This chapter just kinda came out of me. I hope you enjoy and as always your reviews are much appreciated. Hopefully the next chapters will come just as quickly. :)

Chapter 5

By the time Brendan and Ste reached their bedroom they were completely naked, their clothes leaving a trail on the floor behind them. Ste shut the door and just stood and stared at Brendan who was smiling at him. Ste smiled back and walked slowly over to Brendan, showing him his best bits and teasing Brendan as he did so. When he reached Brendan he wrapped his arms around his neck and intertwined his fingers in his hair, and kissed him slowly and intensely. It was a powerful kiss and it pulled Brendan in, making them both want more. The kiss gradually gained pace and Ste pushed Brendan onto the bed.

As they landed the kiss broke but Brendan re-attached their lips with a passion and intensity that was rarely seen from Brendan. Every kiss from him was passionate and intense, however, this one showed a particular need and it made Ste feel like he was on top of the world.

Brendan flipped them over so he was on top of Ste. He then broke the kiss and stared deeply into Ste eyes showing lust, love and mostly, trust. 'I want to try something!' Brendan said with a smile in his voice but, also, with a slight hesitance. Ste noticed this but before he had a chance to say anything Brendan gently took a hold of Ste's hand.

Brendan moved Ste's hand caressingly over his back and down to his bum. Ste immediately realised what Brendan was doing, 'only if you're sure?' Ste was genuinely worried about how this would turn out.

'I'm not sure but I trust and love you with everything that I've got and that's hard for someone like me but you make me the man I want to be and wish I'd grown up to be!'

'Ok, I'll be gentle and I'll do whatever you say and I'll stop as soon as you want to but don't feel pressured to continue.' Ste gave Brendan a quick but hard kiss and slid out from underneath him.

Brendan was kneeling on the bed with his arse up in the air. Ste could see him shaking and could see how nervous he was. To try and reassure him, he started by stroking his shoulders and slowly kissing down his spine. By the time Ste was at the top of Brendan's arse Brendan hadn't calmed down so Ste gave Brendan a running commentary of what he was doing so not to alarm Brendan.

'Right, now I'm gonna…'

Brendan cut him off, 'as much as I would like you to, don't tell me - it ruins the moment.'

Ste didn't say anything else. He kissed Brendan's arse hole and then put his finger to it. Ste didn't have much experience in being a top as he was usually a bottom but he tried his best. He started by stroking the freshly wet hairs that covered Brendan's hole. He then started to press harder but still being gentle. He knew how much this affected Brendan and how big of a step this was. After a few minutes Ste slowly pushed his finger into Brendan's hole. He's so tight, Ste thought, well, I'd be surprised if he wasn't. His finger went further into Brendan. Ste then felt it was ok to slowly finger fuck him. Slowly he pulled and pushed his index finger in and (not fully) out of Brendan, gradually gaining speed when he felt ok to do so. He felt Brendan fully relaxe and was just about to add another finger when Brendan tensed up again.

'Do you want me to stop?' Ste asked, fully supportive of Brendan.

'No, I'm sorry, it takes a while to get used to. Please keep going.' Ste could hear the honesty in Brendan voice and slowly started again.

Like the last time his only gained speed when he felt like it was ok to do so and after a few minutes he was going as fast as he could.

Brendan felt warm and not alone. He felt safe even with what Ste was doing to him.

'…Please keep going.' He meant it. He could see why Ste like this so much. It felt nice and was giving him a pleasure he never felt before as a top. Ste had two fingers in him now and was gaining speed.

Suddenly he felt cool air at his hole and Ste's fingers no longer in him.

'Stay put. I'm only getting a condom and some lube.'

He watched Ste put it on his lovely erect cock and heard as he then knelt behind him and lined his cock up with his hole. Ste was just about to enter him when sudden terror came over him. Ste was slowly entering him and had about an inch of his dick in Brendan. Even though it was far less painful and more enjoyable than when he was younger he still felt some sort of abuse being performed here.

'Stop, please stop.' Ste kept to his promise and pulled out of Brendan as quickly as possible without hurting him. Brendan then sat on the bed and Ste copied. He looked upset and disappointed with himself.

'I'm sorry. I thought I was ready.' He was almost crying now and he could only gave Ste quick glances.

Quickly Ste assured him and he took Brendan's face in his hand to make him look at him, 'hey, hey, hey, look at me. You have nothing, absolutely nothing, to be sorry for. I'm so proud of you, Bren! You've come so far and even if you're never ready to go further than we did tonight you still managed to overcome something so powerful that was holding you. I'm so proud of you, Bren, and I love you so much.'

Tears were slowly falling down Brendan's face as Ste leaned in to give him a gentle kiss.

'Hey, why don't we just go to bed, 'ey? We've got a big day tomorrow and you need your beauty sleep what with them wrinkles.'

Brendan chuckled and wiped the tears away. 'Leave my wrinkles alone. You'll be getting some soon.'

They climbed into bed and Brendan spooned Ste. 'I really am sorry.'

Ste turned his head as far as he could to face Brendan, 'you have nothing to be sorry for. Goodnight.'

'Goodnight.' They gave each other a goodnight kiss and had a dreamless night before the big and busy day ahead of them.