Disclaimer: I own FFVIII i have the game right in my room.. *sigh* just not the copy rights.
To Forever
I was sitting in my office. I never thought being commander could be so boring. Only thing I do is file paper work. There's hardly anything to give orders about. Rinoa was right about us not spending time together, but if its just to do this, its a waste of my time. Not only with her, but everyone else too. The Second Sorceress War, about a year and a half ago, brought us a lot closer together.
All the while thinking this, I got an idea. Quickly jumping from my chair, I headed to the Head Master's office.
Knocking at his door.
"Yes? Who is it?"
"Squall, sir. I wish to speak with you."
"
Come on in then."
Stepping into his office, I realized how shitty mine was compared to his. He had marble floor tiles, windows made with beautiful sparking glass when it hit the sunlight. His desk made of pure maple wood, not the fake wood shit. God damn. Brushing those thoughts aside. "Head Master, I wish to ask a favor from you.
I was pretty proud of myself this time around, and lucky for me, the bell for 5 period class rang, meaning it was time for lunch. I could see Rinoa, and tell her the great news. But damnnit , walking down Balamb Garden halls, when it's time to eat was hell. I would constantly bump into students, give them a glare, and revive a "Sorry Sir!".
Finally reaching the cafeteria, I looked around for my...girlfriend. That word would always bother me. Don't get me wrong, I love Rinoa, but the word itself was immature and didn't suit how I felt at all. I didn't think of this as a stupid teenage relationship, one at could end as soon as it started. It was much more than that, and she was much more than just a girlfriend.
"Looking for someone?"
Rinoa's sweet smile filled my vision, as she spun around in front of me. Gently she interlocked her arm to mine. I couldn't help but smile. ...god.. I was whipped...and she didn't even ask for anything.
"Ohhhh! Rinoa! Who's that?"
Rinoa and I both looked up. A young girl with long hair black was smiling at us, quickly skipping her way over. She was one of the girls from this morning, one who provided good morning entertainment.
"I told you who he was."
"Oh! So you're Squall!" She steps quickened and she made her way to me, and gave me a tight hug. It felt so weird, having someone else besides Rinoa do that..."Hiya! I'm Rina! Its very nice to meet you." Something about her reminded me of Selphie. I couldn't tell it was her cheerfulness, or the stupid look on her face.
" Hey Rina! He's not available!"
" I know that! What do you take me for?"
"Sorry if she bothered you. I'm Rushi. This is Anbaa" A small girl came up from behind her. She smiled respectfully, and bowed. I responded with my own awkward bow, not knowing what else I was supposed to do.
"... I'm Squall." But apparently they already knew that. Looking at Rushi, I couldn't help but ask "...hey.. is that your natur-"
A quick hand covered my mouth and dragged my body a good three feet away. " Squall! Don't say anything about her hair, she'd very sensitive about it." Rinoa's hand was removed from my face.
" My frikin bad."
Rinoa's hands were on hips and she continued to give me that scolding look. I responded with a small smile, knowing if I did she couldn't stay mad at me. It worked like a charm. Soon enough her face lit up. Taking this chance I thought it would be best to tell her the news now.
"Rin, I have something to tell and I think you'll be pleased."
"What is it?"
" I talked to Head Master Cid about the us spending time thing. He agreed to give me five days off, and I get to chose which days I use them."
Her lips curved from ear to ear. Her eyes, the twinkle in them grew bigger. Her body perked up, and threw itself at me. Her lips let out laughter, and her arms embraced me tightly, "Oh Squall! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I could feel all eyes on us from her loud exclamation of joy.
"So does that mean you guys are gonna go on a date?"
Little Anbaa stood in front of us. Her head tilted slightly, giving us those confused eyes, like a child trying to figure out where babys came from.
"Don't meddle in other peoples affairs." Rina informed her.
"Hypocrite." Anbaa said back.
I let out a sigh. I wondering when any one of them would shut the hell up and leave us alone. I looked back at them only to see Rushi giving me a vicious glare. What the hell did I do? I didn't say anything about her hair.
"Well excuse us, . We don't mean to bother you." Her voice was as harsh as her eyes. But something was different about them. Her emerald eyes illuminated a emerald glow. Golden rings were around her pupils. "Come on guys, apparently we're being a pain."
Oh that's what she meant. Wait! How the fuck did she know what I was thinking? Her eyes closed and opened again to reveal their old selves. She gave me one last glare and walked away. Rina waved happily to us and followed her. Anbaa smiled and walked beside Rina.
"We'll save you a seat ok Rinoa?"
Rinoa gave her a nod, and turned to me. "Squall did you something to upset her?"
"Did you hear me say anything? Besides the girl's probably fucking bi polar or something."
Rinoa playfully punched me in the arm, "Squall that's not nice!" Again she pulled me into a soft embrace. " ...so does this mean.. we get to go on a date?" Her eyes were soft, giving me that pleading look. I was never able to read people quite well, but I guess from being with her finally gave me that ability.
" Well I would have to move my plans around but I could manage it." Rinoa's face fell, her eyes became downcast. Crap, Damn. Shit. "Rin? .. What's wrong?"
" I...I don't want to be a burden Squall. If you're too busy then I don't mind wai-" Her words were cut short by lips crashing on hers. I put my hand behind her head, bringing her closer to me. I didn't want to hear her words of regret, telling she's sorry that shes was being selfish or anything like that.
" Rinoa, don't worry. I'm not doing this because I feel obliged to. I want to. I want to spend time with you too."
Rinoa gave a small nod. "Squall?"
"Hm?"
"Can we get food? I'm hungry."
I chuckled. "Sure. but do we have to sit next to the nut cases?" I was hoping we didn't for the reason that Rushi was going to glare at me the whole time and I wouldn't be able to eat. Not to mention I would have to say something to her.
"I promised Rina I would sit next to her. You don't have to though."
Now you tell me, what was the point of her saying that last line. She knows I'm going to sit with her anyway. I swear its something women do this on purpose.."It's ok Rin..." After getting out food we went to sit down with "them". As suspected I didn't get the best looks from Rushi. Rina and Anbaa was still nice though. But soon enough, I couldn't take it anymore. Rushi was starting to bother me at a whole new level. Before I could another bite my thoughts came out. I slammed my hand hard on the table, Rinoa jumped from my sudden burst, and I gave Rushi a harsh glare. " You mind telling me what the hell your problem is?"
Rushi didn't even look at me. Her facial features became one of a smug smile. "I have no problems, Mr. Commander." she told me in a smart ass tone. If it didn't make me look like an even bigger jerk, I would've popped her one right in the nose. "But it seems you do Sir. What's wrong? Talk to Dr, Rushi ." God she was a bitch. I felt a hand on my arm, Rinoa was staring at me giving me that look on her face. You know when someone looks at you and their eyes are filled with a sad concern? And you just think to yourself... wow... I'm being an ass... yeah that was it. I stopped giving Rushi a glare. I stopped thinking about punching her, and I continued to eat my food like nothing happened. Worst part about this whole this is, Rinoa was going to make me apologize for it later.
So after the most terrible lunch this month so far, Rinoa and I made plans for our...date. Rina put in some ideas and Rinoa asked if we could go on a star gazing picnic...women.. honestly..but it was fine because I had a surprize planed for Rin. I told her to make to dress beautifully.
"Why?"
"I have something to tell you later ok? Just make sure you do it." I kissed her forehead, and walked back to my office. On passing Rina I felt her body tense, her eyes were filled with worry. She kept looking at me, shook her head and quickly ran to Rushi. They really were a strange bunch.
After taking my seat I opened the drawer next to my leg. Inside it was a small velvet box. That's right. I was going to propose to her. Pledge my love, tell I want her and no one else, ask her if she would spend the rest of her life with me and whatnot. Irvine told me to wait until at least a year. I considered it, I knew it was too soon, but I figured we would only be engaged, we won't get married just yet. Look at me planing all this, and I didn't even ask her yet. I let sighed, and went back to my paper work.
We were sitting on a long red blanket. We just finished eating the wonderful meal she cooked up. She was leaning on my shoulder, I felt her breathing on my neck. The stars filled the sky, all shining and letting off a beautiful illuminating light. It was time. I was so nervous , thinking of when was the best time to pop the question. She did dress beautifully. Her body was covered in a ruby dress that reached her legs, and showed them as slits in the dress come from her lower thighs to her feet. She was stunning. Ok Squall, stop admiring her, and ask damnnit...
I sighed and turned to her. " Rinoa..." her eyes met mine, our noses nearly touching, her warm breath spalshing my lips. I felt my palm become moist with sweat, I let out a deep breath as I tried to continue without sounding like a moron. " I love you, and I would be honored if you would spend the rest of your life with me. Basically what I'm saying is... " I got down on one knee, took her hand, in a very knightly posture "...Rinoa Heartilly, would you make me the lucke-"
"Hi guys! Whatcha up to?"
...
Are you fucking kidding me? I finally get to bring up the courage, finally about to ask her something life changing, and Rushi, Rina, and Anbaa waltz their fucking asses in and interrupt me? The fuck man! Is the universe so against me that I can't do anything that would make my life a little bit more happier? Goddamnit! I had to leave, I knew if i stayed there any longer I would end up freaking out, and my chances to ask Rinoa would be over. So I snapped up, leaving poor Rinoa, confused as to my anger and stormed off, making sure I gave them all a harsh glare, even Anbaa. But I didn't expect this to happen. Rushi wasn't glaring back. She didn't even look angry. She looked sad, her eyes weren't at mine, and she looked guilty about something. I mean she was, she just interrupted my proposal... I just didn't expect her to notice, or feel bad about it at all. I was too busy feeling furious to care.
Soon enough she was following me.
"Squall. wait."
"I don't want to hear it!" My steps became quicken. I really didn't give a rats ass what she was going to say.
" Look I know we did something bad, and ... I'm..." She was having a hard time getting getting the words out, I guess she never apologized before in her life. "... and I'm sorry..." I had to turn around on that comment, another thing I never pictured her to do, apologize to me of all people. We weren't exactly on the best foot. I stared at her for a good while. " ... I can make it up to you. Ummm... the field! Where you too made your promise to each other. I can take you there, right now." I wasn't wondering how she could get us there, or how she knew the field, I was wondering how the hell she knew about my promise to Rinoa. As if to answer my thoughts she said with a smile, " I know more about you than you think Squall. A lot more. ...so can I take you to the field?" I guess even she can have her nice moments. I nodded at her. Proposing there would mean a lot more anyway.
A sudden flash of purple light appeared, the area around us became disordered and dark. A new area appeared, Edea's house, the flower field, and the small ruins next to us. Rushi didn't move at all, her eyes were glowing again, and she just kept staring. We were here. The amazing flower field was right below us. I saw Rinoa run down the hill towards us, she looked just as amazed as I did.
"Go get her!" Rushi said. She ran off with a wink.
"Squall, what happened? Are you ok?" Rinoa finally caught up to me, she looked exhausted. Her breaths were hard, and short. I embraced her. For the first time today, I was thankful to Rushi. "Squall? What's up?"
" Rinoa, does this place look familiar?"
She nodded, "Of course it does. This is where we made that promise."
In reply I nodded, took her hand and soon got down on my knee again. I heard a gasp escape her mouth as I pulled out the small red velvet box from my pocket. I knew that when I did this I was going to sound really fucking cheesy, But there was no other way around it. " Rinoa, I love you so much, and I would love it if we spent the rest of our lives to together..." I opened the box and showed her the ring, it was golden with a small red diamond on it. I'm not cheap, I just didn't have that kind of money. I let out a sigh and looked up at her, "... Will you marry me?"
Instantly I was on the ground. Rinoa was on top of me giving me a tight hug. I heard her cry and that just killed me. It probably meant in Rinoa terms, "I'm sorry Squall, I love you, I really do, but you're too damn angry, you fucking snap at everything, and ya know I need you to calm the hell down before I even think about marrying you. You pessimistic bastard. So no thanks for now." But it wasn't. Rinoa let out a small squeak, and crawled to see my face. Her eyes held many tears, but she was smiling, and laughing,... a lot.
"Oh my god... I can't... I can't ...be..believe thi..this.." Rinoa was talking between breaths, and with each one, she cried more. I was able to shift myself so that I was sitting and Rinoa still had her arms around me. I place my hand on her cheek and made her look at me. Her face was still happy and I still felt like a moron for not knowing why. Maybe she was happy she could finally laugh at me for actully asking something so stupid. I couldn't help but sigh, as these thoughts overflowed my mind. I think I need to see a doctor of some kind. Being this negative was probably not normal.
"Rinoa, I understand if you-"
"Yes! Yes! A million times yes!" she cried out, and crashed her lips into mine.
"Wha..?"
"I'll marry you Squall! I would like nothing more." She said with a smile.
My mind simply didn't place it. She said yes, what more is there to understand? Wait...yes... that wasn't no that was "I want to marry you too, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you"...not.."Fuck off, I can and will find someone better than you." I let that sink in for a while. Soon I was laughing my self. I couldn't believe it. Take that you pessimistic asshole. I didn't stop laughing and I held her just as tightly as she was holding me, maybe more.
All around us we heard cheers, and yells of "congratulations". All of our friends were there. Irvine, Selphie, Zell, and Quistis. Not to mention, Rushi, Rina and Anbaa. I looked back at Rinoa. Her eyes were still filled with tears but they stopped falling. I extended a hand, which she took. We both stood up and I didn't let go of it. I gave her a small smile and slipped the ring on her finger. She threw her body into mine, and we shared our first kiss as an engaged couple.
Irvine thought it would be a good idea to have a party. I went with the idea thinking it would only be us. But, no. After Rushi did her crazy transporting magic, we were in a room, with every staff member, every junior candidate, and almost every SeeD member shouting congratulations in our ears. I promised myself would give Irvine a good jab in the face after this.
"Irvine how did you get all these people here?" Rinoa asked.
"Me? It was all Squall's idea! He's was really happy to ask you." Irvine let out a good laugh and walked away. What the hell. Of course Rinoa wouldn't believe it was me. I hate parties, meetings, any kind of social event. Irvine figured that out after taking two steps forward. He turned right back around. "Well He didn't say 'let's have a party' but in a way he said ' it would be nice if there was some kind of celebration' so I rounded up everyone...and.. and.. you know what.. I was my idea, not his, mine. There I said it. Squall isn't going to get laid anyway." And with that he left again, leaving me with that thought. Making love to Rinoa would certainly make a great finish to a great day. What the hell was I thinking? This is what I get from being friends with Irvine.
Well the party itself wasn't that bad. There were plenty of decorations. Streamers, balloons, ribbons hanging from the ceiling, and a big, I mean fucking huge banner hanging right in front of you, it had a big "x: over the words " IT'S A BOY" and on top of it it read "CONGRATULATIONS!" Obviously our friends aren't very original on what to say when two people get engaged. ...They were cheap too. But I guess it was pretty nice. In a way. Plenty of food, such as cake, pizza, like a birthday party or something, expect for the fact there was drinks. Hardcore alcohol drinks. It lasted a long 2 hours with people getting drunk left and right. I had a good few drinks myself, to the point where I was a little buzzed.
Laguna was there... After he told me he was my father, I wanted nothing to do with him. But I learned where I my stubbornness from, He stilled made way to go to Balamb to visit me to patch things up as he called it. Under Rinoa's orders I surrendered to meeting him and "getting to know him better" my sourness towards him didn't seem to bother him. It was probably expected.
"Hey Squall, congratulations."
"None of you think of something original. Do you realize how many times I heard that word today?"
Laguna looked up for a minute. "Heh... I know what you mean. You think of what you want to hear Squall."
I pondered a better word for this occasion... there were hardly any...
Laguna let out a small laugh. "No words huh?" I shook my head. "Well Squall just be happy there are people who care about you and Rinny. Who want to celebrate this special moment with you. "
"Right... thanks."
"No problem. Now if you excuse me, I'm getting some cake." But then suddenly, afell backwards.
"I'm so sorry!" Anbaa did one of her bows and kept apologizing over an over until Rina came over and put her hand over Anbaa's mouth.
"Hehe, sorry about that sir."
"Oh don't worry about it. Nice to meet cha! I'm Laguna Loire, Squall's father." Cringe.
Rushi's eyes went huge. " ...Wait.. You're telling.. That you're that stiff's dad! Holy shit!" ...To be honest, I couldn't get angry... I couldn't believe I was that fool's son either. Laguna just sat there and laughed his ass off. Then her put his arms around all of them. How, I'm not sure.. his arms aren't that long...
"You guy's are adorable! I wanna adopt you!" ...What? He's not serious is he?
"Can you even do that?" Rina asked. She seemed very excited though... Laguna looked up a bit, as if to ponder thought... then he had a big grin on his face.
" Well I can't officially, but can pretend." ...He's such a moron. Soon After they all jumped on him shouting "papa!". Laguna laughed a bit. " Looks like I' have six kids now!" ...six? And he's happy about it? Wait.. how the hell does he have six?
" Six kids Papa? Wow you're a busy man..." Rina commented. Laguna's face fell a bit pale, and started laughing his ass off... again.
" No, No! See I have Squall" Cringe. " And my Elle, I just "adopted" you guys, and Rinny."
"Oh yeah.. she's gonna be your daughter in law right?" Anbaa asked.
" Yep!"
Suddenly Rushi ran her ass over her and tackle hugged me to the fucking ground. ...Rushi did... put that in your mind for a moment. "Now you have to call me big sister!" ... what?
" ...Why is Rushi elder sister?" The way she took things was more of a 5 year old.. then again they all act a quarter of their age.
Rushi's face made a pout. "I happen to be 19 ya know! Rina's 16 and Anbaa is 15." Un-fucking-believable. " You don't believe me do you? "
" I believe that they are younger than me, but you being older is not quite clicking into my mind."
Rina started laughing. "It's cuz you act like a 5 year old!" That's calling the kettle black...
"Look who's talking baka!" You can guess who that was. While they started having their little fight I found my out, to find Rin, and tell her that I getting the hell out of here.
I caught Rinoa almost tripping over her own feet. "Hey Rin, are you doing ok?" Rinoa was giggling like a maniac. She turned to me and her face was glowing a shade of red. Her eyes started to widen. She squealed... loudly.
" Oh! Squall! Looky! Looky! It's snowing!"
What?
Snow?
In Balamb?
Is that possible?
We're on the friken equator!
"Are you sure Rin?"
"Squall, there's pretty white stuff falling from the sky. What else would it be? Dandruff?"
"True true..."
Rinoa suddenly made her way to me, giving me a smug smile. "Hey Squall, I got an idea. Why don't we.." She had one arm around my neck and her other hand on my chest. Her finger started running little circles on it. Rinoa's lips were right next to my ear and continued what she was saying in a seductive voice. "...celebrate our own little way?" Now I had to make a choice. Have an awesome time with my slightly drunk fiancée or, be a gentleman and regret my only chance to this, besides the honeymoon? Ok first play the gentleman card, see how it works.
"Rinoa, How many fingers am I holding up?" I had to make sure she wasn't delusional.
"Three. But there's a problem with them."
I quickly examined my fingers, for food, cuts, anything. But there was nothing on them. " ...which is..?"
"None of them are in me."
"..."
Oh shit. I finally understand why underage drinking is illegal. It turns the shyest of people into sex crazed psychos.
And I loved it.
I gave Rinoa a smirk and grabbed her hand. "For now anyway." At that moment I knew I was buzzed myself. She giggled a bit and let me lead her away. Nobody noticed us. Quickly we were in my dorm room.
As soon as we entered I grabbed Rinoa and crashed her lips onto mine. Rinoa gave out a small moan grabbed a fistfuls of my hair and we made our way to my bed without breaking the kiss once. My tongue slid across her bottom lip, she complied and opened her mouth. I touched my tongue to hers just to earn a moan.
My hands stroked her sides, slightly touching her breasts. My hands moved up to pull off the small straps of her red dress. I unzipped the back of her dress, and swiftly pulled it off, to reveal a black bra and underwear. She took off her heels. I kissed her neck before licking down to her chest. Rinoa's backed arched a bit to me and her hands moved down to the rim of my shirt, pulling it off. My body almost went on auto-pilot. I had the strongest need to kiss, lick, and just to goddamn take her, and both of us were loving it. I moved to unclip her bra and toss it across the room. Rinoa slightly blushed and I wasn't sure if it was drinking or embarrassment. I moved my lips from the middle of her chest to her left breast, my hand moving to the other. I pressed small kisses around the the swell and made my way for her nipple. My tounge made circles around it and my thumb did the same on the other. Rinoa let out soft moans and unbuckled my belts. Trying to help her out, I kicked a little getting my pants and boots off. All that was left between her and I were my boxers and her panties.
I began to stroke her sides and moved my hand down to the rim of her panties and swiftly took them off, at the same time she took off my boxers. It was then I completely stopped. It hit me. This was actually happening. I looked at Rinoa to see how she was, and by the look on her face she realized this too. The alcohol wore off... and that was what was driving me. Rinoa's face went even redder than before.
"...Squall...I'm... I'm a little scared..."
"..Do you want to stop? I wont force you into this."
Rinoa's eyes widened a bit, then she giggled "Oh Squall! That wasn't why I was afraid... I was thinking... that I might not.."
"What? Might not what?"
"...Satisfy you...?"
"..." Only her.
She turned even redder if that was possible. "...say something.."
" ...Rin... have I ever told you...that sometimes .. you say.. things... that don't help people's out look on your intelligence?"
"You're such a jerk!" Rinoa laughed again, and her arms were around my neck. "Can we make it a little more romantic?
"
"As you wish... and Rin?
"Yeah?"
"You're beautiful."
I kissed her again, this time it wasn't crazy lustful kissing, it was soft gentle and passionate. I stroked her thighs and spread her leg apart, positioning myself between them. Before I did I looked at her for reasurence. She gave a small nod, and I planted a hard kiss before entering her. God it felt good. It was wet, and so tight. But Rinoa didn't share my pleasure, she let out a loud scream in our kiss, the hands that were so tenderly wrapped around my neck were now hawk talons digging into my back, and the once innocent, embarrassed face was covered in tears. I felt like such a bastard, but when I tried to pull out, she kept me in place, and shook her head.
" ...No.. It's ok..I can handle it..."
I nodded this time, and gave a slow pace, to let her get adjusted. I hated that way she clenched her eyes and cried from the pain... pain I was giving her. But after a while her whimpers of pain became loud moans of pleasure. So I started to go faster, making our own rhythm. Out of her mouth escaped my name, it made the pleasure of the while moment so much bigger. I wasn't happy with it yet, my mind told my body to not stop there, no it wanted to hear her scream my name in pure delight, my body moved faster and faster until it was getting what it wanted. My groans, turned to loud moans, following her example. Soon I began to give, and I could she was too, for she became louder, and louder with every thrust. One last scream of my name came from her before we both gave in, my head pounded a little, and I collapsed on top of her.
"...Wow..."
"That's an understatement Squall..."
Her fingers tangled themselves in my hair, stroking my head. Her lips curved and placed a small kiss on my cheek. I manged to gain muscle strength back and rolled off of her. Her arm wrapped itself around my waist and she let out a small sigh. " I love you."
"And I you." I never felt so ... complete i guess would be the right word... in my life. This is why in the olden days, when lovers did this they called it being whole, That was exactly what it felt like.
We had become one, to the new fallen snow, and sleep took us.