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A/N-Ok guys this is the chapter that changes the whole thing and right now I really hope I did the right thing so please review and tell me what you think and thanks again for all the story alerts and reviews and stuff! On with the chapter x

Chapter ~ 6

"Spencer I'm sorry but you.."

"I knew it I'm crazy!"Reid sighed.

"Actually no you have a brain tumor and it is cancerous. I'm so sorry I couldn't give you better news but we might have a way of curing it as for now I'll leave you with your friends to talk and give you some time. I'll come back in the morning to discuss it with you further, sorry again Spencer" and at that the doctor left quietly.

Spencer just sat there quiet, unmoving nearly like he was dead sitting up. Nobody knew how to go on they just didn't know what to say next it was like one of those situations when someone brings up someone they lost and then the room goes deadly quiet until someone has the guts to say something. This time nobody had to because Spencer knew what was going through their heads so he finally broke the silence and started.

"At least I'm not crazy" Spencer chuckled sadly. There were light laughs around the room and all of them couldn't believe how strong he was he was just told he had cancer and he decided to make a joke out of it he is one tough kid, but that was when Garcia finally broke.

"Oh Reid honey, don't worry you won't be alone through this because you have us your family to help you. My poor Junior G-man you are going through so much and you have gone through so much and you're still only twenty eight years old" Garcia tried to lighten up the moment every now and then but you could see the tears slowing falling and Reid just sat there looking at the wall like she had said nothing.

"You know something I've always thought that God gave me this gift of my brain and my mind but then through the years I've figured out it has been more a curse than a gift. It's like he wants me to remember every little detail of my parents fighting, the bullying I went through, the looks I got from strangers and people who wouldn't just listen to me and try understand me, Tobias Hankle and the kidnapping, the crime scenes and mutilated bodies and the sight of my mother going crazy and getting worse and worse every day but even though it was a curse it was also a gift because to be honest without my mind I have I am nothing and.."

"Reid man don't say that, yeah you have an amazing mind but kid you are an amazing person too outside of your mind" Morgan said gently.

"Well thanks but it's kind of true because if I didn't have my mind like it is I wouldn't have been a part of the BAU and I wouldn't have met any of you and I wouldn't have felt that feeling when you save another victim also you know what's funny of all the things and cancers I could die from it had to be one to do with the brain funny huh! I suppose we have to call J.J now too".

"I think we have because if we wait any longer we will be put through living hell by moma bear herself" Rossi joked and they all laughed but Reid who once again was looking lost and staring at the wall.

"Right well I'm going to go grab some coffee and call J.J anybody want some?"

They all said yes to give the kid some time and followed Rossi out except Hotch of course. Once they were all gone Hotch asked "got any facts for me now about Brain cancer?"

"Well.. It is estimated that during the year 2004 more than 612,000 people in the United States were living with the diagnosis of a primary brain or central nervous system tumor. Specifically, more than 124,000 persons were living with a malignant tumor and more than 488,000 persons were living with a non-malignant tumor. For every 100,000 people in the United States, approximately 209 are living following the diagnosis of a brain tumor. This represents a prevalence rate of 209.0 per 100,000 persons, that good enough?" Reid said bitterly.

"Oh Reid I'm sorry I know this must be tough"

"Hotch I have probably two months to live if even and I'm going to be leaving my mother before she does me and I don't know how to say goodbye Hotch I don't know how to say goodbye to her, to you, the team and my life!" Reid sobbed.

"Oh come on Reid you might not be too late they might be able to get rid of it and you will probably out live the rest of this team, so don't worry yet ok?"

"O-ok I'm just so scared Hotch, I'm so weak right now if any of you were in my place now ye wouldn't be crying your eyes out"

"Reid never say you're weak because you're such a strong man and you will never have to prove it because we all know you are and if any of us were in your position we would be crying too so don't worry"

"Hotch I don't think Strauss is going to be happy if I can't work!"

"Reid are you seriously worrying about your job and Strauss right now, I'll take care of all that and you know it just get some sleep ok and we can talk more tomorrow" just when Hotch was about to leave Reid stuttered" could you stay with me tonight please" his voice squeaking at the end.

"Oh Reid of course I will, the whole team will if you want them to, we are here for you so don't forget that!"

"Thank you so much and Hotch will you tell the team I'm sorry for treating them badly the last few days I was just tired and upset and I'm just really sorry"

"Reid it's ok I'm sure they've already forgot about it "

A/N- ok I'm prepared for all the laptop throwing and criticism if you don't like it so just tell me now I think I can take it! I really hope you liked it also I have another twist along the way which I think you'll like so anyways please review and thanks again! X