So this is the new guy. Jake wasn't lying about his looks, he is way hotter than Justin.
"Hi, I'm Amelia Benedict." I reply, my voice wavering nervously. Why am I nervous?
He simply nods in response and the air was filled with an awkward silence, as we both continued to look at each other but not a word being spoken. What do I say?
"So your new right?" I fluster. What is wrong with me? I never get nervous!
"Yep." He once again makes minimal effort to reply to me. Does he have a problem with me?
"You liking the town? I mean it's only small and not particularly much to do, but... but there is the skiing, which my grandparents run, you could get a season pass so you can go anytime you want… that's if you like skiing. Do you ski? I suppose there isn't much skiing in New Jersey, is there? There's always other stuff you could do here if you don't like skiing, of course … there's … um ..."
Thankfully Jeremy cuts of my mad ramblings. "I ski."
"Cool, that's good then." What is wrong with me?! If he didn't think I was mental before then he defiantly would now.
"What were you talking about?" Jeremy asks suddenly, fixing me with an intense stare suddenly interested in what I had to say.
"What?"
"Earlier when you were mumbling to yourself."
"Oh, I was just thinking aloud that's all." He is still staring at me! What should I say? Does he expect me to elaborate? "I have a few things to think over."
"Like what?"
Well someone is nosey. I spoke telepathically, meaning for him to get the general idea and back of a bit. But instead he stands there wide eyes staring at me in shock. What the hell is his problem?
You're my soulfinder! Jeremy speaks to me telepathically. I'm more than use to speaking telepathically as it's the main way my family communicate, but this is different. His voice send shivers down me, his voice lighting up my mind like a light I never knew was in my head had now suddenly been switched on and has opened up my mind and heart.
"Oh my god! I can't believe it's you." I say, barely able to breathe.
"I… I … I can't." Jeremy says staring at me in disbelief, shaking his head. What does he mean he can't?
"I'm your soulfinder! What do you mean you can't? We are meant to be together!"
"Soulfinder's are dangerous." Jeremy speaks in a tone of pure malice, stone cold and without emotion.
With that I stare at him, completely unaware of what to say. I advance towards him attempting to explain to him how important and special soulfinder's are. Maybe he was like mum or aunt Phee and didn't fully understand about savants and soulfinder. But before I could speak he ran.
Jeremy sprinted away from me, going further into ghost town towards the forest. How can he run from me? We are soulfinder's we aren't meant to be able to bare being away from each other, were defiantly not meant to want to run away from each other.
I run after him, following through the track I just saw him take. My brown boots pelt against ground, causing dust and rubble to fly away from the dirt track. I turn the corner towards the forest, but I can't see him anywhere.
"Jeremy?" I travel into the woods searching for any sign of him. Nothing.
"Jeremy!" I shout louder, I wait but still nothing.
My breath catches in my throat. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want to be with, love me like a soulfinder should. Doesn't even want to give me a chance. My breaths become faint, as I collapse onto the ground.
I curl myself up into a ball as I pull my knees up to my stomach and begin to cry.
What do I do? The one person I am meant to rely on to love me unconditionally, who is meant to see my flaws but ignore them and chose to see the good, doesn't even want to be with me. He probably hates me.
I weep harder as I try to tackle what had just happened. I roll over and sit up on my knees, as I throw up on the forest ground. I spend five minutes throwing up, unable to stop. Once I begin to gain control again I slump against a tree trunk, for support. What do I do now?
Before I can properly think my phone rings. I pull my iPhone out of my pocket and see the caller ID reads Justin. A fresh flood of tears fall as I remember Justin. How could I forget about him? Sure, he wasn't my soulfinder but at least he wants to be with me.
But I don't want to be with him. I want to be with Jeremy.
Oh god, I'm going to have to break up with Justin. I've never broken up with someone before, how can I do this and not seem like a total bitch?
My phone once again rings and I know it has to be now.
"Hel…" I gulp back my tears, and steady my breath. "Hello."
"Hey, baby. What's wrong? I knew you were upset today." His voice is full of love and he is clearly concerned.
"I'm so sorry." I seriously can't be doing this to him; he's the nicest guy in the world.
"What for?" Justin's voice quavered with worry.
"I…I can't be… with you…anymore."
"What?" Justin's voice was filled with confusion and a hint of anger. We have been together for ages now, we have already started talking about our college plans when were only in junior year.
"I wish I could tell you the truth as to why, but it's too complicated. All you need to know is that I did love you and still do but it's not going to work between us." This is probably the most pathetic break up excuse ever. I wish I could tell him about soulfinder's and savants so he understands. But I can't.
"Right, I don't really know what to say to that, Amelia." His voice is just pure sadness, bringing more tears to my eyes.
"I'm truly sorry."
"Yeah, me too." With that Justin hangs up on me. I don't blame him, if I was in his shoes I would be fuming by now but he was just sad and disappointed.
I feel like crashing back down onto the floor and staying there till the ground swallows me whole but I had to move from here.
I drag myself up from the ground and begin my walk back home. I'm glad I didn't bring my car with me today; I'm in no state to drive. Every step is painful and overwhelming. The 20 minute walk allows me to think through everything, which usually would be the most welcome thing in the world but right now it's the thing I want least in the world.
Justin will want nothing to do with me, tomorrow at school I'm going to be bombarded with questions about our break up. But I wasn't concerned about that, it is what it is. There is only one thing I'm concerned about, well a person to be correct; Jeremy.
All I have ever wanted is too find my soulfinder. Most of my family have found theirs by now, apart from a few of my cousins. Aunt Crystal has tried her best to locate all of our soulfinder but there is only so much she can do.
Jeremy for some reason doesn't want me, though. Why doesn't he want his soulfinder? I know I'm not perfect but he is meant to love me none the less. Aren't his parent's soulfinder's? Wait, didn't Jake say he moved her with his dad? Where is his mother?
I open the door to my house, to be immediately questioned by Luke.
"What's wrong?" he asks but I ignore him as I slowly walk up to my bedroom.
"Amelia?" I hear Maddie but her voice sounds faint, my mind not concentrating on their words.
I hear Luke's footsteps on the stairs as he tries to follow me but he is pulled back by Maddie as she whispers to him "Give her some space."
I walk into my room and I'm instantly hit with the sight of my mirror framed with pictures of me and Justin. As I look closer I remember every moment in each picture. One was of me in a blue dress, next to Justin dressed smartly in a tux stood by my staircase before we left for a school dance. Another was of me and Justin on our first date on the ski runs. Next to that was a picture taken only a couple of weeks ago where Justin took me for a picnic, despite it being freezing outside. I looked through every picture and with each one came more tears.
"Time to move on." I whisper to myself.
I picked up each picture one at a time and throw them away in my bin, I couldn't have them anymore. I couldn't have Justin anymore.
I collapse onto my bed, once I'm finished, and curl up and cry on the sheets. My tears turn into floods as I fall off into an uneasy sleep, with one thought consuming my mind.
Why doesn't my soulfinder want to be with me?
Hope you have enjoyed this chapter! Plz review!