Another step to complete my promise, 2nd chapter for this week; hope you guys enjoy and for Sasuke lover, he'll have his first appearance in this chapter... so enjoy...
Chapter- 6
-Recognizing a Soul within-
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
―Rumi
It had been two weeks since Gaara started teaching me, we have completed with the basics or I should elaborate and say copied Lee's Tai jutsu and from now we will move with our so planned traditional KARATE.
Gaara, is really a good teacher- his way of teaching and explaining is wonderful and I m seriously skeptic on the issue why he has only one apprentice- Matsuri. He has another side of the hard stone looking Kazekage that is a very caring and soft person. I mean I told him, I know what is good for me and my child but my ruthless and careless training would have caused miscarriage and every time his soft punchy sand has saved me and on the first day he declared or I should say warned me, I won't practice alone and only in front of him... I am not allowed exert myself other than that 3 -4 hour. Well I believe I do not have much time also as my two fourth fraction of day is contributed to the hospital; one-fourth is for my FAMILY and remaining for my child.
"SAKURA"
I jumped...
"What" I looked at Gaara... "I have ears, I can listen to soft voices"
"I have seen, it was my fifth call" Gaara was looking at me with glances, that could actually kill, who says he need any sand! "Focus"
I nodded waking out of my contemplations.
"Ok, so Karate is a discipline and a gift from our forefathers which got somewhere lost when we got dependant on our chakras and jutsus. Karate works upon simple phenomenon's of physics, alertness of mind and Shiatsu points. Earlier Karate wasn't just a fighting style but used for heeling also... our acupressure system and massage system is a derivative of Karate itself. Karate builds a stone which co-ordinates and balances our mind, body, psychological, physiological and social behavior."
I nodded taking all the data given.
"It's not easy to learn, but ones you are a master, you can create your own techniques, k-k genkai and bloodline limits even your human form could be immortal. But this takes years and years of training, determination and hard work."
"Ok" I nodded.
"Are you ready" Gaara inquired.
"Yes" my voice was confident, determined and a bit loud too...
"Great, we'll start with concentration"
"Ok, you know why India woman wear bindi or why great Indian sadhu and kings wear tikka just between their two eyes? That is to build concentration. It helps them focus and enhances the quality of brain. There is a shiatsu point which control our brain and pituitary which in turn controls our hormone and enzyme actions. So from now on you will wear a small bindi and will try to feel all parts of your body, a discipline taken from Indian yoga system, then will control all involuntary actions of your body and even cardiac movements and hormone and enzyme actions."
He forwarded me a packet of bindi. They were of small colors and design, I plucked one diamond like translucent and shining small circle and I wore it between my brows, I felt a bit different, a bit uneasy but different and may be good too... it was as small as a point.
I was smiling at myself when Gaara interrupted me.
"You'll try to concentrate" Gaara ordered.
"At what" I felt he stopped in mid of his sentence.
"At nothing" He concluded.
"Excuse me." I wasn't actually getting anything.
"You won't let anything enter your mind...it will be difficult... may be time-period will be as small as 20 seconds at start and when you'll be able to concentrate at nothing for almost two hour, you can feel every part of body...distinguish between every element of your body then we'll step further"
I nodded.
"The same science is applied in our tea drinking ceremony called Chanoyu, even it's same for hypnotism and that's why Indian monk or sadhu says ohm and stretch it endlessly in one beat. That's it either come in seiza our traditional sitting style which keeps our body fat controlled, keeps digestion at its good and will support and development of your child or takes an Indian seat of padmasana which means sitting like lotus which helps flow your energy towards our brain helping you concentrate more."
Well I want to take padmasana but seiza will be good for my child and I need it because of my hectic and careless schedule.
I got in position and Gaara got in position next to me and tried to imitate him. He looked so peaceful land like a statue, and after few seconds it was as if I couldn't even hear his breadth. I tried to imitate him but it was difficult... I mean something or the other thoughts were entering my mind; twenty seconds ... I wasn't able to concentrate for two seconds.
Hours passed by... and even after four hours I was at the same stage from where I started.
I don't know his reaction but I was disappointed. I was calmly seeing the dusk sky... sun setting in the homogenous hues of clouds and intensity of light was decreasing at every second, the scene was so beautiful and clear even through the layers of sands.
I felt a consoling hand on my shoulder, I turned to glance at the unreadable Gaara...
"If you are not able to do something, it's not your inefficiency but because there is another beautiful way to do it... that's how science has grown..."
I was looking at him... blankly... I know what he was trying to say but the point was how.
"2 km east from oasis there is a temple, where tea ceremony take place for royal people... 9pm get there and don't be late"
he said and then left.
I heard about them, read about them but never taken part in it... I knew the whole procedure and knew its importance but never participated...
I nodded.
I am actually looking forward for today's night.
I saw him left... and my gaze turned to the dusk sky... which has changed in just few minutes... So dynamic is our world.
I clenched my sword and crushed the stone... I have been donating more and more time to my training, more than I have ever contributed. Firstly I accepted it to be Konoha destruction but now, there was no turning that it is Sakura and her ghost haunting me and the way I found out of my madness is training.
Training, 18 to 20 hours a day and sometimes when those sounds of past, her eyes scintillating with tears and blood- they are all driving me crazy.
I removed my sweat from brows took a deep breath and then clenched my sword again, crushing another sword and the lightening produced he concentrated it into as all sphere and intensified it effect in the river going... a huge hurricane touched the sky and the lightening eroded-demising the beautiful sunny sky to black... cyclone... it was something so- catastrophe... everything seemed so distorted... all the trees un-plucked got absconded towards the sucking energy and at last it rained...
It was my limit... I couldn't handle the hurricane and cyclone at the same time... my lightening power got decreasing... but no... I have to do it... I got to be stronger... Everything is at stake...
I closed my eyes and concentrated even more... Everything inside me goggled and I felt a small trail of blood down my lips... then a figure...so petite, so fragile, I couldn't see her face but recognize her well... those pink locks make it inevitable not to.
No... I won't let you destroy me and I just enemata what I have and...
...Darkness...
He told me to be here by 9:00pm... and it had been 30 good minutes to stand by this beautiful oasis watching the bats flew over the restless mirror on the land. I know he is a Kazekage, it would take him time to get out of there but it's really not good to keep a woman waiting even if she is your student... I think I am only getting too fussy... We would wait for Kakashi sensei on the bridge for two hours to up... Well I call it pregnancy syndrome.
I felt something ... a bit uneasy and I turned round to get a walk...
*huff*
I fall back; I fall to the soft cushion of sand... "Gaara"
"You really need to work upon your senses and believe your instincts"
I was really frustrated... I mean... He is an excellent teacher and a great Kazekage but he is much of an ass hole to.
"And you need to stupefy others from back" I sounded much like a small spoiled 8 year child.
He didn't reply and walked in the direction of the oasis. It seriously amaze me how I able to make myself look so stupid sometimes.
The temple was big and illuminated by night flowers f fragments and I could see few bats over the flowers. It was quiet and peaceful. At the site of it only I felt so contemned, He showed two tickets to the security guard and we took steps in the garden... there were two doors marked with sign of male and female... And we took our steps... Inside was a woman who gave me a white kimono printed with pink Sakura petals and showed me my locker; I nodded politely and smiled back. And then I removed my cloths and went for the steam bath... I cleaned myself and get out in the white kimono and left the small cabin...
I move out to see Gaara was already waiting for me, he wore white kimono with blue print leaves and it didn't took me time to realize I took quite long. He didn't say anything and we move to a small fountain... We took small amount of water in our hand and drank water and then followed to an inn. There was a waiter stood... He bowed and we replied and we he took us too our table... Only we both were there... we sat opposite too each other...
"Just calm down... relax you nerves"
I nodded...
We couldn't talk much like he was any chatty but the waiter came with utensils- well I should say two cup and platter... then in another turn he brought tea pot and served it in our cups... he bowed and left.
"You know the procedure" he asked calmly
I nodded and succeeded my hands at work.
I tilted the tea in the platter... we have to drink only this much tea in two hours just drops by drops...
Firstly, I was irritated and thought it doesn't work... my mind was playing something or the other but bit by bit... it was speaking less and less to me, the inner me was like has gone to sleep... Everything felt so silent... I could actually feel nothing, not even the small life in me. There was no present, No past... I could see everything... Every voice was hearable... The fountain outside... The bats whispering... Tea boiling... And I could see everything... I felt so living... So much free, So much light... Sasuke and his lies felt nothing against this wonderful life... I could seriously felt so numb.
Then suddenly... it was the last drop of tea... It ended... I just look above to see Gaara; he just ended few seconds after.
I didn't realize I was smiling.
"Let's go..."we left by bowing to the waiter and then outside in the garden, we drank the soft and sweet water of fountain... yes water do have taste. The memory of peace was so fresh in me...
I didn't realize the time until I saw the darkness of night, it would be no less then midnight.
"Let's start again" he trailed and got in position of seiza.
I followed him and concentrated again... and the miracle happens...
I failed again... I just felt useless until I heard Gaara's words.
"One wise man had said 'The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.'"
I closed my eyes and tried again... concentrated again... and this time...
"Four seconds..."
I did it... four seconds... a tear drop down my eyes, I did it at last I did it...
I saw Gaara smiling... I have never saw Gaara smiling and in turn I do smile... wow, it felt like I have been a queen of the world.
Our moment of memory broke and we started it again to start our journey to find a soul within... a journey to nothing yet caving everything.
I opened my eyes o gloomy stones... and found my body aches badly and my head pounding like going to bursting another second... I found myself bandaged and warm in the blankets.
I remove my blankets and activated my Sharingan... I sense this presence.
"Madara" I screamed for him, I know he is somewhere near. I could sense him, he is somewhere near.
"Calm down I am here" he came out, out of nothing... and get conspicuous in the candle light.
"What you want" I asked him clearly and straight forward.
"What a kind greeting o your savior, you shouldn't forget your limits, your power as increased undoubtedly, but what a sorrow, it will be no use, if you die gaining it" He spoke like it a speech, but I can judge the cunningness in his voice.
"Let's come to the point, what are you doing here" I seriously hate him, let my revenge end and I goanna burn him in Amaratsu.
"Sakura is alive and even her child" he said with venom on his tongue.
Word- Sakura just brought light, I was trying so hard fight with it, and when on a sudden I hear it, l want to know more of her...
"I don't care" I don't let my façade drop for this bastard.
"But I do" I raised my brow to Madara's conquest. "It really amaze me to know how that girl survived from the blow of your katana more to it even her child is healthy. You are a skilled killer, no one live after your blow, until you want them to."
I took a deep sigh and confidently answered him back. "It shouldn't matter to you what I do in my personal life and what with whom and to your knowledge they have Tsunade, she could bring back to life anyone, who even has its last breadth..."
I really don't want to hear any shit about professionalism from him...
"I have nothing to take, until she gets in my way" Madara conquered back.
"And how exactly" Madara is trying to fit Sakura in equation, why... he is planning something.
Madara didn't answer just glared through his mask. "Never forget what your revenge is all about. Don't let her mess with you, and better get her out of equation yourself, because if she ever crosses my way... it will be her last breadth..."
His words described his presence only as he got inconspicuous in air...
I took a deep breath... So he is aware, what I'm trying to figure out from so long... Madara is right, I can't let Sakura in way... she is just a thorn... I did everything to get her and our child a better life away from this... Now I can't just mess up... Because not every time every person can get a second chance... and not every person could always be lucky... I crossed the room to blow out the candle and the only light was the light of moon cool, calm and preaching wishes... preaching the stars who will one day fulfill one's wish list...
I got myself on the bed inside the warmth of blanket... closing my eyes... to hear the soul within.
(A/N: here is a Hindi song- Teri deewani- your lover)
Preet ki lath mohe aaisi laagi
[The habit, kick of love has hit me such]
Ho gayi main matwari
[I feel lost no where to go]
BAL BAL jaaun apane piya KO
[I want to go and meet my lover]
he main jaaun vaari vaari
[I feel I am torn broken into pieces, broken]
mohe sudh budh naa rahi tan mann ki
[Now I have no control over my my mind and body]
yeh toh jaane duniya saari
[And everyone in this world knows this]
bebas aur laachar phiru main
[ I roam around helpless without any options ]
haari main dil haari
[ I have lost my heart ]
tere naam se jee loon
[ Only with your name I will live ]
tere naam se marr jaaun
[ only with your name I will die ]
teri jaan ke sadke mein kuchh aaisa kar jaaun
[ To save you I can do anything for you ]
tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main
[ what you have done to me I have losteverything and shattered ]
ho ri ha ri ho gayi main
[ yes yes I have become yours ]
teri deewani deewani- 2
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main
[ what you have done to me I have losteverything and shattered ]
ho gee ha gee ho gayi main
[ yes yes I have become yours ]
teri deewani deewani
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
ishq junoon jab hadh se badh jaaye
[ when love crosses all the limits of madness wildness ]
haste haste aashiq suli chadh jaaye
[ the lover will hang himself with smile ]
ishq ka jaadu sara chadha kara bole
[ The magic of love overpowers the mind ]
khoob laga lo pehre raste rab khole
[ You may guard or lock but nature will open all the doors ]
yahi ishq di marzi hain
[ This is the will of love ]
yahi rab di marzi hain
[ This is the will of God ]
yahi ishq di marzi hain
[ This is the will desire of Love ]
yahi rab di marzi hain
[ This is the will desire of God ]
tere bin jeena kaisa
[ Without you how can I live ? ]
haan khudgarzi hai
[yes I know this is the selfishness ]
tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main
[ what you have done to me I have losteverything and shattered ]
ho ri ha ri ho gayi main
[ yes yes I have become yours ]
teri deewani deewani
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
he main rang rangeeli deewani
[ I became crazy and play in all colors ]
ke main albeli main mastani
[I am innocent ,crazy and wild ]
gaaun bajaaun sabko rijhaaun
[ I sing I dance I make everyone happy ]
he main deen dhram se begaani
[ Now I don't know any religion or rules of society ]
ke main deewani main deewani
[ because I am mad and crazy for you ]
tere naam se jee loon
[ Only with your name I will live ]
tere naam se marr jaaun
[ only with your name I will die ]
tere jaan ke sadle mein kuchh aaisa kar jaaun
[ To save you I can do anything for you ]
tune kya kar dala marr gayi main mitt gayi main
[ what you have done to me I have losteverything and shattered ]
ho ri ha ri ho gayi main
[ yes yes I have become yours ]
teri deewani deewani
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
teri deewani deewani
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
teri deewani deewani
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
teri deewani deewani...
[ I have become crazy, mad for you ]
After the darkest part of night ended... beautiful hues embellished the endless dupatta of hands who made everything. We trained whole night, in the white kimono under the scintillating stars and merry bats. This training of slowing down or brain to nothing and ten hearing our soul within is just beautiful.
We trained whole night yet I feel so fresh, so awake like never before... Suddenly... the weather, the grass under my feet, birds chirping... wind blowing... sand flowing... everything looks so pulchritude's and more to it... I could feel the development, every move she takes... Her legs and hands are formed and they are trying to hold my umbical cord... Eyes are yet to open... the small within admiring what she is unable to feel, she is listening and happy... her lips... the redness over her body... bubbles at her nose... movements of digits of hands... something can't be more magnificent.
"Sakura" it was Gaara, bringing me back to normal world. "Good... you can feel every part of your body, we'll carry on next step, but on Wednesday, you are getting one day rest... till that no training of any sort, try to indulge yourself more in people ok"
"Ok, Sensei" I acknowledge his advise well, without any disconcert.
He nodded and then he took his steps to the men room.
I shouted from back
"Thank you Sensei"
I could feel him smirk and continue his walk.
How beautiful our life is, our soul is... I can't believe I have never known what is in life my 20 years of life on this earth...
First time ever I have recognized a soul within.
"Out beyond ideas of wrong doing
and right doing there is a field.
I'll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass the
world is too full to talk about."
―Rumi
Love Riya