Monday 4th March
Wanted to cut throughout the day but had noting with me to use. Almost cried in… well most of my lessons but held it together. My friend's in a terrible way and is still at school talking to a teacher. I want to cut again but something's holding me back, guess it's me trying to stay strong for RM, LAS CN, JM, LA, KE and CT (used initials). Demi Lovato is again playing but not at full blast because that head ache last night kept me awake until three! Dinner time was crap, my friend ED fell out with LA and I had a bag of crisp and two bottles of orange. When I was eating I could tell a girl in my form was watching me as I stared in to space thinking about how stupid of a situation I had gotten in to, she knows I'm in a bad way now I think. I went to the library and my friend and ED came over and asked why I looked down so I made up the excuse of going through a rough patch and continued to try not to cry, she believed me and that was the end of that convo. I'm sure people are noticing how sad I am, my geography teacher kept looking at me and I just nodded along with what he was talking about (can't actually remember any of what he was saying apart from that it was about hurricanes) and in IT the computer decided to delete my work I had done that lesson so I have to redo it next lesson! Stress levels with me are so high at the moment! Sick of everything, just want it to all end!