Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note. Read and review, and there is a warning of possible OOCness and fluffiness!
L stood in the thunderstorm, singing softly to himself. Light, his lover, had just outwardly admitted to being Kira, before L had done his best to run - Have you seen the clip of him running on Youtube? You should. It's so adorable. - away, but Light , being the lucky one who was athletic, caught up and stopped him, saying how much he loved L, and how he wanted nothing more than to take it all back, but L wasn't listening.
Not for the first time in his life, L put his face up to the sky and allowed unshed tears to glide smoothly down his face. His beautiful, god - like face. (A/N: I'll write the Japanese, then put the English translation in the end disclaimer. Yes, I know, this song is the 9th ending of Naruto. The song L sings is called 'Nakushita Kotoba' by No Regret Life.)
"Kono ryoute ni karate iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto rigirisheriete wasureta kioku nakushita Kotoba.
Hitotsu, hitotsu, omoidaseba subete wakatte ita ki ha shite ita no ni.
Iroseta Kotoba wa baku no sugu soba ni oite atta.
Kotae no denai yoru to hitohira no nuke main to haruka kanata no akogare to…"
Light was shocked. L's voice was just angelic, and the cracks of emotion in his voice made it even more so. Refusing to get lost in his thoughts, he listened to L's absentminded singing, and Light was sure that L had forgotten where he was, and that he was, in face, standing in the middle of a thunderstorm.
"Tada sore dake wo kurikaeshi boku wa ikite iru
Kono ryoute ni karate iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto rigirishmete wasureta kioku Nakushita Kotoba
Anata ga omou hote wo sameru koto naku temoto ni tsukamitai no ri.
Hito doni bakutachi wo somo kimochi wo wakachi aenai mama Kotoba ga horiatsu imi wo tatoe no nai
Omoi wo kotare koto no nai kanjou wo…"
"Oh, L…" Light breathed. Never before had he seen L so vulnerable - no, scrap that… voluntarily vulnerable.
It rained harder, and L started shivering, so Light removed his coat and moved behind L, draping it delicately over his shoulders. L huddled into the warmth, so Light moved again and placed his arms around L's thin waist, noticing as he looked down to do so that L had no shoes or socks on, only a really thin skin tight white shirt and faded denim jeans.
If at all possible, Light got even closer to L's body, unzipping his hoodie and wrapping it around L, so that it stretched around Light and L.
L brought a thumb up to his lips and sang, and it came out slightly muffled.
"Mitsumeaba tsutawaru hoto ga dekit ara ii no ne ni.
Kono ryoute ni karate iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto rigirishmete wasureta kioku nakushita Kotoba.
Kono omiou wa mune ni shiruatta okou.
Nakushite shimatta."
L drew in a shuddering breath, and turned away from Light, releasing the hoodie's hold and Light's grip. L's eyes were red and puffy around the rims, making him look like an adorable panda.
"Why?"
That single word was so filled with emotion, Light actually swore that it cracked into two. For once, Light's brain couldn't come up with a suitable answer. 'I was bored.' would anger L, and any other answer wouldn't satisfy L's obvious curiosity.
"I trusted you, Light! I gave my everything to you, and what do you do? Lie to me for two years about your secret life! This is exactly the kind of thing I try to avoid, why I never let myself get too close to anyone or anything. Who did I fall for? Light Yagami, or Kira? Tell me, Light. I deserve that much!"
Light was blown away by L's sudden outburst.
"Me. Light Yagami."
L's eyes were cold and guarded as he met Light's gaze. "Did I? Did I really?"
Light could do nothing but nod as he watched L do his hunched - over walk back into the NPA building. Light sunk to the cold, wet ground, thunder drowning out his pained sobs of desperation.
Disclaimer: It isn't quite the end of the story, just think of this as an interval, or something.
English translation:
I'm holding a drop of time in my hands.
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words.
When I recalled each event one by one, I thought I understood everything.
But the faded words were right by my side.
Nights when I can't find an answer, and a single drop of warmth.
And my longing is something far, far away.
I'm spending my whole life just repeating those things over and over.
I'm holding drops of time in my hands.
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words.
I want to grab all the things you love in my hand, never letting them cool down.
While we, as people, are unable to share that feeling.
The meaning your words release, an unquestionable love, a feeling that has no answers.
If only we convey all that just by looking at each other.
I'm holding drops of time in my hands.
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words.
I'll keep this love in my heart….
I've lost you.
Now, we go back to the story.
Later, L contemplated one Yagami Light. He felt disgusted with himself for opening up to a mass - murderer. Looking in the small mirror opposite his bed, he felt physically sick. Calmly picking up a glass of water, he took a small sip, and the his face contorted in mental agony. Launching the glass of water at the mirror, L broke down into heart broken sobs, wishing he could've done everything he could - more than he had already done - to stop Light before he lost Light Yagami to his eternal enemy.
Outside, in the thunderstorm, Light lay back on the ground, letting the rain soak him through. Inwardly, Light cried. But on the outside, Kira smiled.
It was always about Kira.
Kira.
Kira.
Kira.