So after I posted last night, I got a few reviews that had some similarities so I decided because the main review was by a guess I would address it here and then I would give all of the wonderful people that review a choice in how the next few chapters go.
Now the main review was sort of harsh but I am in no way mad about it and actually really appreciation their opinion but like I said it was a guest so I can't actually respond to it. So here's the review:
I can't read this story anymore, its not a D/R story as far as i am concerned and i am sick of seeing him sexing it up with Tasha, i didn't start reading this story to have it drag on to chapter 12 and still NOTHING not to mention the times that you put your story on hold and still NO D/R.
This story is starting to bore the shit out of me and obviously you are a R/D hater and a Tasha lover. And now you have Dimitri telling Rose he has no feelings for her and Rose stupidly saying the kiss meant nothing to her ARGH this is so pathetic.
Well first off let me assure you it is definitely a R&D story and I hate Tasha as much as the next R&D lover. With that though I was trying to create this story from a more realistic point of view. In real life it wouldn't just be 'oh I love you! Please leave Tasha' 'of course I will I love you too!' when I had asked a few chapters ago most everyone said they wanted me to wait a little bit until I do the reveal. I really don't blame you about all the space I've had between updates I'd probably be a little upset too. Dimitri told Rose he has no feelings for her because one she said it first and two he's still trying to do the right thing (it's not going to last much longer). I thought that I had made it at least somewhat clear that Rose has self-esteem issues due to the way Stan's been treating her so, she's too scared to admit that she loves him if she's not sure he loves her first I guess I didn't make it as clear as I thought I did. She's said repeatedly that she doesn't believe he loves her so she's not going to put herself on the line. I am sorry you're frustrated at the speed of things and that it is pathetic but thank you for reviewing and I really appreciate your view.
All that being said, I have had a few other reviews that are wanting things to hurry up so, I'm going to leave it up to the reviewers. I already have the Tasha reveal and most of the Abe reveal written, but I was waiting at least a few more chapters to build up the tension. IF YOU WOULD PREFER ME TO HURRY THE REVEAL UP, I can do it in the next chapter just review or pm me and let me know what you'd prefer. I plan on if I don't really get many opinions I will go ahead and hurry it up anyways.
Now all that being said I've decided to do a Dimitri POV to let you gain a little insight into his mind. I'm starting with when they started talking about Rose's home life because honestly I'm not entirely sure that I could write his thoughts while talking about him and Tasha and it be very good so I'll leave that part up to the imagination. Thank you to everyone has reviewed so far and I look forward to reading what you have to say!
DPOV:
"How are things at home?" I asked softly worried about her answer.
"Same as usual. I'm never good enough and sleeping with half of the school if not the whole school. Nothing really new."
"Why won't you tell your mom that he says those things to you?" I asked frustrated that she continually put up with this, she deserves better.
"Because with her job I hardly see her as it is, why ruin what little time we have together by telling her that her husband is a bastard…plus she'll never believe me. He's always on his best behavior when she's around. Hell I wouldn't believe me if I was her after the show he puts on in front of her."
"She's your mother Rose, she'll believe you."
"I tried once…she didn't believe me and we just ended up fighting, it ended with her call me an ungrateful brat and me calling her an emotionless bitch. Luckily we eventually got over it and I've never brought it up again."
"You know what he tells you are all lies right?" I asked knowing I wouldn't get anywhere if I kept talking about her telling her mom. I can't believe that he's such an ass to her of all people. When she told me that he's spent YEARS calling her the names he has and degrading her constantly, it took all my will power not to go down there and give him a piece of my mind…that and Rose begging me not to.
"It's hard to believe that after hearing it for so long but I'm trying. It's easier now that you know so I have someone I can talk to about everything but it's still really hard some days…especially after, you know. Like I said though, I'm trying. Being here really helps."
"That's good. I'm glad you confided in me." I said softly glad that she's working through it.
"Honestly, I'm not sure why you're so easy to talk to. I've known Lissa my whole life and not once have I ever told her about Stan. She knows I'm unhappy at home but not why."
"Has he hit you again?" I asked bracing myself for the answer.
"He tried once, but I used my awesome ninja skills to dodge it then kneed him in the crotch so hard he fell to the ground. I told him if he ever tried again I'd cut his balls off in his sleep. Since then he hasn't tried again."
"I'm proud of you, but awesome ninja skills? You're far away from being a ninja," I said with a laugh trying to somewhat lighten the mood. I'm glad she stopped him and actually surprised that she did. She shows this tough confident side but I know better. Deep down she's really insecure and never thinks she's good enough. It doesn't make it much better when her own mother acts like she doesn't want to be around her, except when they're here.
"Oh yea?" she asked. She thought she was being sly and jumped up and attempted to punch me. I of course block her and stood up in front of her. Rose being rose didn't let that stop her and tried again, again I blocked and we started a mini spar. I was going easy on her but she was still doing pretty good for herself. Soon enough I had her pinned on the ground
"Damn you! You could at least let me win one time!" She said frustrated.
"That's no fun though" I said with a chuckle. I stood up and held out a hand to help her up. She hesitated for a second but then grabbed my hand. Next thing I knew she was kicking the backs of my knees and pulling me down. She hadn't thought this all the way through because I was quickly heading for her but my instincts kicked in and I brought my arms downkeeping me from landing on her.
"Nice try," I chuckled before realizing what position we were in. I was less than a foot away from her and our legs were pretty much tangled together.
"It was worth a shot," she muttered with a faint smile. I'm not sure who moved first but the next thing I knew our lips were crashing into each others. I felt electricity running through my veins and lost all rational thought. It started off slow but then got a little more heated. She pulled her hands up and tangled them in my hair and I brought my hand up to her cheek.
"Rose! Dimitri!" a voice hollered that sounded vaguely familiar. That jerked us back into reality. I quickly jumped up and she followed.
"That shouldn't have happened," I said realizing what happened. I was still with Tasha and even if I don't love her like I probably should she still doesn't deserve me cheating on her like that…no matter how annoying she can be. Shit I wonder how this is going to affect my friendship with Roza.
"I know I'm so sorry. I didn't mean…I just got caught up in the moment. Can we just pretend that never happened? I mean we are just best friends it's not like I like you like that or you like me like that right?" she said rambling.
"Yea of course, it never happened." I agreed quickly. I'm not going to lie though. I felt a sharp pain in my chest when she said those words.
"There you two are!" said Vika coming up towards us. "Mama sent me to look for you two when you just disappeared and didn't answer your phones, I think she's a bit paranoid after what happened last night."
"Sorry, we decided to take a walk and I guess forgot to tell anybody." Rose told her. We headed back to the house and I went straight up to my room. I quickly changed and laid down.
I couldn't help but replay the night over and over in my head, especially the kiss. I replayed her words in my head afterwards and still could feel the pain when she said she doesn't like me like that. that doesn't make sense though why would I be upset about that? it's not like I like her like that…do I? Even if I do, I'm no good for her she deserves better than me and all my problems. I'm engaged and with a kid on the way. Even if me and Tasha didn't work out, I couldn't subject Rose to having to deal with Tasha forever and raise a kid that's not hers…WHAT am I talking about? I go from not sure how I quite feel about her to talking about her raising mine and Tasha's kid with me? No she needs to find someone better suited for her without all this drama. At that thought the pain in my chest intensified times 10. I thought of her kissing another mine like we had kissed earlier, her talking her problems out with someone else…her sleeping with someone else. I looked down to see my hands had involuntarily clenched in anger at the last thought.
I remembered last night and how worried I had been when we couldn't find her and how it felt when I saw her sitting on that bench by Abe with tears streaming down her face. When I first saw her there my first thought was to lock her up and shield her from the world so I would never have to see that look on her face again. Nothings is better than seeing her smile and I wish I could always see her smile…shit, I think I'm in love with my best friend…
I can't love her…not right now. I'm not good for her, she deserves 10 times better…plus I can't do that to Tasha and the baby…could I? What am I even talking about?! She said she doesn't like me like that! 'She was probably lying to protect herself idiot' said a voice in my head. No….she wouldn't lie like that…would she? Ugh this is all so confusing!
One thing is for sure, I have some serious thinking I have to do.