( FATE; )
A short series of little blurbs that lead up to conclusion of the relationship between Kouga and Kagome.
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Six:
Differing Opinions
"Are you sure you're okay now?" Worried, his eyes don't dare stray from her. He almost feels like she could disappear the moment he drops his guard.
And though, it's a strange thought to imagine this his Kagome could appear this despondent and forlorn. It's exactly at times like these that he can't help but realize how diffident and frail humans really are. But, it's not a weakness he resents.
"Yeah, thanks for being with me," she fights to return a small smile; eyes still moist with the drying remains of tears.
"I... of course." He writhed through his words, unsure of what to say or how to progress their conversation any further.
What could he say to change her mind? To be able to shift the situation so that he could rightfully stay at her side? What could he do to convince her that the man she pined after wasn't worth half a shit? Or even if he was, that is was an utterly pointless endeavor...? After all, the love she sought was meant for another, and as hypocritical as it may have sounded in theory, he absolutely hated how she refused to see it. To accept it.
But, it's precisely because he didn't lack the proper insight or intuition that he knew better than to mindlessly open his mouth; knew that his not-so-eloquent demands would have fallen on completely deaf ears, regardless of of truth or validity. And knew that his feelings would have only served to intensify her self-inflicted despair. So, instead, he leaves himself wholly unexpressed; purposely casting those questions aside in favor of Kagome's emotional well-being (and at the sad expense of his own personal yearnings).
In the end, she had her idea of love and of loyalty, and naturally so did he. There was no room for pointless confrontation, he decides.
Turning his back, he makes off, giving her the inexorable peace of mind she likely required. Without him.
And though he wouldn't allow himself to readily place it into words—it hurt.