Chapter 23

okay guys this is going to be the last chapter for this story but before you all hope I die a slow painful death there will be a sequel to this. I just thought it made more sense this way, this chapter is really painful and sad :( I may try and write as much of the sequel as I can before posting so I don't have to keep you waiting, I hope you enjoy this final chapter and thank you for reading this fic and for all the reviews, followers and the people who made this a favourite, I will be back real soon :) enjoy guys.

peeta's POV

I walked back to my dorm, god I am so stupid now I have probably lost Katniss forever, I thought that if I was honest with her she would know that she could trust me but how wrong was I. Oh why oh why did I kick off in the first place, of course Finnick flirted with her it is in his nature.

I didn't know what I was going to do, I needed to get her back and under a week we were going to the capitol when I know she will start interacting with other guys, so unless I pull my shit together I am fucked.

The next few days I continued with activities, I saw Katniss around and she wouldn't even look at me, Clove gave me evils, Madge just shhok her head and Glimmer was just the dumb ass blonde who kicked around with them, even Gale wouldn't talk to me. Thresh avoided every means possible to talk to me, Cato I am sure is trying to kill me. The only person who is really talking to me is Finnick but he thinks I am just a dumb shit who deserves everything he gets.

"so ... Mellark have you decided what you are going to do yet about Katniss?" Finnick asked

"no idea, I think I have totally fucked things up, besides she deserves better than me, come on things will never be the same now, the trust is gone and my life is over" I replied as I kicked a big stone, the pain going through my foot was unbearable

"FUCKING HELL" I cursed as I jumped up and down in pain, Finnick shook his head and put his arm around my waist supporting me to the Doctors cabin.

Portia saw to my injury, luckily I only badly bruised my toes, "how is that lovely girlfriend of yours? I heard she was back doing her archery again" Portia replied, my heart rip in two, "we erm... we broke up" I replied trying not to cry, she looked at me sympathetic "oh I am sorry to hear that dear, how could she do that too you, you stayed beside her that whole time, let me guess she doesn't remember how much she loves you" Portia asked, I shook my head, "no she knows just I went and fucked stuff up being jealous and then almost cheating on her, so its me who should be to blame not her" I replied.

I jumped up off the hospital bed and put weight on my foot, I winched, "oh you will need to use crutches until the pain goes away, I will give you pain killers but you just need to stay off your feet for a day or two and the pain should shift and you will be able to join back in again, and also if this is the last time I see you, which hopefully it will because I hope nothing else happens to you in the mean time, I hope you sort things out with Katniss and hope you enjoy your time in the capitol, good luck Peeta Mellark and Finnick odiar" Portia said as she made her way out of the room.

"Man these people are weird here" Finnick replied, "your telling me, god more time I can't do activities, man this summer is going to the dogs, maybe I should just go home because I can't stand it here anymore, seeing her everyday and remembering my stupid mistakes" I moaned

"Peeta, that is what they were Mistakes, people make mistakes all the time, I have made a lot of mistakes and I am sure Katniss has as well and probably everyone in this camp as well, but sometimes things can be put right, best thing to do is give katniss some time, running back to her begging her to take you back will just annoy her and you will probably loose her forever but if you let her come back in her own time ...

"last time you gave me advice it made things twice as worse" I said cutting in

"well yeah but at least it shows her that you will always be honest with her, she is just upset and angry right now, give her time to digest the information and I don't know maybe in a few days or a week or so she will be willing to talk for now just let the dust settle, okay" he explained to me, I nodded.

On the way back I hobbled along on my crutches, Katniss and Madge approached us, "hey undersea, Everdeen" he said, "oh shut up Finnick, oh what's the cheater done, did Delly break his leg or something" Katniss spit at him, she looked at me with envy and hate but also hurt and sadness, "no he took his anger out on this poor rock, the rock didn't do anything to him but that poor rock got it" Finnick said, " your not funny Finnick, seriously, just to let you know the whole thing is round the diner hall, Delly is bragging about pulling you so you may as well go to her and make her day since you are a free agent now" Katniss said sarcastic her voice breaking as if trying to fight back the tears.

"Katniss I don't want anyone else but you, I love you and never Delly, she was just a silly mistake, I never even slept with her, please just give us another chance, I promise I will never doubt you again" I begged her, Finnick nudged me, "Peeta walk away now, don't make things worse" he suggested to me.

"Peeta were over okay, I... I can't trust you, it was a summer loving at camp HG but now it's over okay, just please stop bugging me and leave me alone, okay get with Delly or find happiness with somebody else but me and you no chance" Katniss replied

I could feel the lump in my throat, the tears welling in my eyes, I couldn't believe all these words she was saying, I loved her so much, no this couldn't be it, it couldn't be, she is my one true love, my one and only, the girl I wanted to be with for life. The first time I saw her years back I knew I was a goner, and seeing her when we arrived here I knew my life finally had a meaning, our first kiss, everything replayed in my head. Now I was looking on to a broken Katniss, my Katniss and this was all my doing.

"Katniss ..." I pleaded my voice breaking

"goodbye Peeta" she replied, turning around quickly her voice breaking

"Katniss ... Katniss Please ... Katniss" I pleaded back, now the tears were streaming down my face

"Peeta just walk away, Finnick take him back to your dorm, he is a mess" Madge said, Finnick grabbed my arm "come on mate" he said to me

"No, Katniss I love you, I love you more than life itself, marry me please" I blurted out, oh shit now I have just asked the most important question in my life at the wrong time, Katniss turned around her mouth wide open

"you are some piece of work you know that, oh my god, seriously Peeta fuck off" she replied as she turned back around and walked off, I felt so angry with myself, I turned to finnick who was shaking his head, "Peeta why, oh why did you just say all that stuff,you may of fucked up altogether now, oh dear lord" he replied to me, as he walked off.

Katniss's POV

"oh my god so he asked her to marry him" I heard Clove ask Madge, "yeah, he was like all crazy and that, he cheats on her then expects her to say yes, the boy has issues, I can't believe he would do this, he never used to be like this" Madge replied, I just laid on my bed wishing that I could just go home but then if I did I would only have to face my fuck up of a mother, next week we would be in the capitol, everyone was so excited but when they have just been betrayed by somebody who you knew was your true love it kind of didn't seem fun any more.

I kind of pretty much blocked the whole world from my room, I told the girls no hard feelings but to just leave me alone for a while, I stared at my phone, with Peeta's name selected, call him? text him? delete his number? parts of my brain were telling me to do at least one of these things.

I selected his number and saw the words do you want to delete this number? yes/no, my finger hoovered over the enter button where yes was highlighted, do it Katniss do it, but part of me said don't do it, don't forget him, you don't want to forget.

"hey Katniss, are you okay in there?" Madge shouted at me from behind my bed curtain

"yes, I am still alive if that's what you are worried about" I replied to her, I heard her chuckle, "can I come in, I give the best hugs you know and I think you could use one right now" She replied to me, I moved the curtain and she came and laid next to me, I looked at her

"Katniss, are you sure you are okay" she asked me, suddenly I couldn't hold it in any more, the tears all the emotion just came away from me

"I still love him Madge, I can't forget" I said as I sopped on her shoulder, she hugged me and rubbed my back, "it's okay hun, we are all here for you, it will get easier" Madge replied, soon I had Glimmer and Clove hugging me, "we will always be here for you, no matter what" Clove said, "yeah, we don't need men in our life's, well not all of us anyway" Glimmer said.

I had the best room mates and friends in the world, I had the perfect little sister and I thought I had the perfect boyfriend, maybe I did or maybe I could still have that, only time will tell.

"Hey how about when we get to the Capitol we all have a girls night out" I asked

"yeah" the others said together excitedly.

Peeta's POV

I sat outside on the step, I couldn't face going in to face anybody, Gale hated my guts and even Thresh did, he though Katniss was a ray of sunshine and that I am a tramp for hurting her, Finnick well he just thought i was a mad crazy fuck who needed to sort my shit out

"you can't stay out here all night Mellark, yeah you may of fucked things up with Katniss but life goes on" Finnick said

"thanks for reminding me you douche but life is over for me, you don't realise how long I have loved Katniss, I been staring at her number for the past god knows how long but I don't know what to say to her, is there such a thing as turning back the clock and changing the past" I asked.

He came and sat next to me, "if there was I would do it a lot, believe me I have broke a lot of hearts in the past, but it heals and you and katniss had something that i have never seen before, your love for each other in such a short length of time was amazing, just give it sometime, only time will tell mate" Finnick replied as he winked at me and made his way back in.

I looked up at the stars, suddenly I felt a tiny bit of hope, the only thing stronger than fear.

And there it is, it was so horrible to write but I guess it's not all rainbows and smiles, I have not thought of a title for the sequel yet but I am working on it, besides you will soon know when I post it ;) I know in this one it didn't include much of the activities side but it wasn't as easy as I though, again thank you for reading and now I am off to start on the sequel :)