Okay, Kurt was a little regretful that he said yes to Lucas, as he was nervously sitting on a bench in the mall, waiting for him. Yes he thought Lucas was cute and sweet; but no, he didn't like Lucas that way. Kurt wondered why he was so pissed about Sebastian laughing at his idea of a relationship. He was also kind of pissed about why Sebastian thought he couldn't handle a relationship. Kurt thought Sebastian was completely capable of caring about others, he obviously cared about Sisi and Lucas, and he seemed nice around the Warblers. Was it because of his father? Kurt could imagine that love was a hurtful subject for Sebastian since his father rejected him. Kurt couldn't imagine what he would do if Burt rejected him when he came out to him. He probably would have...
Kurt's thought was interrupted "Hummel?"
Kurt looked up and found David Karofsky standing in front of him. "K-Karofsky..."
Kurt almost stood up immediately and wanted to run.
"Wait! Can we talk?"
He looked sincere so Kurt finally gave in "Okay."
Karofsky sat down next to Kurt and took a deep breath "First of all...I'm sorry."
Kurt looked at him in surprise.
"For leaving you there at prom… and for everything else."
"...Thank you."
"Why?"
"For saying that. Can I ask…does that mean you've accepted yourself?"
"I...still haven't come out. I wanted to go through this year peacefully to be honest. But I went to a gay bar a few times. People there accept me...I'm still trying to figure this out."
Kurt smiled "It's okay. I believe everyone should figure this thing at their own pace, as long as you're comfortable with it. I hope you do well with everything."
Karofsky's eyes were getting teary. "How...how can you still be nice to me after all the shit I put you through?"
"It's in the past...I understand your struggles. And I'm glad you apologized. That means a lot to me. It's also nice that you're starting to accept who you are."
"Kurt...I, thank you. Thank you."
"Talk to me if you need help, I will help with whatever I can."
Karofsky smiled and nodded.
Lucas finally came. "Kurt!"
"Lucas."
"Sorry I'm late, who's this..."
"I'm just leaving." David rose from the bench and got ready to leave.
"David!" Kurt called out, stopping the boy.
"Give me your phone." Karofsky handed him his phone.
Kurt typed in his number "Call me if you need help or just...to talk, you know."
"Thank you, I really appreciate it."
After Karofsky left, Lucas suggested they check out the record store. The two spent a long time in there. Kurt found out the Smythe boys have nice taste in music; and Kurt was surprises to find out that Sebastian played guitar and Lucas played keyboard. The boys both liked rock music, but Sebastian preferred the classics; The Beatles, David Bowie, Queen, Guns & Roses, Coldplay etc., One Night Only was the newest band to make it to his playlist. Lucas on the other hand, he liked a lot of post-rock music and some of the electronic, experimental rock.
"I like post-rock, they put a lot of new material in it. It's fun. I like Mogwai, 65daysofsonic, oh and The Chemical Brothers! I watched that movie Hanna just because they did the soundtrack. I have to say that movie was awful. All I can remember was the soundtrack."
Kurt giggled a little "I watched it too, and all I can remember is the Prada Cate Blanchett was wearing"
"Maybe we can go watch a movie sometime?" Lucas looked at Kurt with hope in his eyes.
Oh, Kurt just remembered this is just a friendly get-together to him, but a possible date to Lucas.
Kurt was a gay teenager in Ohio. There wasn't many day he would come across another openly proud gay kid that liked him enough to ask him out, so he was pretty flattered.
As flattered as he was, however, he didn't like Lucas in that way. To be honest, Lucas was pretty much Kurt's type. Tall and lean (yes, he actually liked guys who are taller than him. Height was the one flaw he found in Blaine that he would never admit to anyone) who could play music and sing. And Lucas was definitely good looking also very sweet.
But there was something missing. Something Kurt came to realise he wanted lately. Besides romance and caring, he also wanted fireworks and passion, to be desired and needed.
"Kurt?" Lucas waved his hand in front of Kurt's face trying to bring him back to reality
"Oh, sorry...I mean, a movie is good, maybe we should get the other boys too and do Warblers movie night." Kurt really hoped Lucas would get what he really meant was that he didn't feel up to a Lucas and Kurt movie date.
If Lucas understood what he mean he didn't say anything but gave Kurt a smile and nodded.
Lucas and Kurt were now sitting at the little cafe in the mall. They decided to have a late lunch.
"Who was that you were talking to when I arrived?" Lucas asked suddenly.
"He used to go to my school, we ran into each other while I was waiting."
"I'm so so so sorry again for being late. Sisi heard that I was coming to see you and she wanted to come. It took me a while to convince her to stay home."
"It's okay. Or you could have brought her, I really wouldn't have minded."
"I was hoping I could have you to myself, at least for a while."
"Lucas...I-" Kurt frowned minutely. He hated himself for doing this to Lucas. Kurt felt like he was using Lucas in a way, but he wanted a friend and Lucas is a great person.
"I know you don't like me like that. I just-Kurt, you're really special. It doesn't take months or years to know that. You're nicest and sweetest person I've ever known, and I like how you smile. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I just, I don't know, I wanna make you smile more."
Kurt looked at Lucas. He reminded Kurt of his sophomore year, when he was still oh so optimistic about relationships and romance and love. Not that he wasn't anymore. (Well, not that much like he used to) But hearing what Lucas said brought back memories.
Kurt put his hand on Lucas' shoulder "Lucas, I'm sorry if I lead you on or anything, I just...you're really sweet. I would have jumped into dating you a year ago, maybe time changed me...I feel I want something else now. I don't know...I don't think us will work-"
"You like someone else...it's Seb isn't it? You like Seb."
"What? Your brother doesn't even do relationships, and I want relationship. There's no way it's gonna happen." Kurt gave him an awkward laugh
"You didn't answer my question, do you like Seb?"
Kurt mentally whined a little, these Smythe boys were difficult. They were just not going to let him get away with avoiding these questions.
"I-"
"Hey little brother." Speak of the devil, Sebastian Smythe just showed up with Sisi in his arms.
"Kurtie!" Sisi called out and reached toward Kurt.
"Bas! Sisi honey, hi." Kurt smiled happily and reached to pull Sisi onto his lap.
Sisi instantly wrapped her little arms around Kurt's neck "I missed you Kurtie. Did you miss me?"
"Of course honey. I was just telling Lucas I missed you."
"Kurtie, can I have ice-cream. I want ice-cream but Bas said no."
"You had one this morning already, and it's winter, you're going to get cold." Sebastian stated.
Sisi pouted with big glassy green eyes at Kurt.
Kurt smirked. God this girl got the Smythe scheming genes for sure with such skills for getting what she wanted.
"Maybe we should go get hot chocolate instead?" Kurt said lightly brushing her hair
Sienna's eyes lit up immediately "With lots and lots of marshmallows?"
Kurt giggled "Yes my dear, as many marshmallows as you want."
"Yay, Kurtie is the best. Bas is bad! I'm telling momma" Sisi stuck her tongue out at Sebastian
The Smythe boys laughed out loud "A 'Lady' doesn't do that sweetie."
Sisi bit her bottom lip a little "Okay."
Kurt secretly was in awe at the whole scene, these siblings were just freaking unreal and adorable.
"Okay princess, let get your hot chocolate." With that, Kurt lifted Sienna in his arms and walked towards the counter to order the drink.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Lucas narrowed his eyes at Sebastian as soon as Kurt was out earshot.
"Sisi wanted to see our little Kurtie so I brought her here."
"That's a lame excuse Seb. You're here to sabotage my date."
"Pfft…date. Really, that's what you call this? It looks like Kurt is dying to get away from you."
Lucas was pissed, seriously. He had been dealing with Sebastian being a jerk his whole life. He should be numb already. But he was pissed.
Deep down he knew Kurt didn't like him that way. Come on, that was pretty obvious. But he was glad Kurt didn't treat him like a little kid. He was actually honest about what he felt and didn't brush it off like 'oh you're still young, it's just a crush'
That was why he was pissed. Lucas thought Kurt liked Sebastian with the way Kurt just acted so natural around Sebastian and vice versa, and how Kurt always came to Sebastian when he needed support. He was also pretty sure Sebastian liked Kurt. Because never in his life had he seen someone like Kurt who could banter with Sebastian like that and Sebastian not even get offended in the slightest. Lucas could see that Sebastian had the amusing, subtle smile when he was around Kurt. Lucas never had seen Sebastian like this and he knew there had to be something between those two.
"For god's sake Seb, just man up and admit you fucking love Kurt. I don't wanna get into whatever stupid games you're planning to play."
"Whoa, who says I like Kurt? Maybe I'm just purely enjoying pissing you off." Sebastian smirked
"Or maybe you're jealous."
"Bullshit. You think I have to be jealous of you little brother? If I wanted Kurt, I could have his ass faster than you could say his name."
Truth to be told, Sebastian didn't dare to think about Lucas pointing out he's jealous. He knew he felt fire burning through him this morning when Lucas was happily skipping out of the house saying he was meeting up with Kurt. He told himself it was because it was really awkward that Kurt might become his brother's boyfriend when they had gotten off together in a dirty bathroom a year ago.
About an hour after Lucas went out, Sebastian thought he would explode with his complicated emotions. So he told Sisi they were going to find her Prince Kurtie and Mission "Cockblock Brother's Potential First Date" was on.
"Cut the crap, I've known you my whole life Seb. You're my brother. You act all weird and caring around Kurt."
"I do n-"
"And I don't care if it's because you don't understand your feelings or if you're playing games. Kurt deserves more that this…whatever you're doing."
"So you think you're better?" Sebastian raised an eyebrow
"If I'm not already better, I'll be better. Relationships need to be earned and effort needs to be put in. People don't just fall in love by you saying you want them."
"I don't want a relationship. How many times have I told you!" Sebastian was getting frustrated.
Why the fuck was his brother pushing him into the one topic he didn't want to think about.
"So if you want hook up, stay away from Kurt. If you truly like Kurt, I would fight you fair and square. Because Kurt is special and he's worth it. Even if he likes you but you can't man up and earn it. I will still fight for him. I hate to see you shutting love away. Think about it, brother."
Sebastian sat there, completely stunned by his brother's speech.
A/N: Thank you so much again for the reviews. It really help me brain storm the development so keep them coming *wink*
If any of you have read my other story "Sealed With A Kiss", just to let you know I did not abandon that story just that I rather focus one at a time.
Thank you for reading and supporting. :D
