A/N: I have a feeling some of you won't like what Kurt will do this chapter, but there's reason. It is part of development between Kurt and Sebastian. And Lucas will come back next chapter for those who likes him :D Thanks for all the review again!

Monday came way faster than Kurt expected. He waked down the hallway of McKinley with Finn and Sam on his sides. Kurt made them promise not to tell anyone what happened, under any circumstances. He knew that once Finn starts to talk, he would make a scene. The last thing Kurt wanted was to have the whole school know he almost got raped by his boyfriend.

Blaine jogged to Kurt as soon as he saw them.

"Kurt!"

Finn and Sam stepped up to stand between them

"Blaine, stay away from Kurt."

"Finn, please let me talk to Kurt. Kurt!"

Kurt gathered what he needed for his first class, turned towards Blaine and let out a frustrated sigh.

"Finn, Sam, I got this. Just go to class."

Sam shook his head "No man, you're not leaving my sight today."

Kurt smiled a little. Sam was always very sweet and caring. He remembered he was the first one to defend him against Karofsky too.

"Sam, it's okay. I'll talk to Blaine. I promise he won't hurt me."

"But-" Sam and Finn tried to protest but Kurt gave them an 'I got this' look.

Finn patted Kurt's shoulder gently "Alright, I got your back little brother."

"I'm older."

"Whatever." Finn shot Blaine another look before walking away with Sam.

Blaine shifted from foot to foot. "Kurt, I'm so so so sorry-"

The curly hair boy was also cut off by Blaine. "I need to go to class now. We'll talk at lunch time okay?"

"But Kurt-"

"We either talk in lunch time or we just don't talk again." This came out harsher than Kurt planned but he really didn't want to have this conversation rushed.

"O-okay. I'll meet you in the choir room at lunch time then." Blaine showed a weak smile to Kurt then walked to his first class as well.

The whole morning was torture to Kurt. He somehow regretted he didn't have the talk in the morning, and now he just can't concentrate at class at all. He had the whole speech rehearsed. He knows what he wants now, and why he and Blaine don't work. Ironically, seeing Sebastian again was like a switch to him. He reminded Kurt of his passion, the fire within him, his claws and how much he missed all those things.

By the time Kurt walked into the choir room in lunch time, Blaine was already waiting for him. Kurt sat down next to Blaine.

"Kurt, I'm so sorry. I promise I will never do that again. I'm so so so sorry."

"Blaine, listen to me."

Hazel eyes looked at Kurt filled with worry, and Kurt felt bad doing this but he knew he had to.

"Blaine, I'm...I'm breaking up with you."

"What? Is it because of what happened? I will change, I-I will stop drinking. Please don't break up with me. I love you."
Kurt blinked tears away. "Please, don't make this any harder, Blaine. I love you too, and I will always love you. But I'm not in love with you, not anymore."

"What? How?"

"You made me realize it."

"I don't understand."

Kurt took a deep breath, "I thought what we were is what I wanted, but it's not all. I want more. Along the way, I'm losing myself. When I first transferred to Dalton, I tried to fit in, so I contained myself. Try to be part of the Warblers, part of Dalton."

"What do you mean?" Blaine was confused.

"I used to critique people's fashion sense, fight to shine. Being thrown into dumpsters didn't stop me from dressing up. I wanted to stand out. I want the world in my hand. And I wasn't any of those when I was in Dalton."

"What are you talking about? You gave your opinions the first day you joined Warblers!"

"But I got turned down and I didn't fight for it. The old me would have fought. I fight to get what I want. I was so vulnerable at the time, I didn't fight. And you were there to offer guidance and I felt safe. I had my moment of weakness and I let myself fall into this comfort of being protected. Then when we started dating, I kept it that way, because part of me worried that, maybe, if you saw the bitchy side of me, you wouldn't want me anymore and I was scared. So, I kept being the quiet, supporting role in this relationship."

"And you're saying you don't want that anymore?"

"I'm saying, I realised that we want different things."

"You're saying I can't give you what you want." Tears were running down Blaine's face but he seemed calm enough.

"Blaine..." Kurt cupped his face "I love you, I really do. You're my first love and you will always have a special place in my heart. I want you to have the best but I'm not the best for you."

Blaine sighed sadly "I...if that's what you want, if that's what makes you happy."

Kurt didn't say anything but squeezed Blaine's hand a little, they understood each other. They would always love each other and support each other, as best friends.