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I staggered back a few paces, black spots emerging in front of my eyes. "How did this happen?" I asked almost in audible, but Klaus smirked.

"You were pretty motivated last night. I didn't even need to convince you to compell them to come with us. It was quite a party."

I kept shaking my head and sat down on the sofa behind me.

"I did all this?" I asked with disbelief.

"Oh I killed some of them but the majority goes to you" he said and toasted me with his glass.

"God, you make me sick" I told him and stood up again. "Take care of these bodies and don't touch me ever again."

"I really dont't know what your problem is, love. You should just embrace what you are and put up with it."

I turned around and caught Klaus' gaze.

"You should listen to yourself from time to time. Can you even look yourself in the mirror every morning?" I asked and crossed my arms. My mind was racing as I looked over all the dead bodies beneath my feet. Has this really been all my doing? Could it be that I lose my mind that way during a full moon? I bit my lip and looked up again as I heard Klaus chuckle.

"Oh, I do like my looks, and I wouldn't change a thing." He got up from his seat and placed his glass on a table beside me. He walked around me until I had to meet his eyes and he was blocking most of my view of the dead bodies.

"Love, why are you hating yourself? You are able to let go every full moon, why don't you embrace your heritage now and every other day? You will not be able to resist this forever."

He had stepped closer softly and started tracing the fine hairs on my arms with his fingertips. I felt my skin tingle under his touch and deep down, I knew that to a certain extent he was right.

"Klaus, I am not going to talk about this again with you. I will decide what is best for me."

I turned around, threw my coat over my shoulders and rushed out the door, banging it shut behind me.

Outisde, I tried to get as much space between me and the mansion as I could. When I reached my home, I drew a deep breath. I haven't seen Ben since our embarrassing encounter last night and I was afraid how he would react. I closed my eyes briefly before I turned my key in the front door's lock and opened the door so I could slip in.

The house was very quiet at this time of the day, and I was confused. I left my bag and my coat on the small table next to the front door.

As I emerged towards the kitchen, I just felt that someone else was there, beside me. When I entered the small, but cozy room, I saw Elena sitting at the kitchen table, a cup of coffee in her shaking hands. Her phone was lying beside her and she couldn't lift her gaze off of it even though it's display was dark.

"Elena? Are you okay?" I asked and took a seat beside her.

She finally looked up at me and I could see the spilled tears still glistening in her eye corners. She softly shook her head.

"No, nothing's okay. Jeremy just called" she said and I could tell she was upset and shaken up.

"But that's good news! Now you know where he is, right? And that he's okay" I tried to assure her and calm her down. I wished my brother was here to do his job, but the house seemed to be deserted except for us two.

"Yes, but...but now I learned that he is fully evolved in his task as the new hunter. He said his tattoo is nearly big enough to show the map." Elena gazed down into her cup, fresh tears spilling from her eyes.

"Elena, why are you crying? That's all just good news I heard so far. Jeremy is okay, you soon will be able to take the cure and everything will be fine again. Why are you still crying?" I rubbed her shoulder softly, looking down at the crying mess beside me. This was so unlike Elena, something graver must have happened.

After my strange conversation with Elena, she had gone home to meet up with her brother who had returned from his training camp with Damon.

Talking to Elena had made me think, what would I do if we found the cure? I sat down on the couch and pulled my knees up to my chin. I knew what I wanted to do, no question. I hated being a vampire and now a hybrid too. Killing people didn't make me happy or feel free, it was just the hybrid side that would take over from time to time. I hated Klaus for doing this to me, for taking this decision from me and for destroying all my hopes for a normal life. I knew if I got the chance, I would take the cure and turn back into a human.

As I sat there, sunken in my own thoughts, I didn't even hear the door open and I just realised the other presence in the room as he cleared his throat. I looked up and quickly wiped the year away that had escaped my eye.

"Hey Sage."

"What's wrong?" he asked and looked with a soft look down at me.

"Nothing" I quickly answered, I didn't want him to see me weak or hurt. I turned away to not have to look at him. I felt my heart torn in two just to see him after what I did the other night. I couldn't believe how one little thing could kill our entire relationship.
"Look, I'm sorry about that girl the other night. I shouldn't have done this" I said I him as I was sure my voice wouldn't quiver.

"Its okay, I get that you can't control yourself," he said sighing and sat down beside me. "Now tell me why you're really crying."

I looked at him from the side. "Why are you still nice to me? I don't get it. I kill your girlfriend and still you come here and talk like nothing happened. You're too good for this world, Sage." I sighed and looked down on my hands. "What would you do if we find the cure?"
I asked quietly, knowing he was most probably in on my brother's plans.

Sage laughed. "She was not my girlfriend, and its over I don't want to dwell on it." he shifted further back into the couch and sighed. The cure, the one thing every vampire in this town was looking for. "I would feed it to Klaus, and torture him slowly to death, thats what I would do."

"Have you ever thought about taking it yourself? Turning back into a human?" I asked and shifted so I was facing him completely now. This was a difficult subject for everyone, but he seemed like he cared for our friendship and I wanted to just talk openly to him.

He lifted his eyebrows at me then, before he shook his head. "I don't want to be human, I've accepted being a vampire a very long time ago. The stone age, Stella there's no way I want go be human. Wait are you considering taking it?"

I threw my hands up in a helpless gesture. "Isn't it obvious? I hate being a vampire, and a hybrid on top of it. I hate it that I never got the chance to decide myself how my life would go. And I hate that I will never be able to bear any children of my own." I stopped here as I felt my eyes watering again. This was stupid, this shouldn't have such an impact on me, even if we weren't sure how to find the cure.

"Stella stop. Listen to me, you have a right to decide your own life you do but personally you are better this way. As a human, that will destroy you. I don't want that to happen."

"What do you mean being human would destroy me? I would finally be free of Klaus, stupid sire bond and all that." I looked at him, I wanted him to understand my intentions.

"You will never be rid of Klaus unless he is dead so don't kid yoursf, I know this. Being human is only going to put him in more control over you."

"I wouldn't be any interest for him anymore if I was human. And I wouldn't lose control again during a full moon, I wouldn't need to kill another innocent person, like I did with Matt."

"Its your decision to make, don't say I never warned you. Personally this whole cure is an old wives tale to me, you know how long vampires have been talking about it?"

"Why is it so hard for you to believe in it? I understand that you put up with your life, god knows you've been a vampire longer than any of us. But if this cure exists I could make my own decision about my life, and that's what makes it so appealing." I looked into his eyes, and I saw that he knew so much more about life than I did, but did I really want to live through all times? See beloved people come and go, not able to stop the time running?

He closed his eyes, and opened them again, looking into my eyes again. "Okay I'll tell you why I don't want to believe in it. I don't believe in it because I know you Stella. You will go and take the cure, and I will have to watch you die in front of my eyes. I don't want that, call me selfish but that's how it is," he said and I saw his jaw clenching.

I couldn't believe what he had just said. That meant...
"Do you still love me, Sage?" I asked, jumping into cold water, knowing it could ruin everything I had with him, but I needed to know.

He rubbed his hands together, turning away from me and looking down. "Why does it matter?"

"Because when I was away, all I could do was thinking about you. Besides all the sire bond crap it had nearly ripped my heart out to leave you" I took his hand in mine and made him look at me. "It matters because I still do."

As I clasped his hand, he frowned. "No, Stella I can't I'm sorry," he said and pulled his hand out of mine. "I want to, I just can't get hurt again."

I looked at him and pulled my hand back again. "I-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have. I understand what you-...I should just go" I stood up and turned to leave, biting my lip, I couldn't believe how stupid I was. Of course he was still hurt, what was I thinking?

"Stella... wait," he said standing up abruptly. "I want you back, I just need you to be sure of what you want, you can't keep breaking my heart. Just give me some time."

I turned around to look at him. "You can have all the time you want, I want you back too. And I don't want to hurt you ever again, that is why I need a way to break the sire bond to Klaus. I cant lose control like that every full moon, I will only hurt all of you."

"You don't have to do anything you don't want to do. When I became a vampire I learned to control the blood lust, its the same thing with being a werewolf. Balance, and control that's all it ever is."

"I trained my control over the past eight months I was away. And it did work. It's just, I come back here and he's here and suddenly it seems impossible to resist, especially at the full moon" I shook my head. "But I really don't want to bother you. Just take your time."

"If you can be around someone else, and not think of him I think you will be able to do this. You always have me."

I swallowed and took a step back towards him. "You don't know what that means to me. I don't even deserve you. You're a better friend than anyone could ever hope for."

"Thats what I'm here for Stella, I'm a guardian," he said and looked into my eyes.

I smiled at him. "You're the best guardian I could have ever wished for" I looked into his eyes that displayed so much wisdom and deep down I could see the affection that was still present for me. This look and his words made me doubt my decision about taking the cure. Would I really want to give all this up?

He flashed me a broad smile. "Thank you. I will continue to be your guardian then. Tell me, where are you off to?"

I frowned shortly, what was this Guardian talk about? But I decided to not press on the point right now. "Nowhere actually, I was just...killing my time here."

"Want to go for a walk? Better than staring at these four walls," he said, a smile playing at the corner of his lips.

"Sure, why not" I agreed and went to grab my jacket. As I opened the closet door, my gaze fell upon the ruined coat from that night, and I sighed. I closed the door and looked at Sage, waiting for me next to the door. "Life's never going to be easy, right?"

"Nope never going to be easy, always going to be hard and we have eternity here. On to lighter subjects," he said and offered me his arm.

I linked my arm with his. "You're right. Okay. So you said something about the Stone Age before. You never told me how you got turned."

"Oh yes, that. I used to help help the priest in my area out, he was old and frail then when he died. Little did I know of the supernatural those days. The man who replaced him was a vampire, he preferred to do his mass at night, I remember he asked me to help him pack up when it was over. That's when he grabbed me."

"Wow, sounds aweful. But does that mean you're as old as the Original family? When you were born in the Stone Age?" I looked at him from the side and frowned.

"I'm a little younger than they are, but not much. Stella there's a lot you don't know about me. I can hold my own against Klaus and his family. Now that I know."

"What do you mean? What do you know? And how can you stand up against Klaus?" I ask him, stopping in my tracks to look at him. He was just confusing me further instead of explaining himself.

"All you need to know is that he's not a vampire and he's very bad, I don't even want to know him myself."

"Okay you make strange hints and then you say I don't need to know. Sage, just tell me, I won't run from you" I said with a small laugh. "I've been through enough, I can take it."

"He's a dark angel, Stella. He's not good, I thought that me being a vampire would expel that blood, but he changed that."

I looked at Sage with a deep frown. "A dark angel. What does that mean? So you are half angel?" A smile played at the corners of my lips I couldn't really believe what he was saying. Even though in our world everything was possible, this sounded too surreal.

He laughed as he saw my smile. "Don't laugh. Basically I'm a fuck up, because I'm technically niphilim. When I became a vampire the angel part became dormant. Well needless to say it's not like that anymore."

I burst out laughing at that. "I really didn't understand a thing you just said" I looked at him with a big smile. "But where are your wings then?" I teased him and looked up at him.

"Okay I'll prove it to you," he said and stopped in the middle of the road, pulling his ring off and placing it in my hand, standing in the sun.

"Wait, hey are you crazy? Put it back on!" I called all traces of laughter gone from my face. But when I saw that nothing happened, I just looked at him. "What the...?"

"Exactly. See I don't need that ring anymore. He fed me his blood. Angel blood runs in my veins again."

"Does that mean you're going to turn into an Angel? I don't get it, really" she said still absent-mindly playing with his ring in her hand.

"Im niphilim and a vampire I'm not full angel, I don't have wings, do I have to prove that to you too?" he winked.

"Oh why not" I grinned back up at him before handing back his ring. "Maybe you don't need it but I bet there are some memories bound to it."

"You're right," he said and slipped his ring back onto his finger. "I assure you I have no wings."

I hooked my arm with his again as we started walking. "So you're half an angel. How is it? You have any special powers? Shame you can't fly" I pouted playfully.

"I can read thoughts, but don't steps, I havent invaded your privacy.. yet," he said flashing me a mischievous smile.

I looked up at him. "Ha-Ha, very funny. Don't you dare, or otherwise I'll send you some evil thoughts" I said with a smile and pointed my index finger at him.

"What kind of thoughts? I kinda like the dirty ones you know," he said and laughed.

"Not dirty, evil!" I laughed and slapped his arm playfully.

{Evil? You don't have an evil bone in your body, Stella," Sage said and bumped me back with his arm.

"Oh then you don't know me obviously" now it was my turn to smile mischeviously.

He turned to face me, his eyebrow raised. "Prove it."

"Well then go on and read my mind. I'll show you the evil time in my life" I said and looked into his eyes, challenging him.

"Alright," he said and took my hands in his, looking into my eyes. He let my hands go. "I saw, its the past."

"What did you see?" I asked softly. It was a strange thing watching him searching my mind and thoughts. Even though I didn't really feel anything about it, I could feel the power radiating from him.

"When you were first turned, with Klaus. Stella I will never hold any of that against you, I promise you that. Even going back to Klaus all those times."

I looked into his eyes and I knew he told me the truth. "Thank you, Sage. You're the first one to say that, ever. Maybe you now understand my crazy relationship with him a bit better" I lowered my eyes and started walking again.

"Not that I approve of it, but like I said you must make sure who you want first," he said and continued walking, kicking a pebble as we walked.

"I never would want him intentionally first. I learned from my mistakes, I can never trust him" I put my hands into my jeans pockets and sigh. "I will just have to find a way to keep my werewolf side from wanting him."

"I'll help you if you want it." he put his one arm around my shoulders pulling me into his side.

I smiled as he pulled me close and I put one arm around his waist. "Yes, I want you to help me if you can" I said to him.

"Challenge accepted. When I'm done with you, you won't even remember his name," he said laughing.

I laughed back at him. "God I can't tell how good that sounds. So what's the therapy doc?" I smile up at him.

"Having fun, staying away from him. In other words you're stuck with me."

"Sounds awful" I joked and then laughed. "I'm joking, that sounds wonderful. I'll need you during the full moon the most, you know that, right?" I looked up into his eyes again.

"Of course. I'll lock you in my room if I have to. Perhaps you'll wish to be away from me, but I'm a hard case," he said winking.

"It happens that I'm not really myself so you'll have to do what it takes, I give you full permission" I smiled up at him, loving how carefree we could talk again.

I made my way downstairs to grab a drink. It was going to be a full moon tonight and Sage promised to be here to be moral support.
But it was getting dark already and I was getting slightly anxious. I needed him, as we had spent so much time together lately, I grew to love his presence. And he had helped me a lot, actually, I haven't thought about Klaus in the whole time.

Suddenly the door burst open and Sage ran in. "I'm here I'm here."

I turned around as I heard his voice and smiled thankfully. "Thank god" I said and hugged him close. "I thought you forgot about me"
I let go of him and turned around to finish my drink.

He hugged me tight and let me go again. "Right so what are we drinking?"

"Uhm, I think it's Damon's bourbon I didn't really pay any attention to what I was pouring myself" I shrugged and poured him a drink, handing it to him.

He took a sip of the drink I had handed him. "Hmm definitely bourbon. So when does the craziness start?"

I chuckled. "I don't know, I'm the one who doesn't remember, right?" I tilted my head and took a sip myself. "But I guess you'll know" I said and sat down on the couch.

"I guess so," he said and sat down next to me. "Stick like glue," I said flashing her a smile.

"Thanks, by the way" I smiled back. "You've been a good friend to me the past month."
I looked outside, seeing the moon but feeling different than usual. I felt somehow save. Nevertheless, I felt the ever present aching at the back of my throat becoming more dominant. "I think I need something stronger than that" I pointed at my drink with a small smile.

"Thank you and fear not I have something stronger. I'll be right back." he walked down into the basement and retrieved a bloodbag, walking back upstairs, handing it to me. "Strong enough?"

"Will work" I grinned and ripped the bag open, starting with a sip but finished it quicker than I thought. "Much better" I said and smiled at him while licking my lips. "Okay, let's do something fun."

"That sounds appealing." he pulled me up by my hand, switching on the music. "Show me your moves."

I smiled and started to sway my hips, grabbing his other hand and twirling around him.

A grin plastered across his lips, he watched me as I swayed my hips and twirled around him. "Pretty impressive."

"Did you miss this?" I whispered seductively and pressed my body to his, my hands around his neck. "Because I did."

"Yes," he breathed and moved his hands down my back to my hips and moved with me, moving closer as the dance progressed.

I laughed as our bodies moved in perfect sync and he pulled me even closer. As the song ended, I grabbed his hand. "Let's get another drink."

"Good idea I'm thirsty." This time he walked over to the dresser, grabbing the bottle of bourbon, taking a large gulp and handing it back to me.

I took a generous sip myself and kicked off my shoes, starting to dance again. "You said we'll have some fun, so let's do it" I smiled broadly at him and took another sip of the bottle.

He leaned against the wall and watched me dance, a mischievous smile playing on his lips. He swiftly moved his fingers down his shirt undoing the buttons as he went, removing the fabric from his body and throwing it across the room as he made his way over to me, moving closer to me as I danced.

"Oh so you want to have fun too" I laughed and danced into his body, pressing myself close to him.

"You know what they say, if you can't beat them join them," he grinned, his hands running down my sides again all the way down to my hands. He took my hands in his and spun me around so my back was to his chest. "This is joining," he whispered.

I felt his bare chest behind me and I smiled to myself. It felt good and I planned on getting some heat into this. My back to his chest, I kept moving my hips while undoing the zipper of my jacket. I let the fabric slowly fall down my shoulders, leaving them bare, as I was only wearing a tank top underneath.

Placing his hands over my hips, he slowly moved his hips with mine, pressing a soft kiss to my bare shoulder, taking my hands and pulling them up to drape around his neck.

I let my head rest back against his shoulder, smelling his irresistible odor and smiled to myself. Resisting seemed so easy all of a sudden.

I felt his lips close to mine and I couldn't resist. I turned around with vampire speed and pressed my lips to his, putting all my hidden passion in it. It was a kiss we never had before, more close and more openly than any of the previous ones.

He crushed his lips to mine, walking forward with me pushing me up against the wall as he kissed me.

I felt the wall behind me and pushed against it, pulling Sage closer around his neck. As of their own accord I felt my fangs scrap his lip and two small drops of blood falling down into my tongue. I stopped dead in my tracks and pulled back, breathing heavily. "Is this taste the angel blood?" I asked softly, watching as the two marks healed quickly.

My fangs scraped his lip allowing a few drops of blood to drop onto my lips. He breathed out and swallowed. "My blood is sweeter, more fulfilling."

"Let me taste it" I said quickly and took a step closer again. "I want to try it" I looked up at him, still breathless.

He swallowed hard looking into my eyes. "Okay go for it."

I grabbed his hand, bringing his wrist close to my lips, all the time locking my eyes with his. "Are you sure?"

"I'm sure. You can go for it." he lifted his wrist up further and pressed it up against my lips.

I opened my lips and let my fangs elongate, piercing his skin before tasting his oh so sweet blood. It was a taste I never had tasted before, otherworldly but I felt my senses heightened to an extent I never felt before. It was like I was having an out-of-body-experience and couldn't even realise what I was doing.

He moaned as I drew his blood and pulled him closer to me.

I moaned myself and kept drinking from him, feeling the blood going straight to my brain. It was like being drunk and in the back of my mind I felt this being a really bad idea during the full moon but I couldn't stop. The prominent part of my brain won and I kept sucking.

"Stella, stop."

I heard him but I just couldn't stop, it was like an addiction. I grabbed his hand closer and kept drinking, my eyes closing of their own accord.

Sage tried to pull his hand back, but I had him tight and wouldn't let go. "Stella, please. Stella, stop."

I heard him somewhere deep down in my mind but I couldn't process it. I couldn't stop, I couldn't let go. I tried to stop but the pull of his blood was too strong.

Suddenly, he slumped forward against me.

I felt him fall against me and I staggered back. I let to of his hand, seeing the blood on his hand. "Oh god, Sage!" I tried to keep him upright and led him towards the couch.

"You... stopped," he said and smiled weakly.

"Oh god, Sage, I'm so sorry. How can I help you?" I stroked his arm in a desperate gesture. "Can I get you some blood?"

"Yes, I need blood I'm fine I just need blood," he croaked out and coughed.

"God" I looked at him and bit my lip, still tasting his blood on my skin. "Just take mine, maybe it'll help, in combination with yours it would be more powerful than human blood" I said and offered my arm.

Slowly he bit into my wrist, drawing my blood before letting my wrist go. "Thank you."

I looked at him and felt my wrist heal. "I'm so sorry, Sage, I didn't know what happened, I just-" I couldn't continue. His wound had healed but I could still see the blood on it, slowly drying. It was even more appealing than human blood but I couldn't explain it.

"I understand, relax you wouldn't have killed me. Look this was a success, you used your vampire side, not your werewolf. I'm perfectly fine."

"I'm not so sure about it. If you wouldn't have collapsed over me, I'm not sure that I could've stopped" I shook my head, trying to not look at the blood on his wrist.

"Wait my blood made you stop thinking about the full moon right?"

"Yes...but that doesn't mean I could've stopped. You're blood had a complete different impact on me. It was like a drug."

"We have to try it again, you need to control it. You can't kill me unless you burn me or rip off my head. Not by draining me, so be calm we can do this," he said taking my hand in his and squeezing it.

I shook my head. "No. You seemed really shaken and I can't hurt you. I can't do that" I looked at him and squeezed his hand back.

"I will be fine. Little bits, we will do it through the months not on the full moon, just to practice."

"I don't know, Sage, I don't like the feeling if losing control" I looked at his hand again. "See I can't stop thinking about it right now, please, wipe you hand, I can't stand it."

"Look at me, you're fine and I'm fine just calm down, we can do this I know we can, trust me"

I looked into his eyes and I knew he was right. "I trust you, Sage. Please, just help me. I feel like a newborn vampire and I hate it. I can't control myself. I need your help" I leaned in and rested my head on his shoulder.

"I'll help you, don't worry." Sage said and rubbed my back soothingly.

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