Okay, so WARNING. This is not your usual happy little sex scene, okay. (First of all - it is freaking long), and second, remember that this is A KNOTTING universe. And that basically normal sex for alpha/omega couples is extreme sex for Betas Like You. So. Extreme sex. Some hurt/comfort. Awkward biological happenings. But NO g!p. Seriously. If you do not like to focus too deeply on explicit descriptions of your darling characters having sex, leave it alone and don't read it. If you have been waiting and waiting for this universe to pay off it's smutty promises, here you go.

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When Tori got home on Monday her house was in uproar. There were suitcases everywhere, and Trina was having a nervous breakdown in the kitchen.

"What?" Tori looked around, horrified. "What's going on?"

Her mom swooped by with a pile of underwear. "We're going out of town for a few days. Trina has an audition." Then she turned. "David!" she yelled. "Last chance to talk to your daughter!"

"What?"

Trina turned to glare at Tori. "Don't think I'm not grateful for the opportunity, little sis. But you had better open all the windows when you're done. Maybe I can't smell heat, but I can smell sweaty sex. And keep it to your room! No kitchen sex! And don't you dare go into mine!"

Tori still had no idea what was going on.

Her mom squeezed her arm. "The fridge is stocked. Energy drinks under the sink. Remember to stay hydrated. And avoid caffeine. It's better just to wear yourselves out and then sleep. You won't be as hungover afterwards."

David thundered down the stairs. "Tori!" He caught her up in a bear hug. "I'm so... so proud."

"What is going on!"

"Oh." Holly looked at her. "Jade's going into heat, so we're giving you the house. Honestly, you're both my little girls, and I don't need to hear that."

"We're both..." Tori wasn't sure what was more confusing. "You're giving us the house?" Then she frowned. "Why didn't I know? Why did all of you know? Why didn't she say something!"

Holly raised an eyebrow. "You haven't noticed anything?"

"I'm not that unobservant! She doesn't smell like heat yet! She just..." Tori frowned. She just smells aroused more frequently. Tori didn't say this. And she got me off in a movie theatre. Tori refrained from mentioning this either. And today at lunch with the gang she had sat in Tori's lap, completely unexpectedly, and stayed there until the food came. And she smelled... wonderful. "Oh," Tori said in a suddenly small voice. "She's going into heat. shit. She's going into heat."

"David," Holly instructed. "Your turn. I'll get the suitcases out to the car."

Tori had frozen in horror. Jade was going into heat.

Her dad led her to the couch and sat her down. Tori didn't really notice, she was too absorbed in the sudden panic that filled her mind. The other alphas talked about heat sex like it was the best thing ever, but they also kept mentioning how much work it was. It was three days of stamina. Some of the guys trained for it - like workout style training. Omegas were supposed to me the most demanding during it that they ever were. And they expressed their dissatisfaction. And it was Jade - who had gotten through her heats with Beck for years. And it was Tori, who had never had sex with anyone, and who was supremely disadvantaged in that she didn't have a knot.

Fuck!

"Tori. Tori! Breathe!"

Tori finally gulped in huge heaving breath and looked at her father. "What am I going to do?"

Her father hugged her. "Oh, baby girl. You're going to love your mate. You know that."

"But - but how?"

Her father raised an eyebrow. "With your body."

"That doesn't help!"

"So, you're saying that you've spent this whole month not doing anything?" He sounded incredulous.

"No!" Tori frowned. "I mean, we did some stuff. But it was... for me stuff. LIke, I got to..." Oh god. How much of this could she say to her father? "Nothing below the waist... on her."

David chuckled. "Look. I am going to give you one tip about heat-sex with omegas. It's not one most of the guys talk about, because they're mostly interesting in competing with each other - do they compare the number of times they knot their girls?"

Tori nodded. She thought the record was maybe fifteen times for one heat.

"That's about them, not about their omegas. After four times, or so, the omega gets so bruised and sore that even though they're still aroused, they can't really enjoy it. The trick to it is the slow build. Omegas want to get knotted, but they also want your attention, they want to feel safe and looked after. Just be together. Make love to her. And delay orgasm as long as you can, then, afterwards, when you're tied, talk to her, and keep her close. And even after you slip out, do the aftercare. Omegas - even the stubborn ones - like cuddling."

Tori liked cuddling too. But cuddling wasn't this issue here. "But, how am I supposed to knot her?"

David looked surprised. "Huh? I just figured you'd use your hands."

Tori looked down at her hands. "What?"

He put one of his next to hers. It was rather larger than hers. "Mine are a bit big. But you're just about optimal." Then he frowned and dug around in his pocket. "Here," he said, and handed Tori an eight ounce bottle of lube. "It's her first time getting knotted, right? This might come in handy."

Then he grinned at his incidental pun.

Tori couldn't stop looking at her hands, possibly even more horrified than she had been to start with. Holly leaned over the couch. "This is from me," she gave Tori a box.

"And this is from me," said Trina, grumpily. "Happy first heat orgy, or whatever."

Trina's gift was a scented candle. "It's the strongest smelling one I could find. Use it."

"Um, thanks."

Her mom's gift was a pack of silk scarves in a variety of colors. Tori stared at them, not entirely sure what they were for.

"Talk about that before you use them," her mom suggested. "Communication and consent are very important."

What? Tori stared at the scarves for a long time. Then suddenly it clicked. "Restraints? You got me restraints?"

This was possibly the most embarrassing day of her life so far. But she had a sudden inkling that tomorrow was going to be worse.

Her mother patted her shoulder. "Just... consider it."

"Oh my god," said Trina. "The candle is just to burn off the sex smell, okay? If you use it for kinky sensation play stuff, I'm never going to forgive you."

Tori very seriously considered seppuku. Her parents kissed her cheeks and then headed for the door. "Do try and keep a window open a crack," her mother said. "And the laundry's open if you need to do a few loads."

"Showers are fun, but if you're tired, run a bath," her dad suggested. "You can use the one in our bedroom. Less chance of injury."

"Oh god," Trina mumbled. "Can we leave now and stop talking about Tori's suddenly emergent sex life? Yes, yes, it's wonderful that you're like, coming of age, or whatever, but if I have to think about my sister's sex parts for another minute, I'm going to puke."

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Tori woke up the next morning, and got ready for school by herself. It was actually kind of depressing. The set of utterly humiliating gifts was on the coffee table still, and Tori tried not to look at them as she ate toast in the dim room. She got to school and hovered in sight of Jade's locker, hoping that she would show up. But the bell rang, and she hadn't yet, so Tori shuffled off to Sikowitz' class. Tori was twitchy, and a little upset. Cat was there, but where was Jade? She didn't like it when Jade disappeared. It had only ever meant bad things before. Beck was in class and she glared at him for a while, before he raised an inquiring eyebrow and she flushed. She had no reason to be pissed, just because he had... put his thing in her mate...

No. Tori hated him, and went back to glaring.

Then she started to smell it. It was familiar - and so, so much stronger than it had been last time - and last time it had made her knees collapse. Tori couldn't move. She couldn't breathe. If she looked over her shoulder she was pretty sure she would fall out of her chair. The door swung open and a stack of papers landed in Tori's lap. "Hey you," Jade murmured in her ear, and Tori got wet.

"Hey," she managed, automatically. Jade's eyes were bright and alive with amusement and interest, her lips quirked in a far too pleased with herself grin, and Tori couldn't help moving in to kiss her.

"AhhhhhHem!" Sikowitz announced. "Although I am entirely in favor of young love, I have tragically been forbidden by the school from encouraging nakedness in my class! So if you are planning on starting up the horizontal tango marathon today, you're excused."

Tori felt herself go red. Jade grabbed her arm. "Thanks, Sikowitz," she said and started tugging Tori toward the door. Tori made a desperate grab for the papers on her lap and her backpack and stumbled out after her. Cheering followed them.

"So, wait wait wait," Tori trailed after Jade down the hall. "You're in heat now?"

Jade raised an eyebrow. "You can't tell?"

"No! I mean, of course I can tell, now. But you didn't tell me. And we're missing school? And my parents took Trina out of town so we could have the house."

"Yeah," Jade said. "I talked to your mom."

"You didn't talk to ME!"

Jade blinked. She pointed at the papers. "That's your homework for the rest of the week. FYI, I'm in heat. I'm going to be fucking you for the next couple days. Enjoy."

She turned and headed for the parking lot.

"Jade!"

"God, Tori. If you're really that pissed about it, you can spank me when we get home. Okay?"

Tori froze and just gaped. Jade looked at her and started laughing. "God! Your face!" She leaned in and kissed Tori's cheek. "This is going to be fun."

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Jade - who had driven - strode into her house and immediately started unbuttoning her shirt. Tori, who had been left with both backpacks, entered the house to find Jade - all skin and lace - her shirt dropping to the floor, and dropped the bags, shut the door, and locked it. "What are you-"

"Baby," Jade said, shaking her head. "We are not going to read novels and eat pizza for the next three days. And you've seen me topless before."

"Yes, but-" But not when she smelled like this. Not when Tori felt jumpy and scattered and desperate and embarrassed all at the same time. Her underwear was already sticky and uncomfortable, and Jade was way too composed and gorgeous and Tori felt that she hadn't quite gotten the message through that she didn't know what she was doing.

Then she noticed that Jade was frowning. "Why is there a bottle of lube on your coffee table?"

Tori groaned. "My dad..."

Jade moved toward the selection. "And... oh man. Your family. I kind of love your family. She tugged a black scarf out of the pack. "Awesome." Dangling it from her hand, she sauntered over to Tori, who couldn't move.

"What are you-"

"You need to relax and trust me, okay?"

That was really asking a lot, especially since Jade merely moving closer to her made Tori's fingers tingle and her gut tighten. Jade leaned in and placed a soft wet kiss on her neck just below her jaw. Distracted, Tori reached out, putting hands to skin, and hardly noticed the silk brushing against her face as Jade wrapped the scarf over her eyes. She tied it. "You good?" Jade murmured.

Tori blinked. She could see a little - mostly light and dark. "Why?"

"To help you focus. There's too much input and you're freaking out." Jade took her wrists and moved Tori's hands to her hips. "Now follow me. You're going to get to know my body with your hands first. Then you can goggle at me naked."

"Oh, okay." That sounded... kind of amazing. Tori hooked her fingers into Jade's belt loops and let herself be led up the stairs into her room.

Jade stopped when they had crossed the threshold - it smelled slightly different in there, so Tori could tell - and Tori let her hands slide up to cup Jade's sides. She leaned into her back, nestling her nose in her neck, her face buried in her hair. "You smell wonderful," she murmured.

"And you totally jerked off last night," Jade replied. "I can smell it in your sheets."

"Hey!" Tori yelped. She took a step, her foot tangling in something on her floor, and she lost her balance. Jade gave her a shove and she went sprawling onto the bed. "Hey," she repeated, more weakly.

She felt a weight settle over her knees. Her hands were pinned, and Jade moved over her, blocking out what little light she could see. "You know, if Beck didn't change his sheets, that would have been a dealbreaker."

"Um, sorry?" This was why she would have liked a little lead time! So she could have freaked out in peace and then overprepared!

"Meh, it's kind of hot. Were you thinking about me?"

Tori was desperately grateful for the blindfold - because seeing the wryly inquiring eyebrow would have made her utterly unable to speak. "Yeah."

"What in particular?"

Oh god. It had been late, because she couldn't sleep, and the house was empty, and she had been freaking out about today, and there might have been a weird little fantasy that involved Jade in a low cut wench dress, being tied to a mast, and...

"Pirates?" she offered.

Jade's weight thudded down on top of her, and she laughed. "God you're weird."

"It's not my fault! I was talking to Cat, and-" Jade's hand pressed down firmly over her mouth.

"Shut up."

There was something unfair about this, Tori realized. Jade wasn't wearing a shirt, and she was on top of her, pressed right against her, and Tori's shirt was blocking any skin-on-skin contact. Tori slid her legs apart, then trapped Jade between her knees, and flipped her. There were some flailing elbows that she couldn't see, and one of them hit her in the face, but it was worth it. Jade was under her now, and Tori felt her way up her body to cup her face, then leaned down and kissed her. Jade opened under her. "Want to top me, baby?" she murmured. "Ready to tie me to the headboard and have your wicked way with me?"

"Um," said Tori. Carefully, she pulled off her shirt, not disturbing the blindfold, and felt Jade go still under her. "I want to touch you," she added. "Is that all right?"

"Yeah," Jade said, her voice rough. "Totally."

Tori lowered herself until they were skin on skin. She nuzzled into her neck, then kissed her way down to Jade's collarbone. She nipped at it lightly, and heard Jade suck in a harsh breath and arch under her. But she kept going, hands, lips and teeth, lingering on the tops of her breasts, burying her nose in her cleavage and breathing her in. A light kiss under the bottom strap of her bra. She ran her hands down her smooth sides, sucking on the skin just below Jade's bellybutton, and Jade's hips jerked up into her. "Tori! You're such a-"

Tori's hand found the button of Jade's jeans. "May I?"

"You don't want to watch?"

Tori swallowed and settled back to sit on her heels. Slowly she lifted the blindfold. Jade lay against her pillows, splayed against her sheets, face flushed, chest heaving, a glistening track of kisses and lovebites marking a snaking path over her pale skin. Tori dug her nails into her palms. She swallowed, shifting slightly, to try and grind herself against her heel.

Jade felt her moving. "No," she snapped, narrowing her eyes. "Me first."

The demand made Tori flood with arousal. "Okay."

She reached down and unfastened Jade's jeans, then slowly, carefully, worked them down her hips.

The scent was nearly overwhelming. Black lace stood out sharply against the pale skin. Jade's cool blue-green eyes watched her intently. Tori swallowed and climbed off the bed to finish pulling them off. Jade propped herself up on her elbows and worked her way back to lean against the higher pillows and watch. "Now you," she said.

"Huh?"

"Strip."

Tori reddened, but hurriedly started pulling off her skinny jeans. One foot got stuck and she lost her balance, falling over with a thump. She jerked them the rest of the way off and hurled them toward the laundry basket. She scrambled up and back onto the bed. Jade was grinning, covering her face with her hand.

"Sorry bout that."

Jade shook her head. "No," she said. "It's good."

Tori lay next to her, watching her intently. She reached out and brushed a lock of hair off her cheek. "It's good?"

"Yeah," Jade said softly. "When I close my eyes and just smell you, I smell alpha. I can't not. When I'm in heat it's just alpha, alpha, I want that, all the time. And I hate it. You being a dork reminds me that you're Tori. And I don't hate wanting Tori."

Tori knew she was grinning like an idiot, but couldn't help it.

Jade gave her a look. "Dumbass."

Tori rolled on top of her and kissed her. Jade moaned into it, opening for her, hot and wet. Her hips jerked up, hitting Tori right where she needed it, and Tori gasped. Jade's hands snaked around her, unfastening her bra, and then moving around to cup her breasts. Tori whimpered, letting Jade pull her up so she could get her mouth on her breasts. Her knees interlaced with Jade's and then slid in. Jade was so wet that it coated the insides of her thighs, and when Tori's leg made contact with black lace, it squished. Jade hissed in a breath and ground against her. Tori fumbled with her bra, unfastening it, letting it drop, and then burying her face in her cleavage. Jade arched as Tori found her nipples, rubbing and pinching, and making her thrash.

Then, she caught Tori's head and pulled on her hair to make her look at her face. "In." she said stiffly. She caught Tori's hand and turned it, looking at her nails. "They'll do. Take off your underwear and put your fingers in me. Okay?"

Tori nodded furiously. She didn't bother to get up, just got to her knees and pulled her underwear off. Shame had left the building. Jade smiled wickedly, her eyes intent. "You're never going to be a stripper, darling."

"Shut it." Tori made a face at her and then hooked her fingers into the elastic of Jade's black panties and started pulling them down. Jade lifted her hips, and they slid down, exposing damp curls, leaving her sticky and glistening and ready. Tori balled the underwear in her hands, swallowing, and not sure what to do. The scent was overwhelming, and delicious, and she kind of wanted to taste it. And she kind of knew she would make an idiot of herself if she tried.

"Don't just stare and jerk off. It's not a movie, Vega." Jade reached back and grabbed the headboard. "You said you wanted to touch me, so get to it."

Breathing shallowly, Tori settled between her legs. She reached out hesitantly, brushing soft flesh, and then having her fingers shy away.

"Don't be a fucking tease, Vega." Jade hissed through gritted teeth.

Tori swallowed. "Just, let me know if I do anything you don't like."

"I'm in heat," Jade snapped. "I'd like it if you shoved your foot into me. Get your ass in gear."

Tori tangled her fingers in wet curls, then dragged her thumb slowly up Jade's lips.

Jade made a noise that was half a moan and half a snarl, as if she wanted her to just get to it. But seriously, Tori needed to take some time with this. She parted her swollen lips and stroked once more, arousal flooding her fingers, moistening them. They moved easier then, and she slid her fingers back up, rubbing her thumb over Jade's clit.

This cry was more like a groan. "Just fuck me, god. You don't need to turn me on. I woke up this morning soaked, after dreaming of you fucking me from behind. If you had kissed me in Sikowitz's class, I would have ridden down on you right there, okay?"

"Okay." Tori's skin flushed with heat and sensitivity at her words, and she tentatively slid her middle finger into the sweet pool of wetness, up to the second joint.

Jade went still. "Oh," she said, quietly.

Tori withdrew and pushed in again. Jade squirmed and bit down on her lower lip.

All Tori could feel was thick wetness. It was nothing like touching herself, where even one finger caught against a tight ring of muscle that twinged -half pleasure, half pain- when she pushed inside. Jade was open and aroused and could take more than that.

Tori looked down at her hand and swallowed. Taking more and taking that were not the same thing. It wasn't a knot. It wouldn't wait until she was inside to swell and tie. Maybe she hadn't had a lot of time to prepare, but she had had enough time to read a few horrifying stories on the internet about just how badly she could fuck this up.

She shook it off. Jade was whimpering and giving her filthy looks for being a fucking tease, and she didn't have time to freak out again. "Your omega needs you," Doug had said to her, patting her shoulder. "That's the best thing about heats. You're not this useless oversexed social blow-up doll anymore. Everything you can offer is everything she wants. You can really make her happy, even if its just for a couple of days."

Tori slid two fingers down Jade's slit and in one quick motion pushed both into her - up to her knuckles. Jade's back arched. She ground into Tori's hand. "Fuck."

Tori's chest clenched at the sight of it, and the feel of it. Jade was so hot, so wet, so soft inside. She could feel the slight stretch from her entrance, and just how deep, just how open she was. Tori drew her fingers out slightly, and then shoved them in again, forcing another gasp from Jade, her knuckles whitening on the headboard.

Her hand getting wetter, Tori found a rhythm, two thrusts, then a pause while she spread her fingers wide inside Jade and rotated her hand. Each pause got a choking desperate little noise from Jade. Her eyes had filled, mascara runing.

"More," she managed. "Nother finger."

Tori nodded, lacing three fingers together and pressing them in. It was tight at the base, near her knuckles and Jade gave a little gasp and bit down on her lower lip.

"Does it hurt?"

Jade nodded. "Do it harder," she managed. "Feels good."

Tori went more carefully, long slow thrusts, Jade growling out a long groan of frustration, her hips rolling every time Tori stretched out her fingers inside. Tori's eyes darted to the nightstand - Jade had brought the lube upstairs (and the scarves, and Trina's scented candle.) She went to snag it. Jade was slick and soaking, but it was still hurting her. Tori fumbled with the cap, trying to get it open with one hand, then drizzled it over her knuckles and pushed in. They moved against Jade easily, too slick to catch. Jade relaxed. The tightness around Tori's knuckles relaxed. "More," Jade whimpered.

"More?" Tori glanced down at her hand. More meant she was getting close to trying to push the full breadth of her hand inside, and the thought made her stomach flutter with bat-winged panic. She really didn't want to hurt her. "Not yet."

Jade blinked a few times to clear the tears and looked at her. "I need you to knot me," she snapped savagely. "I need to be stretched and full. I need you fucking me from the inside, okay? I need it. And I don't care, if I bleed. I don't care if you fucking shred me to do it.."

"I am not making you bleed," Tori snapped back. "I am not going to hurt you. I am never going to hurt you." She slid her fingers out and scooted backward on the bed.

Jade dropped the headboard. "No - Tori! No! Please-"

Tori doused her hand in lube, working it over and between her knuckles and the back of her hand, to make sure she didn't miss any spots. Then she fucked two fingers back into Jade, making her hips buck. She scissored her fingers open to test how open she was - Not nearly enough to take her knuckles, but she had been more open when she was relaxed, she'd keep going. But she was going slow. She rubbed her hand over Jade's abdomen, kneading at her, then moving up to cup a breast and tease her nipple lightly. Jade made a purring sound, her eyelids fluttering shut. Tori parted her reddened swollen lips and slid in, stroking inside, feeling her calm and relax.

"I don't have a knot." Tori said. Three fingers now. Pistoning, steady and even. Jade's breath was coming in shallow pants. "All I have are my hands." Four fingers. The pinky seemed like nothing, but it led straight to the bredth of the knuckles, and Jade gave a little mewl of pain when she went too hard. Tori winced, there might have been a little vengeance in that. She scooped up the lube bottle and went for it again. "And my fist is basically double the size of an average knot. You've never taken any knot. So we are going to do this my way. We are not going to make it hurt any more than it has to. You are not going to be injured from this. Because I'm kind of planning on doing this to you a couple of times every month, and we don't need to have any more trauma to get over, okay?"

Tori pressed her thumb against her fingers and slid all five into Jade. She was swimming in lube, but Jade was still so tight around her knuckles. She couldn't... do this.

"Yes," Jade whimpered. "Yes." She bit on her lower lip, and then pressed her hands against the mattress. "Wait," she said. "Let me..."

Slowly, carefully she rose, Tori kept her fingers pushed deep into her pussy. Jade brought her leg over and got on her hands and knees. Tori swallowed, presented witht he firm perfect slope of Jade's ass.

"More lube," Jade instructed. "Keep your hand steady."

Tori obeyed, coating the back of her hand, and then held it stable. Jade pushed back against it, pushed, and with a slick squish, Tori's knuckles slid past her entrance, into deep wet heat.

Holy shit.

Tori's hand had gone, Jade's entrance had consumed her like a mouth. Her lips were closed around her forearm. Jade was sobbing roughtly.

"Oh god, does it hurt?" Tori could feel her, the walls bearing down on her, her fingertips brushing against a knot of flesh - her cervix? Fuck. Tori clenched her thighs together. This was hottest thing that had ever happened to her in her life.

Jade shook her head. "I just..." the sob broke it off. "I never thought it would actually feel like this, like they said it would."

"What... what does it feel like?"

"God, you are kinky," Jade forced out. "It feels like... like, god, like I'm not empty anymore. Like I'm not alone. Fist it, okay? But be careful. Don't scratch."

Tori gently tucked her fingers in, drawing her hand into a loose fist, doing her best to keep her nails away from Jade's velvety insides.

"Fuck me?" Jade murmured. "Just a little. I'm right on the edge here. Shit, this is like..."

Tori, with her free hand, rubbed a small comforting circle over her back, and then started, very gently, moving her hand, tiny, tiny thrusts, like millimeters. And Jade was making strangled sobbing gasping sounds, her knuckles white where they gripped the pillows.

Then she sucked in a harsh breath. "One more. Little harder."

Tori pushed, and Jade screamed. It was a short, ragged wail, and her muscles clenched down tight on Tori's wrist, locking her in, tying her. Tori soaked herself.

Fuck.

The alphas always talked about tying like it was something they did, like it was their awesome knots, like it had anything to do with it at all. But this was tying, so deep inside her that it felt like a different world, and Jade's cunt clamped tight on her arm, Jade sobbing and gasping, desperate and needy.

"Stay in me, stay."

Tori made out the choked words. "Hey, hey," she said. "I'm not going anywhere."

Jade made a soft hmm of acknowledgement, and then slowly started turning on Tori's arm, turning to lie on her back. Tori squirmed until she was lying between her legs and then rested her head on Jade's thigh. "Fuck," she murmured. "I love you."

"Love you too," Jade murmured. "Always loved you."

She reached down and found Tori's other hand. They tangled their fingers together and held on tight.

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Tori felt the muscles begin to relax. Jade's breathing was even and regular. Slowly, she started to draw her hand out. Jade made a small noise when the knuckles breeched her. Tori's fingers slid out and she cupped her. Then she wriggled up the bed and curled around her. She examined her hand. Stickiness stretched between her fingers as she spread them. A tiny trace of red threaded through it. Tori winced, then pressed a kiss against Jade's hair.

Jade made a small sound. "Water."

Tori gave her a pat on the arm, then slid off the bed. Her knees wobbled, but she caught her balance, pulled on a t-shirt and jogged down the stairs. The kitchen was quiet, afternoon sunlight making it glow warm. Tori snagged a water bottle from the fridge and a gatorade and retreated back upstairs.

"Tori?" Jade was half sitting up, eyes wide, looking kind of panicked.

"Hey! hey, I'm right here."

Jade spotted her and a litle of the tension slipped away.

"I just went to get water."

Jade avoided her eyes. "I thought you were gone."

"I'm not going anywhere. You asked me to stay, remember?"

Jade nodded. She looked far too small and vulnerable. Tori climbed back onto the bed and pulled Jade into her. Jade leaned on her shoulder and took the water bottle. She shuffled a little, looking for a comfortable position.

"You feeling okay?"

"No," Jade muttered. "I feel dehydrated and sore and an emotional mess. I hate feeling messed up like this. I never felt messed up like this before."

Tori pulled her in more tightly. Jade buried her face into her shirt. "Don't-" Tori tried, not sure what she was supposed to say. She didn't want Jade to close up on her, not after that. "Don't get scared about this."

"'M not scared," Jade growled into her shoulder, and didn't move away.

Tori rubbed her hand up and down her bare back. "You want to talk about it?"

"No."

Tori swallowed. "If it's something I did-"

Jade's fingers dug into her arms. "You fisted me, goddamnit!"

Tori froze. "I- I just, I couldn't knot you, and I thought-"

"Fucking alphas!"

"Jade! You wanted me to. You told me-"

But Jade was crying now, properly crying. "And then you left."

"Jade! I don't- What do I need to do?"

Jade looked up at her, eyes wet. "Hold me."

Tori pulled her into a tight hug. Jade sniffled on her shoulder.

"Was it okay?" Jade murmured. "Was I okay?"

Tori rubbed her back and petted her hair and made soft comforting noises into her ear. "You? You were amazing. You were so beautiful, and you felt so good, and you tied me so tight that I kind of, er, you know." Jade chuckled weakly. "And I wouldn't have left, you know, if I knew. I shouldn't have." Next time - water and stuff was going in the bedroom. if there was a next time.

"It was just," Jade swallowed, turning her face into Tori's chest so she wouldn't have to look at her. "It felt crazy hot while it was happening. But it was your fist. Like - you've punched out people with that, and you were fucking me with it, and it was in me - all the way in, bigger than a knot, tight and hard in my cunt, and I felt kind of like a puppet, floppy and useless, and nothing without you driving me and controlling me and making me scream."

"No way," Tori hissed in her ear, holding her tight. "No way. You're everything. You were tight and hot and wet, and you took me inside you. You were the one who made me desperate and horny, and all I wanted was to obey you and make you happy, and if I fucked it up-"

Jade sighed into her. "Didn't," she contradicted. "Thank you. Needed to hear that."

"I meant it," Tori said. "I mean it. You take me - all the time. I see you or I smell you and I'm gone."

Jade lifted her head up and kissed her, briefly, chastely. And Tori considered just how unchaste of a kiss she could give her - openmouthed, tongue extended deep between her legs - and then wished she hadn't, because she was so totally turned on again, and it was not the time for it.

Fucking alphas indeed.

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Vulnerable.

It was a word she hated, but Jade couldn't help feeling that way. She supposed it was a normal reaction to being fucked to within what felt like an inch of her life. It had finally - finally - been enough. Not just an orgasm, but a full-body explosion, like she wanted to trap Tori inside her and keep her there forever, so she would always feel like this, feel like the ragged hole that lived inside her was filled. Then of course she had slipped out and disappeared while Jade was still totally out of it, and when she woke up alone it felt like everything had been wrenched out of her, and the hole was fresh cut and bleeding, and that it would never fill up again.

Stupid sex feelings.

She traded sips of water and Gatorade with Tori and let herself rest against her chest, listening to her heartbeat. The desperate panicky feelings were mostly gone now, Tori's fingers in her hair seemed to stroke them out. Her bare thighs, pressed against Jade's ass, made the heat warmth begin to curl through her again, coiling and settling in her gut. But it wasn't necessary and insistent. It was different, as if she had got what she needed, and now she was just interested.

God, Tori. For someone who was totally freaked out about sex, she had managed to take over and make it fucking-amazing.

Her fingers were twitching on Jade's neck, stroking her. And Jade could feel the slight muscle spasms as she tried to control her hips. And her clit was totally hard. Jade could feel it pressing into her ass.

Jade rolled her hips, pushing back against her. But even that slight motion made her cringe in pain. Tori had been totally sweet, and she was still so sore. And exhausted. You didn't get a hand up there for cheap. She turned into Tori, tugging down the collar of her shirt and kissing her throat.

"Hey," Tori murmured.

"Hey," Jade responded. "I'm... better now. The crazy needy post sex hormones are cooling off. Though I'm not going to be moving again for like an hour."

"I didn't hurt you, did I?"

Jade laughed. There was no way she was telling Tori she felt like she had been fucked with a spiked mace. Because she was so looking forward to getting fucked like that again. "You were perfect. Kind of... annoyingly perfect."

Tori grinned at her. It was her happy - post performance high - grin. Jade shook her head. If this girl ever became a popstar it would all be because of that smile.

"And now I'm feeling guilty because you had to do all the work."

"I'm kind of okay with that."

Jade moved into her and kissed her gently, slowly. "Take that stupid t-shirt off."

Tori had gotten pretty good about whipping off the clothes. Jade kissed her again, this time open mouthed, with tongue. Her tits were sweet, soft and small enough that Jade thought she could probably get one all the way in her mouth. She moved down to give it a shot. She was so soft and tender, there would be teeth marks all over her in the morning. Tori's fingers tangled in her hair, and she squirmed. Jade tried to roll onto her, but it hurt, and she flopped back. "Fuck," she said. "I'm not moving. Get up here and kneel over my face."

"What?"

"Tori." Jade slid her hand between her legs and cupped her. Tori gave a little squeal of surprise, and Jade felt a light press against her palm. She spread her fingers, catching her clit between two of them, and then tightened her grip. "I want to suck you and fuck you and make you come so hard you forget your name, okay? But you fucking destroyed me, so you're still going to have to do some of the work. Now sit on my face, kay?"

More awkward and hesitant than usual, Tori started crawling up, and they shifted around until they found something manageable. Jade couldn't quite take a breath. Tori was a mess. She totally had come while shoving her fist into Jade and Jade could smell it. She reached out with her tongue, sliding it up Tori's pussy lips, and she could taste it too.

At that slight touch, Tori whimpered, her hips shuddering. Jade reached up to cup her ass, give her a bit of support, and then extended her tongue, and dragged it up until it reached the base of her clit. God, that cry. Jade spread her legs and dug her heels into the mattress. She was not going to get distracted by how much Tori turned her on.

Her clit was long, full and quivering, and Jade licked her lips, then moved in to suck it into her mouth. Tori bent forward, grabbing the headboard, hips jerking like she was trying to fuck her face, and Jade dug her nails into Tori's ass. Tori froze and swallowed hard.

"Sorry," she murmured.

Jade sucked hard on her clit, and Tori made a pained squeal. She was dripping already, arousal running onto Jade's chin and neck. Jade, from the back, started to finger her perineum, stroking the base of her lips, and teasing as she soaked them too. Fuck, the heat of it, the way it smelled. Jade loosed her clit and pushed Tori's ass forward so she could dip her tongue right into her entrance - her sweet, tight entrance, that gushed salty cum onto her tongue and into her mouth. Man, this was so hot. For a moment she recalled her contract with Gavin - no oral - she had said. That would never make it onto a contract with Tori. The way she tasted, the way she squeaked, her hard, amazing clit. Jade moved back up, using her tongue to tease her way around the swollen, erect nub. Her fingers slipped in from behind, one pushing into Tori. Tori keened and pushed back, then Jade pressed in the second one. She was tight enough that it would hurt, and Jade licked her way up the shaft of her clit, then teased the head, and Tori was rocking back and forth, looking for penetration and tongue and panting and gasping and desperate. Jade pulled her clit right back into her mouth, and sucked, and fucked her fingers in and out of her, and Tori arched her back and clenched her fingers into the sheets, and came. She pulled out of Jade's mouth, pulled off her fingers, and squirted cum all over Jade's forehead and eyes and cheeks and mouth.

Tori gasped, realized what she'd done, jerked back, then clenched and did it again on her tits. It was hot and sticky and clung, and Jade felt her hips buck, and her own tight, white-hot orgasm rip through her.

"Shit, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

"You have no idea how fucking hot that is," Jade murmured, cum trickling into her mouth as she opened it. She licked her lips. "Fuck."

She squinted slightly, not wanting to get any in her eyes, and saw Tori staring down at her, her mouth slack, as if it was seriously just as hot from the other side. Then, slowly, Tori shuffled, moving down her, and then leaning in. Jade shut her eyes again, wondering if she'd be kissed, but instead she felt the hot lap of a tongue cleaning off a streak of cum from her cheek. Bit by bit, Tori licked her clean, licking even across her eyelids and then down over her breasts. She got distracted by sucking them, and their legs interlocked. Jade groaned as Tori worked her tits thoroughly, and ground against her thigh, squeezing and kneading at Tori's ass. She came, and felt Tori come against her, smearing her thigh with more cum, not that it wasn't sticky enough down there already.

They lay there, quiet and still, until Jade tried to open her eyes and realized that her eyelids were a little stuck together. "Fuck," she muttered. "I need a shower. You've totally drenched me in cum and spit and lube and I feel totally disgusting."

"You up to that?" Tori murmured.

"Not really."

"Bath?"

"Mmmm, sounds excellent."

"Can I... go run it?"

Jade paused. Was she going to be an emotional mess again? "Kiss me first," she said. She felt Tori smile against her skin, then move up slightly to kiss her.

"Love you."

"Don't be annoying."

Tori laughed and slid out of bed. "Back in five," she said and sloped off.

Jade stretched out on the bed and dozed off. She was going to totally made Tori carry her to the bath, because she so wasn't walking anywhere on her own.