I'm a giver

another part, that otherwise might have never get gotten published.

They were both naked and uncovered. Jeremy was lying behind Tyler, stroking Tyler's upper body with his left and kissing Tyler's neck.
"Your body is just like you." Jeremy said while kissing towards the left shoulder.
"Why is that?" Tyler was confused and turned his head as far as he could in Jeremy's direction.
Jeremy concentrated on stroking Tyler's nipple.
"At first you see it and think that it is rock hard, but then you get closer and you notice how amazingly soft everything is." He kissed Tyler's left delta before starting to move upwards to the neck with his kisses. When he reached the ear he whispered, "And once you got to know it that well, you realize the wonderful gift you received." Jeremy nibbled at Tyler's ear.
Tyler was flabbergasted at the words and didn't know what to say. He remained like that for several minutes, lying completely still. Jeremy's words had filled him with guilt anew and the memories of what he had done washed over him once again. His body clenched and he was starting to curl up. Jeremy noticed and stopped it by placing his left hand on Tyler's upper leg and firmly imposing slight pressure on it.
"Tyler," Jeremy asked with a hint of fear in his voice, "what is wrong?"
It was clearly a rhetorical question but Tyler tried to answer nonetheless. The words failed him and only some half-hearted stuttering mixed with half-sobs came out of his mouth.
Jeremy pressed his body against Tyler's, as tightly as possible. His left hand left Tyler's side and reaching for Tyler's left one, intertwining them. His right hand reached forward, pushing his upper arm under Tyler's head – Tyler welcomed it and closed his eyes when his face touched Jeremy's skin – and then angled the arm to run his fingers through Tyler's hair.
Tyler started to sob, tears running down his face.
Jeremy spoke with a soft voice.
"It doesn't matter Tyler, you're different now. It doesn't matter anymore."
Tyler's voice got a notch angrier. "How can you say that? You of all." He kept his eyes shut, fighting the urge to turn around and look Jeremy into the eyes.
Jeremy sighed and fastened his grip on Tyler's hand. "I cannot change that. I learned that lesson the hard way. Believe me I did." He nuzzled Tyler's neck.
Tyler didn't inquire, but opened his eyes. "But how can you say that, knowing what I did to you?"
"You didn't do that."
"Yes I did," Tyler snapped, causing Jeremy to stop nuzzling, and started to shiver despite Jeremy's warm body pressed against his.
"I know what you did and what not."
"Then why did you let me do what I just did? Why did you just let me…"
"Make me feel good?" Jeremy intercepted.
"Yes," was the only response, the voice shaky.
"Because I wanted you to."
"I don't understand."
"Me neither; but it is what you did. And that is all that matters to me now."
"Why?" Tyler took Jeremy's hand out of his hair and kissed it.
Jeremy sighed again, but deeper this time and rested his head in the crock of Tyler's neck.
"I learned that life is what counts for the living, death is there for the dead. And I have felt more alive than I did in a long time when I gave myself to you."
"But…"
Jeremy cut him short again. "Listen to me Tyler. What counts is the present, not the past. I don't want to stay locked in what is gone."
Tyler still didn't understand but he noticed that he had stopped crying. At that moment something inside Tyler snapped. But it was not like usually when the rage hit him, it was more like someone pushed a button and illuminated a room. He turned around, freeing himself of Jeremy's embrace and looked him directly in the eyes with a slight smile on his still wet face.
"Let's start over," he presented his hand; "I'm Ty."
Jeremy just stared at him for about half a minute, mouth open. Then his eyes changed from brown to bright blue again. He took Tyler's hand and shook it.
"Nice to meet you Ty," a wide smile on his face, "I'm Jer."
Both chuckled.
Tyler continued. "You know Jer," Tyler Jeremy circles with his index finger on Jeremy's chest while looking into his eyes, "in three years I have only had sex once; can you help me out with that?"
Jeremy kissed him. "No problem Ty, I am a giver."