Title: Forever His

Author: pikachucranstongirl

Story Category: Criminal Minds

Rating: Teen

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds, which is owned by the Mark Gordon Company. I just own Alexander Langston, Gabriella Chambers and Roxanne Hammond...I also don't own Nickelback's Far Away, N'Sync's Gonna Be Me, and a quote from Saturday's Warrior...so please don't sue.

Inspired By: Nickelback's Far Away in a twisted reincarnation sense

Summary: He's always loved her as Alexander Langston and Spencer Reid. When it comes down to it, he will find her...because she was always meant to be his.

Characters: Alexander Langston(OMC)/Spencer Reid, Roxanne Hammond/Gabriella Chambers(OFC)

Pairings: Alexander Langston/Roxanne Hammond, Spencer Reid/Gabriella Chambers

Universe: AU with Canon ties...

Spoiler Warnings: Revelations, for now

POV: Spencer's (Still in third person perspective)

Note: 'Hey…' denotes Gabriella's writing.

Chapter 4:

Revelations

Spencer entered Gabby's room a few days later to find her doodling on the dry erase board that he had bought for her. "Hey." he greeted, making Gabby turn her head toward him, her green eyes sparkling with love.

She erased the board and wrote, 'Hey…'

"Rossi wants to know how you're doing." he told her. Spencer watched her green eyes sparkle with mischief. When that particular look came up, it usually meant a sarcastic comment or Gabby doing something that she oughtn't. Something that somehow always got Spencer into major trouble when they were kids.

'Bored. Ask him if he's ever gotten so bored that he's profiled Disney characters.' Spencer laughed. He was not touching that question. If Gabby really wanted to ask her godfather that question, she could do it herself.

"I am not touching that question, Gabs. Your godfather is Hotch's second in command. Just…No." He firmly told her, blushing his socks off.

'I wasn't expecting you to ask Rossi that. I only said that to see what your reaction would be.' She replied defensively to him through her writing. 'You know, you're so cute when you blush.' Spencer heard her teasing clearly as if she had said it herself.

"Shut up." he mumbled and blushed even further.

'You didn't blush when I told you that when you were seven, Spencer.' She looked at him, eyebrow raised as she bit her lip. Spencer moved his chair closer to her.

"I believe that I also told you back then that I hated the word cute being used in reference to me." He replied as he took out a book. "Want me to read you the Swiss Family Robinson?" He asked.

'No.' she answered.

"What do you want to do, then?" he asked as he looked at her. "I don't think your doctor would appreciate us making out with you just out of critical condition -"

'Spencer, shut up.' He smiled when he saw that. 'How about a game of twenty questions…' she suggested. Spencer realized that she just wanted to know more about him. It had been so long since they'd kept in contact.

"Sounds about as good as making out does." Spencer answered with a honest shrug.

'I know you work with my godfather. What's your specialty?' Spencer watched her tap the marker's lid against the rail.

"Truthfully? Everything that isn't covered by another agent on the team." He answered, wondering what else she could ask him. "Gabs…there's something that I've got to tell you before someone brings it up…you see, almost two years ago…" He reflexively swallowed, trying to explain as bile swam up his esophagus, as it always did when he tried to explain it. "I was on this case in Georgia and I was abducted by Tobias Hankel. He had disassociative identity disorder."

'No, Spencer…oh my god.' He watched her cover her mouth in horror as she realized that whatever she imagined Tobias to have done to him was very bad.

"He had three personalities…Charles, his father, himself and Rafael, an archangel." Reid continued explaining. "When he was himself, he shot me up with Dilaudid to help with the torture I received at his hands. I became addicted to the painkiller and I attend NA meetings now."

'How long have you been clean?'

"A year and ten months." He answered honestly. Spencer fiddled with his hands as he looked down at the floor. Perhaps, she'd find a man who didn't crave narcotic painkillers. But as soon as the thought occurred to him, he dismissed it because he needed her in his life to steady him.

'I want you to listen to me, Spencer Daniel Reid.' He looked up at his girlfriend. She hadn't used his full name since the age of seven. 'That was not, nor will it ever be, your fault. I -' She stopped in mid written sentence as though something mentally occurred to her. 'Did you just tell me this to scare me off?' He nodded. 'Your plan's not working, Reid, because I still love you, genius.' She wrote with a half - smile.

"Should've known that I wouldn't be able to scare you off with this. You were the reason I first started getting clean besides being able to keep my job." Gabby rolled her eyes at the first part of his statement, then her eyes widened at the second half.

'Me?' she asked through her written question. There was some confusion on her features that Spencer could read, but no rejection.

"You. I want you in my life, Gabriella. You, sweetheart," He brushed an errant lock of blonde hair away from her face before he continued saying, "Make me forget that I think I need them to run my life on a day to day basis."

'I help you forget that you need the painkillers?' she asked, doubtfully.

"Yes." He bit his bottom lip as he watched her for any signs of rejection. He wouldn't be able to take it if she did reject him. But so far, if he was reading her body signals correctly, none was forthcoming. "Gabs, I know that being with me -"

"Shut up!" Spencer looked at her, stunned by her finally speaking. "At least you told me…and like you said, you attend meetings. If you need me, then you need me." She looked totally accepting of what he had gone through. "I'll be here for you. I love you, Spencer Reid and nothing is going to change that."

"What about schizophrenia? What about the fact that I curl up into the fetal position in the dark?" Spencer wasn't sorry that he was asking her these questions but he was sorry for pressing her past her limit.

"Spencer!" She snapped, then took a deep breath before looking at Spencer again. "I don't care if you inherit schizophrenia from Diana - You curl up in the fetal position in the dark?" Spencer nodded, noting how she had stopped her tirade to address the last part of his questions. "We'll work on that together, I promise. Even if you inherit schizophrenia from your mom…I'll be with you."

"You won't leave?" Spencer was quite aware that he sounded like a scared little boy, the boy he'd been after Gabriella had moved, but he didn't care.

"I'm in your life from now on permanently, Spencer…" She answered soothingly. "That is, if you want me." she hurriedly added. Spencer caressed her cheek with his thumb, surprised when she closed her eyes.

"I want." He murmured huskily to her, swallowing thickly. He wanted…everything with her. "I want to be with you."

"Then believe me, Spencer. I will never willingly leave you." She promised with a gentle smile. Spencer smiled at her and pressed a quick kiss to her lips before he had to go home and get some sleep before work in the morning.

When Spencer arrived at work, Morgan smirked at him. "Spend the night with your girlfriend, Reid?" He teased.

"Shut up." Spencer muttered.

"Reid, can I talk to you?" Hotch asked from the catwalk. Reid nodded and held up a hand to mean 5 minutes, to which Hotch nodded. As soon as he finished, he headed up there. He knocked on the door and hearing Hotch say, "Come in.", Reid entered.

"You wanted to talk to me, Hotch?" Spencer asked.

"It's been a long time since we have had a sex crimes specialist, Reid." Hotch remarked. Reid remembered Elle Greenaway, the last one. She'd gone beserk and shot William Lee, leaving on her own terms when the BAU bureaucrats had deemed it as self defense.

"What does this have to do with me?" Spencer asked.

"I believe that you are familiar with Officer Chambers, correct?" Spencer nodded. Of course he was familiar with Gabby, they'd just recently become girlfriend and boyfriend. "Her commanding officer has recommended that she join the Bureau, specifically our unit in particular. He feels her talent is being wasted in his department."

"Again, what does this have to do with me?"

"You have a certain connection with Chambers, Reid. What I was hoping you could do is convince her to take her commanding officer's recommendation once she gets out of the hospital." Hotch got to the point and Reid was shocked to hear his thoughts. "He seems to think that Chambers is unhappy being in his department."

"I'll try my best." Reid sighed.

Author's note: Well, this is going to be hell for Spencer…Please Read and Review!