Author's Note: Thanks everyone for the reviews. I enjoyed reading all the reactions. I had two different ideas for this chapter and wrote the kiss two different ways, with two different people before i finally decided to just write it the way I envisioned it. Please keep an open mind when you read. Also it's a really short chapter, but I didn't want to keep you all waiting too long.
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Chapter 9: What a night
I tangled my hands into her hair and basked in that familiar perfume that I loved the most. Her lips were so soft and danced with mine in perfect sync as if we've been doing this for years. My heart was beating insanely fast and I was sure that I'd probably fall over any minute, but I didn't want to end the kiss. My body wanted more; I wanted more. She deepened the kiss and soon our tongues battled for dominance. Her fingers were tracing patterns on my jaw as she slowed the kiss down and pulled away slowly. My lips suddenly felt cold, but I tried to ignore the urge to kiss her again and focus on breathing properly.
"Happy New Year Britt" whispered San in between breaths. Even with my eyes closed I knew it was her. Her scent, her lips, the feel of her body pressed against mine was permanently engraved in my mind; I could recognize it anywhere.
"Happy is definitely an understatement." I breathed out before we both laughed. "Happy New Year San!" It was an amazing feeling to just be in her arms again, in public. Then it hit me crashing the dazed feeling that I was experiencing. I looked away from her eyes briefly and noticed the stares. San; however, didn't seem fazed, then again she was staring at my lips, whilst licking her own. Before she could get carried away again, I opened my mouth to stop her, but was met with her soft lips again. This time she deepened the kiss quickly and every coherent thought left my mind except San and how she was making me feel. I've kissed many people and have never felt the emotions that her kiss was making me feel.
"Get it Sis" yelled Carla extremely loud causing me to laugh into the kiss. It was enough for San to pull back. For a moment I was worried that she would run or that she kissed me on impulse, but then I noticed the smile on her face seemed permanent.
"Always the charmer Carls" said San as she turned away from me to look at my sister.
"Oh you know me Santana." She said with a smirk before a genuine smile appeared on her face, "Oh come here you two!" she said pulling San and I into a group hug. I was too happy to care that she was messing up my hair or that I couldn't really breath. "I'm so happy for you two. What took you so long?" she asked. When she pulled away she fixed her hair and laughed, "What is wrong with these two?" she asked gesturing to the surprised look on Blaine and Tina's face.
"Are you guys oka-"
"How did I not know about this?" asked Tina cutting me off.
"I knew it! To think I thought my gaydar was way off!" said Blaine snapping out of his daze. "I knew it!"
"Shut up Blaine" laughed Tina, "Well it will definitely take some getting used to, but yay! I'm glad you guys found each other!" she hugged both of us, "Happy New Year!"
"Yeah what she said" He laughed hugging us.
"I guess I should say finally" said Rachel. She was standing behind Blaine and Tina shaking her head at us. "it only took how many months!" She laughed.
"There you are!" I yelled finally seeing Rachel for the first time tonight. "Come here!" I yelled pulling her to me. "Happy new year!" Rachel had been such a great friend to me this year, even with all her flaws, I wouldn't change her.
"Someone's happy at least" said Rachel with a bright smile, "but you might have some explaining to do." She whispered earning a confused look from me. She gestured to the entrance of the club where a figure stood against the wall staring in our direction. Our eyes met and she gave me a soft smile that looked more like a grimace before she left.
"Jen," I mumbled. Of course I had forgotten about her.
"Yep, there goes my ride," said a wistful Rachel, "Don't worry, she'll come around." I nodded wondering how awkward dance rehearsals will be from now on.
Arms encircled around my waist pulling me to her and immediately I pushed my worries aside. Suddenly it hit me, I was finally with my best friend, cuddling in public; happy. It all seemed surreal. Instead of pinching myself, I turned around and was met with her chocolate brown eyes. She was smiling at me. I wonder what changed her mind. I shrugged and instead vowed to enjoy the night.
The night went on with lots of dancing, drinking, and plenty of kisses in between until Blaine and Tina were saying their goodbyes. Rachel pulled San and I to the side so we could say Happy New Year to Quinn.
"Well since my ride left, i'll catch a cab with those two drunks." laughed Rachel. I guess all the drinks Quinn's given Rachel this past semester has helped build her tolerance because she was somehow standing straight.
"Wait Jen left?" asked San confused.
"Well yeah. I mean with your whole display did you really expect her to stay? Especially after-" said Rachel as she gave San an unreadable look. What was I missing? "Never mind" she said.
"Okay what exactly am I missing?" I asked. Since when do those two share secrets?
"N-nothing Britt," said San as she avoided my eyes.
"Just tell her," said Rachel earning a glare from San, "I mean it is pretty funny now that I think of it." laughed Rachel, "Uhh...i'm going to get going. Happy New Year!" She was gone leaving us alone.
"Okay now you have to tell me," I said.
"Britt" she whined, "Don't make me." she said grabbing my hand. She looked so cute and her pout was not helping the situation.
"Fine, but can you at least tell me what changed your mind?" I asked gently. The question had been burning my mind since San kissed me at midnight in front of my sister and some of our friends. She looked at me closely before grabbing my hand and leading us to an unoccupied booth.
"I sort of had been planning this." she admitted, "After the party, I was drunk, but I remembered almost everything I said to you. I-I didn't know how to fix this. When I saw Jen with you at the movies I realized I needed to fix this quickly, so I-umm...well I spoke to Rachel." My eyes widened, "She had been pushing me to sing to you partly because she wanted to hear my singing voice." She giggled before turning serious again, "I realized that I needed to show you that i'm ready. I've been ready since karaoke night. I know that this- you're who I want to be with and i'm done running. I wasn't angry earlier, I was just thinking of how I would go through with the plan. When we saw Jen making her way to you, something in me snapped. I realized it had to be now and that I had to show you now before I lost you." she admitted. I grabbed her hand and took in her words.
"San you hadn't lost me. Honestly you weren't even close to losing me." I told her.
Then it hit me; the collision.
"Wait...so when you kissed me, I had collided with someone," I stated, "Was that... you?" she looked away guiltily. "San..."
"Actually it was Rachel. A very panicked Rachel" she laughed, "Who knows what she would have done if I hadn't reached you in time." She had a mischievous glint in her eyes.
"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.
San only smiled, "It's not like you would have had to kiss her back or anything," she laughed. San's smile only grew wider.
"Wait...What? I almost had to kiss Rachel?" My eyes widened. The thought of kissing her was killing my mood. I shook my head wondering exactly how my night would have turned out it Rachel had been the one to kiss me instead of San.
"Try not to think about it," I nodded and promised myself that i'd speak to Jen in school, right now I just wanted to enjoy every moment with San. "We should get going" she said. I looked around and realized that all our friends were already gone and the bar was slowly emptying.
The ride to my house was quiet, yet relaxing. We cuddled together in the back of the cab, holding hands, and enjoying each other's warmth.
"Goodnight San, let me know when you get home okay," I told her as I moved to open the cab door. I still wasn't sure about how she felt about public displays especially this close to my house. Who knows if the cab driver is someone we know. San made such a huge step today and I wasn't sure if I should push her. Just as I went to open the door, she grabbed my other hand gesturing for me to turn around. Her face was barely inches from mine and soon her lips were on mine. It was a soft kiss, that meant so much; almost like a promise.
"I'll call you as soon as i'm home." she promised. It was nights like these that I wished we were back in college, in the privacy of our own dorm.
"You better, goodnight San" I repeated as I opened the door and walked up to my house. I felt like I was walking on clouds, my smile wouldn't disappear and I wondered how i'd ever fall asleep. My house was quiet, it reminded me of when I was a child. We would go to church for New Years to celebrate. Sometimes San was able to come, but when she wasn't I would be on the phone with her almost half the night, until my mom would force me to mingle. Back then life was easier, I didn't realize that I had strong feelings for my best friend and I definitely didn't realize that I was attracted to both women and men. I was able to celebrate the New Year oblivious to anything other than the fact that i'd have to write the year differently on my homework assignments. I never thought of the New Year as a way to celebrate your life changing. My phone buzzed and I excitedly ran to my bed to read the incoming text.
Hey Britt, I just got home. Can I call now or are you still changing? I re-read the text and smiled before replying. This was definitely the most life changing New Years i've ever experienced. Tomorrow we'll figure everything out, for tonight I just want to enjoy the possibilities that this New Year has to offer.
Author's Note: There were many different ways that I thought about ending this chapter, but honestly after watching Glee last night, I figured Brittana needed to happen at least here; at least give them one victory even if it is not on the show. I wrote two versions of the kiss, as some of you may have noticed I described Jen as being Brittany's height on purpose to give a hint. I kind of thought the idea of Rachel kissing Brittany as funny, so I wrote that scene out to see how it would play out. If you really want me to, I could post it for next chapter just for laughs. Let me know! Also thanks for the many reviews they were fun to read!