IMPORTANT: So there are possibly two chapters left. I say two because I might possibly (probably) do an alternate ending. A few days ago an awesome insane idea popped into my head but, I don't want to disappoint anybody and I have a feeling if I ended it that way a few people might not like it. So, why not do two endings and you readers can go with your favorite.

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"What?" he asked confused.

"Alexz is your son," I said with just a tiny bit more confidence than I did the first time. I really hadn't been planning on telling him right then but, it all hit me and it felt like the right time. I just wish I would have had a little time to prepare myself but, thinking about it like that I've technically had 4 years and 6 months to prepare myself.

"How is that possible? We weren't together like that after…well you know,"

"Think about it. He was born in September. You left in April. Alexz was full term…" I told him letting it sink in.

"But that's not possible…you miscarried?" I could tell he was confused; I couldn't blame him I was just as confused when I found out.

"What we didn't know was I was pregnant with twins. I did miscarry one baby but Alexz miraculously survived. Remember I was still having morning sickness and mood swings but the doctors said it was just my hormones still all over the place from the miscarriage?" I asked when he nodded I continued. "after you left it kept on and didn't stop plus I started gaining more weight so I went to the doctor and found out that I was still pregnant."

"IF that's all true, why didn't you tell me?" he asked. I could see the anger start to appear.

"IF? Do you think I'm lying? There's really no way I could be lying, the dates wouldn't match up if I was. and I tried to tell you. I told you earlier that I tried to call you but apparently your FRIEND Tasha answered,"

"Can you really blame me for not fully believing or understanding? You're right about the dates but this is still…it's unbelievable." He said calming a little trying to understand t all.

"Well you might want to start believing it because it's true. Want to take a Paternity test just so you'll believe me?" I asked sarcastically.

"No just give me a minute to wrap my head around this…why didn't you try again after the first call?"

"Try looking at it from my point of view. We lose a baby, you say your love faded and you don't love me anymore, I was still so messed up from you leaving only to find out I'm still pregnant, I finally get the courage to call and tell you only to have some whore answer and tell me that you've moved on and to not call again. I figured she was right. You were already moving on, I didn't need to drag you back. Plus it was still a high risk pregnancy, there was no guarantee he would make it. So why drag you back here just to miscarry and you leave again? I wouldn't have been able to handle it a second time, the only thing that saved me the first time was Alexz."

"Ok so after you had him why didn't you tell me? You had 4 years!" he said getting angry again. "4 YEARS I missed out on because you didn't tell me."

"I couldn't! Like I said put yourself in my shoes! I still hadn't gotten over you leaving; HELL I COULDN'T EVEN SAY YOUR NAME WITHOUT BREAKING DOWN!" I yelled getting angry. Deep down I knew that if I was him I would be saying and asking the same things, but if you really get down to it, it's his fault for leaving. I thought you had already moved on and I didn't know if you'd just come back out of obligation or even if you would come back. I was scared, terrified of that rejection. Petrified that you would reject Alexz and that would have been ten times worse than when you rejected me."

"But you should have given me that chance! It was my right to know! It shouldn't have been you to make the decision to keep me out of his life."

"it was a mistake I know but I couldn't do it. Lissa and Olena begged me to and I did try. I tried so many times but every time I dialed the number I would either break down or pretty much have a panic attack in fear of your rejection. I know if it was me I would be pissed and angry too but, you don't understand."

"You're right! I don't understand. I come back to try and work things out. try and get you to give me a chance only to find out that I have a son that you've been keeping a secret from me. even if you were hurt or upset, you still should have told me…you said Lissa and my mom knew about it…did anybody else? Why didn't they tell me?"

"Unfortunately, yes pretty much everyone knows. I wasn't going to tell them but I had to when I pretty much lived with Lissa and Olena. Plus they knew I hadn't been with anyone else. They wanted to but I begged them not to…a few times I even had panic attacks while begging them not to. So they didn't tell you to protect me. Believe me though, they wanted to. Sonya's dislike is now pretty much hatred because I wouldn't tell you. So please don't get upset at them."

"I'm mad at them but I can't blame them, you can be pretty persuasive," he said with bitterness. I almost teared up hearing the anger and bitternees in his voice but I tried to hold it in. it's kind of ironic how the night started with me being mad at him and him trying to beg for forgiveness and understanding and now the roles are reversed.

"I'm sorry for keeping it from you but, I just could NOT tell you. I doubt that you will ever fully understand because you weren't there but don't hold it against Alexz. He is truly a wonderful kid and a lot like you, actually so much like you it kills me half of the time. You can hate me all you want," I told him honestly. Even though it would hurt like hell if I spent the rest of my life being around Dimitri with him hating me, it would still be better than him rejecting or taking his emotions out on Alexz. I knew he would never purposely harm him, Dimitri's not that kind, but I know from experience not having your father around and wondering why you aren't good enough can be really hard on a kid and leaves some pretty deep scars.

"I need to think about this for a bit, stay here," he said walking off down the road. I went and sat on the bed of his truck.

I sat there for a while, eventually losing track of how long I had been there. It could have been 5 minutes or 5 hours. I just sat there consumed by my thoughts and feelings. I finally decided that I had enough of this sitting here. I climbed out and started walking back towards town. Who knew how much longer Dimitri would be wandering and I didn't know if he would even want to see me when he did make it back.

While I was walking I was thinking. I wondered what Dimitri would do and how he would feel. Would he hate me forever? Would he still want us to try it out again? If he did, did I want to? Honestly I had no idea. I know without a doubt I could never be completely happy without him but I was also scared of him leaving again. After pouring my heart out about keeping the Alexz secret from him and why I couldn't tell him, I knew I would be devastated if he rejected me again. I refused to tell him just how bad things got but, I told him enough to feel vulnerable again. I didn't want to tell him about the weeks I went without talking, the months where I was just a shell, a body but nothing else. The nights I had woken up screaming and crying from the dozens of nightmares I had about him. I hated the way he had such a control over me even when he wasn't around, but I knew that would never change. Like I told him earlier, once I found out about Alexz I made sure I ate regularly, even though it was the last thing on my mind, I made sure to take my vitamins, and started going through the motions of life, but never really living it. Once Alexz was born I started becoming more like myself, but without Dimitri I would never be whole. Even though I knew that was true, I still don't know if I want to try again and put myself out there again.

I was so consumed by my thoughts I didn't see the lights coming up behind me, or hear the brakes screeching. Out of nowhere I heard Dimitri's voice hollering at me. I turned around and saw a black truck speeding towards me. I was standing off the road in the grass, but unfortunately I was at a really sharp curve. The truck hadn't given itself time to slow down all the way so it was most likely going to flip or at least run off the road. I saw it try to turn sharply and heard the screeching of the brakes. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Dimitri running at me trying to get me to move, but there was nowhere to go. I closed my eyes and braced myself knowing what was about to happen.

My life didn't flash before my eyes but, I did see Alexz. That poor boy, luckily he has enough people he won't be alone and will have help.

Then the image switched to Dimitri, the love of my life. "I love you Comrade"….

Sorry about that little cliff hanger. What do you think is going to happen next? Did she get hit? Does she survive? Or did Dimitri get to her in time? Let me know your thoughts and ideas…who knows you could change my mind!