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Chapter ~ 5

As they walked down the hallway to Reid's room the nerves hit them all like crazy did he know already has the doctor already said too much or was up to them to tell him or not? That was it nobody knew how to approach him what to say so of course even though they could see that Hotch was an emotional wreck he always led the team on and went in first the nurse informed them it would be better one at a time because his headaches are so severe it's hard to handle much at once.

Hotch knocked but didn't get any ok just heard a lot of mumbling inside the room of their youngest. When he entered that was not what he expected Reid all frustrated and tangled in this IV they put in his arm to help get fluid to his brain. Reid still continued to mumble and didn't take any notice of Hotch in the room.

"Reid, Reid , Spencer what are you doing?"

"Getting out Hotch getting out of here. They .. they" that's when Reid looked up at Hotch properly and you should've seen his eyes they were his sweet, innocent big hazel brown eyes except his skin around his actual eyes was so sunken it was inhumane!

Reid began to sob and that's when Hotch ran to his side and rubbed his back and started to shush him quietly. " They do don't they, they think I'm cr-cra-crazy Hotch don't they but he doctors or nurses won't tell me anything but I what they're thinking Hotch. They think I'm crazy I'm going to live like my mother for the rest of my life staring out a window and talking to any stranger that passes and hope I get more good days then bad days."

"Reid you know well that has not been confirmed this could just be some kind of virus!" Hotch assured.

"Hotch, oh don't you turn against me too. You know well I bet they told you there is nothing wrong with him physically you should probably look at a mental cause! I've heard it all so don't you dare lie to me like that Aaron" Reid spat.

Hotch was completely taken back by Reid's behaviour and the use of his first name. "Reid they said they don't know for sure and that you should..."

"I should what oh Hotch they said that about my mother and now look at her she forgets to eat, just just get out Hotch"

"Reid but I'm here to help I'm here to.."

"Help huh good one just go..GET OUT!" Reid yelled.

"Spencer Reid you listen to me right now, you know well that you may not have any psychological disease at all and now you should stop and be happy that you still have a chance and a big chance too that you're not going crazy and if you even think for a second that we look at you differently than you are very wrong do you hear me! So stop it you sound like you want to be crazy the way you're going on!"

Reid stopped and let Hotch's words sink in " I'm s-sorry I'm so sorry you're right I am acting crazy and I'm sorry I'm just scared that's all" Reid spoke shyly with tears in his eyes.

"Oh Reid I didn't mean it like that it's just you know that you could not be crazy at all and that there is no need to over react, that's all" Hotch said gently as he ruffled Reid's hair.

"You know becoming her, becoming my mother that's my biggest fear Hotch and sometimes when I visit her and watch her do nothing, stare into space and no know what's going on that's scary Hotch that there is a chance of that happening to me"

"I know, I know well I'll give you a minute than I'm gonna bring the team in ok?"

"Ok"

As Hotch clicked the door shut the team sat there eager to hear any news on Reid. Morgan was the first to speak though.

"How is he does he know?"

"He was quite upset really he's just afraid you know he thinks it's his biggest fear coming true" Hotch explained.

"He has a right to be afraid because no matter how much we don't want it to happen there is still a possibility it could happen"

"Prentiss is right we have to think of the worst in these situations" Rossi said.

"Is it ok if we go in? Can we go in?" Garcia asked what the rest were now thinking.

"Oh yeah! He doesn't mind let's all go in" Hotch answered.

As they stepped in they saw just how truly bad and really quite dead looking he was but of course they would just ignore it for now.

"Hey Reid, how are you?" Prentiss inquired.

"Good I guess, hey does J.J know I'm here?"

"No not yet why?" Morgan asked.

"Good she doesn't need this right now you can just not tell her for now she has enough on her plate for the time been"

"But Reid, she's gonna find out and if we're not the ones to tell her she's gonna be even more pissed!" Morgan said.

"I know you can tell her in time, just please for me I just can't deal with that right now and neither can she and you all know that"

"Fine we won't tell her for the time being, but she will find out one way or another"

"I get that I do just wait till I at least know what's wrong with me ok?"

"Ok" they all said in unison and just at that moment the Doctor entered.

"Spencer I have finally found out what truly is wrong with you!"

"What? What is it?"Spencer pleaded.

A/N- ok sorry that was kind of cruel to just leave you hanging there and I'm sorry also I'm really sorry if I can't update tomorrow but I will really try! Thanks again and Please REVIEW! x