Hey good people of Planet Earth! I have some great news for you guys! Okay, since its summer vacation here, school's closed and that means I have more time for you guys! So, the chances of me updating every week will probably stop. NB: I said probably. Don't worry guys, I swear I'll try and be faster.
And here's the new chapter!
I Own Nothing
Ally's POV
I flipped yet another page of my novel as Tasha continued to play a melody of the piano. I stopped reading and looked up at her, "Tasha, you know you're really good, right?"
She stopped playing, "Yeah, I know. But don't even start, I can't play in public."
I asked, "Stage fright?"
She shook her head, "Well, yes and no. No, because even though I have stage fright, it's not as bad as yours and I just don't have the time. I mean, I have school and then I have sports and clubs, not to mention my weekly book club-"
"You have a book club?" I say, "You're so lucky, I wanted to start one, but no one came..." Tasha sighed, "If only you lived here," she said. I nodded in agreement, smiling wistfully. But, I would be far away from Trish, and I'd see Austin every day.
I shook my head, wanting to forget him. I wasn't planning on talking to him since the incident earlier today. He was all I could think of. To be honest, I wasn't even reading this book. I mean, I don't even know what it's about! It's like almost every thought I think of, reminds me of him. I tossed the book onto the table and walked over to the piano, sitting next to Tasha on the bench.
"But if you could, you would?" I asked her, "Could do music, I mean."
Tasha nodded, "Yeah, of course I would!" I smiled, "I had no idea you loved music so much!"
"Yeah, I do."
"So I'm guessing you like DJ Izzy?" I asked. Tasha tensed beside me, "Uh, not really. He's... weird." My eyebrows rose in interest, "Oh really?"
Tasha nodded, looking away, "yeah..."
I inquired, "Why so tense, hmm?" Tasha shrugged, "Nothing. So, any new songs?" I smiled; Tasha totally has something to do with him.
"Yes, actually, I do. It's about these two friends and one of them is hiding something from the other and it's killing her on the inside... remind you of anything?" Tasha shook her head, not looking me in the eye. I crossed my arms, "Tasha please tell me, please? We're best friends, and best friends don't hide anything from each other."
Tasha smiled and looked up, "We're best friends?"
"Yeah, of course! You see, we're so close you can tell me anything. No pressure, I'm just saying. You mean so much to me, it actually hurts that you're keeping something from me," I leaned in, giving her my biggest, cheesiest grin. I watched as she shifted in discomfort.
"I'm not telling you," she mumbled. "Aha!" I exclaimed, pointing at her, "So you do have a secret!"
"Ally, Ally, Ally," Tasha said, "Don't act like you have a bunch of secrets you won't tell anyone. In that book of yours..." I could feel triumphant grin drop.
"Okay, you're right," I admitted, "Sorry." Tasha exhaled in relief, "its okay."
"Hey Ally!" Austin said from behind us. I hung my head, silently praying to God, hoping that he'd go away. Sadly, he didn't.
Tasha got up and left the room. I could tell she didn't want to see him either. I looked up at him, my smile completely gone.
"Austin, go away," I said rudely, standing up. "Why?" he asked, hurt. My heart sank, I felt guilty. Then again, he hurt me a lot, so he should be the guilty one.
"I don't want to talk to you," I replied, looking away. Knowing Austin, he'd probably never leave me alone after this action. What I didn't expect, however, was for him to hug me. My body stiffened as he rubbed my back comfortingly.
"It's going to be fine, Ally," he said quietly, "She wouldn't want you to mourn on her death forever." My eyes widened in shock, and I instantly pushed him away from me, hard.
"Austin how could you?" I asked him in anger, "Tasha and I were really upset, and who made us feel well again? Ross. And when we saw each other at the mall, you just ignored me! Do you even know how much that hurt?"
"I never meant to hurt you, Als," he said, "You mean a lot to me." I scoffed, tears of anger falling down my cheeks, "Yeah right. I'm just your neighbour, nothing else, aren't I?!" His eyes widened in shock, "Y-you heard that?"
"You bet I did, and that made me feel even worse." Austin reached over to dry my tears, but I just slapped his hand away.
"I can explain," he started as I pushed him to the door.
"Don't bother," I snapped, "Just get away from me and leave me the heck alone!"
"Ally-"
I tried to close the door, but he put his foot to stop me. "Ally, please, just give me a second," he begged.
"I hate you," I spat before pushing him away completely and slamming the door shut. I leaned against it, breathing deeply as I tried to stop crying. When I didn't, I slid to the ground and hugged my knees. I hated fighting with him...
Today was officially the worst day of my life.
Later that night, I lay on my bed with me stereo blasting. It seemed to me that this was the only thing I could do to stop me from thinking about you-know-who...
"Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?"
I sighed to myself as I listened to the lyrics, "It's like this song was written for me."
"Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside, you're in ruins."
I frowned, thinking of Austin.
"One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins
One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...
Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died, you're in ruins
One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I."
"Go away," I said as someone knocked on my door. Whoever the intruder was, they ignored me and came in anyway. Sonya. I turned away from her, hoping she would go away.
I heard her sigh as she sat on the bed.
"What do you want?" I asked her. The song changed from 21 Guns to Paradise, by Coldplay. I closed my eyes and listened to the lyrics, ignoring Sonya.
"When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes."
I sang along to the lyrics, imagining my every own paradise. I would in my most favourite place on the planet (besides the pickles store) – my practise room, with Trish. We were talking and laughing, as usual, and then Tasha would come in, joining our conversation. Ross and Dez would be in front of the flat screen TV, playing video games. Downstairs, mom and dad would be managing the store together. I smiled, that would be perfect. But, I can't help to think someone is missing... I hate to admit who he is...
"When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
And the bullets catch in her teeth
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
In the night the stormy night away she'd fly
And dreams of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise."
Someone started tapping on my window, and I opened my eyes to see Austin staring directly at me. I shot him a dirty look and turned over, meeting Sonya. I rolled my eyes in annoyance, I was trapped. My paradise was gone.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
She'd dream of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
La-la-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
And so lying underneath those stormy skies
She'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
The song ended, and Austin was still outside my window, begging me to open it. To, 'give him a chance.' I closed the curtain.
"Why did you do that?" Sonya asked, finally saying something.
"Why do you care?" The next song started, If I Were a Boy, by Beyonce. It's like my iPod knows which songs I actually want to listen to right now. The things Shuffle does.
"Because I know you like him," she replied quietly, "And I can see he likes you too." I laughed bitterly, "Yeah right. What are you doing here anyway?!"
"I heard the fight between you and Austin in the music room," she began, and I just wanted to say..." She paused for a moment, and I thought she was actually going to say something nice. Thought.
"That you're completely and totally stupid for pushing him away!" she said. I glared at her, "get out of my room."
"Wait, I'm not done," she said, inhaling deeply, "And although I really hate you because I'm madly in love with Austin..."
"Yes," I said, motioning for her to continue with my hand. Sonya looked at me, "That's it," she chirped.
"Get out."
She didn't need to be told again, and strutted out of my room. The tapping started again from my window.
"Austin, go away!" I called, irritated. The sound of a guitar came as a response.
"I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.
You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of it.
One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.
You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
[Album:]All those fairy tales are full of it.
[Album:]One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone
Yeah, Yeah, Now baby don't hang up,
So I can tell you what you need to know,
Baby I'm begging you just please don't go,
So I can tell you what you need to know
My eyebrows raised in in surprise, this song was so sweet, it was killing me. I was finding hard to stay mad at him.
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my shirt,
You can tell it I'm ballin'.
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
That little piece of shit with you.
I really had no idea that Austin could rap...
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of it.
One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone..."
Austin finished the song, "Ally, please! I even wrote that song for you, please I just want to talk to you." I hesitated before opening the curtain by a fraction. He was sitting on the rail of his balcony, his long legs dangling.
Austin looked at me, surprised. For a few minutes we said nothing.
"Well, are you going to say anything?" I asked. Austin cleared his throat, "Um, I only said those things because I can't be seen with you..." My eyes widened in shock, "Is that supposed to comfort me?!" I spat in anger.
Austin began to stutter, "No, Ally that's not what I meant! It came out wrong, I swear I didn't mean-"
I turned away from him, fresh tears falling. He is becoming such a jerk to me lately, I thought, but he seemed pretty upset in his song.
Plus, the fact that I was falling for him wasn't really helping. I really wanted to forgive him, but at the same time... I hate him. My phone rang – Trish was calling. I smiled sadly, Trish is the one I need right now.
I sniffed, trying to stop crying. "Ally, what's wrong?!" Trish asked when I picked up.
"Austin..."
"Oh, that little... what did he do this time?"
"Well, we kind of kissed-"
"Kind of?! Did you, or did you not?"
"Did," I replied, "And then he started acting like he didn't want to be seen with me!" I said, crying harder. "Oh, Ally!" Trish said comfortingly from the other side of the line, "I don't think he meant that..."
"He actually told me so," I told her.
"Well in that case: I only have one piece of advice; revenge," she laughed evily.
I sighed, "Trish, I don't think..."
"Let me handle this, sweetie. I know exactly how to get him back. In other news, guess whose song is on the radio!"
"Who?"
"DJ Izzy is playing Austin right now! Isn't that awesome?! Oh wait, you don't like him now... isn't that a surprise? The song is called 'Payphone' I think..." I forgot my sorrows for a second, "What?!"
"Yeah," she replied, "It's, like, the one of the best songs ever!"
"Trish, how can that be on the radio if he just sang it to me?" I asked, running to my window. Austin had gone back inside, but I spotted a tiny silhouette running. Ross.
"Sorry Trish, I gotta go," I said, hanging up. What the heck was he doing?
I ran out of the room, down the stairs and out of the house just as Tasha left the gate. I ran to the gate, apologising to the startled guard, and followed Tasha and Ross.
Where were they going at nine in the evening?! I thought, where they running away? I contemplated on whether or not I should call for help. My stamina decreased, but thankfully, they had stopped and were... at someone's house.
Relief washed over me, but I stayed behind, just in case. A woman opened the door for them and let them in. I turned around and started to walk home. Tasha and Ross were responsible, I'm pretty sure they will be okay. Suddenly, a pair of arms grabbed me into the shadows. I screamed, trying to kick whoever this person was.
"Allyson!" Austin yelled, irritated. I relaxed for a moment, before pushing him roughly away from me.
"What the heck are you doing here?!" I asked him.
"Well, after you stopped talking to me, I saw you run out of the gate from my window. I had no idea where you were going, so I followed you! I thought you were so angry with me you were running away, and here I am, finding you here instead of a circus and you decide to kick me!" he shouted, obviously pissed. Then, he hugged me, "I was really worried about you."
"Why?" I asked him.
"Because, I like you!" he said, breaking the embrace and staring me in the eye. I looked away, "You said you couldn't be seen with me," I said, tears welling up again. I have cried way too much today.
"I didn't mean it like that! I just... I want to be with you, but we can't be together..." I shook my head at him, "You really need to get your act straight. First you're nice to me then you're a jerk. Just stop lying to me, saying that you like me, because it hurts, Austin! I'm not a toy, can't you see that I'm tired of these games?! We just keep going in circles and I'm sick of it!"
"Ally-"
"No. Talk to me when you know what to do with yourself." With that, I turned around and started walking back home, which was a couple of blocks away, fortunately.
I didn't turn to face Austin; I didn't need to know that he was right behind me. It had been a long day, and I couldn't wait to get back to Miami - away from all of this drama.
Away from Austin.
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