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Chapter ~ 8

Deep breaths Spencer you're going to be fine. Rossi is right I'm not a bunch of statistics I'm a human being, nothing to worry about. Only 7 minutes and 38 seconds till surgery. Just as Reid started to hyperventilate slightly Rossi walked in and noticed Reid slumped over and shaking slightly.

"Reid, calm down it's ok! Reid." Rossi exclaimed.

Reid slowly took deep breaths then swallowed. " that's it , well done what's eating at you kid?"

"Rossi, Rossi I-I'm scared Rossi. I don't think I can do this Rossi I'm not ready.." Reid trailed off.

"Reid you listen to me right now! Reid you're okay stop worrying everything will be fine I promise nothing will happen to you and you might want to wipe your tears before the rest of the team come in they don't want you sad before you go into surgery"

"You're right" Reid sniffled and just then the rest of the team came knocking at his door.

"Hey" Reid said quietly.

" Hey kid, how are you doing?" Morgan asked.

"Same as before, I'm just a little nervous"

"Reid nervous? Reid when have you ever not been nervous. You were twice as nervous when you first met me!" Hotch stated with a smile in his voice.

" Oh yes, I still dread that day. It's just you were such a higher authority and I guess I got a little fuddled that day I just didn't stop rambling" Reid said shyly and everyone looking with a smile on their faces.

Just then a nurse came knocking " sorry but we must take Dr. Spencer Reid to the theatre now could you please step out and wait in the room outside thank you"

Everybody said there good lucks and farewells as they filed out the door with an encouraging smile on their face, even though they too were a little nervous having to wait.

~~3 hours later~~

"Jeez Hotch I don't think it's supposed to take this long it has nearly been 4 hours" Morgan said with frustration in his voice.

" I know but there is nothing we can do but play the waiting game and be here and ready for when Reid comes out and the doctors tell us he just needs to rest!" Hotch sighed.

At that exact moment Reid's doctor came through the doors and the whole team jumped up and nearly ran to him.

"How is he? Can we see him?" Morgan asked.

"Actually I need Spencer's power of attorney STAT!"

"That's me! Wait why?" Hotch exclaimed.

"Well it seems Spencer had 2 tumors that are both cancerous and since we have started the surgery we can't stop and need your permission to try remove the other tumor now before he goes into a coma" The doctor said very rushed. The whole team gasped at the news.

" where exactly is the second tumor on his brain?"

" it is on the side where his memory is"

That's when everyone grew silent… his memory? " Would he wake up from the coma and is it a very risky procedure for the second one?" Morgan nearly shouted.

" the coma it's hard to tell he could wake up the next day or never and the second procedure is tricky but we need your permission now Agent Hotchner! Spencer does not have much time " the Doctor hurried.

Hotch was lost for words and didn't know what to do but in the end he picked to do the surgery and well hope for the best. After hotch told the doctor to carry on with surgery he was gone so fast nobody noticed he had left.

Hotch didn't know what to think , he stumbled backwards and onto a chair rubbing his hand down his face. The team were all sharing an emotion of concern, worry and shock. Very abruptly Hotch stood up and yelled " it's all my fault! Did I pick the wrong one? What if I just killed our youngest? What if….?" And then Hotch crumbled to the ground in fear . Everyone was so taken back by Hotch's actions they were so used to him being the one to keep them together but everyone breaks at least once and this time it was Hotchs turn to turn off his façade and have his own time. Rossi was the first to approach Hotch after his outburst.

" Hotch, this isn't your fault ok? This is not your fault and everything could be perfectly fine so don't worry yet ok?" Rossi spoke gently.

" But if something goes wrong it's my fault because I chose for him to continue the surgery and it was me who.."

Rossi slowly guided Hotch up and onto the chair again " look we won't know for sure so just take it easy and we will just continue to play the waiting game but right now I think you should go for a walk and clear your head, ok?"

Hotch just nodded and slowly made his way to the door to calm himself down. As for the rest of the team they all just fell back down into their seats and hoped for the best and try keep strong for not only Reid but for Hotch too.

~~1 hour later~~

At the exact same time it was like they knew went to come as if they planned it both Hotch walked through the glass doors and the doctor came through the double doors from the theatre into the waiting room the whole team shot up and looked at the Doctor for answers and reassurance that Reid is alright.

"Dr. Spencer Reid is…."

A/N- I'm sorry I ended it there like that but you'll get the answer soon and actually I wanted to ask you guys if ye had any ideas on what ye would like to happen next! So.. please review and tell me thanks xx