Hello all, I told you I would get out the chapter on Thursday. From the reviews that I have read, I should be right and think you guys like. To be honest I was a little worried about putting it up, but I guess it was a good call. So next the shout outs Thanks for reviewing Samayori, Tsuki Aizawa, 918lucy, and Sara. Now I think I've covered everything that needs addressing. Oh the song is Fallen by Sarah McLachlan. Now to disclaim and present the chapter.
DISCLAIMER I DO NOT MAKE MONEY FOR DOING THIS I ALSO
Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear.
I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Takano lifted his arms above his head to help with air flow. He had run from the publishing company to the station. Unable to control himself, the worry he had increased when Yokozawa had told him. He knew that he had to get to Ritsu and fast. Calling Ritsu's phone he got three rings and then the line went dead. Ritsu had ignored his call!
Alarm bells began to go off. Onodera hardly ever ignored a call during working hours, he had seen it for himself. He wanted to at least be moving but the train was running late, by three minutes. Time was essential and he wanted as much as possible.
He called his beloved's phone again, this time it went to an answering machine. Knowing that leaving a message would be pointless. He hung up he cell, looking at it like this situation was entirely its fault. Several other passengers shot concerned looks at him, he couldn't bring himself to care.
Then he heard the familiar screeching of the train as it slowed down enough to stop. It was four minutes late. He waited until the doors opened letting the other passengers get off then he briskly walked in taking the first open seat he saw. He looked at his phone one more time realizing it would be useless while they were in motion so he dropped it into his pocket moodily. The train lurched, he allowed a smile of relief as he knew that the train was bringing him closer to his love. There was an off chance that Ritsu went the complete opposite way than he was currently going. But he had faith that he would find Ritsu in his apartment.
'Ritsu, please be alright.' He thought.
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Yokozawa was looking at the past medical records. Normally it wasn't his job but he had persuaded the nurse and doctor to allow him access. All he had to say was he needed them otherwise a person might die.
He reached the folder he was looking for. The admittance to hospital area. He looked at the dates that was the first thing he checked, it was every year for the past ten years and always on this day. One of the peculiar things about the notes was it was always an accident.
Accident with scissors patient says he was only trying to remove a lose thread from clothing. Cutting the main vein.
Then the next year
Cooking accident, was cutting vegetables, was startled stabbing himself in stomach.
Yokozawa skipped a few years.
Examining gun, safety was off, was loaded.
Yokozawa wondered how they believed that one. The first two were clumsy enough and he knew that Ritsu was clumsy so it was believable. But accidentally shooting yourself with a loaded gun with no safety on? Why would you even point a gun to yourself in the first place?He also wondered how the hell the nurses hadn't noticed the dates. When he woke up this morning he definitely didn't think he would have to be looking through the medical files of his suicidal enemy in love. He had no idea on how to even approach the situation. He dug out his phone wondering briefly if Takano would answer.
He pressed down his thumb on Takano's speed dial.
There was a ring and then, "Hello?" Yokozawa filed away that Takano sounded tired.
"Hey, I found something out. Its not good news though." Yokozawa sighed.
"Spit it out. I just pulled into a station, so I don't have that much time." Takano snapped.
"Today is evidentially a trigger day. Oddly enough each time he tried it was put down as an accident." Yokozawa said.
"Good to know. I have about five more minutes on the train. Got to go." Takano hit the end call button.
Yokozawa was left standing there wondering if he was going to accept Onodera now, he shrugged and walked off, he had work to do.
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Ritsu was laying on the floor, sometime ago losing the will to move, even though he knew he could.
He briefly wondered if it would actually happen this time. He stared blankly at the wall.
He spasmed and was hit with a wave of pain when it was all over with. He gritted his teeth, not really caring. He hated the waiting, because some one could come in at the last minute and save your life. Someone like Takano.
Why in hell was he thinking about him? He was the source of the entire thing. This last year with Takano pining for him was the worse year yet. He several times found him making a relatively shallow cut, bandgeing it, and then acting like it never happened.
He couldn't control his thought process. They focused on one thing and that was Takano, or as he knew him Saga-senpai.
He remembered the little chill he got whenever the touched or kissed. His most favorite memory had to be the one that was of him and Saga-senpai making love for the first time.
They had only been making out on Senpai's bed but Takano had lost coherent thought a while back. He pushed Ritsu onto the bed and began to slowly, painfully, began to unbutton his shirt. Once his chest was bare Takano kissed right above his navel. Ritsu wimpered slightly as Saga-senpai had move to his belt line. Automatically his hand shot out to stop him.
Saga-senpai looked at him with his honey colored eyes darkened by lust and in two husky sounded words "Trust me." Ritsu was his, body and soul. Knowing now that he truly loved the man that was in front of him. He had no idea what he was doing but he let Senpai help guide him. He lost all ability to think when Saga had entered him. He let out a moan in pleasure.
There was a banging on the door, and Ritsu was annoyed at the interruption. He knew somebody would disturb him. He felt himself getting sleepier. Unable to actually care, he knew that there was only a few minutes between now and when he was over the edge and a place of no return. He knew the only way he would survive is if someone would keep him from slipping into the wakeless sleep.
"Ritsu open up now!"
Ritsu had a moment of 'Speak of the devil and he shall appear. But it certainly got his attention. Moments later there was a loud BANG as the door flew open. So much for it being locked. He heard the pounding of feet entering his apartment.
"Ritsu!" Came the voice. Even in his delirious state he knew the man that the voice belonged to.
Moments later the bathroom door came flying open and behind it was a very worn out looking man. Normally tame hair mess and eyes having rather large bags under. He was panting heavily and his mouth was open in mid yell. He was frozen staring at the sight in front of him.
It was a funny looking scene , but then again it wasn't. Takano slammed to his knees in front of Ritsu. Whose head happened to be closer to the door, having collapsed that direction after he spent all of energy vomiting.
Carefully Takano slid the limp man into his lap. Cradling him awkwardly as tried to figure out what to do. Deciding on a course of action he picked up the smaller man in his arms bridal style and stood up. Ritsu mumbled a weak protest.
Takano had heard it and gave the man in his arms a look. He was scared. Not that he would show it right now his main goal was to get Ritsu to his car and to the nearest hospital. There was a fleeting thought that crossed his mind. If he even lasts long enough to make it to the car.
Takano growled at himself for even thinking that thought. Ritsu seemed to startle at the sudden noise. Looking up at him with unfocused eyes. He managed a look of confusion but not even the slightest tinge of red.
He sped up his pace. He tried something he saw in a tv show or read in a book. "What the hell were you thinking doing something like this?" He asked harshly.
Ritsu blinked slightly. "Huh? I was doin' it cause ya laughed a' me." He slurred.
"That was ten years ago!"
Ritsu's blinks keep getting slower and longer.
"Don't go to sleep!" He yelled.
"Bu' I wanna. M' tired." Ritsu complained.
"Talk to me!" Takano pleaded.
"'bout wha'?"
"Anything!" Please. He didn't add that last part.
"Ya know sumthin. After ya laughed tha day, I went home an tried to kill m'self I couldn't help it." Ritsu took a breath. "It really hurt me. Then you didn't even come to the hospital."
"I had no idea." Takano said quietly.
"You could've asked."I was mad that you missed the date." Takano admitted. Feeling awful that he knew now that he was the cause of the attempted suicides. "Why didn't you tell me when you saw me again?"
"Didn't want your pity." Ritsu said it so confidentally Takano's step faltered. Jarring Ritsu causing him pain.
Ritsu' s head was spinning. He was seeing double and his vision was blurred. He wondered why he had spilt his guts to the man carrying him. Was it because of the fear that was present in those apathetic eyes? Or was it because he stopped denying himself.
He felt a breeze rustle his hair alerting him that they were in the parking garage. Takano was taking him to the hospital! He squirmed feebly making his vision even more blurred. Takano tightened his grip slightly. The car must be near because the length of his pace had increased and he was staring straight ahead.
They stopped suddenly and Ritsu heard the popping of the door as it opened. He was set in the passenger seat carefully. The door slammed shut and in the thirty seconds it took Takano to walk around the car and get in. Ritsu's eyes had closed. His breathing was getting irregular and his checks began to redden.
Takano saw that Ritsu no longer had any fight in him. Taking one good look at his love he turned the car on and hit the gas. The car spun out and began head towards the street.
Takano spared a glance and saw that Ritsu checks were redder and his breathing was fast in shallow. He flew onto the street and head towards the hospital.
Ritsu, don't die! Was all he managed to think.
There you all have it the third chapter in the story. Phew, I told you all I said Thursday and I delivered. My fingers are cramping now. So leave your feedback and later!~IF