Hitting Rock Bottom
(This is the re edited version of the second chapter. You will know if the next chapter is re edited by this same Author's Note.)
Disclaimer: I never really got why this was important but whatever. Richelle Mead owns Vampire Academy. I own nothing except for love for Adrian.
Previously:"What do you mean she won't be going alone? You took the job, didn't you? You're going to be her guardian" The words hurt coming out of my mouth.
He nodded once. Before I could even think I walked over to him and slapped him across the face. "Asshole."
"Wait, I can explain, Rose!" I glared at him, I don't think I've ever been mad at anyone like this before. I walked out before I could do anything I might regret later and left a piece of me behind
Chapter 2: Surprise!
What was that? I turned my head and peered into the patch of woods behind me. Nothing. God this was a stupid idea.
I was in the middle of the forest behind St. Vladimirs. I came out here looking for some peace, you know like in the movies when a hero or heroine go somewhere like the beach or a garden or whatever looking for an epiphany
Unfortunately since there was a lack of beaches and gardens at St. Vladimirs, I settled for this damned dreary forest. I hoped that i would find a patch of green grass and lie down looking up at the blue sky. But apparently since my life really sucks and someone really wants me to see that, there was snow everywhere and when I looked at the sky it was gray. But whatever, I'm staying until I get my damn epiphany. I really wanted to know what I should do now. Of course I still love Dimitri but do I ignore him until he leaves or do I fight for him to stay. Maybe I should hit him again, then I'll be responsible and try to talk to him, but only after the hitting.
When I finally found a semi-dry tree trunk and sat down I realized my problem was that I couldn't relax because I couldn't sit still. I felt jittery and mad, I felt like beating someone up, well not just anyone but him. Dimitri Asshole Belikov.
Just thinking the name made me even angrier. There he was acting like everything was normal when it turned out he was with Tasha Ozera. I felt like strangling both of them.
But that isn't fair. A small part of my mind said. Tasha didn't do anything wrong in her mind. She didn't know you were together. I still have a right to be mad. And I was. I still felt anxious and hurt. So unlike normal Rose who would go eat sweets to lighten up or maybe deteriorate someones ego I did a very stupid thing. I punched a tree.
"Holy Shit!" I yelled. I tried to open my hand but a white hot searing pain ran through it.
My pinky and middle finger looked broken. Little pieces of bark were stuck between my fingers and when I looked up I saw I hadn't even put a dent in the tree. Somehow that was what made me the angriest. I felt a little out of control, similar to when I was overcome by the darkness right before the attack, before Dimitri and I-. Dammit calm down Rose, control your anger. I focused on my breathing and the pain in my hand. I had to get to the doctor.
I dragged myself out of the damn woods heading toward the Doctor's office but then I thought better of it. All the doctor could do is put my hand in a cast and let my hand heal for two weeks, But Lissa could fix it in less than a minute. I hurried to Lissa, keeping my broken hand close to my stomach.
"Lissa!" I barged right into her room just in time to see Lissa and Christian spring apart. Whoops, I didn't mean to interrupt them but I didn't think to check the bond if she was busy or not. But it was around 7:30 in the morning, couldn't they stay away from each other for a few hours?
"Don't you ever knock?" Christian scowled.
"Nope." I turned to Lissa who was blushing. "Lissa I need a favor."
"Um, sure. What is it?" I showed her my hand, wincing when I moved it.
"What happened? Rose what did you do now?"
"Not important, just fix it and then I'll leave you guys to it." I joked weakly, I was in a lot of pain. Lissa blushed even more while Christian rolled his eyes. Lissa didn't ask me any more questions and took my arm and through the bond I felt the spirit surge through her. I winced when the bones righted them but soon the pain was gone and I could flex my fingers without wincing.
"Thanks Liss." I was about to walk out. But Lissa pulled on my hand.
"What happened Rose?" The pain from my hand had distracted me from Dimitri but now It all came back to me and I felt my face harden.
"Nothing." Lissa didn't know about Dimitri and me, and I wasn't going to change that now that it was over.
"Your mad, did something happen?"
"Don't worry about it, It's a guardian thing." I pleaded her with my eyes to leave it at that.
"Then maybe you should talk to Dimitri." She offered.
"I wouldn't want to disturb him or anything." I scowled, Lissa noticed and frowned.
"Is it because of-" Lissa started but Christian interrupted.
"Oh, did you hear Rose? Dimitri's going to become Tasha's guardian." I winced. but this time it wasn't from pain.
"Yeah I heard." I managed. "Listen I gotta go. They're having a meeting soon of the field experience thing." After the Strigoi attack the Guardians decided to temporarily end field experience but after some debate they were going to tell us what was up. I was pretty apathetic about the whole thing. I had already fought plenty of Strigoi, what was protecting a Moroi from another guardian.
"Okay Rose, but if you want to talk i'll be right here."
"Thanks but I'm sure you'll be busy" I murmured, glancing at Christian. Lissa didn't hear but Christian did.
"What was that Buffy?" He smirked.
"Nothing Sparky. I'll see you guys later." I walked out closing the door behind me. I walked into my room changing out of my dirty clothes. Although I didn't sweat today, I was pretty dirty from playing in the dirt. I managed to throw on a pair of jeans and white tank top. I let my hair down and grabbed my stake(they didn't take it away after the attack) and walked out.
"Hey Rose." Eddie Castile walked up to me as I walked out of the Girl's Dorms. Eddie had been doing poorly since the attack. A friend of his had been killed so he'd been mourning in his room since the attack. I hadn't seen him since. The school had been shut down since the attack and all classes were cancelled while new guardians had been called in and many funerals were held.
"Hey." I turned and gave him a half smile. It must not have looked too normal because he asked if anything is wrong.
"Its nothing Eddie. I'm just really tired." I assured him and he nodded. I watched him out of the corner of my eye while we walked to the cafeteria. He seemed a lot better, but more haunted. Eddie was one of my close friends and I hadn't seen him this upset since the Mason accident.
We were silent until we entered the cafeteria. The tables were gone but there were still chairs lined up. I hadn't seen many of these people in a few weeks. I saw Meredith near the front frowning. I also saw a few of the other Dhampirs in my class but they all looked so different, so grim. I remember when I had made my first kill and how much I had matured from that experience. It hurt me to see that everyone else had gone through the same thing. Eddie and I sat near the back, We didn't have to worry about awkward silences because Alberta came out as soon as we sat down.
"Okay, now we all know why we're here, we're here to discuss your field experience. After a few weeks of discussion, we have decided to continue the field experience. But since there was a slight...drop of students," I flinched. "we are going to assign different Moroi to some of you..."
That was all I needed to hear. I was probably still going to be assigned to Christian so I didn't have much to worry about. I zoned in and out of the speech, feeling miserable. Was this feeling of sadness from the attack and Dimitri ever going to go away? I thought.
It was a weird feeling, I had never felt this bad about a guy before. I couldn't breathe right. My eyes burned but I couldn't cry. I wished I could just get away from here.
"... Guardian Belikov," My head snapped up, "has agreed to train you for these classes."
What classes? Rose can't you listen for once in your damn life? Stop spacing out, this might be important.
"What classes is she talking about?" I leaned toward Eddie.
"The one-on-one training. Every single one of us will have to train with Belikov at least once a week." My jaw dropped.
"I... I thought he was leaving." I whispered. Eddie glanced back at the chairs behind Alberta which held Stan, Dimitri and some other guardians. I looked too and met Dimitri's stare. He looked guilty and looked away from me. My face hardened and I turned back to Eddie.
"Apparently not." He stated. Damn, now I really will have to be responsible and talk things out with him.
I'm always reading in these types of Fanfics where Rose breaks down crying and jumps off cliffs(whoops, wrong fandom) but I don't think that's what the Rose I love would do. She's an incredibly strong female character and she doesn't need a man to be happy, even if he does wear a duster and have a Russian accent.
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