Memories always stay the same. Once something has happened you cannot forget it,you cannot erase it.
Memories are harmful. They can inflict more pain than a thousand needles... they can break a man and leave him crying over old yellow paper held tightly between his trembling fists.
Sixsmith,
I hope the events of last night will not change your opinion of me.
I know I have doubted you and have betrayed your trust but you know I love you. Damn me Sixsmith you know I do! You must know it!
I apologize if I disturbed you with my irrational behavior. I could see you trying to understand but losing yourself. I always thought my eyes seemed more alive when I cry... yesterday was the final proof.
You are my sanctuary Sixsmith,the one person I know will be there for me...always.
I can still feel your hands on my ribs and you cannot believe the desire that has taken over me even at the simple thought of you being here with me.
It had been ages since someone had just held me in their arms while I was naked,people usually...it is of no importance.
I could lose myself forever in one of your smiles,I could fade away while shaking in your arms,it scares me.
How many goodbyes can fit in a lifetime Sixsmith?
Aren't you tired of being left alone in a cold bed? Why do you still hold me when I break? Why do you put me together?
I never say goodbye and you always know where I went...
The favor will be repayed I promise. I wrote a piece for you,maybe I'll play it for you someday.
I hope you don't get too attached to me Sixsmith,I am more dangerous than you think.
Yours,
R.F.
Memories of that one night have faded away and the man still tries to keep them between the yellow pages.
He tries to keep the image of the naked thin,white body shaking in his arms always playing behind his eyelids. He tries because that frail porcelain boy was indeed dangerous. He tries because not even the tinniest momments are allowed to fade away. He tries because he still hasn't realised the game is over and the white king has fallen to never rise again.
Authors note: I know that Robert is totally oc and that this story is horrid but I need a way to distract myself or I'll fall apart.