Slightly Changes.
What if Gwen, feeling herself irresistibly drawn by Lancelot had decided to leave Camelot, leave Arthur before cheating on him ? How does the King would have react ? Would have he let the love of his life go away from him ? Would the Morgana's evil plan operates in this case ? The true love that share Arthur and Guinevere, could it survive to a true break up ? Would have it been the good answer ? In this version, set during 4x09, after Arthur's proposing, Lancelot come back and the enchanted gift this late gave to Gwen. This one decided to leave all that matter for her, including the man she loves more than anything, because of feelings she thought dead forever ...
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VIII.
"Paul..." breathed Gwen,
The young man was covered by mud and he seemed like wander in the forest since days. He walked forward her and without saying anything, he took her in his arms. Then, he receded a little and looked at everyone.
"You finally left ..."
"Yes, you were right Paul and I don't know how to thank you, you had put so much at stake to help us and I know..."
"You don't know a thing." cut her sadly the young man, "Nothing at all."
"What was it to know ? " asked then Arthur and he couldn't prevent the coldness in his voice, this man had hugged his Guinevere. This last threw him a puzzled look before put her attention back at Paul.
"You're right, but you'll have time to explain. Come back with us at Camelot."
"What ?" exclaimed both Merlin and Arthur,
Gwen ignored them and said again, taking Paul's hands in hers.
"I beg you. You tried do warn me, you tried and I was too stupid to listen to you and I am... I am so sorry !"
Paul sadly smiled and was ready to take her in her arms again when he met the ice stare of the golden haired man on the horse behind her. Arthur, if he remembered well.
"You only have three horses."
"You can take mine."
"Guinevere," Gwen jumped, she hadn't even noticed that Arthur had dismounted off his horse for joining her, "You don't think of reaching Camelot walking, do you ?" He then held a frank hand to Paul, "Arthur."
"I remember you." he told again, shaking his hand.
Gwen notices Arthur's protective hand on her back and almost rolled her eyes before she froze. What if he don't trust me anymore after ...
"Iwasthinkingthatmaybeifyouwanticouldmountedwithyo ubutyoudon'thavetosayyesyouknow..."
"Guinevere !" laughed Arthur suddenly, "I fear I didn't understood a thing !"
She looked down, and he noticed she had blushed,
"I was thinking... maybe I could... you know... mounted on horse ... with you." she ended shyly,
Arthur plunged his eyes in hers and again, she would have sworn his eyes were darker... Arthur didn't know if it was a good idea, oh he literally died of envy, but having her little body against his for a whole day ... He was not sure he could control himself.
"Oh if you don't want to ..."
"Of course I want to." he answered in a tender voice,
She blushed again before look down. Paul's eyes was doing come and go between the two of them and Merlin saw the sad smile on his lips and reminded himself asking him later the reason why.
Morgana felt a pain in her head wake up her and hardly, she opened her eyes. At first, she discerned anything about where she was but when she tried to rubbed her eyes for seeing clear, she felt something restrain her wrist and a whimper of fear took her.
"It serves no purpose."
Morgana jumped and turned around quickly toward the voice before said with a voice she would have loved more valiant,
"What did you do to me ?"
"Oh so little ..." the shadow got up and got closer. Morgana noticed she had took her former form again and she felt sick. She was betrayed. Again. Was it her destiny ?
"Why did you do that ? I'm on your side !"
Morgaine laughed and Morgana felt frozen in the bottom of herself.
"You are not on my side. You killed Morgause."
"And do you really believe I wanted to ? Do you really believe I didn't begged her not to make me do this ? She was my sister."
Again, Morgaine shouted and her eyes went gold while a scream of pain escaped Morgana's lips and she felt a warm liquid on her cheek.
"You're wrong about the ennemy you chase you idiot !"
"Oh worry not. Pendragon will pay. I will bring him here and then, I will kill you both. And Morgause's death will be avenged.
They were all three gone again, Paul on Gwen's horse, Merlin on his and Gwen with Arthur, she leant on him and felt his warm and hard body against hers. Her King.
"You can sleep you know," he whispered at her ear, "I've got you."
She tenderly smiled at this,
"I don't want to be a burden for you."
"Guinevere," he smiled, "You never were a burden to me."
She leant a little more, and closed her eyes, letting his smell soak in her. His odor, so ... masculine.
"You are comfy you know," she smiled and he laughed cheerfully,
"I count on it, I already told you Guinevere, you will sleep on me for a long time to come, I hope..."
She noticed the tip of hope in his voice and turned slightly the head so she can see him, his eyes laid on her her and they were shinning with such love and apprehension. She dreamt about saying yes to his implicit question, but she needed time, time to forgive herself. Because if Arthur had, it was going to take a little more time for her, trust herself again. She knew she loved Arthur, she would do anything for him to be happy, and if he wanted her, then she would be here, but it would take some time ... She then saw a flash of rejection cross his blue eyes and he looked straight in front of him, trying to control his breathing, but to where she was, against his chest, she felt his fast beats of heart.
"Arthur..." she breathed,
"I'm tired." he whispered, looking slightly behind him to find Merlin and Paul, discussing. "We'll take a short break."
"Arthur," she said again, helpless.
"It's fine Guinevere, you don't have to explain. I got it."
He then stopped the horse, dismounted off it, and helped Gwen dismounted too, his hands tenderly on her waist. He stared at her a few seconds then slightly smiled before walk away.
Morgaine was sat at her table, she needed to think. She had to find a way to get in Camelot. Separate Arthur from this stupid servant of him who always were with him, not that he was a threat, but for now, it was useless make others victims. For now. She then remembered a talk with Morgana, a few days before...
"Do you know Emrys ?"
"I beg your pardon ?"
Morgana sneered,
"Don't look so surprised. I know you're his ally."
"But what on earth are you talking about ?""
The surprise must be so obvious in her face that Morgana stopped right away,
"Don't you know who he is ?"
"I swear I don't."
Morgana's eyes narrowed for a few seconds before she sigh,
"My destiny and my doom ..."
"Sorry ?"
"Emrys is the one who failed each of my plan for as long as I can remember."
"Who is he ?"
"I don't know." breathed Morgana with anger, "Someone close to Arthur, that's for sure."
Morgaine narrowed her eyes and got up, she took a stair, opened a door and went down toward a cellar, she opened it and found it Morgana, sit on the floor, the tray before her intact.
"Did you not eat ?"
"I'm not going doing you this pleasure."
"It's not poisoned, if it's what you mean, I have others plans for you..."
She saw the flash of fear crossed Morgana's green eyes but it disappeared as soon as he came.
"I'm not afraid of death."
"I know."
A slightly silence came between the two before Morgaine said,
"I want to know who Emrys is."
Gwen stared at Arthur from where she was in front of the fire. He didn't speak, simply staring at the heat, playing with a piece of wood. Merlin and Paul, feeling the tense atmosphere, kept on talking to maintain a bit of normality.
"Where are you from Paul ?"
"A small village, on Nemeth's borders."
"So far ?" a surprised Merlin said, "But, what are you doing here then ?"
He saw the young's man eyes became sad,
"It belongs to the story I attend to tell you once we arrived. A long story."
Merlin and Gwen nodded and, Arthur suddenly got up, walking away from the rest of the group, to walk in the forest, hesitated, watching him leave, and then, she met Merlin's stare and he showed her with the head to follow him. The young woman then got up and almost running, ran caught the King.
"She really love him, doesn't she ?"asked Paul,
"Yes. And she means the world to him."
Paul nodded and looked down again,
"There was a woman, wasn't it ?"
"There is a woman." only answered Paul.
Arthur walked, he needed to think. Put things clear in his head. Did Gwen really implied that she didn't want to marry him ? No. He shook his head. He was becoming paranoid. At this moment, he smelt her odor behind him, but he didn't stopped.
"Arthur..." she called him and he felt a hand slipped in his, he didn't prevent it and did nothing to break free. It felt so right having her hand in his. It just felt so right being with her, protect her, cherish her, marry her ! Why wasn't she feeling the same ? He knew she loved him.
He didn't doubt about that anymore, more on the strength of his feelings, it should frightens Guinevere. It already frightens him. There isn't a thing on Earth he would not do for her.
"Arthur," she slowly said, making him leave his thoughts, they kept on walking, her hand on his, their hearts beating in a same beat. "You know I love you."
"I know." he breathed,
"But..." he closed his eyes a few seconds,not sure he could handle what was going to happen,"I need time."
Here it is. She had said it and Arthur felt his heart stop. Time ? What for ? What would she want time apart from him when all he wanted was spending all his time with her ? Gwen understood what was upsetting him and said right away,
"Time for forgiven me Arthur."
He stopped and plunged his bright blue eyes in her chocolate's ones.
"Forgive yourself ?"
"Do you think ... " she looked away, trying to chase tears that she felt pricked at her eyes, "Do you think it's easy for me, leaving with the idea I cheat on you, because after all, I did kiss him even if we were not together anymore,, the man I love more than anything ?
In front of the sadness of her look, Arthur would have wanted to be able to comfort her totally.
"I forgave you Guinevere ... You must had had a reason for ..."
"A reason ?" she said with a laugh without humor, "I have no excuses ! We were about to getting married Arthur ! If I hadn't been so stupid, we would be husband and wife by now..."
Tears pricked at his eyes too.
"I know..." was all he could manage to say. The wound still too fresh to put it into words. "Maybe... Maybe it was my fault after all..."
"Your fault ? No Arthur it ...
"Maybe I am not enough for you or I'm not making you happy and..."
"Shh" she cut him off, letting go of his hand for laying it on his cheeks, stroking it tenderly, "Listen to me, I love you. You make me so happy Arthur, I swear it. And you are more than enough to me, all I need is you ..."
"Then why ?"he whispered and she understood their talk slightly changed,
"I don't know... I can't understand why but each time I saw him, I couldn't prevent the images in my head, nor the desire of being with him or kiss ...
She stopped when she felt a tear roll down her finger, she looked up and saw Arthur's, with that same look he had when she first told him the truth.
"On these days, I could only think about you..." he whispered with a broken voice, "And at our life together, the fact I will be able to hold you in my arms forever..." he looked down before plunged his in hers, "Maybe there is a reason at all this Guinevere. Maybe your heart was trying to make you understand that you were making a mistake, that you were choosing the wrong person..."
She saw it killed him to say that. And he receded a little, against the heart but she walked toward him, she didn't want to let him go.
"No..."
"I forgive you Guinevere, you know I do. Honnestly. There is nothing I want more in Earth than you and me, together, forever. But ... if it's not what you want, if you don't know what you want anymore, I would understand, I ..." he closed his eyes, "I love you. I want you to be happy. With or ... without...me."
Fresh tears rolled down his face and Gwen realized how their love was true. A few days ago, she was the one ready to sacrifice her hapiness for him to be happy with someone else, and now, he was standing there, telling her that no matter how much it would hurt him, if she was in love with another man, he would let her go. She walked forward again, and hugged him tightly, burying her face in his neck.
"Oh Arthur ..." she breathed and she felt his arms tight around her waist. "My heart wasn't wrong." she whispered in his ear and he shivered,"I know who I want. And it's hard to understand for me. I only ever loved you then why, the night before our wedding, it would have been different ?"
He didn't answer but held her closer to him. If this had to be the last time he held her in his arms, he wanted to remember it. She receded however, too quickly at his taste, and his heart started to beat a hundred miles and hour, his arms refusing to letting her go, he had to find something to say or do for her not leave him. Not again. He couldn't survive it another time... Not now whereas he had thought that all went back to normal, and that perhaps, oh perhaps, she still loved him and... His thoughts were cut by Gwen's lips on his. The young woman kissed him passionately and her hands grabbed themselves behind his neck while he responded to her kiss, bringing her to him a little more. Her tongue traced the edge of his lips and he moaned, digging his fingers a little more in hers waist, making her moan too. When the need of air came up, they had to separate and, with ragged breaths, his saphire eyes bored in her warm chocolates.
"I want you Arthur. I'm sure of it. I just need time for forgiven myself, but I don't want to be away from you. I can't anymore."
A small smile lighted up the King's gorgeous face while he laid his forehead on hers, and whispered, in a barely audible voice,
"I love you so much ..."
"What do you want from me ?" said Morgana again,"I already told you, I have no ideas who Emrys is."
"You're lying." said calmly Morgaine,
The young witch bursted out of laughter,
"I'm lying, huh ?" before said, with an angry voice, "Do you really think I would have all this nightmares if I knew who Emrys is ? Are you really as stupid as you look?"
Morgaine got closer and met her stare,
"Don't you dare talk to me like that."
"And what are you up to ? Killing me ? It's already on your list anyway."
On these words, she nonchalantly took a piece of bread laid on the tray in front of her. Morgaine swung a kick in the tray, but Morgana stood still. She didn't moved. Then, she left, slamming the door behind her and Morgana sighed. She looked at the handcuffs and resumed what she was doing before Morgaine came, she knew this was what altered her magic, but she also knew she was more powerfull than that. So, for what seems to her like the hundred times, she closed her eyes, and said the same spell again, until she passed out from exhaustion, exhausted by the energy it demanded. Passing out, Morgana didn't notice the slight spark on her left handcuffs...
Once returned with the others, Arthur, Gwen, Merlin and Paul resumed their road. On the leader horse, the atmosphere was clearly better. Arthur, who was holding the reins, had the arms tighten around Gwen and from time to time, he hugged her a little more tight and she felt his heartbeat, same as hers. On her side, Gwen was nestled against Arthur, the head in the crook of his shoulder and by moments, she would slightly thurned her head and lay a small kiss on his neck, making him shiver with pleasure and bit his bottom lip, which drove her crazy and she kissed his jaw, then, Arthur, couldn't take it anymore, turned his head a few seconds and kissed her hard before focusing on the road again.
"God, take a room." grunted Merlin when it happened for the fourth time.
Paul laughed merrily at this, and Merlin smiled. Even if he rumbled, he was glad to see his friends finally reunited. It was as if nothing could tore them apart now, they were strong. Invicibles. 'Love is the most powerful magic' had once said Kilgarrah. Thinking about his old friend, Merlin made a mental note to remind himself ask him about the Sophia/Morgaine thing.
"Are we soon in Camelot ? " asked then Paul,
Gwen, who was having fun with Arthur's neck again, looked up at him and met his ocean eyes stared at her with ... desire. Such desire she felt suddenly melt. Finally, he turned around toward Paul and said,
"Paul, welcome to Camelot."
The young man then looked in front of him and caught glimpse of a wonderful castle, nestling against the trees.
"Camelot..." he whispered, didn't believing his eyes.
So ? I hope all of you loved it :) Arthur and Gwen ? ( Quite complicate isn't it ? But now, there are together for good ... I hope ;) ) Morgaine and Morgana ?
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