So, here's a fast update. Somehow 3 reviews seems to be the magic number for my story ;)! Thank you, you three! Reviews always make me smile and I'm happy that you seem to like my OC "Laura". This chapter is a little longer. A bit background information. I hope you like it. It says that 56 peeps are following my story and I am curious if you really read the chapters and what you think!? I'm not that happy with my own story...but whatever...I try to give my best and I promise to give it a good end. Thanks!

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Callie yawned. She hated having shifts that early. She was just not a morning person.

"Dr. Torres!" Callie turned around with another yawn and saw Alex coming towards her. She could tell that he was furious.

"Yes, Alex?" She asked and looked up at him. She was not in a mood for long discussions or fights.

"You used Laura to heal your fucked up relationship with your wife?" Alex screamed madly at her and pointed his finger into her face.

"Woaa…wait. What?" Callie looked madly back at him.

"She's a child. Just turned seven. Laura is not your property. What if your wife yells at her, huh?" Alex shook his head.

"Okay, calm down, would you. I didn't use her. I just asked her to, well, to help Arizona out a little and it works perfectly fine. They like each other and Arizona won't yell at any child."

"You are absolutely selfish."

"Selfish?"

"Yes. You used her. You can't deny that. You didn't think of Laura for one second. She may seem fine with her leg but she's a child and not someone you can use to help others. You made her attached to Arizona and you'll end up hurting her!"

"Alex, stop shouting at me. It's a good thing that Laura likes Arizona and we won't hurt her. Why should we do that?"

"What if her helping would've brought back her fear, her hardcore nightmares, her phantom pain?"

"She seems fine, Alex." Callie said astonished.

"She's far from being fine. Do you even know anything about her? Do you know how she lost her leg? Do you know where her parents are?" Alex walked away and then turned around, "Is she with Arizona right now?"

"Yes. Look, I don't know that stuff but I'm not the one spending time with her. Arizona probably knows all of it!" Callie walked after him. Alex started to walk faster while Callie followed him. "Alex, would you tell me what the hell is wrong with you?"

"With me? You don't get it. Laura lost her leg when she was five. In a terrible car accident that killed her whole family: Her mother, father, baby brother and big sister. She lives in the orphanage and nobody wants to adopt her and I try to adopt her but they won't let a single man adopt her. I stayed in the hospital at night with her because she has horrible nightmares. And do you know what you did now?"

Callie shook her head in shock. That was lot information to process.

"You made her attached to Arizona. That's what you did and you will hurt her because when Arizona doesn't need any appointments, she doesn't need Laura any more. You made her come from the orphanage every day to see Arizona, to play with her, cuddle and have fun and soon it's the day of the accident. I took a day off and wanted to spend it with her but she said to me that she had to be with Arizona during physiotherapy. But that day is Laura's and mine since two years and it will stay that way. You used her for your own good. You two are…disgusting." Alex now stormed off and left a stunned Callie back. Callie felt guilty. What had she done?

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Arizona slowly got out of bed, jumped into the bathroom and started her day. Today she was in a bad mood. She had had so many nightmares and her phantom pain was driving her crazy. She looked into the mirror and took a deep breath, you can do this, you can do this!

Suddenly the mobile rang. She was glad that she had already put on her prosthesis and carefully walked to it.

"Arizona Robbins."

"Mrs. Robbins, is your wife there?"

Arizona recognized the voice, "You can talk to me. Is Sofia okay?"

"Um…yes, yes, she is but she's crying non stop for her parents and I thought that maybe it would be better if she saw you, I mean your wife, for an hour or so?" the young babysitter suggested.

Arizona closed her eyes. She needed to feel like a mom again, "Can you bring her to the hospital? Ground floor, physiotherapy, room 102."

"Are you sure you can, I mean…"

"Just do it, okay!" Arizona said a little madly and hung up the phone. Sofia was her child. She should know what she can and can't do.

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"Hey baby, don't cry," Arizona whipped back and forth with her three year old daughter.

"I want to stay with you," Sofia whispered sadly and hoped that she could. Arizona hesitated but then nodded and pulled her daughter close to her chest.

"But you have to be a good girl because mom has to learn walking today and I can't be with you all the time. How about you just look into a book, huh?" Arizona said in a caring voice.

"Okay," Sofia said and jumped down her lap. Right in that moment Laura came inside. Every day her hair looked less black.

"Hello," Laura smiled and then looked confused at Sofia.

"That's my daughter. Sofia." Arizona answered proudly.

"You have a daughter?" Laura asked confused and then walked over to the little girl and looked down, "Hi, I'm Laura. I'm seven."

"My name is Sofia! I'm this," she held up three fingers, "Do you want to read with me?" Laura nodded and slumped down the floor with her.

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Arizona loved how Laura and Sofia cuddled closer to each other and read the book. Suddenly her pain came back. Why was she having pain in a leg that wasn't even there? She hated it. She was doing so fine lately and now this. She tried to ignore it but nothing was working. Then she looked at the clock. "Laura! LAURA!" Arizona yelled. She regretted her own tone and tried to calm down. But she was already sweating from all the training and her non-existing leg drove her crazy. She was annoyed, in pain and pissed at the doctor and most of all, her appointment time was over. One hour for Laura and one hour for her. That was the deal. Laura looked up confused.

"You can't just sit in here and read. This is an appointment. You have to get better with your prosthesis." Arizona said strongly.

"Momma, we are almost done," Sofia answered without looking up but then both girls looked up shocked when Arizona snapped the book out of their hands.

"THIS IS NOT FUN! It's hard work and I told you that you can only stay if you aren't in the way and you have to do your physiotherapy NOW or you won't walk normal again! You're an amputee, you have to learn everything from zero," Arizona yelled with such a force that the doctor put his hand on her shoulder. She regretted every word and her tone extremely when she saw that both little girls got teary eyes and bit their lips and then started to sob quietly.

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Alex and Callie looked shocked from Arizona to the kids. Alex immediately rushed over to Laura while Callie took her daughter Sofia into her arms.

"I'm sorry," Arizona apologized and felt extremely bad. Laura and Sofia were sobbing while Alex looked at her like he was about to kill her and Callie looked mad, sad, guilty and disappointed, all at once.

"That's the last time you've seen her, Dr. Robbins!" Alex yelled at Arizona and walked outside with Laura in his arms.

"Alex…" Arizona stood up and wanted to walk after him but Callie held her at her shoulder. "I'm sorry, Callie…I…take her with you. She can't…I can't…just take her…please!" Arizona whispered.

"What happened?" Callie asked softly but Arizona shook her head. She was shutting out everyone again.

"I can't. I'm not a mother any more. Take her. NOW!"

Callie knew that arguing with her wife now would not help, "I have my shift. Why isn't she with the babysitter?" Callie then asked and caressed Sofia's back. "Hey it's okay, baby!"

"BECAUSE I thought that I could handle this. But I can't, okay. I can't carry her around without thinking she would fall. I can't babysit my own child and…I just yelled at the kids and…they're not safe around me. Take her, Callie and go away!" Arizona said defeated.

"Arizona," Callie said softly and wanted to come closer but Arizona held out a hand to stop her.

"Just go." Arizona whispered.

"I'll call the babysitter. I have a shift," Callie answered honestly. "I know you don't want to talk but we talk later!" Callie said when she left the room.

Arizona just nodded and wiped her own tears.

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Arizona sat on the couch and felt extremely bad. How could she have yelled at Laura and Sofia? When Callie came home it wasn't Arizona who wouldn't talk but Callie. "Callie, I'm so sorry."

Callie was mad. She was pissed off by this behavior and today it had gone too far. Way too far. She tried to stay calm and preferred not to say anything. She knew she would yell and she definitely didn't want to wake up Sofia. "Please talk to me."

"What do you want to hear, huh?" Callie cursed that she could never just be quiet, "That it's okay for you to yell at kids because you lost your leg? That you can continue yelling at them? That it's okay for you to call a little girl an amputee although you know that you hated being called one? TELL ME, what do you want to hear from me? Because I don't have a fucking clue what to tell you any more."

Callie was exhausted. Having Sofia at work and lots of operations had put the rest on her. And when Alex had started yelling at her too and telling her that he had been right, her day had officially sucked.

Arizona looked shocked at Callie and didn't know what to say. "I have no words left. So you won't hear anything from me." Callie took a pizza and sat down onto the couch. She changed the program but then shut it down. "You know what, I have words left. Many words. You were in a plane accident. I got it. It's horrible and I know you suffer. But you're not the only one. We are your family and Sofia and I recognize all the changes. It's not your fault but the least you can do is TRYING. Every day! I'm mad at the world too. I'm mad that I lost my best friend. I'm mad that my wife is hurt and has phantom pain and didn't even tell me. I'm mad that our daughter spends more time without us than with and I'm mad that I lost a patient today but I don't make all the loved ones around me guilty for my anger. I don't run around punching them in the face with words of hatred. So knock it off and try to get better because if you don't finally start WANTING and TRYING to get better, then I'll fail you. I obviously can't make you want to try."

"I already try," Arizona answered honestly, "It's…just not easy."

"Nobody said it was easy. NOBODY. But my whole life is about the stupid leg. Enough with the stupid leg. I didn't have sex in months because of the stupid leg. You use it as an apology for everything. And today you yelled at our daughter who loves you. And at a girl that helped you through therapy the whole last weeks. She didn't even have to go there. She came because of you!" Callie realized her mistake.

"What do you mean?" Arizona asked calmly.

"Fine, here's another reason why you can yell at me. I sent her to you. I sent Laura to the appointments because I hoped that she could somehow, with her magic smile and her cuteness, show you that loosing a leg isn't the end of the world. I hoped that she would somehow help you feeling at least a little happy that you're alive and not dead. And she did help you but never in my whole life had I imagined that you would end up yelling at her. You are not the Arizona I married. Not any more."

Arizona looked shocked at Callie who stood up again. "That doesn't mean that I don't love you. I love you with all my heart but that means that I just don't know your reactions any more. God, I even promised Laura that you would never be capable of being mean to a child. Guess I was wrong and Alex is right. I used Laura," Callie shut the door loudly.

Arizona felt guilty. She put her leg onto the couch and looked up the ceiling. Her lip started to quiver and the tears streamed out of her face. She heard that Callie was crying too. Her heart broke, she hated seeing and hearing Callie cry. Slowly she got up from the couch and walked into their bedroom.

"I'm so sorry and…and…I know that's what I always say but…can…you…please just…hold me?" Arizona stuttered.

Callie opened her arms, immediately Arizona fell into them. Both of them lay down in the bed and cried in each other's arms. They needed that.

After ten minutes Arizona looked up sadly. "I made all of my loved ones cry today and…and I yelled at the kids!"

"I know. I was there," Callie answered softly.

"No, even before you came in I wasn't really nice to them although they behaved perfectly fine. I was…I'm a horrible person. How could I do this? I love tiny humans, I have never ever yelled at them."

"You're not a horrible person." Callie said honestly and caressed Arizona's back. "I'm horrible. I really used Laura for you. I didn't even know that she's an orphan."

Arizona now looked up shocked at Callie, "What? She always tells me about her happy family. About her baby brother and big sister."

Callie looked sadly at Arizona, "They are all dead. They died in the car accident when she lost her leg."

"Oh god!" Arizona held her hand in front of her eyes and started to cry again. Callie pulled her closer to her and cried with her. Then both of them heard Sofia's sobbing.

Callie immediately got up but Arizona pushed her back softly and walked out of the room.

Sofia was crying because of a nightmare and the little girl immediately clung to Arizona who lay down in bed with her, "Shhh…it was a nightmare. Mom will sleep in here today!" Arizona whispered and caressed her back. It didn't take long that Sofia was sleeping again and Arizona listened to her breathing. Arizona watched her baby daughter and kissed her cheeks. "I promise you, I will get better. I want to be my old self again because I love you all so much and I still have plans for our future. Happy plans!"

Callie listened to Arizona's words and hoped that in the end her yelling at kids had affected her in the longer term.

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The five-year-old Laura was sitting in the car in between her siblings and singing loudly with them. Her brother Kevin was two years younger but almost as big as she was. He was a very loud and active young kid that had lots of pranks in his mind. Sometimes the two of them could fight for hours – most of the time ending with a crying Laura. Her big sister was already nine and much calmer. In contrast to Laura, she had her fathers black hair and Laura admired her and tried to imitate her all of the time. Most of the time that annoyed her big sister but in the end all of them were inseparable and loved spending time together, "Mommy, will I go to Louisa's school?"

Her mother had the same blue eyes and blonde as her and the greatest smile ever. It could lighten the room.

"Moooom, she'll run after me all the time and embarrass me!" Louisa whined.

"I will not!" Laura pouted and looked up shocked at her big sister.

"Of course you'll go to my school, dummy. I'll be your big protector and I can't wait to show you everything," Louisa then said and started to tickle her baby sister.

"I'm her protector!" Kevin laughed loudly and joined the tickling.

"No…fair…" Laura laughed and tried to get free. "You're younger than I am! I am your protector"

"But I'm stronger and braver," Kevin said proudly and squeezed Laura's cheek.

"Owwww…that hurt!" Laura whined and squeezed his too but he just pushed her hands away. She hated that her baby brother was getting stronger and stronger although she was older.

"Kevin. Stop now!" Louisa said and took both of the brother's hands into hers.

"When are we in Disneyworld?" Laura then asked excited.

"In two hours. How about you all nap now?" their dad smirked.

"Right, dad," Louisa laughed loudly and continued reading.

"Can you read to us?" Laura and Kevin looked at their big sister who nodded. Laura listened carefully and looked at her parents who were holding hands for a moment and then gave each other a short kiss.

"I love you!" her dad said to her mom.

"I love you!" her mom said to her dad.

"And us?" It was a joke in the family. One kid would always ask that after their parents had said their "I love you" to each other.

"And you? What's with you?" her dad joined it.

"Do you love us too?" Kevin and Laura laughed in unison.

"We love you soooo much that tonight we're going to cuddle with you all night long!" the mother said happily.

Then everything happened very fast. Laura and Louisa screamed loudly when they saw the car in front of them. It crashed right into them. Their dad had no time to react.

When Laura opened her eyes she heard many people around the car that was flipped upside down. Her sister was lying on her lap and didn't move. Her hand was still in Laura's. Blood was everywhere. Her baby brother wasn't in the car any more.

"Mommy, daddy?" Laura cried and tried to move but everything hurt and when she looked down her leg she could see her own bone. That's when she started to cry hysterically.

"Sweetheart, don't…cry. Everything…will…will…be all right!" she heard her dad moaning in pain. A second later she lost her consciousness