AN: Thank you to everyone who has reviewed, alerted, favorite or even read this story so far!

This chapter is kind of insane. In some parts I let my inner romantic out, in others I let the bitter betrayed Rose out so there is quite a bit of drama. Hope you all like it!

I have decided to put my other stories on a small hold until this one is finished. Before you get too bummed about that, I most likely have 2 maybe 3 chapters left of this story. I figure one chapter then an epilogue but it's all up to you guys and the feedback you give me! I have considered maybe doing a small sequel to this after I finish "Summer That Changed Me" (which shouldn't be much longer seeing as that one should be ending pretty soon also) but as I said it's up to all the reviewers.

I left this chapter kind of hanging and I would really love to hear everyone's opinions on what should happen next! I aim to please but can't do that unless you speak up! :)

As always please R&R and I hope you enjoy!

"I wanna hate you
I'm mad as hell
Oh, but a part of me still loves you And hopes and prays to God you're doin' well
I've never been held the way you held me And I've never been hurt the way you hurt me
I could handle this pain, forget your name If you hadn't loved me like you had
Why'd you have to be as good as you were bad"

"Good As You Were Bad" by Jana Kramer

Previously: "Come on, let's go to the next place, it's not that far I promise and we can talk more. Or if you'd prefer you can yell and scream at me if you want," he added with a small grin. He reached down and held his hand out to help me up.

"It's not like you don't deserve it," I told him with a small smirk.

"Right you are, I deserve every bit of yelling and hitting plus some," he said leading m back to the truck. He still had my hand but I quickly released it. He went over and opened my door again, I climbed in and he hopped in on the other side. We were silent for a few minutes.

"Why are we heading towards the city limits? Are we leaving town?" I asked confused.

"Not quite." He answered. Then a little bit more silence. I know I need to tell him but part of me still doesn't want to. What if he tries to take custody, he could possibly win seeing as I was the one who didn't even tell him about Alexz. Then I would lose my baby, I couldn't do that. Then I realized Dimitri wouldn't do that no matter how upset he is. Even worse what if he doesn't believe me? What if he rejects Alexz and doesn't want to be a part of his life at all. Could I handle that? Could Alexz handle that kind of rejection? Not that I would tell him the full truth until he's extremely older.

"What are you thinking about?" Dimitri asked glancing at me.

"I need to tell you something but I'm pretty sure you're not going to like it. Rather you won't like me after I tell you…" I told him honestly.

"Why don't you tell me when we get to the next place. This is the last stop so I figured we could do most of the talking there,"

"I was wondering why you haven't been saying anything to any of my remarks. Usually you always say something or at least more than you have been tonight. I mean you're usually quiet around everyone but me…then again that could have changed in the last few years…" I trailed off realizing I was babbling. It was probably because I was nervous, I have no idea where we are going next, or what's going to happen next. Plus I'm about to tell him something that might end up being horrible for at least one of us, if not the both of us.

"That hasn't changed. You're still the only person that I can be completely 100 percent honest with. That will never change my dear," he said looking at me with his emotions taking over; there was sadness, love, honesty. All the things I really do not want to see right now. I quickly looked away and out the window.

By now we were on the road to take people out of town. Our town was so small there are no major highways or anything so luckily this road isn't busy. I've always loved the roads in town because many were like this one, either surrounded by open fields, neighborhoods, or dozens of trees. This one had nothing but trees for quite a while down it.

"Seriously where are we going? There isn't anything out here until the next town…"

"There's one thing,' he said.

"Dimitri I have lived here for damn near 24 years, there's nothing out here but trees!"

"Somebody still hasn't learned much patience…" he chuckled. I just huffed, crossed my arms and looked out the window not wanting to argue right now. We will probably be doing enough of that in a bit.

"Oh chill we are almost there," he said. I could tell by his tone he was amused.

"Where a special group of trees?" I asked sarcastically. He didn't say anything but as we approached the city limits sign that tells you you're leaving town, he slowed down and came to a stop about 20 feet in front of it. "This is the last place?"

"Yep." He said climbing out. he walked over to my side and opened the door. When he saw my face he smiled a little bit. "Come on just trust me, there's a good reason we're here."

"Forgive me if that's a hard thing to accomplish," I told him sarcastically, referring to the trust, before getting out of the truck.

"Let's see we went to the spot you first saw me, the place you realized you loved me, the lake where you decided you wanted to marry me, why are we here? The best day of your life when you finally left this town and me behind?" I asked getting annoyed. He said we'd do all the talking here but, I won't make this a sweet little conversation. I've been way too nice to him tonight as it is.

"Come on Roza, you know that's not true,"

"Do I? How am I supposed to know if it is or isn't."

"This actually isn't a good memory. This is one of my worst ones. The moment I saw this sign that day, it all hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that I had actually left even though it was the last thing I ever wanted. I had thrown away the best part of my life," he was going to continue but I cut him off.

"If that's true then why didn't you just turn back around? I might've been mad or upset for a while but I would have forgiven you. Coming back 5 years later is just shitty."

"I wanted to come back. When I saw this sign I had to pull over because the emotions just came crashing down. Once I started thinking again, I almost turned around…almost. But I couldn't. I had just told you that I didn't love you, and then left as emotionless as possible because, I thought it was what was best for you. My shame took over and like a damn coward I kept going, fearing that you would hate me forever, feeling guilty for leaving. I believed that there was no way you would take me back, not after the things I said. Even if you did I felt that it would be better if I wasn't around. I hoped that it would help you move on."

"A lot of damn help it did. You realize I only got worse. Everything got worse! And why did I have to go through all of that? Because you were a coward! Because you couldn't handle things when they got bad!" I yelled pissed at his reasoning.

"I KNOW!" he half yelled back. "I know now that I shouldn't have left. I just felt so guilty, that it was my fault that our baby died and I swore that you blamed me too! If I would have had a better job you wouldn't have had to keep working, If I had been a better fiancé then I wouldn't have let you get so stressed out that you miscarried! I had no idea that you were blaming yourself, and I never asked when I should have. I know now that I did a lot of things wrong but all I'm asking for is another chance. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make up what I did and that still wouldn't be enough. But, when I put that ring on your finger the day I proposed I told you that you were the only girl for me and the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. That still is true. I haven't even looked at another woman since the day I met you and I never will. I know what I did was horrible and I know that I will never be able to make up for all the pain and anger I have caused you but, you're the one for me Rose Hathaway and I know that I'm still the one for you, even if you're pissed at me."

I was speechless for a minute not knowing how to respond. Part of me wanted to yell, another part wanted to cry, and another wanted to rush into his arms and never let go.

"You say that you know that you shouldn't have left, can never make it up and you're sorry but, what's changed? Honestly, when I say that you can not imagine what I went through after you left, I'm by no means exaggerating. What if something happens again? How do I know you won't take off again and come back in another 5 years, If ever at all?"

"I couldn't leave again even if I wanted to. Without you, I'm literally nothing, just a man going through the motions of life without even partially living. I need you just as much as I need air, if not more."

"If that's true and you were so miserable, why didn't you contact me sooner? Why didn't you ever try?"

"Every time I came home the first thing I'd ask mama is where you were but you were always gone, out of town. I didn't feel right trying to do all this over the phone, and figured you'd rip up any letters I sent. Something like this needs to be done in person but every time I was home you were gone. This time I had decided I was not leaving until I was able to talk to you no matter how long it took but, luckily it wasn't very long. When I told you that my love had faded a part of me died, especially after seeing your face. It took everything in my power not to jump up and wrap you in my arms and never let go but, my guilt stopped me. I honestly believed that I was the reason all this had happened and that no matter how I felt it was best for you if I wasn't around."

"Why didn't you tell me? Instead of just leaving why didn't you tell me how you felt? Why didn't you even attempt to try and figure it out before sprinting out the door?"

"Why didn't you? I never knew you blamed yourself, why didn't you ever talk to me about it?"

"Don't dare and try to turn this around on me! I was going to tell you everything I had been feeling and try to talk to you the day you left but before I even got the chance you left."

"Why did you wait a month before finally deciding to confide in me?"

"BECAUSE! I knew you were hurting too and I didn't want you to have to take care of me and yourself so I tried to do it on my own and when it wasn't working I decided to come tell you but it was too late! Still even if I didn't confide in you, I didn't leave. I wanted to work it out not throw it away!"

"I was too ashamed. I felt like a failure for letting you down, letting our baby down. I wasn't worthy of you and you needed something besides me. We needed to talk it out but I didn't realize it at the time even when you were asking me to. I still didn't realize I was doing the absolute worst thing possible, but I know now. We've both learned that we handled things wrong and I've learned what a huge, idiotic, moron I was."

"But that's the thing Dimitri you haven't. You still have no idea about some of the consequences of your leaving!" I yelled before realizing that it was my fault. It's my fault that he doesn't know he has a son. My fault that he has no idea, the pain he's caused Alexz and me. My fault he's missed so much of his sons life because I was too scared to call him. I took a breath before continuing to try and clear my head if only for a split second. "You don't know but that's my fault. My fault you will never realize just how bad you screwed up by leaving, not until I tell you.

"What are you talking about Roza? Tell me what? What could be worse than everything I already know or have gone through myself?"

"Dimitri…Alexz is your son!" I blurted out before I lost the nerve.

"What?"

AN: Yet again, your opinions on what you think should happen next are definitely encouraged! I want to see what everyone thinks is going to happen!