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"Rise and shine!" Noodle yelled into the living room.
2D jumped up and toppled on the floor. Rubbing his head and groaning, he looked at Noodle with squinted eyes.
"Russel and I made pancakes!" she grinned at him before leaving the room.
"For fuck's sake.."
The singer slowly got up and after a lot of stretching, got himself ready. After having done everything, he stumbled to the kitchen, following the smell of pancakes.
Russel, Murdoc and Noodle were already eating, Murdoc looking extremely moody. 2D sat down at the table and starting piling the food onto his plate.
"We got anything planned for today?" he asked Russel, taking a bite of his pancake.
"Well, Noods and I were planning on driving off somewhere and taking a long walk-"
"I'll come with you," 2D then said hastily.
Murdoc looked up and glared at him. The singer pretended he didn't notice. Russel and Noodle glanced at them, then at each other.
"Actually, we were planning on going with just the two of us.." Noodle said, shrugging.
"Why the fuck have you planned this holiday if all you're going to do is go out with just the two of you?" Murdoc asked, annoyed.
"What're we supposed to do all day?" 2D added.
"That's for you two to figure out. Bonding time!" the guitarist grinned.
Murdoc just slowly shook his head.
"No," 2D said simply.
Noodle rolled her eyes. "Yes. And just for your negative attitude, we really are going to stay away all day. This is your own fault."
"But.. how will we eat?" 2D asked, frowning.
Russel chuckled. "Sandwiches ain't that hard to make, D. We'll bring something home for dinner."
"We're in the middle of nowhere and you're just going to get us some pizza or something?" Murdoc snapped.
"For your information, there are fast food joints next to the supermarket. Maybe we won't get anything, then," Noodle said, sticking out her tongue.
"How far away is that supermarket?" 2D asked, remembering how long it took them to get home yesterday.
"About three hours away," Russel answered.
"Can't we just go home?" Murdoc moaned.
"No. We're off then. Why don't you two take a walk as well? It's lovely outside," Noodle said brightly.
She and Russel put their dishes in the sink, and after Noodle had given the boys a peck on the cheek, they left.
"This is getting ridiculous," Murdoc growled, staring at the recently shut door.
2D didn't reply. He just shoved his plate away and put his head on the table, shielding it with his arms and closing his eyes.
It was silent for a long time. After a while he glanced up, thinking Murdoc had left. But the latter was just sitting there opposite him, staring at him. They stayed like that for a while, just staring at each other wordlessly.
"Want to go for that walk?" Murdoc then asked.
2D hesitated, then nodded slowly. What else could he do?
A few minutes later 2D was putting on his jacket.
"No point in that, it's bloody roasting," Murdoc suddenly said, appearing from nowhere.
"Jesus Christ!" the singer gasped, making Murdoc smirk a little.
"Ready to go?" the bassist asked, a teasing hint in his voice.
2D narrowed his eyes at him, but nodded. Murdoc held the door open for him with a grin, confirming 2D's suspicions that he was being mocked. He ignored it, however and stomped outside, not even glancing at Murdoc.
A while later they were walking through the forest, the branches snapping under their feet. They hadn't said a word till now. 2D could feel his cheeks burning due to the awkward silence, but he wasn't going to be the one to break it.
"Stu.." Murdoc suddenly began.
2D flinched. "What?"
"What did you dream about last night?"
The singer stopped walking, blinking at this odd question. "I.. what?"
Murdoc stopped as well, squinting at the sun shining in his eyes. "What did you dream about last night?" he repeated.
"Why?" 2D asked incredulously.
"Just tell me," the bassist said pulling 2D behind a tree so he wasn't staring into the sun any more.
2D stared at him for a few moments, frowning. "I.. I had another nightmare."
He sat down slowly, leaning his back against the tree. Murdoc sat down opposite him as well.
"What about?" the bassist pressed on.
"Well, we were.. hang on, fuck that! I'm not telling you!" 2D suddenly snapped, remembering why they were here in the first place.
"Stuart, please?" Murdoc insisted, leaning forward.
The singer winced. "Stop fucking calling me that!"
A smirk overtook the bassist's features. "Why? It's your name."
"I don't care. I hate it when you call me that," 2D muttered, avoiding Murdoc's eyes.
"Oh, you hate it? Really now?" the latter asked sceptically.
"Yeah, I do. So stop it."
"That's very strange, because the look on your face whenever I call you by your real name doesn't exactly tell me that you hate it," the older man said smugly.
"Well, you're wrong. And stupid," the singer grumbled, his face turning red.
"Oh, Stuart. Stuart, Stuart, Stuart," Murdoc sighed, shaking his head.
2D winced every single time, biting his lip and covering his ears. Murdoc grinned evilly, sitting next to the singer, their bodies only inches away from each other. He pulled 2D's hands away from his reddened ears, leaning towards him.
"Why are you covering your ears, Stu? Stuey?" he laughed at his own brilliantness. "Stu-pot?"
"Fuck off!" 2D snarled, inching away.
The bassist moved closer, their bodies now touching. He rested his chin on 2D's shoulder, his mouth right next to his ear.
"I don't think you hate it when I call you Stuart.." he whispered, smirk still tugging at his lips.
The singer shivered, chills running down his spine. Murdoc leaned even closer.
"I think you love it," he then growled.
2D's knees went weak despite himself, and he took a few deep breaths before attempting to stand up.
"Fuck off," he then hissed, fuming, then walking away briskly, trying to overcome his wobbly knees.
"Stuart, come back," Murdoc called after him, still laughing.
2D ignored him, quickening his pace. He was absolutely furious with himself. Not only had he ensured Murdoc that he had an immense weakness for the bassist using his name, he had also completely embarrassed himself and let Murdoc laugh at him. He knew he should have just stayed home.
When he was sure the bassist wasn't near him, he sat down at a pond and angrily stared at his reflection. He just sat there for a while, glaring at himself.
"Stupid. Stupid, stupid stupid," he muttered, dejectedly pulling his fags out of his pocket and lighting one.
"Don't be so harsh on yourself. It's very understandable that you melt hearing me say your name. You're not the only one," he heard from behind him.
2D stiffened, forcing himself to not turn around or react in any other way. He heard Murdoc nearing him, and he closed his eyes, his back rigid with anger and embarrassment. His eyes shot open when he felt a weight on his shoulders, realising that the bassist was leaning his arms on his shoulders, hands brushing the younger man's chest.
"What are you doing!" the latter spluttered, trying to move away and almost toppling into the pond.
"Idiot," Murdoc sighed as he managed to pull 2D back just in time.
He turned the singer around so he was facing him. He gave him a grin.
"You all right?"
2D blinked, only now realising what had just happened. He frowned.
"No," he snapped, trying to stand up before being pushed back down by Murdoc.
"Oh, come on. I was just teasing," the bassist said, raising his eyebrows and smiling.
"It wasn't funny," 2D huffed, turning away with a pout.
"All right. I'm sorry."
The singer turned around incredulously. "You're what?"
Murdoc rolled his eyes. "I'm sorry. Don't make me say it again."
2D squinted one eye. "You're not making fun of me?"
The older man took a deep breath and pulled 2D closer to him, wrapping his arms around his neck.
"No," he said quietly into the blue-haired man's hair. "I'm not making fun of you."
2D had stiffened, forbidding himself to return the hug. He felt Murdoc give a small sigh before letting go.
"You want to know why I asked you what you dreamed?" he suddenly said.
The singer nodded curiously.
"I.. I couldn't sleep so I went into the living room to read. You started muttering.. you started muttering my name. You looked all frightened, you were sweating and groaning and shit.. I tried speaking to you, y'know – I read somewhere that you should do that when a person talks in their sleep – and as soon as I said your name you stopped. You didn't look scared any more, you just looked peaceful."
Murdoc's eyes went up to meet 2D's after he had finished talking. The latter glanced away.
"I dreamed I was lost and I was pretty sure I was going to die. I could only call out for one person – if I called for the wrong person, I would definitely die. So somehow you were the first that came to my mind, so I called you.. then I heard your voice, and.. I don't remember. I must have stopped dreaming."
"We never stop dreaming. You must have forgotten," Murdoc said quietly.
2D nodded, feeling awkward. He felt like he had to explain himself.
"Look, you know I get nightmares all the time.. about different people as well. This time it was you, next time it'll be Russel, time after that it'll be Noodle.. it doesn't mean anything," he said nervously.
"How long have I been the one you've been dreaming about, then?" Murdoc asked calmly.
2D didn't answer for a while, staring at the cigarette butt lying on the ground. "A long time," he then admitted softly.
Neither of them said anything for a moment.
"D'you think it would be different if I was with you?" the bassist then asked, his voice still quiet.
The singer took a deep breath and nodded. Murdoc sighed, leaning forward again. He pulled 2D towards him, kissing his temple. 2D didn't move away, he just gave in, leaning onto Murdoc as the latter wrapped an arm around his shoulder.
"You know what's really unfair?" 2D suddenly began, muffled because his face was buried in Murdoc's side.
The latter moved away a little so he could understand 2D properly.
"What?"
"I can never seem to do what's best for me. I know what I should do, but I always end up doing the opposite. I always end up doing the thing that's going to hurt me most."
2D moved away as he began to speak louder.
"I mean, it dates all the way back to when I was a kid. Look at my fucking hair. I knew it wasn't a good idea to climb the sodding tree, but no, little Stu-Pot wanted to explore. So what did he do? He climbed the fucking tree. And Paula. I knew she had a history of cheating, fuck, she cheated on her boyfriend with me, before becoming my girlfriend. I knew she wasn't good for me, but she was beautiful and amazing and I was so fucking in love that I ignored it all. And what did she do? She went and cheated on my with my best mate. Fucking ironic, if you ask me."
2D was fuming by now, and Murdoc just stared at him in confusion, at a loss for words.
"Fucking ironic that the bloke whom my girlfriend cheated on me with, later turned out to be this. My 'boyfriend'. If you'd told me then what I agreed to do now, I would have laughed at you. I hated your guts back then. If you'd told me then that I'd be feeling things about.." 2D faltered.
"If you'd told me then that I'd be feeling certain things now, I would have laughed at you. I thought I was never going to speak to you again," he continued on a quieter note.
"Funny. All the times you've made me so angry I thought I was going to punch your face in and leave the band, it never happened, did it? I always forgave you. I shouldn't. Why am I like this?"
The singer buried his face in his hands, all the energy seemed to have left him. It was silent for a long time. He felt a hand on his shoulder.
"2D, I know I'm a fucking awful person.. you don't need to tell me that, because believe me, I'm aware of it."
The younger man glanced up.
"But.. you won't be hurt again, okay? I know you're still fucking angry with me, and I don't blame you. I don't blame you if you fucking hate my guts – again. But I'm not going to hurt you any more."
2D shook his head. "The thing is, you don't even do it on purpose. You don't even realise you're doing it till afterwards," he said dejectedly. "And I'm done with it. I don't want to be hurt any more."
He sighed, standing up. "I'll head back."
With those words he left, leaving Murdoc behind alone.
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