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Chapter ~ 9

"Dr. Spencer Reid is…"

"Is what?" the whole team nearly shouted at the doctor for an answer.

"Your friend is a real fighter you know…"

"Yeah! He is one of the best I've ever met" Rossi said.

"Yeah! He is in critical condition for now and will need to be monitored every thirty minutes by either a nurse or doctor. We were able to fully remove his first tumor without any damage but for the second one I'm afraid we could only remove a very minor piece before the internal bleeding started in his brain that's what really took so long, trying to stop the bleeding and he.."

"Wait is he okay you said there was bleeding, does that mean he has brain damage or memory loss or something now?" JJ said with tears in her eyes.

" Well we can't be sure just yet but we'd say nothing too serious maybe just his memory might be a bit foggy when he wakes up but apart from that we just hope his brain heals up nicely so we can start the radiation as soon as possible so this cancer doesn't go any further, I'd recommend you don't visit him tonight so he gets his rest but if one of you really need to see him tonight you are allowed in for fifteen minutes but tomorrow morning would be better for him, he might be awake by then too" the doctor announced.

"Thanks doctor and do you know what number his room is?" Morgan asked.

"Oh yes room twenty-seven, alright I'll be in to check on him in the morning and I suggest you should rest as well tonight." The doctor said his goodbyes and left the team there to ponder.

"Was it my fault? Was it my fault the bleeding started? Was it my decision that nearly killed the man?" Hotch said with complete fear and disappointment in his eyes as he stared wide eyed at his team.

"Oh, Hotch darling you know well Reid will be fine and the doctor got it under control and they even said no serious damage was done so don't be like that" Garcia said sweetly.

"Yeah! You're right nothing serious, he's gonna be ok" Hotch assured himself.

"Hotch I think maybe you should be the one to see him for a few minutes tonight, it's ok like we can see him in the morning man" Morgan suggested.

"Alright, thanks" Hotch said and they bid their farewells and left.

As Hotch looked through the window of Reid's sleeping form he nearly gagged at all the wires and tubes sticking out of well everywhere! Hotch gently walked in when he had settled. He dragged a chair over to Reid's bed and tears started welling in his eyes.

"Reid, hey it's Hotch you probably can't hear me because you're in such a deep sleep right now and I'll probably have to repeat this when you wake up but I'm sorry, I'm so sorry this is all my fault I should've noticed your signs sooner and I'm so sorry if I picked the wrong decision for you I was just scared and I was really panicking to be honest! I know that's not really an excuse because I wasn't the one in on the table having surgery done but.."

"I-it's not y-y-our fault" Reid coughed out quietly.

"Reid you're awake? It is though I just wasn't there for you sooner and I'm really.."

"Hotch, look it's not your fault and it never will be. To be honest if I was to blame someone it would be me or the doctors for not seeing this sooner like I've been to ten different ones in the last four months and they all said there is nothing wrong, what about a mental disease. Look Hotch, if I was you and I was making your medical decisions on the spot I would have just broke down in complete horror so.. no matter what you always manage to hold it together compared to the rest of us"

"huh! Well at the exact moment the doctor asked me to make a decision I was about to call your name to tell me the statistics and chances of both but of course I was just smart enough you weren't there. Also you might not have thought it but when I told the doctor my decision and he rushed off I burst out and had a breakdown on the waiting room floor so I'm not as strong as you'd think. Honestly when I caught a quick glimpse of the teams faces they all were in complete shock I did it but.."

"Hotch you are so strong and always will be don't forget that and honestly you are the strongest man I have and probably will ever meet."

"Thanks Reid , whatever state you're in you still think of a way or something to say to make someone feel that bit better. You know you and Garcia have that in common. Right so.. I better go I wasn't really supposed to come and especially not wake you up but don't worry I'll be in, in the morning with the team to see how you're doing, so talk to you tomorrow" as hotch was about to walk out the door Reid called " Hotch".

"Yeah"

"em.. thanks for well everything you did and do for me I really appreciate it"

"you're welcome Reid, Bye"

A/N- ok that's that, ok sorry there is a lot of hotch/Reid moments but I really just love those characters and writing them so… you know and I hope to update soon! Please Review Thanks! Oh I was also wondering what you guys would think if I turned this fanfic into a character death one? Like obviously not for a good while but like still what would ye think if I did do it? thanks