"I don't get her. Walking on the prosthesis isn't a big problem any more. She's perky again and her yelling has finally stopped but when I ask her about working she shuts me out. And then she falls one time with Sofia in her arms and she freaks out again and doesn't want to leave the house any more. Nothing happened to Sofia. She's perfectly fine. I don't understand my own wife. Now she stays in bed almost nonstop." Callie turned around while she was sitting on the bench in a locker room when she realized that Alex was not answering her. Now she knew why. He had just left the room while she had tried to tell him her worries. "Thanks Karev," Callie whispered.

xxxxxx

Arizona sat in her bed and went through fashion magazines when her mobile phone started to ring. She looked down at it but didn't pick it up when she saw that Bailey was calling her. She didn't want to talk to her colleagues, who felt sorry for her and tried to convince her to come back. She wasn't ready to come back and didn't know if she would ever be. When the ringing didn't stop Arizona rolled her eyes in annoyance and answered the call, "Hello?"

"Hey, hey Arizona, this is Miranda. Miranda Bailey. How are you?"Arizona hated that question and was glad when Bailey just continued talking, "Yeah, I wished I had time to talk but I am calling for a favor. I have a thirteen year old female…" Arizona didn't want to hear all that stuff. She didn't feel like a doctor any more and didn't want to be confronted with such information.

"Well, get a CT," Arizona suggested. She rolled her eyes when Bailey suggested to send her the chart but couldn't even email it.

She finally accepted that an intern would bring her the chart but after an hour she lost her patience and called Bailey. "Hey, did you send the chart?"

"I did. I told an intern to leave it at the door," Bailey lied and hoped that this would make Arizona put on her prosthesis again. She had heard about the accident of her falling with her child in her arms and could imagine that Arizona was scared again but she didn't want Arizona to let her fear control her life.

xxxxx

"Hey hey, did you talk to your wife tonight?" Bailey asked Callie who looked totally exhausted and was about to go home.

"No, why?" Callie asked worried.

"Well, I may have pushed the thing a little too far and now I'm not sure what you're going home to!"
"What did you do?" in this moment Callie saw her wife walking slowly into the hospital. Her face immediately lightened, "Bailey, what did you do?"

"Oh, I may have pushed it just far enough. Okay, you gotta go!" Callie looked confused at Bailey but when Bailey compared Arizona to a little bird, Callie just moaned and left. Of course she stayed in the next room and listened what Bailey and Arizona were talking about. This was another moment she had waited for for so long. Maybe this meant that her wife would finally start working again? Callie knew how bored Arizona had been in the last time and that working would help both of them.

xxxxx

When Arizona came home to her, Callie pretended that she didn't know that she had been at the hospital, "Hey, I made us food!"

"Awesome," Arizona smiled and sat down at the table but just stared at the food that was in front of her plate and took a deep breath and then looked at her wife.

"Everything all right?" Callie raised an eyebrow. Of course she didn't even have to ask that question because she knew that something was bothering her beautiful wife.

"I want to go back to work," Arizona then said it out loud, "I'm scared. Super scared but I'm bored at home. And I hate hate hate boredom. I can't be here anymore. Everything annoys me and those stupid fashion magazines make me feel short, fat and one-legged. I want to help tiny people again and I want to feel needed and…and…I want to do surgeries and I miss my friends at the hospital. I know not all of them are friends. I'm aware that they are more like colleagues but some of them are my friends. Like Teddy, I told her I'm an awesome friend and she is to me too and…I'm rambling, right?" Arizona blushed and put the spoon into her mouth to start eating.

"That's great honey and I totally understand that it's boring at home and you know that I was just waiting for you to finally admit it and come back to work," Callie smiled proudly.

"But first I have to do my champ list," Arizona gave the list to Callie who looked confused down at it. It was a pink piece of paper with some notes on it that were obviously written by Laura.

"Well, it already says going back to work and operating again," Callie asked confused.

"Yes, but I need many more challenges. The list must never end and I thought that it would be…um…fun to do it with you," Arizona smiled when Callie clapped her hand.

"Definitely. I want such a list too," Callie said when they were done with eating, "Let's get ready for bed and do the brainstorming."

Xxxxx

"I'm ready, here we go," Callie jumped into her bed with a boxer short and a shirt and took the list into her hand. "I have many challenges to put on your champ list. Is there an order?"

"Nope," Arizona smiled at the enthusiasm of her wife.

Callie nodded and then started, "How about we start with baby steps and then add the bigger challenges?" Arizona nodded and lay her head in Callie's lap while Callie looked at the list and went through her hair. "Okay, how about massaging my stomp every day until it feels like a real part of me.?"

"That is a baby step?" Arizona looked up at her wife but then nodded, "Okay, put it on the list," she whispered and continued listening to every sentence. Callie had so much in mind that in the end her list was extremely long.

"You enjoy this, huh?" Arizona smiled with closed eyes while Callie nodded.

"This is the best idea that Karev ever could have. Maybe he's not such a jerk," Callie answered and took the pencil into her mouth to continue thinking.

"He's not a jerk, Calliope. He's just…well emotionally challenged. I get him."

"Whatever, okay, I know another challenge," Callie wrote it down on the paper and then showed it to Arizona who's eyes widened.

"Calliope. I'm happy that you enjoy this but it has to be a realistic challenge," Arizona whined and snuggled closer.

"What? And this isn't? C'mon, you love your Heelys. You're the doc on wheels. It's not impossible. It's a challenge. One you will face one day. There isn't a time limit, so it doesn't have to be tomorrow or in a year, just someday," Callie encouraged her, "Or don't you miss those shoes? And don't lie to me, I saw you looking at them with a sad face."

"Fine, yes I do miss being in them," Arizona admitted and then snapped the pencil out of Callie's hand and showed her another challenge.

"Ooooh, I like that," Callie flirted when she read Making my wife come hard.

Finally Arizona looked at all those challenges on her list, many challenges that she had to face. "I'll never be able to face all of these!"

"Oh, another challenge," Callie took the pencil and wrote Believing in myself on it.

"Why did you become an orthopedic surgeon again? You should've become a therapist," Arizona yawned with a cute smile.

"No way, I like bones and using my hands. I would just yell at my patients and tell them to get over it already," Callie then added another challenge and could see the fear in Arizona's eyes. "I know this is a huge challenge but I know that one day you'll be able to face it and I'll be standing right beside you, okay?"

"Okay," Arizona answered nervously. She knew that one day she would have to fly again but thinking about it now made her heart race and brought back all the memories.

"Hey babe, are you okay. I didn't want to push you too far. I'm sorry, I'll just rub that off."

"No, don't do that. It has to be on my list. It's just…it was so…so…," Arizona tried to find the words but her breathing started to get father.

"Shhh…it's okay, nothing is going to happen to you, I'm here and you're safe," Callie pulled her into her arms and rocked back and forth.

"I know it's just…I thought I would die and…it was so scary and I felt so helpless and the thought of never seeing you or Sofia again was…"

"Hey, but you're not dead. You live and you have us around you every day. Don't go into the what might have been. Focus on here and now, okay?" Callie kissed her head softly and continues listening to Arizona's talking.

Xxxx

Arizona looked out of the window and wished she had not taken Alex place. She preferred being with her wife and Arizona right now, eating and then cuddling in bed. But here she was, in a plane. She didn't even like flying. She knew that the chances of a plane crash were lower than a car crash but in a car she felt way safer. High up in the air she felt like giving up her control to someone else. And Arizona was a woman who hated to give up control. She loved to have her feelings under control, to know all the statistics and to be prepared for whatever was coming. Suddenly the plane made a weird movement and made everyone's heart skip a beat.

"What the hell was that?" Cristina was the first one to speak.

"It's probably just…" Arizona screamed when the plane lost height quickly.

"What's wrong with the pilot? Doesn't he know how to do his damn job?" Mark screamed madly.

"We're going to crash, I know that, we're going to crash," Lexie started to scream hysterically and tried to hold onto something.

"We're not going to crash, Lexie!" Arizona unbuckled her seatbelt and was about to walk to the front cabin to talk to the pilot when the plane lost height again but this time faster and uncontrolled. Arizona was thrown face first into the wall. She didn't have time to react or wipe away the blood on her face because she was thrown back and forth like a dolly. She could hear and feel her rip cracking and screamed. When the plane finally hit the ground she was thrown outside and landed in a weird position on her leg.

Xxxx

"I think…I think I lost consciousness and when I came to my sentences again I…I heard someone screaming so hysterically and loudly. God, the screaming didn't stop and…and when Cristina yelled at me I realized that I was the one screaming so hysterically," Arizona sobbed and continued. "I don't think I can ever go into a plane again, Calliope, I can't…I won't…" Arizona looked into Callie's eyes and sobbed.

"Hey, of course you can. Not now. Not tomorrow. Maybe not in the next years and maybe even never but…you said it yourself, your champ list needs challenges. But you face each and every challenge when the time is right and you will feel it then. You know what, your champ list actually misses lots of challenges," Callie then said and opened the pencil.

"More, Calliope? There are already thousand," Arizona whispered discouraged.

"Here, we didn't start the challenges at the right time. These are all the challenges you already faced bravely," Callie marked one challenge after another.

"Getting out of the bed, sleeping in one bed with my wife again, going to the physiotherapy, smiling again, cuddling with my wife, walking with a prosthesis, going on a treasure hunt in the woods, playing soccer, showering with my wife, holding Sofia again, cooking dinner, saying the words awesome and super, being perky from time to time, talking to Bailey about a patient…" Arizona looked up at her with a smile. "Oopps, yes, I was there. Bailey actually tried to push you a little."

"Well, she succeeded," Arizona smiled, "I already faced lots of challenges huh?"

"Oh yeah, well, it's a champ list and you are definitely my champ!"

"I love you, Calliope." Arizona leaned closer and looked confused at her wife who looked shocked at her and then started to sob and wipe her tears. "What, what happened?"

"Nothing, I'm not sad…just happy. You…you just, well you just faced another challenge," Callie sobbed and wrote the challenge on the paper: Telling my wife that I love her.

Arizona read it and got tears in her eyes too. Arizona sat up straight and took her hands around Callie's face and kissed her softly. "I love you!" Arizona said again and pulled her wife into her embrace. It felt good being the one holding her again and not the other way around.

"I love you too," Callie whispered and snuggled closer to the person she had almost lost. She couldn't believe her luck.