouth quivered, "M-Mother?" He turned around and where his mother's grave was stood his mother, in her pink dressy kimono.

"Lady Izayoi." Myoga said just as surprised as Inuyasha.

Izayoi smiled at Myoga and glance back at Inuyasha, who stood up and walked toward her. "What seems to be troubling you, my dearest?"

"I don't know what to do." Inuyasha said look directly into his mother's eyes.

"What about my son?'

"Everything; I can't stop thinking about Kikyo, but I don't want to loose Kagome. I'm afraid of my demon side. I don't think I can protect the people I care about with or without Tetsusaiga." Inuyasha let out a heavy but quivering sigh, "I'm jealous of Miroku and Sango, even though I know I can have the same thing. I hate myself for being so mean to Shippo."

"Then change yourself, Inuyasha." Izayoi said with a smile.

"I don't think I can."

"Yes you can my boy." Izayoi walked to him and placed a hand on his cheek, whipping a stray tear away. "Look at what has changed in you now. And look inside yourself to find what has helped you to make these changes." after a few minutes of watching Inuyasha's face go through a range of emotions she continued. "Close your eye sweetheart." Inuyasha obeyed. "What do you see?"

Inuyasha's brow scrunched together. "Just the darkness, what am I supposed to see?"

"Look deeper." his mother said in a soothing voice.

In the darkness of his mind Inuyasha searched for what he was seeking. After a while he shook his head and before he could say anything a voice came through the darkness. "There's a voice. But who is it? It's calling me."

"Follow the sound of that voice to which it belongs to. Ask yourself who has been there with through everything you have experienced. Who has been there for you no matter what?"

Inuyasha ran toward the sound of the voice calling him. At first he thought it was Kikyo. Then a clearer image appeared. "Ka-Kagome? She can't see me." hearing his mother's voice ask him what was happening. The image cleared into the time when Kagome first arrived. The look on her face when she first saw him made Inuyasha's breath catch. He watched as she walked up to him, still pinned to the tree and tweak his dog ears. Then the villagers shot arrows and she coward into his chest. The next set was a mix of all the two had been through, the good and the bad.

What Inuyasha didn't expect to see was his future. He was fighting Naraku; Kagome was by his side, bow and arrow in hand. Sango and Miroku were on his left. Shippo and Kilala were next to Kagome also ready to fight. He didn't get to see the fight so he didn't know what happened but the next part was the aftermath. He was alone with Kagome near the well. They were saying good bye, they traveled back to her time but Inuyasha didn't stay. Kagome said shed miss him and think of him always, he just scoffed and replied whatever; but his expression said differently. Kagome just giggled at him and stood on her tip-toes and kissed him on the cheek. When she turned around she said nothing, but he knew she was crying. He turned back to the well and left as well.

"Inuyasha?" his mother's voice called to him. , concern in her voice. "What is it?"

Inuyasha opened his eyes. "No it can't end like this I wont let it. I can't let her leave me."

"Have you figured out what I meant, dear?"

"Yes. I need her. I need Kagome to stay with me." Inuyasha said in a serious tone

Izayoi smiled "then wake up my dear Inuyasha."

"What?"

"Wake up." his mothers voice repeated the phrase and faded as light pierced trough Inuyasha closed eyes. He opened his eyes and squinted. The sun was up and birds twitter around. He stood up, cursing himself, and headed back to the others.

It was mid morning when he arrived back to the others. Before arriving he made sure the evidence of him crying wasn't visible. He walked up to the others who were just preparing breakfast. Miroku looked up from what he was doing announcing Inuyasha's return. They all looked in his direction as he stopped and looked back in the direction he came from. He smiled and whispered, "thank you, my sweet dear Mother." He grinned slightly closing his eyes. 'I love you mother, thank you.'

Seeing his face as he turned back around, Kagome's face fell. She stood up and walked to greet him.

He looked at her and gave her a weak smile, "Hi Kagome."

"You went to see Kikyo, didn't you?" Kagome asked

"No I didn't." Inuyasha said smiling big as the memories of talking with his mother flooded his mind.

"Yes you did. It's written all over your face." Kagome said.

Inuyasha frowned. "Why do you think I went to see Kikyo? She isn't even in our vicinity."

"You think I don't know you!? You went to see Kikyo! I can see it in your face!" Kagome yelled at him

"Why are you yelling at me I didn't do a damn thing? I did not go and see Kikyo! I was with Myoga!"

"Yeah right prove it!"

"Fine! Myoga!" Inuyasha yelled his ears twitched as they waited a few minutes. "God damn you Myoga!"

"You're a lair!"

"I am not! I wasn't with Kikyo!"

"Then what were you doing!?" Kagome asked Inuyasha flinched and looked away not wanting to tell anyone about what had happened. "See you did see Kikyo. You won't even tell me what you "really" did." Kagome said

Miroku and Sango watched as the two continued to argue. Shippo sighed wondering why they have to fight now. He being a demon could smell no traces of Kikyo around Inuyasha and there was no aura of Kikyo around him either. Kagome should be able to see that. Shippo whispered this to Miroku and Sango, but they said no that wouldn't help the arguing.

"DO YOU WANT ME TO ADMIT THAT I WSA WITH HER!? FINE I WAS!, THERE YOU HAPPY NOW!?"

"SIT BOY!" Kagome screamed, growled and left.

Inuyasha growled and sat up; mumbling to himself and went back to his mothers grave unaware of a monk following him.