Chapter 7

I bolted from the room, carrying the girl's limp body in my arms, venom tears filling my eyes and clouding my vision as I went. I finally burst through the doors to my room, laying her down on the bed, I brushed her hair from her face gently, her pale green eyes starred up at me. I leaned down to her neck and bit her injecting as much venom as I could. Maybe I hadn't drained all of her blood, maybe she could come back? She would like this life. She would get to live.

"Bella…" A soft voice said from behind me as the venom tears created a pathway down my cheeks. I grabbed her wrists, injecting venom into her quickly before moving to her sides, I tore away at the seams of her white blouse. Just as I was about to continue injecting the venom someone pulled me back.

"She's gone Bella." Alec whispered; I shook my head in response. No. He was wrong, I would save her. "Jane killed her Bella, not you." Alec turned me around to face him, still holding onto me. "You have to survive Bella; this is not your fault."

"But if I didn't need to feed she wouldn't have been here, Jane wouldn't have done it. Maybe she can be fixed. She still has blood in her." I pleaded with him. "Let me try." Alec shook his head at me.

"She's gone. She's not coming back; you need to understand that." Alec told me, I looked away from him to see Felix standing in the doorway, a look of sadness and pity on his face. He walked over to us and pulled me from Alec's arms and into his. I clung onto him as I started to sob.

"Shh… It's going to be fine, Bells." Felix cooed, stroking my hair.

"I killed her, I'm a monster." I muttered; Felix pulled away from me so he could look me in the eye.

"You are not a monster Bella." Felix said a stern tone in his voice. "You are far from a monster."

"Don't give her false hopes, Felix." I heard someone say. "She's a monster like the rest of us; the sooner she realises the better." Jane stated, a scowl etched into her childlike face. She was right though, I was a monster, and I would have to kill people to survive.

"Leave her alone, Jane." Alec growled while I let go of Felix. "This is your fault."

"Oh, please; she needed to feed." Jane laughed. "If anything I helped her."

"It was her choice; now get out." Alec growled, stepping toward his sister menacingly. Jane's eyes went wide.

"Is that a threat brother dearest?" Jane asked, innocently. Alec stood silently, unsure of what to do and that's when I realised this was the first time I'd ever seen or heard of someone standing up to Jane.

"Jane, Leave. This is not the time." Felix warned, standing in front of me.

"Why don't you let her speak for herself? Can't she defend herself?" Jane asked.

"I can defend myself." I said, quietly. I stepped out in front of the boys. "But that poor girl couldn't, no one has the right to take away someone's life. Not you, not anyone. You're an evil, evil girl who picks on other people to get her own way and I want you to leave my room." I hissed, angrily. I wouldn't have normally have got so angry but everything was heightened now, I needed to find a way to control my anger before I started something I couldn't finish.

When Jane didn't move, standing in front of me with a smirk on her face; I lost it. I growled, tackling her to floor, silently thanking Felix for teaching me. All of a sudden, Jane disappeared in a blur and smashed me into a wall, her hand around my throat, holding me in the air.

"Don't forget whose boss around here." Jane snarled at me before Alec pulled her off me and dragged Jane out the room. I sunk back to the floor in shock.

"Bella?" Felix said, stepping closer. "You okay? Ignore Jane she's-"

"She's right, Felix." I sighed. "I am a monster, there's nothing I can do about that." Felix nodded, not wanting to upset me any more by arguing.

"I'll take her to the morgue." Felix said, walking over to the girl and lifting her in his arms. "I'll be back in a bit Bella." He said, before disappearing out the door.

Once I was sure Felix couldn't hear me anymore, I sunk to my knee's; my head in my hands. "I don't want this anymore…" I whispered to myself. A tinkling laugh sounded then, I looked up. Heidi. "What do you want?"

Heidi smirked, "Hmm… That's a long list and on the top of that list is Felix." She said, lifting me up from the floor by my hair, I cringed in pain. "So here's what you're going do, you're going to stop hanging around Felix. His feeling for you are becoming somewhat of a problem for me, you see."

"Felix is my friend." I stated. "I'm not going to stop hanging out with him and he deserves a hell of a lot better than you."

Heidi tugged on my hair once again; I felt some of my hair rip from my head. "You make your choice, Alec or Felix because trust me, Alec will get bored with you very quickly when he realises what a mature woman can offer him." Heidi smirked, "And don't say you don't want Alec, I know you do. Why else would you have screamed for him in your dreams?"

"What are you talking about?" I demanded, confused.

"When you passed out; you screamed his name, for hours." Heidi said, "Felix will be so disappointed when he find out his little friendship with you is over," Heidi smirked, dropping me to the floor once again. "But I can think of ways to make him feel better."

"You're disgusting." I told her, "Is that all you think about? Using people to get what you want or who you want?"

Heidi laughed again; it was sharp sound, like glass breaking. "No, Sometimes I just enjoy making pathetic people like you miserable." Heidi said, giving a last kick in the ribs before moving toward the door. "I think it would be best to keep our little chat a secret, don't you Isabella? I wouldn't want to have to tell Caius what you and Alec were really doing in his room? I really wouldn't like to know what he would do to Alec if he knew." Heidi grinned at me. "I'll see you soon, Isabella. You'll remember to leave Felix alone, won't you?" With that she disappeared leaving me in a crumpled heap on the floor.

Heidi wanted Felix and she was willing to hurt me and Alec to get him. I hadn't realised until now how scared I was of Alec getting hurt. I didn't want Felix to be hurt either though; he was my best friend, my only friend. Somehow I couldn't bring myself to think of Alec as a friend, I thought of Alec as something different, something more. Not a brother or family or anything like that.

I gulped as I realised something Heidi had already realised. I was crushing on Alec, Stupid, pathetic, unlovable Bella Swan was crushing on Alec Volturi.

Authors note: Hey! Bella's finally realising she can get over Edward, so excited to hear what you think x

One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love.

Elizabeth Aston