Chapter four, peeps! Sorry if I drag this story waaayy… too long but I just can't shorten it, hoho…Enjoy it!

Disclaimer : I do not own Detective Conan

A Letter to Kudou Shinichi

Haibara Ai

The snow white pill was on my palm. Finally, finally I've got the cure; the perfect antidote for APTX 4869, I thought anxiously. Looking into the mirror in my very own bedroom, I saw my own reflection wearing overlarge white coat with red long tee turtle neck inside. This outfit reminded me of the time when I escaped from the organization. I wore them as I walked under the rain and eventually passed out in front of Kudou-kun's house. My heart was palpitating as I threw the pill into my mouth and swallow it. I was so sure about the effectiveness of this antidote that I didn't need Kudou-kun to try it first.

Kudou-kun…I felt hot tears trickling down my cheeks when I remembered about him. Something definitely was wrong with my tear gland nowadays as my tears kept flowing out. I gasped as I felt my body began to burn. Here it comes! And the reaction is faster than when Kudou-kun tried the prototype that I made!

I grasped the table as I felt my body numbed. I couldn't move my body at all; it was even more painful than when I took the Paikaru back at Haido City Hotel. Pictures of Gin shot me at the rooftop, Pisco saw me as Haibara Ai, and Kudou-kun saved me from them, suddenly flashed so quick that I didn't remember which one came first. Another drop of tears fell again due to the pain that I felt and the memories that I had with Kudou-kun…

I screamed as loud as I could, hoping it would lessen the pain, and then I found myself lying on the cold floor.

Slowly, I opened my eyes. No more pain. No more tears. Every thing was great. Impeccable. I moved my fingers to make sure that nothing had gone wrong. And then, carefully I stood up and found myself taller than I had been for the past two years. I turned to look into the mirror, and I smiled. It was the first genuine smile that I casted for the past few days.

Miyano Shiho was back, finally…

Hakase is not home yet, I thought as I took a peek from my room's door. It's better though, I would be able to finish my unfinished business at peace without Hakase kept asking me, "Are you OK, Ai-kun?" or "Do you want to go out with Ayumi-chan and the others?", and some other questions that will only be answered by a "no" or even worse, a mere grunt.

I punched Ayumi-chan's home number. Beside the computer, there was a stack of pictures. These pictures were the reason why I called Ayumi-chan.

"Moshimoshi? Ayumi-chan? It's me…can you come over to Hakase's house right now? Yes, if possible can you ask Kojima-kun and Tsuburaya-kun to come along? There's something I need to give to all of you…"

One down, I thought as I put back the receiver back on its place. The clock chimed nine times, which means I would only have about one or two hours to do my unfinished business here. I grabbed a piece of plain white paper and a pen, and then I sat down silently, wondering what should I write.

Dear Kudou-kun…nope, too formal, don't you think so? Very well, how about Dear Meitantei-san…not good also, how if Hakase saw this letter before Kudou-kun and gave it to Mouri Kogoro?

Or should I try Dear Shinichi-kun?

Nope, definitely not. Just thinking about those words had made my face hot, so I thought that was the WORST idea that I had ever come up with…

After some paper balls scattered on the floor, eventually I read a letter to Kudou-kun with satisfaction. Well, at the end I chose Kudou-kun…for the opening.

Kudou-kun…

When you read this letter, I'll be somewhere far away from you. This is the antidote of APTX 4869 that I've tried to myself and I'm absolutely confident about its precision.

I'll be going to America this Saturday, but I'm leaving Hakase's house tonight. Don't ask me why at the end I still decide to go, because only God and I know the reason.

Arigatou yo, Kudou-kun. I know you've been keeping me by your side just because I'm the only one who can make the antidote even though you said that you care about me not just because I'm the antidote maker, but still, thank you so much for making me happy and letting me know that I don't need to face everything in this world by myself. Thank you, for saving my life every time I tried to end my life…

Wish you happiness with Mouri Ran-san and good luck in pursuing your career as meitantei…

Always,

Miyano Shiho

This was it. I folded the paper and put it inside an envelope, together with the snow white pill. My heart was so painful that I need to clutch my chest when I thought about not being able to meet the man who I loved sincerely anymore.

The doorbell suddenly rang and I heard a tiny, girlish voice from the speaker.

"A…Ai-chan? It's us…"

I stood up and made my way to the front door. Once I finished this last thing, I'd go as far as I could. I would erase Kudou-kun from my mind and I would start a new life as Miyano Shiho.

But then, would I really be able to forget about that man named Kudou Shinichi?

Noooo!!! Ai-chan is actually going to go! How will this story ends up? Please give me your review, thanks!