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Bella woke up to darkness and a pair of arms wrapped around her she buried herself In his embrace letting herself be encompassed by his scent and comfort. "Hey," She jumped slightly at the sound of his voice having thought him to still be asleep.

She looked up at him. Making out the outline of his face in the darkened room, "hey "she whispered. She sat up flipping on the light beside the couch. "How did it go?"

He sighed and closed his eyes briefly before opening them and looking at her. "It was hard," he admitted. He hated showing weakness but he trusted her. She didn't speak she wanted him to say what he had to say, she wanted him to feel able to tell her anything. "I guess you've figured out that this is the second time she went in for help. The first time I was sixteen and Alice only ten. We all tried to shield her, and maybe that was a mistake I'm not sure. Edward went into his own form of shock. We almost had to hospitalize him also; he always was closest to mom." Here Emmett stopped as if reflecting on a time he'd rather not go back to. Bella placed her hand on his arm and he placed his over hers. She was there for six months she'd been ill for six months before that. So this whole process took a year. Dad wouldn't hospitalize her for months the first time, That's why I was so quick to get her help this time. My dad isn't a bad person," he was quick to point out. "But my mom is the love of his life and I don't think he could handle the thought that she was sick. So he made the chose to look the other way. I love him but I hate him for that. "Here Emmett stopped again.

"Do you know why she is the way she is or was?" Bella ventured to ask hoping she wasn't overstepping her boundaries.

"Not really I know right before she started last time I yelled at her for paying more attention to Edward and Alice then to me, and before she left for the hospital she apologized to me for not being there. I know that growing up she was raised with money but in a very strict way, perfection was expected and maybe that is where she feels she went wrong. We never met our maternal grandparents and mom never really talks about them," Emmett shook his head. Maybe he should talk to his mother about her childhood but he was and had always been afraid that if he did it would hurt her more.

Bella leaned up and kissed the side of his head. "I'll know what you're going through, I wish I could do more but know that I'll be here. If you want to talk, then talk. If you just want to sit in silence that's ok to. I'm not here to push you or judge you. I realize that there may be some things you don't want to tell me and that's ok. There may be times you want to be on your own. Or with your siblings or a friend and I'll step aside. But I'm always just one call away. She cupped his face in her hands.

Emmett's heart constricted. He felt a little bit of the weight he'd felt weighing down his shoulder lift. "Thank you," the words caught in his throat as he tried to clear it. "You don't realize how much that means to me. I've always been the oldest. The one everyone looked to for comfort or to fix things. And well I love my parents and they are there I've felt like I've been on my own emotionally for years. Not wanting to burden my mother and my father always worked odd hours so he was barley over home." Silence covered them but it was a comfortable silence one they both sunk into. He wrapped his arms around her and she slide against his side. He turned to her cupping her face he gently lifted her face and kissing her. At that moment he felt he was just exactly where he was supposed to be.

Finally he talked again. "What if I can't be what everyone needs. "Tears fell as he looked at her."

"Then you can't she whispered gathering him to her. "Let me be what you need right now and take it one step one day at a time. She held him close and let him take comfort from her embrace.

In Jasper's room Alice woke up as soon as they had gotten there she'd crawled into bed and was asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow. She sat up stretching and smiling faintly to see Jasper sitting at his desk reading a book.

"Hey Cowboy whatcha reading?"

He turned and smiled at her. "Well did you have a good nap sleepyhead. He put the book down and walked over to the bed. Sitting on the edge he leaned over and kissed her softly. She sunk into the kiss and tried to deepen it. He pulled away and looked at her. Alice as much as I love you, you know Sex isn't something to hide your feelings in. He could read the girl like a book and knew she was putting off the conversation that she knew was coming.

She pouted but he could see the tears sparkling behind her pout. "Fine," She sighed laying back against the pillows. He laid down next to her propping his head up on his hand and looking down at her. He waited for her to start. Knowing she had to talk but not wanting to push her.

"I was ten," not looking at him and staring at the ceiling." I was ten and I knew something was wrong I mean how couldn't I, my mother wasn't the women I was used to. She forgot to feed us sometimes and others she would make elaborate feast and dress us all up. Then she'd start crying half way through the meal. I knew something was wrong but no one was talking to me. I faded into the back ground and then one day I woke up and she was gone." She stopped and stared at the ceiling for a good ten minutes before continuing. "They told me was sick but had went away to get better. They told me I could see her later. I did see her once after she'd been gone for four months only that one time. I fainted seeing her in there and they refused to take me back again." She swiped the tears from her eyes. "She was back two months later and we walked around her like she was a fragile china doll. Edward finally came out of his room where he'd been holed up for six months only coming out for food and school and Emmett was trying to hold us all together. Dad had been depressed but never stopped his crazy work schedule. I remember those months when she was still gone how I would wake up screaming for her. I'd run to Emmett and he'd let me sleep in his bed. being with Emmett was the only time I felt safe in those months and in the year after she came home afraid she'd disappear again. And though I'm older now I'm still scared. I wonder if she'll come home and I don't' want Edward to falter again.

Jasper wrapped his arms around her. "I'm here he whispered." As pieces of her story feel into place and became clearer. Such as her relationship with Emmett, she clung to him and cried as he just held her being the rock she needed at the moment.

On campus Edward had been staring at the wall for hours and Rose was about to go crazy. "Edward you have to talk to me, Please she pleaded. She begged she cried yelled and shouted. He stayed stone silent. His mind fighting the past, she kneeled beside him. "Please," She begged once more and he glanced at her.

"I was always closest to her." He stared off into space and she feared he wouldn't say anymore. "I was always smart and she was with me every step of the way, even dad took time out of his busy schedule to help me. I guess my head got big and I felt special important. I could get my parents to pay attention where Alice and especially Emmett couldn't." Then when I was fourteen things turned upside down. She was hospitalized One day she just started to act strange and every day it go t worse until finally dad had no choice but to hospitalize her. I couldn't handle it. I…." here he trailed off. " I always felt it was my fault that I was to needy that I broke her. That I was being punished by her going away, I relied on her so heavily and then she was gone. I felt It was my fault she was in there because of me and I hated myself I hated my siblings for not feeling it the same way I did and my dad for never being there. I hated my mom for even getting sick in the first place. I know I'm horrible but even after she came home I always refused to get to close to her again afraid this would happen." Here he finally broke down and tears fell from his eyes.

"Edward Anthony Cullen listen to me. It's not your fault ok not at all, you were fourteen years old and of course you would feel these things." Rose gathered him in her arms trying to take his pain into her. "I love you, I love you so much." She let him cry and held him close.

Three Siblings all reliving the past and fearing the future found comfort that night but everyone knew this was only the beginning and a bumpy ride was ahead of them.

A/N thanks to everyone that reviewed review goal is 35 reviews I have 425 right now lets do it. Also don't forget the facebook page. Thanks. I wanted to focus on the siblings that is why I left Carlisle and Esme out of this chapter.