So, here comes the second chapter. Thank you for reviewing, following or even favoring my story. I hope you like this chapter!

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Every day Callie would come home to a cold place. There was no happiness at home any more. Arizona would be lying in bed, sleeping or watching TV. Lately Sofia cried a lot. She spent more time at babysitters or in kindergarten than she should do. But Callie had to work and Arizona was caught in her own world of misery. Guilt was a feeling that Callie felt a lot these days. She felt guilty for not being able to save her wife's leg, for neglecting her own child and for not being able to help Arizona through her pain.

"I brought you food," Callie laid it down in front of Arizona and hoped for a reaction.

"I'm not a baby. I can cook for myself." Arizona looked madly at Callie and pushed the food away.

No matter what she did, said or tried, Arizona would find a way to twist around her words, "I never said that you are a baby. It's food. Just food. I've brought you food before the accident." Callie lost her patience and yelled back.

"I don't want your fucking food!" Arizona screamed back and threw it onto the ground. Callie just looked sad and mad at Arizona and stood up. She closed the door with a loud bang and could hear Arizona starting to cry again. Her own tears rushed down her face. She hated these fights. She hated them so much and she didn't know how much more of them she could take. She needed a moment of peace. She took the keys and went outside again, back to the hospital, a place that felt warmer than her home.

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"Hey, do you even have a shift?" Cristina asked Callie who went through some patient's history. Callie didn't even look up but shook her head. "Another fight, huh?"

"Yup. That's my life now," Callie whispered. "Lucky me. My best friend died and right now even my wife, the love of my life, seems to be dead since months."

Cristina looked motionless at Callie, "I didn't mean it like that. It's just…whatever." Callie wanted to walk away but Cristina pulled her back.

"Let's go to a bar. My shift is over too." She suggested.

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"She just so…so…lost and I want to help her but everything I do is wrong. She hates me. I think she really hates me," Callie slurred and took another sip from the beer.

"Nah, she doesn't hate you. She hates the world." Cristina slurred as well and put her arm around Callie, "Did she ever tell you what happened in those three days?"

Callie shook her head, "I'm happy if she even talks to me for more than a minute a day."

"Do you want to know what exactly happened?"

Callie looked confused at Cristina. She knew that this offer was not easy for Cristina. "Yes, please!"

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Cristina, Meredith, Mark, Derek and Arizona were sitting on the ground and shivering. It was freezing cold and soon it would be dark. Meredith cuddled closer to her husband while Cristina leaned against her. She looked over to Mark who had his head on Arizona's lap. Arizona couldn't stop coughing while her eyes were closed and it was then that Cristina saw the blood coming out of her mouth. She immediately jumped up and shook Arizona a little to wake her up but Arizona obviously had a high fever and let her eyes closed.

"We have to stay awake. All of us." Cristina screamed. "You too" she shook Arizona harder and then took her hand and squeezed her hurt leg. Immediately Arizona started to scream loudly, with tears rushing down her face and she tried to catch air.

"Okay, no one closes their eyes. We need to find a way back home," Cristina yelled while everyone nodded.

"Robbins, calm down!" Mark squeezed Arizona's hand while she cried in pain. He wished that he could just move and hold her tightly but he was hurt himself.

"Mark, we have to live. We must not die. We can't…Callie and our daughter need us. Promise me we'll live," Arizona said feeling helpless.

"Robbins, I can't promise you that. But I promise you that I'll try. I'll try to live and you have to promise me the same. No matter what, okay?" Mark said slowly. He was loosing his energy.

Suddenly Arizona started to laugh loudly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I don't want to laugh. I think I'm still in a shock. But…that's just too absurd. I…I never really liked you. Well, a bit but it was never my dream to become family with you. You…you were arrogant and you stared at my boobs. Still do."

"Yeah, because they are good boobs!" Mark smiled and looked at her chest.

"Quit it. I know they are. Callie told me the same. And here we are now and…" suddenly Arizona's laugh turned into a sob, "And I don't want my life to continue without you. You are my family now too. I…I'm not good in letting people into my heart. We moved so much when I was little. I never had real friends, except of Timmy but…you are friend to me. We have a daughter together and I need you too, you know. As weird as that may sound…you have a place in my heart." Arizona looked down at Mark who smiled softly.

Mark wiped her tears with his hand and nodded, "You too, Arizona!"

Arizona immediately burst out into laughing again, "This is not right. We would never admit that if we weren't hurt and about to die. Mark…I don't want us to die. I'm scared of the death," she then whispered.

"I'm not scared. Lexie will be there and your brother too. But you won't die."

"And you won't either! Please promise me you won't," Arizona tried again.

"Blondie, you can't ask for such promises. But I try. Promised," Mark closed his eyes and dozed off again.

"That was just the first day. We were all exhausted, Lexie was already dead and I was sure that we didn't have that much time to save Mark and Arizona. They were pale as ghosts and Arizona was starting to get a higher fever," Cristina told Callie who listened carefully. "Well, the next days we were hopeless and on our last day we didn't have water left. Arizona started to hallucinate real hard because of her fever. She talked to you nonstop and it was driving us crazy. I yelled at her more than once and I tried to get the bugs out of Arizona's leg but there were so many. I don't know how much she remembers but I remember very clear how she made me promise to tell you how much she loved you.

"Please, tell her that…that she is the love of my life. That I don't regret any minute that I spent with her and…" Arizona coughed. Blood came out of her mouth again.

"Stop it. You won't die." Cristina said with tears in her eyes while she tried to get these disgusting bugs that were eating Arizona alive out of the leg. The leg looked infected and Cristina was sure that it needed to be amputated.

"I…have a fever. My leg is broken into many pieces and bugs eat me. My rib is probably broken and hurt my lung. I spit out blood. Mark…Mark is already half gone and…" suddenly Arizona started to laugh. Cristina looked shocked at the doctor. How could she laugh now? "There is no way that I will make it out alive."

"God, first she laughed and then when Mark wouldn't wake up any more, she cried nonstop. Not loud but silently. She was in shock, like we all were." Cristina whispered. "It's just hard, Callie. She will come back to you. I came back to Owen and I didn't even loose a leg and…you know, she kept on saying that you'd know what to do if she was still alive. You'd know how to save her leg. I think she knew that there was a high chance of loosing it but when she talked about you, she smiled. It was not your fault that she lost it but if I was in her position and Owen had promised me to save my leg but then couldn't, I'd be pissed as well. She just has to get over it and stop being stubborn," Cristina said honestly and continued talking.

"Oh my god, oh my god. Help us. You have to help us!" Cristina screamed when the helicopter was above them. And then there were other people. People that would save them. Although she had not slept for three days, she had still energy left. She was the one giving everyone water, getting the bugs out, making sure that everyone was a little warm. "He's unconscious. Be careful with his hand. She has a fractured leg. And…there is another one of us. Dead. And the pilot is still in the plane," Cristina said. Only Meredith, Derek and her were conscious and could talk. Mark was still lying on Arizona's lap while Arizona was almost on top of him. She couldn't even hold her body straight.

And then they were on their way back home. That was when Arizona woke up and started screaming.

"I will never get her scream out of my mind. She screamed so loud and in fear and pain that it was hurting my ears."

"No, no, I don't want to fly. We will crash. No, get me out of here. Get me out of here…"

"Shhh…Arizona, you're not in a plane yet. We will sedate you. Nothing will happen." Bailey tried to reason with Arizona but nothing was working. She tried to get rid of all the tubes and machines attached to her. "Arizona. You have to stop. You hurt yourself."

"Dr. Robbins. You stop now!" the chief said sternly but with care in his voice. Arizona looked up shocked at him and then started to cry painfully. The chief didn't know whether it was because of her authority issues or because of pain.

"I can't fly, I can't fly, I can't fly!" Arizona whispered over and over again.

"We sedate you now." Bailey went through her hair and held down Arizona's arm.
"Nooo, stop, stop, stop!" Arizona screamed and tried to get her arm free, "I want Callie. Where is Callie? I want her!"
"Shhhh…it's okay. You'll sleep in a minute and Callie is already waiting for you at home. Shhh…" Bailey said calmly and could tell that Arizona was fighting the sedation. It didn't take long and she was out of it.

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Callie came home, a little drunk and tried to forget all these images that she had in her mind now. She slowly walked into the bedroom and sat down on her side.

Arizona pretended to be asleep. She could smell the alcohol and listened carefully when her wife started to talk.

"You're my wife, Arizona. I love you. I married you because you're a wonderful woman. No, you're awesome. Yes, awesome, that's what you are. We went through bad stuff and good stuff. We broke up, we got back together and now we are wife and wife and we have a daughter. And I know that you hate me and I wished there was something I could do to make you happy. I would cut off my own leg to give it to you, god I wished I was in that plane but I wasn't. You were. I know you go through hell and loosing your leg is…is horrible. And I know that you…you miss Mark too."

Arizona didn't want to talk about Mark. She felt guilty that she had not wanted him in their lives at first but now she was missing him. It hurt her so much that she couldn't even say a proper goodbye to him. Arizona couldn't hold back the sobs.

"I miss him. Every day I wake up and wonder how I could even live without him. But then I look at you and I know that I can survive this pain because of you. Because you survived. And it's my turn to make YOU relieved that YOU survived. With a leg or without one. You're still Arizona. A wonderful angel on earth. So, you can scream at me, throw food around, hit me or stop talking to me. I'll be there no matter what and I don't care if you push me away because you and I know that deep down you miss me too. I'll be waiting until you realize that. I love you and I always will."

Callie knew that Arizona was awake. Arizona's whole body was shaking from her sobbing and although she had not expected it, Arizona turned around and looked at her sadly. She could see that Arizona wanted to form words but didn't know what to say.

"You don't need to say anything," Callie whispered and wanted to hug her but she knew that Arizona would flinch away, so she just stood up and got ready for bed.

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