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Raven P.O.V.
Why did I agree to talking to him about that night? Didn't he understand that I don't want to tell him because he will never forgive himself? He will be scared for life, why did he have to be so sweet and caring about it? And those eyes were so full of compassion that I just melted right there. If he was ugly and mean I would have been able to say no to him, but no he had to be cute and caring. Uh, what am I saying? I am RAVEN, the master of darkness and emotion. I shouldn't be having meltdowns next to my car. So why was I? I shook my head to clear my thoughts away from his arms around me in a hug.
"Uh, uh Rae. You have already agreed their is no backing down now." He thought that I was disagreeing with him now. He pulled away from the hug to look me in the eye, he had a stubborn little boy look that was adorable. Oh no. I needed to gain control of the situation...NOW.
"I wasn't shaking my head to say no, I was shaking it to clear my head from all your pesky emotions. Now that we have this all cleared up can we go now? I have so much work to do for my classes tomorrow, which means that you have to be silent," I said all this in my normal monotone voice. One-zero Raven. Oh gosh I was turning into Beast Boy.
Before he could say anything to make me crumple in his arms again, I climbed into the drivers seat. "You know Rae. There is such a thing as opening the door."
"Then there is no point in having a convertible and don't call me Rae." I gave him a look that said 'shut up or I'll throw you into the Underworld.' He shut up after that. Therefore the drive was quiet and uneventful. I focused on thinking about an attack plan for the massive amount of work that I had to do. I even forgot that he was there in-till I shut the apartment door in his face and he screamed.
"RAE! I thunk you broke my nose!" I opened the door to let him in, no matter how much I jut wanted to leave him there. Wait how can I say that? I didn't want to leave him there outside my door. That was to cruel for him.
"Sorry Beast Boy. I don't think that it is broken though. Let me have a closer look at it. He leaned down so that I could see the green nose that now had a few drops of red blood, like Christmas colors. I grabbed a tissue and started to gently squeeze it to stop the blood flow.
"Rae?" I looked into his eyes when he called out that stupid nickname, ready to tell him to stop, his expression made me falter. He looked like a little boy that didn't know what to do. It was like he was having a debate held inside his head, I could feel the internal debate of emotions, one of them was love. This wasn't the first time that I read this of him, but it was the first time that I shared the feeling.
I kissed him.
He was shocked at first and then responded, much to my relief. It felt like I was on cloud nine. His lips were in sync with mine and I had to put my hand behind his head to pull him down to my level. He put his own hand around my waist and gripped it like he was afraid it would disappear. After a minute I remembered who this was and who I was. I was Raven, I could hurt him or someone around us without even trying. Demons weren't meant to be loved or to love, especially with someone who hurt them so badly. I had to stop this, no matter how much I liked it. Suddenly so that he wouldn't be able to respond, I pulled away.
"Goodnight Garfield " My formal tone sounded shaky even to me. So much for getting work done tonight. "Take any of the spare bedrooms or go home, whatever you want." I exited so that he wouldn't see how much our kiss affected me. What the heck was I thinking? Stupid Rachel, stupid, stupid Rachel! For the first time in my life the pure darkness of my room did little to comfort me.