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Emmett sighed and pulled away from Bella still making sure to hold her close to him. Taking a deep breath and tightening his hold on her, he turned to his siblings and the people that had become as good as siblings. "Mom isn't well we can all that, as for dad well as they say the closer you are to something the less likely you're going to be willing to see it." He felt Bella's hand run up his arm.

"What should we do Em?" he looked into his baby sisters pleading eyes.

"There is only one thing we can do really I hate to do it but I can't leave her here, dad himself is in no shape to watch her. Me and Jasper have practices we can't miss and you Bella Rose and Edward have classes. So what we have to do is convince her that committing herself is what is needed, that It's the right thing."

"No," Alice vehemently shook her head. "I won't let you do it, I drop out of school I'll move back home I'll take care of her, I can do it, I will do it." She pleaded she cried her body shaking as Jasper pulled her closer to him.

"Alice you can't, not only that but I won't let you, If mom knew you were giving up school to care for her it wouldn't be ok, it would make her worse not better." He stepped away from Bella and pulled his sister from Jasper's grasp. "Shh Ali baby we'll get through this." He held her shaking form against him and looked over her head at Edward, Edward who was showing no outward signs of distress unless you looked closely at his right hand which had a death grip on Rosalie's hand.

"Edward," Emmett tried to get him involved in the conversation.

"Whatever you think is right Emmett," Edward felt his throat tighten with the unshead emotion. Tears he would never let fall burned at the back of his eyes. Now was not the time to break. He felt Rose squeeze his hand and felt greatfull to have her comforting presence next to him.

"Ok," Emmett nodded, "Ali," He pulled his sister away from him, wiping her tears.

Her lips wobbled as she tried to force the words out. "I'll stand behind you and Edward," she tried to strengthen herself knowing that her brothers would need her as much as she needed them and she had to be strong for them.

"Fine," Emmett steeled himself for what he had to do but hated to do. "I'm going to go and talk to mom you can come with me or you can stay here."

"I think I'll stay here," Alice sat on the bed, Rose nodded her head sitting beside Alice. Bella looked between the girls sitting on the bed and the boys standing in the door it was clear Edward and Jasper would go with Emmett. She stepped forward and took Emmett's hand in hers leading him over to the corner.

"Emmett if I could make this easier on you I would, I would be with you in a heartbeat. I'll stand with you thorough anything and that's scary to say seeing as how we haven't been together for long but right now I think what's best for your mother is for me to stay up here to stay out of the way and let Alice lean on me."

"I understand," he whispered, bending down to kiss her. His heart creaking a bit because he did want her standing by his side in that kitchen but he knew she was right. Bella was practically a stranger to his mother and if anything would make Esme Cullen worse it would be to be seen as less than perfect in front of a guest. Even if and maybe especially if it was the girl that had stolen her eldest son's heart.

Bella found her way back to the bed and with one last look at the girls the boys made their way downstairs. "How do you want to handle this?" Edward turned to his elder brother looking for a lead.

"We'll talk to dad first." With that they made their way into the living room. They peaked into the dining room where they saw Esme cleaning up shattered glass they weren't sure what happened but she was humming in a scary way. "Dad we need to talk." Emmett stood in front of his father refusing to move refusing to budge. Edward and Jasper on either side of him.

"What is it?"

"its mom and before you say nothing's wrong just stop because you know there is we all know there is. She needs help dad help none of us can give her. She has to get professional help. I can't wake up one day to find out she had slept outside in a summer nightgown in the middle of October even though it was 45 degrees outside. I won't watch her smash glasses then clean it up like nothing is wrong and I won't let myself come into the kitchen within seconds of her doing herself harm." His mind flashed back to that day so many years ago.

"Hey mom," Emmett walked into the kitchen looking for his mother he was planning on asking her if she'd seen his cleats. He stopped dead in his tracks as he came into the kitchen and saw her standing over the sink, knife in hand, staring at it lowering inch by inch no doubt in his mind what she was going to do. "Mom," He walked slowly towards her not wanting to spook her. He slowly and carefully took the knife from her and placed it on the counter.

She collapsed into his arms and started to sob, "I can't do it anymore I'm so sorry, I failed I failed you and I you siblings I failed myself." He held her as she cried repeating that she was sorry.

Emmett shook his head and came out of his memory. It was after that, that Carlisle had finally committed her. A part of Emmett was glad it was him and not his siblings that found her another part was pissed why hadn't his dad noticed before why had it had to get that bad, he turned back to him. "I won't let it get there again, we are going to address this now."

The serious glint in his eyes and stubborn lines in his face told Carlisle his son was serious. He wasn't intentive but what husband wants to admit that something is so wrong that their wife isn't ok. Emotions clouded what he knew to be right. He knew she had to go even if it broke his heart. He wouldn't but his children through that fear again. "Can you talk to her, I just don't think I can."

"I was already planning on it." Emmett laid a hand on his dads shoulder as he walked into the kitchen. He nodded at Jasper to stay where he was. Edward and Emmett walked into the dining room to fin there mother clearing the still full dishes. "Mom."

Esme turned a vacant look on her sons. "Oh Emmett, Edward."

"Mom sit down." Edward took the full plates from her.

"What can I do for you two."

"Mom" Emmett swallowed. "I need you to do something for me."

"What's that dear?"

" I need to go someplace to get some rest please for me and for Edward and Alice."

Esme started to shake her head. "Well I'm fine dear."

"No you're not mom and you're scaring all of us." Emmett tried to be gentle and something about the worry etched on both of her sons faces made her aware that she was slipping that it wasn't ok and that maybe just maybe she needed help again even if she hated to admit it because it made her weak.

"Ok Emmett for you kids." She felt a single tear slide down her face.

"Me and Edward will take you tomorrow ok." She just feebly nodded knowing it was for the best. Both boys held their mother close hoping they could hold the fractured family together.

Upstairs the three girls were laying against the bed. Alice started to tell a story. "I don't remember much. I was ten but the boys and dad sheltered me from most of it. I know she slept a lot forget to feed us many nights. Sometimes she'd go crazy and yell about the slightest things like the silverware being crooked. She wasn't the mother I knew and one day she was gone. They told me she had to go away to get better that she would be home soon. And they took me to see her a few times she was gone for at least six months and the house oh the house felt so empty without her. I felt alone but the boys and dad did the best they could. And when she came home we all walked around on eggshells careful of what we said. She seemed to get back to normal and I guess I pushed those days out of my mind blocked them. I'm sure there is so much I wasn't told. I know Emmett bore the brunt of it. I'm scared. I'm terrified of losing my mother." She let out a choked sob. Bella and Rose wrapped their arms around her. Holding her close trying to take a portion of her pain.

In the living room Jasper sat with Carlisle his was shocked when he started to talk. "I guess I always knew she wasn't ok, I mean the signs were there but I didn't want to admit it. No I turned a blind eye I became a complacent father and because of that I almost lost my wife, my kids almost lost their mother and I'll never forgive myself for that."

"Carlisle she'll be fine." Jasper tried to assure the older man but knew his words were futile.

Edward and Emmett helped Esme up to bed kissing her forehead they let her sleep knowing the morning was going to be tough. All three men made their way up the stairs and looked into Alice's room. The girls were sleeping and Edward and Emmett picked up their respective girlfriends and carried them into their rooms. Letting the darkness cover them they wondered if they would make it through the night. In the master bedroom Carlisle looked at his wife and whispered. "Esme I'm so sorry, sorry I couldn't have been a better husband. A better father someone you deserved." He crawled into bed and watched her sleep now she looked so peaceful and it broke his heart to know what tomorrow would bring.

Four couples in the darkness wondered how tomorrow would change them individually together and as a family were they strong enough to make it though.

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