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Chapter 10: Reality kicks in

"Brittany!" Yelled mom. I had just gotten dressed and was in the middle of combing my blonde hair, but she kept calling me. "Hmm I should cut my hair" I told myself as I stared at my hair. It had gotten longer in the last few months and was almost down to my butt. "Brittany!" yelled my mom again.

"I'm coming" I snapped back before I put my brush down. Just as I was about to turn around my door opened and then shut, "what is it mom? I said I was coming."

"You were taking too long," quipped a raspy voice.

"San!" I squealed as I turned around and made contact with her smiling face and chocolate eyes. Before she could respond I flung myself at her. Lucky for us she was used to my strong hugs and managed to hold us in place. I pulled back slightly and placed my lips onto her soft ones.

"Mmm I could definitely get used to this greeting." She said with a large smile on her face.

"Good because that's my favorite way to greet you." I replied kissing her softly again, "so not that I don't love your visits, but I was not expecting you at-" I glanced at the clock, "10 in the morning on the day of the new year" I laughed.

"We'll after getting about no sleep, I had the brilliant idea of just coming over and seeing the beautiful face I've been thinking about all night." I gulped at her and looked away at the closed door making sure it was still closed before I captured her lips again for a longer kiss.

"Well I'm glad you came over." I whispered against her lips. "So what do you want to do?" I asked moving out of her embrace.

"I honestly didn't think of anything. As long as its with you then I'm happy." She replied. How did I not know how charming San could be? I am loving this new side of her.

"Okay. I could use some coffee." I said thinking about the Caramel Macchiato that should be in my hands right now.

"Coffee addict" she teased.

"Hey! You of all people should know that coffee is what keeps me civil. So if you want your girlfriend to be civil than you should definitely invest in a Starbucks rewards card. " I joked before realizing what I said. Thank god my voice wasn't too loud or that my parents were both downstairs. I looked away quickly and went back to the dresser to find some socks. Her soft hand touched mine and I turned around hesitantly hoping I didnt make everything awkward. I have no idea what we are and I'm fine waiting to figure it out, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm unsure of the boundaries. Santana can be an open book at times, but when it comes to her intimate feelings, it's like trying to translate Dutch.

"Britt..." Whispered San. Her lips pressed against mine again and she pulled me closer to her body, "I actually was going to ask you later, but will you- uhh- will you be my girlfriend?" My heart fluttered and my smile widened.

"Took you long enough" I teased before capturing her lips.

"I guess we should talk." She sighed when we broke apart.

"Not here," I said gesturing the the door, "not when my parents are downstairs." I said, "let go get some coffee and chat there" she nodded and took my hand.

"Works for me. lets go"

"Mmm" I moaned as I sipped on my caramel macchiato.

"You are such an addict"

"Mhm and you love it" I laughed, "you know you want some" I teased holding the coffee in front of her face.

She laughed and took the coffee from me, sipping on it. It warmed my heart to see her doing something as small as sharing my coffee. its amazing how beautiful she looked. her dark hair was in waves and I was so tempted to run my hands through it.

"So..." She started.

"So..." I replied as I took the coffee back from her. San opened her mouth, but no words came out, "San, did you mean everything you said yesterday?" I asked.

"Of course Britt." She said, "I- I want to be with you officially. I'm not ready for my family to know, but I don't want to hide you either. I know that this is why we didn't work but I promise I will tell people. Please don't be mad" said San quickly.

"San it's okay. Honestly I'm not ready to tell my parents... Well at least my mom. I might tell Rob though" i told her, "i believe you."

"Thanks Britt." She said. Her eyes were practically twinkling and her smile was wide. She reached out to grab my hand, but then stopped. "I just wish we were back at school."

"Why is that?" I asked.

"Because then I could kiss you without worrying that my parents will walk through that door" she said. "Lima is so tiny and everyone knows too much about each other. My pastor could easily walk through that door and I hate the fact that I care." She sighed deeply.

"San it's going to take a while to get used to it. We'll just see where this takes us okay?" I asked cautiously.

"yeah that works for me"

"Good because whatever this may be, I definitely want to see where it goes" I replied in all honesty. I couldn't keep the grin off my face as I finished my drink. "Is that a blush?" I asked laughing. San glared playfully at me.

"I don'ts blush" she said in a ghetto voice.

"Keep telling yourself that." she stuck her tongue at me.

My house was quiet when we arrived. It had already been a few hours that we spent walking around before the cold winter forced us to head to my home.

"Mom, Rob, Carla?" I called out. No one answered. "Hmm I guess no one's home" I shrugged heading to the kitchen. "You thirsty?" I asked as I grabbed a bottle of water. She took the bottle from me and followed me to my room. I closed the door as soon as she walked in and felt my heart flutter. Suddenly the fact that we were completely alone in my room became the only major thought in my head. Minor butterflies invaded my stomach and I did my best to wish them away. This was just Santana, my girlfriend. Oh my god she is really my girlfriend.

"Penny for your thoughts?" asked San, interrupting the overwhelming amount of thoughts in my head. She was standing right in front of me playing with a strand of my hair that escaped my ponytail. She was here, in my bedroom; all alone in an empty house. The idea was almost foreign to me. To think of all the times we had been alone and never did anything. All those wasted moments where we could have been making out or doing more.

I smiled at her, "Hmm my thoughts are definitely worth more than a penny" She laughed deeply just as I managed to kiss her. Her mouth was already open making it easier to deepen the kiss. My body was on fire, it felt like every kiss powered something in me that had never been used until San came along. I wanted more after every kiss; they were so addicting. My hands wrapped around her waist, pulling her closer to me. I didnt want there to be any space between us. Her hands tangled into my hair and started to caress my neck. Slowly our bodies moved in sync towards my bed. Little goosebumps started forming on my arms and suddenly my knees jolted causing me to fall onto my bed with San right on top. For a moment I opened my eyes and worried that Santana would run, but instead found our eyes locked in a warm battle. She smiled before leaning down and cradling her face into my neck. The feel of her on top of me was indescribable. It was a feeling that I knew would be imprinted in my head for a very long time.

"Mmm San" I groaned as her lips pressed soft kisses against my neck. My hands roamed the little bit of skin not covered by her shirt, drawing small circles on her waist. Her lips moved slowly from the crook of my neck, to my jawline until they were battling with my own in a heated kiss.

"Brit" yelled a voice. The door flew open and before anyone could react a startled voice said, "are you ho- well hello Santana"

"um Hey... Rob" replied a blushing Santana. "Well Britt-er I umm better get home."

"Wait San-" I said as she grabbed her jacket.

"ill call you later okay" she replied giving me one last look before she threw on her jacket and left. Before I had time to feel any type of way, my bed shifted. Rob sat at the very edge of the bed with a smirk on his face yet his body was tense.

"So... You and Santana?" He asked as I nodded, "I would have never guessed. Maybe 3 years ago, but not now." He laughed. I groaned and lay back onto my bed. "This should be more uncomfortable but I find it interesting. you're so closed up from the family; some may even consider you intimidating." I looked at him wondering what he was trying to say. I'm intimidating? How am I intimidating? "look I know we did not get along through most of high school. Your mom drove me crazy and I took it out on you. I'm... I'm so sorry if I made your life hell."

"Well it didn't make it any easier." I whispered remembering all the fights. All the times I came home from a great day only to have him yelling about how I was 10 minutes late and probably with a guy or the times when he would yell at me because I was studying instead of cleaning his bathroom. I tried so hard to forget the memories of feeling like a stranger in my own house, but he was not helping.

"I just wish I could have gotten to know you." he looked so sincere. Maybe it was time to let the past be just that; the past.

I stared at him and smiled, "you just want to know how long San and I have been together" I laughed as his grin grew wider.

"that too." He laughed, "Come on! How long?"

"Wait... You're really okay with this?" I asked. I had expected a long lecture about how immoral I was and how Santana was a bad influence on me.

"of course" he said, "I'm not that into the whole bible and church thing your moms into. How long have you and Santana-"

"You're worse than a girl" I teased before telling him my story. Who knows? Maybe I could finally have that father daughter friendship I always craved for as a child and maybe win one parent over. Lord knows I can never have this type of relationship with my biological father, so maybe Rob could take his place. Anyone who has the patience to deal with my mom, Carla, and me should be given the shot.

"Wow so all this time, you've had feelings for Santana." he said in wonder.

"yep"

"to think I thought you were just an angry teenager." he laughed, "so to be clear you didn't hate me?"

"of course not."

"Good. Well your mom and sister will be home soon. they went shopping, something about a 50% off sale at Forever 21." I laughed, thinking about my mom inside a modern clothing store. Carla was probably holding her hand, forcing her to endure the pain of shopping for "skanky" clothing as she called it. "You might want to give Santana a call- she seemed worried" he said as he left the room.

"I think I'm the one that should be worried" I sighed staring at my phone. I locked it and threw it to the farthest corner of the bed. I can't be the one to call, it has to be her. I need to know that she wants this as much i do. I rolled into my side and stared at the wall. Just 15 minutes ago I was making out with my girlfriend and now I'm wondering if rob scared her away.

"Britt" whined the voice of my sister.

"Carla?" I questioned, "why are you waking me? What time is it?"

"well dinner is in like an hour and your phones been going off non stop." She shrugged.

"crap" I groaned, what time is it?"

"almost 7"

"Great." I moaned, "mom must have had a field day."

"hmm well after she complained about ungrateful daughters that stay out all night and don't have the decency to pretend that they are not hungover- then she saw a fat lady in a skirt walking down the street and forgot."

"Ugh" i replied searching for my phone. I spotted it on the edge of the bed and stretched just enough to get it. i pushed the home button and my eyes nearly bugged out, "how did I not hear my phone. 4 missed calls and 10 texts"

"Jesus what San do?" asked Carla as she sat next to me.

"Rob caught us mid make out' I said closing my eyes as the memory replayed itself in my head.

"you're kidding" she laughed.

"Nope. She was on top and everything!"

"oh my god. What did he say?"

"He didn't care." I said with a huge smile.

"that's amazing" I nodded, "wait how did San take it?"

"thats the thing. I- I don't know. She sort of walked out. I haven't spoken to her. I fell asleep before she called."

"well what are you waiting for? Call her! You have 50 minutes before dinner." said Carla as she bolted out of the room.

With a sigh, i unlocked my phone and read over the messages.

5:45pm: Please call me back.

5:50pm: Hear me out.

6:00pm: baby just call me when you get this text.

There were many more just like that.

I smiled and hit the call back button.

"Hello" answered Santana within the first ring.

"I don't think you've ever answered the phone this quick" I laughed.

"Britt. Oh thank god" she said quickly.

"Hey San what's up?"

"Jesus Britt, don't what's up me! Britt I was worried. I called you like 5 times!"

"4 actually" I interrupted. I could practically hear her eyes rolling.

"I thought, I dont know I thought you were mad or that rob gave you a hard time" she answered, "I'm sorry I left. I freaked out and didnt want to see his reaction. I didn't want him to hate me."

"whoa San calm down" I replied. "He was okay with it"

"I can't calm down...really?" She breathed out.

"yes. He's actually happy for us."

There was a slight pause. "Britt I'm so sorry for not staying."

"it's okay San. I understand it was too much. He's my dad so I should deal with it."

"No, you didn't deserve to deal with that alone. Especially given the relationship you two share." she whispered.

"San this is all so new to both of us. I understand and I'm not mad at you. Plus he sort of apologized for being a jerk in the past."

"thanks Britt. That's...wow. I thought it would take him another 6 years to finally apologize for treating you like garbage." she said "so what did he say"

"Oh my god he's like a High school girl! You wouldn't believe what he said!" I laughed as I began the embarrassing story.

"finally! To think I thought you were going to sleep through dinner" said my mom annoyed.

"I've been awake for an hour" I sighed as I slid into my chair.

"you see this is why you shouldn't drink." she scolded passing me the spaghetti.

"mom this hand nothing to do with drinking. You saw me earlier I was awake and fine. i am just tired" I sighed.

"we'll so am I! You want to talk about tired. I work full time and I bake full time on the side." she argued.

" I know mom" I sighed knowing that I could not win this argument.

"don't show me attitude." She said angrily

"I'm not." I said.

"Girls!" Said rob, "it's dinner and for once we are all together. Lets have a nice conversation...please"

"okay" I grumbled.

There was silence for a few minutes until my mom put her fork down, "oh so you'll never guess who we saw today." said mom to Rob. "We saw William's son Edward. He was walking out of that Forever 21 store. He was holding hands with another boy; disgusting." She spat.

"Mom!" yelled Carla. Her hand found mine under the table.

"What? You know it's a sin!" Shrugged mom, "it's a nasty sin that the lord does not approve of." she said with disdain. "Frankly it is unnatural."

"Mom stop!" Said Carla angrily, "some of my closest friends are gay! So you're telling me I should treat them like they are gross and nasty people?"

"No honey god says to love them not the sin." she shrugged.

"Well what do you say?" asked Carla. At this point my appetite was completely gone.

Just as my mom was about to answer, I put my fork down, "I'm full" I said. The food felt like rocks going down my windpipe. "Thanks for dinner." I placed my plate in the sink and ran up the stairs to my room.

i plopped onto my bed and curled onto my pillow. Tears slid down my cheeks as my moms words played over in my mind. My door opened and soon hands played with my hair, soothing away all the stress.

"Britt it's okay." Said Carla, "mom loves you and will even if you are a lesbian."

"She thinks I'm nasty and disgusting!" I spit. "I'm bisexual, which she probably finds to be worse since I like both!" I cried out.

"She didn't say that" She replied softly.

"She may not have meant me, but it was implied" I said angrily. My head was starting to hurt, yet the only thoughts playing in my head were of the amazing girlfriend who should be here playing with my hair.

"It will be okay." she said gently. I turned to face her.

"Carls I'm giving up everything. I am giving up my religion, all my beliefs, and my mom for this. But it's worth it. I know it. She's worth it" I told myself more than Carla.

"I know she is" she replied.

"I hope it works out." I said as the tears kept falling.

"it will. Just give it a chance."

I nodded before letting my eyes close.

Author's Note: I am so sorry for the delay. Along with writers block, trying to balance working full time, school part time, and a girlfriend is pretty tough. Hopefully i'll have the next one up soon. Let me know what you think! :)