Chapter Three
Three sets of eyes were on Veronica, staring at her, watching her every move. Three mouths were shooting rapid fire questions at her and all she could do was squint her eyes and tilt her head to the side as if she was a pit bull trying to process what exactly was going on. She had no idea who there people were, what they wanted with her and most importantly she had no idea who she was.
"Okay so what happens now," Veronica said readjusting herself in the bed. As soon as they found out she was capable of speaking and wasn't a vegetable they removed the feeding tube and Veronica was feeling a little more comfortable. She had already heard the doctor's explanation of her being in a car accident and in a coma for over two weeks. It didn't really explain anything to her. From what she had managed to understand she was Veronica Mars, a normal 19 year old college student who was in a car accident. Her father was Keith Mars the sheriff of their town, and the black guy next to her was her step brother. "Why does none of this seem familiar to me," she asked the doctor.
"Well Veronica we are going to have to figure all of this out. To be honest with you, the fact that you have amnesia is great news compared to the other prognoses we had for you. Most people in your shoes would end up brain dead. Amnesia is actually a good thing, we can work around that," he said.
"Veronica," a voice came from the door way, "You're awake," Logan said stepping inside the room with a large grin and an even larger bouquet of flowers. "Mr. Mars, Dr. Stevens" he said while giving them a nod. He couldn't hide his excitement as he made his way towards the bed. That's when he noticed the expressions on the older men in the room. They weren't exactly ecstatic with her being awake.
"Yes I am. You must be king of the obvious," she said coldly. She knew it wasn't fair but she was frustrated. Everyone was acting as if they knew who she was and knew everything about her while she had no idea who they were or even who she was.
"Wow, I knew you were mad at me the last time we spoke but I didn't figure you'd be so cold after being in a coma," he said the hurt clearly making its way to his face. His smile quickly faded. He thought he was so stupid for thinking that she'd be able to just wake up and forgive him for that entire Madison Sinclair thing. He knew she had a right to be mad, Veronica hated Madison and blamed her for her sophomore year rape but in his defence they were broken up when he had his one drunken night with Madison.
"Logan lets go outside to talk," Wallace said grabbing Logan by the arm and leading him towards the door again. Logan let the flowers drop to the floor and exited the room with Wallace.
The two boys stood face to face both of them looking somber and unable to hide the hurt they were both feeling. Both boys were hurting for two very different reasons. Logan was dressed in Veronica's favourite button down green shirt worn open with a beige t-shirt with khaki pants and her cologne. He had fixed his hair quickly and stopped at a florist to get her two dozen blue roses with white cala lilies.
"Why'd you tell me to come Wallace? Did you really think I needed a slap to the face," he asked with hurt in his voice. He knew that the two of them were never really good friends and the only reason they started to talk was for the sake of Veronica. "You know I was really excited when I saw you text message and now I'm wishing I never woke up to read it," he said.
Wallace let his eyes fall to the floor and stare at his shoes as he spoke to Logan. He couldn't stand to see Logan like this. He knew all about the ups and downs in their relationship but Logan had really proven himself and the love he had for Veronica. He had always defended her honour and after the car accident he didn't budge from her side. He'd show up each and every single day after classes and stay until Alice kicked him out.
"She wasn't awake when I sent you the message. I knew she was coming around but I didn't know….Logan its not that she hates you," he said choosing his words very carefully, "it's that she doesn't remember anything. Veronica has amnesia and the strange thing is that it's a really good thing. The doctors thought she'd be a vegetable or unable to speak but losing her memory is really the best thing that could have happened to her," he said and he knew as the words came out that they sounded strange.
"She doesn't remember anything," Logan said unable to process what he was being told. The good news was that Veronica wouldn't remember the Madison Sinclair incident but the bad news was that she didn't remember their love story and how no matter what happened, they would always end up together. Logan lived his life normally but without girlfriends just waiting for the moment that he and Veronica would cross paths and they could realize their love for one another. Not so much realize their love for one another but more like express it and give in.
"Nothing." Wallace said simply hating the fact that his sister and best friend knew nothing about their friendship, siblinghood, or anything that had to do with how they were as close as they were. Not only that but his step dad had to be so torn up over everything. He lived solely for Veronica Mars who was no longer the person she was a couple of weeks ago. "The doctor is talking to Keith about how long something like this can last and how to deal with it. Doesn't sound easy," he admitted but he was willing to do whatever it took.
"I can't," Logan said taking his turn to stare at the ground now. "It was bad enough seeing her at school and having her ignore me completely and its another thing for her to not even know who I am. I can't deal with this Wallace," Logan said taking a deep breath. "I love her more than I've ever loved anything or anyone and she doesn't know who I am." Logan bit the inside of his lower lip to keep his chin from quivering and allowing a tear to escape. He wasn't going to cry in a hospital hall way. "What do I have to do," he asked bringing his eyes up to Wallace's.
"Just be there and talk to her man. Look at it this way, you finally have a chance to make a new first impression," he said trying to be optimistic. "Although that king of the obvious comment was very Veronica don't you think" he said trying to lighten the mood as he put his arm around Logan to lead him back into the room. "And I told you to come here because out of everyone who visits her, I know you love her the most and that you are sorry for what you did. Duncan fell in love with someone else and got them pregnant and when everything happened he kidnapped the baby and ran off leaving the girl he claimed to love all alone and broken hearted. And Piz, well he's out in left field. He's a great room mate but I seriously don't think he's right for V. She needs someone broody like you." Wallace lightly punched Logan in the arm as the two boys reentered the hospital room.
"Excuse us for a few minutes boys," Keith said as he walked out of the room with Dr. Stevens. Keith looked completely torn up and Logan wanted nothing more than to tell him that everything would be alright but he couldn't do that. Logan couldn't convince himself of that much less convince anyone else.
Once the adults were out of the room Veronica laid her eyes on the two boys. "So King, tell me your real name or can I just call you King," she said laughing at herself and the situation. It's not that she found it funny but it was the only way she knew how to cope with what was going on.
"Oddly enough, King was the name of my first dog so I'd prefer it if you call me Logan," he said quickly falling into the witty banter that he and Veronica always had. At least that hadn't changed. Before he could say anything else Wallace had excused himself from the room leaving the two star crossed lovers to their own devices.
"Okay Logan and I know you how?" she asked genuinely curious. If the flowers were any indication she was guessing that he was her boyfriend. He was tall and slightly on the lanky side but she could see that he had some muscle formation on his arms. He walked as if he owned the place and he had very warm and welcoming warm eyes. She didn't do too bad in the boyfriend department.
Logan looked at Veronica sitting up in the hospital bed with her hospital gown falling off of her right shoulder and all he wanted to do was rush up to her and kiss her bare skin and take her into his arms and never let him go but that wasn't something he could do. She seemed okay while she was talking to him but Logan noticed something in her eyes, it was sadness. Now more than ever he wanted to scoop her up in his arms and take her on his boat and protect her from all the harm in the world.
"I don't even know how to answer that question."
"Does it take rocket science to figure out?"
"Too much history to sum up in one sentence."
"Are you my boyfriend?"
"Ex."
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why are you my ex? Why are you here if you are my ex?"
"It's complicated."
"Uncomplicate it."
"Can't."
"Well that was fun," Veronica said sarcastically. "I get it though. No one wants to tell amnesia girl really bad things so they are going to take it really easy with me. It's great. I don't know who I am or who you are and no one wants to tell me anything about me. Is my life really that disastrous?"
"Veronica if you only knew what good you've done in this world you'd quickly find out…" he let his voice trail as he turned away and walked out of the hospital room leaving Veronica alone. He leaned against the wall outside the room and let the tears escape. His entire world was all about loving her and she didn't know who she was.
"He loves you a lot," Alice said coming out of the bathroom in Veronica's room. "He was here every single day just watching you sleep. Don't be so mean to him." Alice jotted a note down in Veronica's file and walked out of the room as well.
"Great, in a matter of five minutes I've scared off my doctor, father, brother, ex boyfriend and nurse." She turned to lay on her side and let her tears fall freely from her eyes. She was scared. She didn't know anything about her life or her family and friends and that truly scared her.