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My vision went black and I felt myself fall backwards but never felt the landing. Suddenly I heard talking.

"Look what you did!" I heard Abe exclaim.

"If you would have just let me talk to her!" Dimitri retorted.

"Whatever, Rose can you hear us?" Abe asked me. I tried moving but couldn't just yet. So instead I tried to speak, but it came out as more of a groan.

"Well at least she's conscious." Dimitri said. "Roza can you try and open your eyes?"

"I don't wanna," I mumbled. He chuckled along with Abe.

"Why not?" Abe asked.

"If I do that means I'm not dreaming and this is all real," I said.

"I hate to break it to you but it is real. Dimitri's an ass and apparently I'm your biological father," Abe said cutting to the chase.

"Oh fun," I said opening my eyes. I slowly sat up. My head kind of hurt so, I was trying to be as calm as possible. "One thing at a time. How long have you two known? I feel like such an idiot because all of the signs were right in front of me I was just too distracted to connect the dots."

"I knew as soon as you told me who your mom was, maybe a little before because you look just like me when I was younger. I didn't say anything because your mom had good reason to lie to you and I wanted to see how she felt about it first but she won't talk to me." Abe told me truthfully.

"I figured it out that day. You look just like him and then your moms reaction when you mentioned him. I wanted to tell you but mama told me not to, that Janine had her reasons and was doing what was right," Dimitri said.

"Why am I the last one to know? Abe, you wouldn't happen to either have a sound proof room or a room that you won't be able to hear us?" I asked turning to him feeling my anger rise but not wanting to yell at Dimitri in front of my apparent new found father.

"Umm the room you were in isn't soundproof but the furthest away from mine, that or the basement," he told me with a laugh.

"Good, if you hear any yelling just try to ignore it, me and Dimitri need to have a little chat. I'll deal with you later." I told him standing up and walking to the room I had just left. When we got in there I didn't say anything at first just tried to organize my chaotic thoughts.

"Roza…." He started but I quickly silenced him by raising my hand in the air, in the stop motion.

"No, you don't get to talk right this second," I told him coldly. "You seriously get pissed at me for hiding a photo from you for ONE night to PROTECT you from getting hurt, blame me for your girlfriend being a whore, get mad at me several other times over stupid shit. And all this time you knew the one thing that has been plaguing me for years now! You've known that, that was one of the biggest things I've ever wanted was to find out who my father. Yet you hid it from me! you have less than a minute to tell me why I shouldn't be furious with you!"

"You should be furious with me. hell I'm furious with me, but not about the father thing. I begged mama to let me tell you and she told me it wasn't my place. I wanted to tell you so bad but she said your mom had her reasons, and honestly I can't blame her. Abe is not the kind of person you should associate with," he said which really pissed me off more.

"First off yes, I should be furious and I am. Second it was your place as my BEST FRIEND to tell me! My mom might have had her reasons but it is MY right to know. I'm 18 years old, I choose who I associate with or not. I don't care if he might be involved in illegal activities or whatever it was you said, he's also the same guy that saved me in that alleyway, that came to check on me the next day to make sure I was ok, he's my father!" I told him, the anger was starting to fade but was quickly being replaced with the hurt from being lied to, for being blamed today, for never being good enough. "I still have questions about it all, but that's up to me to decide where this all goes. What hurts me the most is I've cried to you asking why I wasn't good enough for my father to stick around. Why he didn't want me? Yet you've known that he was here and my mom just didn't want to tell me who he was. You listened to me bawl my eyes out and yet when you found out, you kept it from me then have the nerve to get mad at ME for a bunch of stupid things."

"You are right, I should have told you. I just wanted to figure out exactly why she was hiding it from you and then I got distracted with this whole Tasha business," he said.

"Yea, Tasha," I muttered knowing that was where we were headed to. "Have you talked to her since?"

"No and I don't need to, I know what I said to you was horrible and it was so far from the truth. I had all of these emotions that had built up over the last week, the most prominent being anger. In all of that swirl of emotions I quit thinking just started lashing and unfortunately I lashed out on the wrong person. Viktoria came in my room earlier and slapped me back into reality and I realized just how much of a jerk I was. I don't think it was your fault, and I love your phone calls. I never should have said that it was all stupid selfish pointless drama because that is the furthest thing from the truth. That night was a pretty important night, I think that was the first night I realized I had more feelings for you than just friends, I just wouldn't admit it, not even to myself. The night in the alleyway when we thought you were lost and then Pavel called telling me that you needed me, I realized that I could not live the rest of my life without you in it. Whether it was as friends or whatever I realized I need you." He said but I quickly interrupted him.

"You don't need me. Your life would be perfectly fine if I wasn't in it," I told him softly adding in my head 'No one needs me.'

"Roza you have no idea. I can be having the worst possible day and just a text or a call from you instantly makes it better. I love talking to you all the time and my favorite part of everyday is when you call me or I can call you. I thought that was just normal between friends, but I was wrong. I was so wrong," he said softly grabbing my face making me look at him. "I didn't realize that I was head over heels in love with you. Sadly I didn't realize until you were gone. I started coming to terms with it the other day after our kiss, but I shoved it away. When you left the woods even though all I felt was the anger, I could actually feel my heart sink. When Vika came to my room earlier I realized I screwed everything up and I'm not sure I can fix it."

"What are you doing?" I asked giving him a weird look as he got down on his knees.

"I told you that if there was a next time that I would get down on my knees and literally beg for your forgiveness.," he said before clasping my hands in his. "Roza I am a complete and utterly dumb jerk that does not deserve your forgiveness, friendship, or even love. I know I'm going to have to work like crazy to gain your trust back, but if there's even the slightest hope can you please forgive me?"

I really didn't know what to say. Part of me wants to say 'yes I forgive you' but part of me is scared to. I don't want to forgive him and then him forgive Tasha and leave me high and dry. I don't want to forgive him and then him realize what I already know, that I'm not good enough for him.

"Honestly Dimitri part of me wants to say yes while the other parts still says no," I told him truthfully.

"I understand. Why do you want to say yes? He asked. I didn't know exactly where he was going with this, but I decided to play along.

"Because you're my best friend and I believe you are telling the truth and being 100% honest," I told him.

"Why do you want to say no?" he asked.

"Because what if after all of this you go back to Tasha and I just get hurt again? What if?" I had to stop myself before I revealed too much.

"What if….? What Roza? What were you going to say?" he asked looking me in the eyes. It felt as if he was staring directly into my soul like he already knows the answer but wants me to say it. I quickly looked away, not wanting him to realize just how deep my insecurities run.

"What if…you realize what I already know?" I asked still trying to avoid answering.

"What if I realize you're not good enough for me?" he asked already knowing he was right. I just nodded my head. "Roza I am so sorry. I am sorry that you feel that. Sorry that, that idiot Stan has made you think this and that I helped make you feel like this, but if you give me a chance I will try my hardest to make it up to you. I will remind you everyday of how amazing you are and how beautiful you are. I'm the one who doesn't deserve you and one day hopefully you will realize that. Just please start with forgiving me and we'll work from there. I can guarantee there is absolutely no chance of me getting back together with Tasha. Being completely honest I kind of got excited when I saw Tasha with that guy because it meant I was free to be with you. If you want we can just work on trying to be best friends again."

"I don't know if I can just be friends with you anymore. Not now that I know I'm in love with you," I told him pulling away and walking towards the door of the balcony. I paused and looked out the glass.

"I don't know if I can either but I'm willing to try. Anything to keep you in my life and not pissed at me or hurt because of me," he said coming up behind me. "I love you Roza more than anything and I will do whatever it takes to get your trust and forgiveness."

"Ok…" I told him.

"Ok? Ok what?" he asked.

"We'll try it. I don't know if I can fully trust you or even forgive you all the way but we can try."