A/N: Alright so, thanks to all you guys who have been reading this story. I really do appreciate your existence. Btw, I used to be Mani De Malice but I changed my screen name AGAIN. I'm fickle, sorry. Anyways enjoy this brand spankin' new chapter.
Things didn't really die down; Loki avoided Thor's friends at all costs. She didn't really pay attention to her school work. Loki focused more on her own… "Extra-curricular" activities. Loki sat in the corner of her bedroom filling up the glass bottles with gasoline and bits of styrofoam. She allowed the situation between her and Thor's friends to fuel her cause. She was steadfast in the past weeks, getting the rest of the supplies she needed, now all she needed was perfect timing. Loki corked the opening of the bottles where the cap would be and tied rags around the necks of them. She put away the filled bottles in the milk crate and hid it in her closet along with some lighter fluid, and a gas can full of the left over gas. She slid the door shut as she glanced around her bedroom, her eyes wandered to the window. She let out a sigh as she headed out the door into the hallway. She headed towards Thor's room.
"Thor?" Loki whispered as she lingered in her brother's doorway. Thor looked up from his desk and grinned in her direction. Loki slowly eased into the room.
"So, did you talk to Dad about letting me on the campaign team?" She asked quietly, Thor's grin soon dissolved after her question. At this moment she quickly questioned why she had even asked in the first place. He lowered his head and cleared his throat. The blonde was obviously uneasy. Loki could sense that the news was less than satisfactory.
"Yeah I spoke to Father and he said he would let you on the team… If you didn't dress like- y'know?" Thor motioned his hands towards her, he was clearly having a hard time explaining without offending her. Loki now lowered her head.
"So he doesn't want me with you guys unless I dress like a girl?" She muttered.
"It's nothing against you. He says he understands but voters probably wouldn't and he doesn't want to jeopardize anything." Thor wasn't even looking at her at this point. Loki felt her rage bubble in the pit of her gut, she tried to mask it. She inhaled deep and shrugged.
"Well, I understand." She lied, nodding her head. Thor's blue eyes ascended to look at her once more. He smirked a little in relief, like a burden had been pulled from his shoulders.
"Oh, so you're not upset?"
"Oh of course not, why would I be?" She trailed off. Her faux grin subtly turning to a sneer, she knew it was time to get out of there. Loki turned on her heel towards the door once more.
"Hey Loki, wait!" Thor called out. Loki cringed slightly and turned around.
"Hm?" She hummed as she raised a brow. Thor sat up in his seat and turned to Loki now, pulling out a folder from the inside of his desk.
"So Dad's having this press conference right and it's a big deal because I'm going to be making a speech. And I know you love politics so, I kinda wanted you to be there when I gave it." Loki's expression remained stoic as he spoke. The fucking nerve, Thor stole Loki's dream job again and decided it would be best to rub it in her face again. Same shit, different story. Loki was becoming tiresome of the cycle. She had tuned out at this point, reveling in her anger.
"Loki?" Thor called out.
"Sorry, I was…thinking really hard. I'm probably going to have detention. I've been skipping my science class."
"What? Why? What have you been doing?"
'Getting stuff for my molotov cocktails that I'm probably going to use to attack your friends.' She thought.
"Uh I don't know. I haven't been feeling well… In my mind or something… lately…" Loki said slowly.
"Loki, this is a really big day for me. It's really important that you're there." Thor pouted. Loki crossed her arms and leant on the door. It appeared that she would be there longer than she had hoped.
"C'mon please! It wouldn't be the same without you around. My whole day would be like, legit ruined." Thor said finally. Loki raised a brow as she stood up from the door. She had been trying to think of a time to strike with the molotov cocktails, of course she wasn't sure when would leave an impact. But now, thanks to Thor she knew the perfect day.
"What day is it again?" She asked lowly.
"It's this Thursday."
"Y'know what Thor. I'll be there, you're right. I have to show my love and support." She said giving him a grin but it was more sinister than anything else. Of course Thor didn't notice it. Thor jumped up from his desk and hugged her, lifting her off the ground.
"I'm so glad. Now it's going to be perfect." He whispered as he set her back down on the ground. Loki's pink lips curled into a smirk as she turned to leave the room.
"Oh, you have no idea." She muttered, as she entered the hallway.
"Is anybody home?" She called out. Nobody answered, Loki headed straight for her Father's study. She closed the door behind her and slid into his chair behind his desk and began typing at the computer. She had already opened up the browser and went to a search engine. Something had been plaguing her mind, she was wondering if it were possible to create a truth serum… in reality. It was a long shot but it didn't hurt to check. Loki's green hues scanned the computer screen as she scoured the internet for answers. Loki motioned her body backward in the chair from the sight of what she found.
"Chloral hydrate- nitrate? The fuck?" She muttered to herself. The only thing that could help her was some science thing. Loki was intelligent but science wasn't something she was constantly working with, and from what she was reading- it seemed she would need a certain understanding of chemistry. Loki sighed and closed everything, then quickly deleted the history. She exited the study in a daze, she almost thought she was on to something. But if she could get those things she would be able to get Odin to be honest as to why he obviously hates her so much. But, she wasn't going to let that hinder her current plan. Loki entered her bedroom and sighed. It was becoming harder and harder for her to sleep again. Either her dreams were horrific, or disgusting, or both. It was a huge deterrent, most nights she'd lay in her bed with her eyes closed but not really sleeping at all. Her eyelids flickered as she stared at her ceiling. Loki was feeling drowsy but she was very apprehensive of actually sleeping. None the less, she fell asleep anyways. She turned her head to the side as she exhaled hard, hoping that nothing would torment her whilst she slept.
Loki turned over and whimpered slightly, the consistency of what she was laying on was no longer comfortable. Slowly she'd begin to open her eyes, realizing she was in a field near her house. Loki yawned and finally opened them; the sun was blurring her vision. She quickly rubbed her eyes now. when she retracted her hands there was residue of thick black eyeliner. Loki raised a brow, she knew this was a dream- but the eyeliner was new. She sat up in the high green grass, observing first her feet-which were bare. That was strange; she then noticed she was wearing a white sundress. She was obviously a female in this dream.
"Loki!" She heard in the distance, she couldn't make out whose voice it was. She got up and walked back towards her home. Much to her dismay as she walked she noticed her dress becoming dirtier and dirtier. She continued to wipe it but it was for naught. It simply dirtied the dress more. An overwhelming wave of embarrassment swept over her. Loki quickly ran through her front yard into her home. There was no sign of her family. She shrugged it off and headed through the living room but was drawn by a bright light down the hall, where the bathroom would normally be. Loki raised a brow as she walked toward it slowly. She was unsure of what may have been in the bathroom in question. This made her want to run away. But she didn't. When she finally reached her destination the light had faded and all she could focus on was a mirror. It was a lot smaller than the one in their real bathroom. The raven haired girl raised a brow as she stared deep into it. Her hair was a lot longer, her nails painted black, her dress still disgustingly filthy and her eyeliner applied thick around her sockets. Loki started to pant a little as she looked away from her reflection but she was so drawn she couldn't help but look up once more. Suddenly the room started to darken, her head turned quickly to the window. The clouds were becoming large and grey. She started to whimper from the sight of them, a lone tear slipped out of her left eye as she stared outside. Loki bit her lip and sighed, she didn't even bother to wipe her face. She glanced at her reflection once more. Her attention was turned away from it when she heard dripping. Loki glanced at the sink, then the bathtub. They were not the source of the sound, Loki sighed again and flattened the front of her dress and gasped when she felt a spot on her lower stomach moistening. Her eyes slowly descended and when they reached their destination she shrieked. The dripping was coming from her it seemed. Loki started to slowly pull her up her dress to see where it was seeping from. She choked when she saw blood was dripping from in between her legs. Loki screamed again and subtly started to sob as she held her stomach.
"Don't cry, you're fine." She heard from behind her. Loki quickly yelped and followed with a jump, almost slamming into the bathroom sink. She turned her head slowly to see a thin figure standing behind her in the shadows. It stepped into the dim light, revealing itself to be… the male version of herself. Loki's eyes widened from the sight of it.
"See, the blood's all gone." He added as he motioned closer, tugging on her dress a bit. She lowered her eyes and saw that the dress was clean again, she gagged a little. Something quickly grasped her neck, it was her male self and he was pulling her in closer to him. She felt her lower lip quiver as she lowered her head, this was way too strange but at least it wasn't as scary with her desired self there. It was almost safe.
"This is cute, I like it. " He muttered as he ran a finger through her hair. "It's better than the stuff we usually wear." Loki didn't bother raising her head. But her male form had taken the initiative of making her do so anyways. His hand roughly met her chin and raised it so that their eyes could meet. He stared for a minute before his lips violently collided with hers. Loki tried to step back but he was definitely a lot stronger than her. He forced his tongue into her mouth and at this point she was squirming wildly in his grasp. Loki finally broke the kiss and looked away from him. She wondered where Thor had been in this dream, this isn't what she was used to but at least her other dreams were consistent.
"You're thinking about Thor? Wondering where he is?" He scowled as he pulled her closer to him. "Isn't he the reason why this is happening to us?" She cringed, his grip was tightening.
"You're hurting me." She whimpered.
"I'm going to teach you about loving yourself." He added, ignoring her prior statement. He threw her against the wall. "Don't worry. I love us, so why would I want to hurt us?" Loki stared up at him for a moment before deciding to make a run for the door. She was quickly snatched up before getting anywhere and tossed on the bathroom floor. At this point he was lying on top of her. Loki cringed and she looked away from him.
"I want to leave."
"No wait, I have to teach you how to love us so you won't let anybody hurt us anymore." He whispered as he opened her legs, Loki simply laid still as she closed her eyes, urging herself to wake up. Before she knew it they were kissing again and she was even more scared than before. Rather he was kissing her, very aggressively. His hand met her throat and squeezed it as he sloppily kissed her.
"I don't want to." She said, her voice muffled and her eyes still closed tight.
"Then stop being so fucking weak!" Loki opened her eyes and saw him thrusting on top of her, but felt nothing. She raised her head slightly; she saw her dress was pulled up. He was definitely inside of her but it was like nothing was happening at all. Loki's eyes narrowed as she swatted her male form's hand away from her neck and connected her fist with his chest and bringing him down to the floor now. She grasped his neck now and positioned herself on top of him. He licked a bit of blood from the corner of his mouth and smirked up at her. She slammed his head downward on the floor once more as she straddled him. Loki finally lowered her head to his and started to kiss him just viciously as he did with her. Her male-self grasped her by the shoulders and brought her back on the ground with him, turning her on her stomach and kissing her neck from behind. She shivered for a moment and exhaled slowly when she finally began to feel him inside of her. It seemed that when she finally accepted his acts was when it seemed like it was actually happening. She whimpered slightly as she cringed from the initial sensation. Loki moaned a little while her opposite began to quicken his thrusts. She closed her eyes for a moment and when she reopened them the floor where they had been fucking on was coated with blood. Loki started to pant from the sight. It wasn't going away this time, her other half hadn't seemed to notice yet. He pressed her head to the moist floor as he continued to thrust behind her, she was too frightened to pay attention at this point. He was focused on his work. Loki closed her eyes and tried to focus as well, her mind seemed to wander. Remembering her first dream about Thor and how rough he was with her, or rather how rough he was with the person who was pounding mercilessly into her at that very moment.
"Stop thinking about him!" She heard him growl, this must've fueled his last few thrusts. Her male-self pulled out of her and laid on the floor next to her, breathing hard. Loki opened her eyes and saw the floor was clean again; she rolled over and turned her head to look at him.
"Did you come?" He muttered.
"No, did you?" She replied with a shrug. This could've possibly been weirder than dreaming about sex with her brother. It was less scarring though… for the most part.
"Nope." He sighed. "I got my point across though." He added with a shrug. He stood up and walked over to the sink, adjusting himself as he observed his reflection. Loki sat up and played with the hem of her dress. It wasn't until now that she had even noticed that he was wearing white as well. It was strange because the white had almost blended in with their alabaster skin. He finally turned around and reached his hand out to her, guiding her to her feet. He started to groom her while she not so subtly stared at him. Loki let out a small sigh.
"What?" Her other half muttered.
"Why can't I be like you?" She muttered longingly, staring up at him.
"You can be. I mean, I already exist… so that means somewhere in your brain you already are." He answered.
"No I'm not. I'm not a boy." She whimpered.
"There's a lot more to us than what we just see when we're nude." He said simply. Loki squinted up at him and tilted her head, trying to figure out what he meant. Before she could ask a blinding light filled the room, followed by the sound of crashing.
Loki hastily opened her eyes and sat up on her bed. She shook her head as she glanced around her room. What the fuck was going on with her mind? It was just becoming harder and harder to keep up with now. She stretched before getting off her bed and then sighed. Loki brought her fingers to her mouth and chewed them gently as she her eyes focused out her window.
"Fuck." She whispered as she lowered her head.
The hallways echoed with the squeaks of Loki's Chuck Taylor's as she made her way to the science lab. She peeked into the room through the small glass window and observed the class already in session. Loki groaned quietly and opened the door, stepping into the lab and taking her seat at one of the stations in the middle and not paying attention to whom she had been sitting beside.
"Are you Loki Olsen?" The teacher called out.
"Yes." She muttered as she pulled out her notebook and threw it on the table. The class was awkwardly silent for a moment.
"You've missed almost a month of this class. You can't be absent anymore." He said sternly. Loki simply rolled her eyes and leant forward, resting her head on her hand. She shrugged at him.
"We don't wear hats in this class either." He added finally. Loki was petrified for a moment. She glanced around the room at her classmates, who had been staring at her. She lowered her head and pulled her cap off her head, exposing her slicked back raven locks. She looked up slightly at the teacher.
"Now, as I was saying. This week we should be actually starting our chemical experiments. A reminder- these are fifty percent of your grade. So attendance from this point on is crucial." The teacher spoke in a monotone, in the final part of his sentence he looked directly to Loki. She shook her head as she scoffed under her breath and stared out the window as he spoke, tuning him out at this point. She did this until the class had ended, when the lecture had ended she re-packed her things and pulled her cap back on her head.
"He's a real hard ass sometimes." She heard from beside her. She turned her head and saw it was Sigyn. Loki's expression remained blank as she stared at the blonde girl for a moment. Loki then proceeded to blink a few times then made her way out of the lab and away from Sigyn, not saying a word. Loki trotted down the crowded hallway as she held on to one strap on her backpack.
"Loki, wait! Are you still mad about the party!?" Sigyn asked as she rushed through the mob of students, stalking behind her. Loki kept her head forward and didn't bother answering.
"Loki, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to throw up on you." She pleaded from behind. "Loki, listen!" Loki rolled her eyes and groaned, then sped her pace up. Sigyn's hand met her shoulder and turned her around to look at her. Loki observed the shorter girl.
"I'm listening." She muttered in condescension. The blonde stared up at her longingly; she swiftly cleared her throat and looked away. Loki focused her green hues on the girl.
"I really like you and I've been really sad since you stopped talking to me." She whimpered. "And I stopped seeing you when I went outside. Everything sucked without you." Sigyn added. Loki raised a brow, she hardly understood how she could legitimately impact Sigyn's life. The blonde was obviously alone and needy. Loki stayed silent after Sigyn's statement. What could Loki do? She wasn't who she wanted to be, so she couldn't fathom how she'd be desirable to other people. And she wasn't anatomically fit to be with Sigyn, even if she wanted to be with her. Loki inhaled deep through her nose and lowered her head.
"There's a lot more to us than what we just see when we're nude." Echoed through her mind, her insane dream-self was right. Loki licked her lips and leant forward, grasping the short blonde's neck and meeting their lips. She kissed her deeply in the middle of the hallway, no shame whatsoever. If this was what Loki truly believed herself to be, then it was time to start really acting like it. Loki finally broke the kiss and stared down at Sigyn, smirking at her. Her feelings may have not been fully requited but, wasn't like there was a swarm of chicks chasing after Loki. She was in no position to be picky.
"Oh, so you're not mad at me anymore?" Sigyn whispered, her face was flushed and she was obviously flustered. Loki grinned from the sight of her. She wrapped her arm around the shorter girl's should and began walking down the boisterous hall once more.
"Father won't be too happy to know that you're using his computer." Thor muttered from the doorway of the study. He was shuffling through papers while Loki sat at the computer. DTRing* with Sigyn earlier that day made her realize she had to finally go to her next step on her female to male transition. Loki read up what her next actions would be. It seemed plausible. It wasn't like her family wasn't well off and they couldn't afford the surgery or the hormone therapy. Loki stared intently at the screen, reading carefully. She never did reply to Thor's statement.
"What are you even looking for?"
"Just shut up and keep a look out." She grumbled as she scrolled through the web browser. She heard Thor scoff from behind her. Loki rolled her eyes and continued her research. She sat up and nodded, she turned her body in the computer chair and looked over to her older brother.
"I want hormone treatment." She said simply. She got up from the computer and started out of the study. Thor's eyes widened as he followed closely behind her.
"What does that mean?"
"It means I get testosterone injections and I start looking and feeling more and more like the man I am." She answered quickly as she walked through the living room and entered the kitchen. Thor sped up and stopped in front of her, looking concerned.
"Loki, that's a big deal."
"I know."
"Are you sure that's what you want to do? Aren't you supposed to go to therapy first?" Thor shook his head. Loki slinked passed him and ran for the fridge and began picking through it.
"Therapy is for poor people Thor." She grumbled. This wasn't true. She was supposed to get therapy before acting. But it all seemed like such of a waste of time to her. She just wanted to be her true self and finally be happy. She couldn't afford a shrink to realize she was crazy so she couldn't go through treatment. Thor was silent she glanced over to him as he sat at the kitchen counter. Loki pouted as she made her way to the counter as well.
"I know what I'm doing."
"You're like, fifteen." He blurted out. Loki's eyes narrowed, he obviously couldn't stand seeing her happy or hopeful about anything. Loki scoffed and headed for the doorway.
"Yeah for four more months…" She shrugged.
"Loki, wait. Can you listen to what I have so far for my speech?"
"I'll hear it, when I hear it."
"Wait, I want it to be perfect."
"Read it to Father then."
"I want it to be prepared before that…"
Loki crossed her arms and groaned. She gazed at her brother for a moment, eyeing his muscles through his shirt for a moment. She quickly felt herself becoming nauseous because of it.
"I can't Sigyn is coming over." She squeaked. Thor raised a brow and moved closer to her.
"Sigyn?"
"Yeah, she's my girlfriend now." Thor stayed silent, probably searching through his mind as to who Sigyn was.
"She's short, has blonde hair-pretty blue eyes, pretty everything really. She's really clingy, obviously wasn't hugged by her father as a child?" Loki trailed off. Thor seemed to have caught on at this point, but there was still something unsettling about his expression.
"So you like her?" He asked lowly.
"I guess…" She shrugged.
"Are you guys gonna… does she know you're-" Thor stuttered.
"She'll know when I start my hormone treatment." Loki finally turned away from him and headed towards the hall to her bedroom. "That way she'll feel better about the situation." She added. Loki leisurely made her way to her room and opened the door. She took a final glance at her older brother.
"So when she's here, don't fucking bother me." She called out.
Sigyn wandered around Loki's room while she lingered on the bed. Her curiousness made Loki uneasy, she pulled off her cap and tossed it on a clothes pile adjacent to her bed. Loki then looked up at Sigyn who was now- almost childishly going through Loki's book shelf.
"Psst." Loki hissed, in return Sigyn turned to look at her. She raised a brow and nodded her head towards the spot beside her on the bed. Sigyn tilted her head then nodded in realization, pulling off her shoes and then hopping on the bed. Loki licked her lips and ran her slender fingers through Sigyn's golden locks.
"So what do you want to do?" She asked bashfully. Loki stared down at the girl and placed her hand under her chin, bringing her face close to hers so they can kiss. Sigyn shivered, Loki could feel it. She lowered the smaller girl more on the bed and positioned herself on top of her, kissing her more ferociously now. Sigyn whimpered into the kisses, all Loki could think of was her dream. Her other has couldn't be more right. She was like him, she was him. It felt so right at this moment. Loki's hand slipped underneath Sigyn's shirt and pulled it over her head, revealing the blonde's frilly bra. Loki smirked as she quickly unhooked the bra and tossed it away. Sigyn giggled as she kissed Loki once more, not even giving her a chance to catch a glimpse of her breasts.
"That's weird. Most guys can't take off my bra… and they use two hands." She whispered, biting her lower lip. Loki pulled away from their kiss to look at her, she had to cover her tracks and fast.
"I'm not like most guys." Loki muttered simply and before Sigyn could answer she kissed her once more, adding her tongue into the mix and ensuring distraction. Loki's eyes lowered, she glanced at Sigyn's breasts. Loki hadn't seen any besides her own up until this point, they were significantly smaller than hers but enticing none the less. Loki's hands motioned to grope them as she moved her lips to Sigyn's neck, kissing along it and making her way towards the smaller girl's breasts. She began to pinch her nipples, and they hardened almost instantly. She heard the girl moaning underneath her, Loki hated that they couldn't actually have sex. Maybe it was for the best at this point. Loki inserted one of Sigyn's breasts into her mouth, gently sucking on her nipple while her free hand made her way down to the front of Sigyn's jeans. Loki felt around over the girl's underwear, rubbing her clitoris. Sigyn was now whimpering in pleasure and moistening from her touch. Loki took the smaller girl's breast out of her mouth and descended. She brought her head in between Sigyn's legs, she pulled off the blonde's jeans and panties then continued her work.
"Loki, aren't we going a little fast." She panted, but Loki ignored her. She closed her eyes, she was turned on but in the heat of the moment she didn't think of Sigyn but of Thor. Loki hesitated for a moment. That was disgusting. Why would she think of Thor at a time like this? She did none the less, and she couldn't help but feel guilty. Sigyn did remind her of a female Thor though, now she felt even guiltier but somehow this fueled her. She dove between Sigyn's legs and gently kissed the area above her privates, Loki could feel Sigyn shivering again. She was anxious as well, she'd never done anything with anyone before, and hopefully she was doing this right. Loki brought her tongue out of her mouth, she hesitated again. Thor came to mind again and she started to lick the smaller girl hungrily, periodically sucking on Sigyn's clit. The blonde started to moan loudly but Loki didn't pay any mind to it all that flooded her mind was the dreams she had of her and Thor, and for the first time she wasn't sickened by it. Loki imagined herself as a male while as she licked Sigyn, but in her imagination it was a female Thor she was pleasuring, and she was on the brink of her climax. Loki lifted her head for a moment in the fantasy and smirked. Her male-self started back up again and the she-Thor writhed in pleasure as she started to come.
Loki was brought back to reality when she felt Sigyn gripping her head and trying to pry her from in between her legs. Her nether regions had been throbbing, and Loki hadn't even noticed the smaller girl's orgasm. She was panting while she stared down at Loki.
"Sorry, I thought you wanted to give it another go." She muttered. Sigyn's face was flushed red; she laid her head back as she attempted to catch her breath. Loki sat up and slid down to the edge of the bed. Loki gagged when she remembered what she was imagining while she was eating her unsuspecting girlfriend out. She felt sick and grasped her stomach. Why would she think of Thor? What was going through her mind? What was her excuse now? She was definitely awake.
"Loki, that was amazing." She heard from behind. "…Are you okay?" Sigyn added. Loki hesitated as she felt the bile rising in her esophagus. She stood up thinking the feeling would disappear, no such luck.
"The next thing I'm going to do has nothing to do with you." She muttered. Loki keeled over her mini trash can and heaved hard into it. She continued to puke, she heard Sigyn gasp and come towards her but she simply waved the girl off.
"I'll see you in school tomorrow." Loki whispered as she leant on her doorway. Sigyn kissed her cheek and giggled as she made her way down the hall. Loki smirked as she watched the short girl leave. Thor slinked into the hallway and took a glance at Sigyn then looked over to Loki. She shrugged at him and the two stayed silent until she was gone.
"So that's Sigyn?"
"Yep."
"She's your girlfriend."
"Yep."
"She seems nice." Thor whispered. Loki glanced at him and stared for a moment. Saying nothing she retreated into her bedroom. Opening up her closet, she moved her clothes out of the way and opened a section of the wall that she had removed a while back. Inside was what she referred to as her armor, she had gotten it the day before at a thrift store. She looked away to make sure her bedroom door was closed, it was. Loki refocused her attention again to the clothing. Most of it was stuff she got from a thrift shop over time. Combat boots, black cargo pants and a black military jacket. Finally she reached into the far back pulling out a black gas mask; the area around the eyes was painted gold. Loki heard a rapping on her bedroom door. She put the items back into her hidden inventory space.
"Hang on!" She called out, finally putting everything away. Thursday, that was her day. She went to her door and quickly pulled it open, revealing her mother on the other side.
"Yes?" She said darting her eyes.
"Thor says he feels like you don't want to support him." Frigga whispered, leaning closer to Loki. She raised a brow and glanced down the hall, she then turned her head forward once more.
"Oh he did?" She answered in a monotone.
"He didn't tell me to tell you but, he was talking about it a few minutes ago and I couldn't help but bring it to your attention."
"No, it's okay Mom. But, maybe you should have told him to stop acting like a girl!" She yelled down the hall in the latter part of her sentence. Frigga shook her head but Loki didn't feel any remorse.
"Loki, you only have one brother. At least treat him well." Frigga said earnestly. Loki rolled her eyes.
"Thor's going to know that speech, and he's going to know it well. But the minute he hits that podium it won't matter what he says, Mother. The crowd will love him none the less, and he'll eat it up. Why? Because Thor is Thor and that's how he works…" She said lowly, passionately, obviously infuriated. Loki turned away, going into her room, abandoning her Mother in the doorway. Frigga made her way inside immediately and closed the door behind her. She turned Loki around by her shoulders so that they could be face to face.
"Loki, are you upset?" Frigga muttered. "He also said that you weren't acting quite like yourself…" She sighed softly after her statement.
"Quite the contrary, Mother. I'm acting a lot like myself." She replied in a monotone. Frigga shook her head and placed her hands on Loki's cheeks.
"Loki, listen to me. You're not." Loki stayed silent and attempted to lower her head but, Frigga wasn't having it.
"Loki…Loki! Look at me." She said sternly. Loki focused her eyes on her Mother. "I'd give anything to know what's happening that head of yours. I get so worried about you. You scare me sometimes." Frigga whimpered.
'You don't care about me…' Loki thought quickly. She sighed and tried to pry herself from Frigga's grasp.
"Now, tell me. Are you upset because Thor was chosen to work with your Father and you weren't?" Frigga asked. Loki blinked a few times, wanting more than anything to stay silent.
"I-I" Loki started to stammer. She felt the tears forming in her eyes. All that had happened these couple of months had been brought into her mind. Loki wanted more than anything to be able to tell about what had been happening to her but, she simply couldn't bring herself to doing it. "Why doesn't anybody love me…?" She whispered by mistake. Now tears were falling from her eyes. Frigga let go of her face and brought her into her chest, rocking her. Frigga brought her to her bed and continued these motions.
"Loki, how can you ask that? You're so loved." Frigga whispered as she rocked her. "Loki, you are so loved." Loki raised a brow and wiped her tears and lifted her head too look at Frigga. She had strangest feeling of déjà vu.
"Have you said that to me before?" She asked; her voice cracking. Frigga stayed silent for a moment then shrugged.
"I can't say that I have." She answered simply then began stroking Loki's raven locks. Loki sighed finally released herself from Frigga's grip. She wiped her face and walked away from the bed.
"Loki, don't doubt it for a second. Odin, Thor and I love you very much." Frigga started. "Anything else would be absurd."
'But you'd be happier if I were a boy.' She quickly thought. Loki lowered her head; she turned to Frigga and shrugged.
"Okay." She said simply. Loki couldn't deal with her emotions outwardly anymore. Frigga smiled and got up from the bed. Hugging the girl tightly, she then proceeded to go to the door to make her exit.
"Sleep tight, sweetheart." Frigga whispered before leaving. Loki groaned loudly and threw herself on her bed. She began to question whether or not she would go through with her plan… Was Frigga saying true? Loki couldn't tell, as far as she knew she was abhorred by everyone. She sighed and closed her eyes. She knew she wouldn't be able to sleep that night.
Loki glanced at herself in the mirror; she looked like a proper gentleman in this suit. It was baggy yes but she looked nice none the less. The only thing that had bothered her was her breasts which had seemed to grow because her binder wasn't working as well as it did in the summer. She grumbled to herself as she adjusted her tie. Her suit was black, underneath the blazer was a white dress shirt and the cherry on top was her dark green tie. She knew Odin had paid a pretty penny for this suit in question. This didn't deter her motives though. A knock came upon her door.
"Come in." She answered, not leaving the mirror. Through the reflection she spotted Frigga and Odin, dressed their best as well. Frigga actually stepped into her room.
"Looking good, son." Odin said in a monotone. Loki ignored him as she placed a dollop of gel in her hand and smoothed her hair back.
"Loki everybody is ready, we're going to drive over to town square together. How much more time do you need?" Frigga asked. Loki shrugged then turned to face the two.
"I have to go pickup Sigyn actually. She's waiting for me at her house, she's driving me there. You guys go on without me." She answered. Frigga nodded her head and left the room. Odin lingered as Loki made her way closer to the doorway. She looked in his direction and leant forward slightly as she raised a brow.
"Yes?" She whispered.
"You both are going to be taking over when I'm gone, you do realize that?" He asked. Loki's gaze lingered on her Father.
'Yeah, but I'll be under Thor. As always, nobody thinks I can run things.'
"Of course." She replied. Odin nodded and started to take his leave as well.
"Be prompt, I know it isn't for two more hours. But it's important to be there before it starts." He added before getting all the way down the hallway. Loki smirked and turned her head to look out the window. She watched closely as the three piled into Odin's car and made their way down the road. They made a final wave to Loki before doing so. She returned it; a sinister smirk appeared on her lips when she saw they were gone. Loki had no time to waste, she went into her closet and pulled out her milk crate and gas can. The night before she had packed her clothes for the deed in a plastic bag, she grasped it before making her way out of their home through the back door, exiting the back yard and entering the woods. She had a walk in store for her, but she was well prepared.
Mid-way through her walk in the woods she started to peel off the fancy suit she had received that morning. Starting with her blazer, she pulled it off and held it in her arms then she unfastened her tie and pulled it over her head. Loki began unbuttoning her white shirt, exposing her black tank top underneath. She finally took the shirt off and laid it on top of her blazer and tie. Loki finally stopped walking when she saw the high school in the horizon then took a glance at her watch. It was almost eleven thirty. She had time before lunch started. Thor's speech would start at one o' clock on the dot. Loki pulled off her dress pants and shoes. Loki looked downward at the spot; she saw the shovel she had placed in advance the night before. She quickly started to dig a hole. When she was done she began to dress herself. Loki put on her black cargo pants first, and then slipped on the combat boots. She was sure to tie the laces tightly. She then pulled on a hooded sweatshirt she brought, containing lighters in the pouch. Loki then put on the military jacket. She wished she could see herself. Finally, she placed the gas mask over her face, the lenses were dimmed. Like sunglasses or something, she didn't care. That would probably work in her favor at some point. Loki pulled her hood up, covering whatever part of her head the gas mask didn't cover. She was done; she neatly packed her dress clothes into the plastic bag then sealed it before tossing it in her hole and refilling it. Loki smirked underneath her mask then grabbed her crate and gas can and continued on her journey.
She finally made it behind the school. She glanced at the opening to the cellar of it. It was moments like this that she was glad she lived on the good side of town. Otherwise her plan would've involved more obstacles but here it was everything all open and easily accessible, almost like a present. Loki opened the cellar doors and carefully made her way inside with her milk crate. She then grabbed her gas can and closed the cellar doors and evaluated the basement itself. It was difficult, the space was dark. She wasn't prepared for that, Loki started to move aimlessly in the darkness. Hopefully at some point she'd find a way out. The tinted goggles of her gas mask definitely didn't help. After what had seemed to be ten or fifteen minutes of walking straight ahead Loki discovered a door. She tried to pry it open but it didn't budge. She cursed under her breath and glanced around once more. Loki took a step back and began to kick at the door, still no luck. She placed her hands on her hips and examined the door. She glanced around the area again; finally she noticed a hammer on the floor beside some other tools. Loki glanced between the two for a few seconds. She picked up the hammer then quickly slammed it next to the area by the door knob and repeated this action until a dent was formed. She turned the hammer on the other side and pierced the dent with it then pulled the hammer outward, created a small hole by the knob. Loki slid her hand through it and cringed slightly. She should've gotten gloves. That would've been a worthy investment. She turned the doorknob on the other side, finally opening the door. She chuckled quietly, reveling in her victory. Loki kicked the door more open and it revealed a staircase. Loki made her way up each step, dragging the milk crate along with her. When she reached the top of the stairs Loki opened the door slowly and peeked behind it. All it appeared to be was a storage room for the janitor or something. She quietly walked through it. Although the room was dimly lit she was better at getting to the exit this time which opened with a simple turn of the knob.
Loki had finally arrived to what appeared to be a hallway in the more abandoned section of the school. She wandered down the empty halls and glanced at her watch, it had almost been the end of the lunch period. Perfect timing, she reached the front of the lunch room. She wasn't stupid enough to peek in through the window; she could hear the students inside. There was no sign of teachers, which was also a good sign. She examined the hall before acting; she saw a fire alarm at the other end. That alone made her decipher how she would execute her plan. Loki ran over to that specific spot. She unscrewed the top of her gas can and started to walk across the hall and letting the liquid pour all over the floor.
"Hey! Who are you? What are you doing!?" She heard. She lifted her head, just as she had reached into her pocket to get her lighter Sif had appeared at the end of the hall. Loki wanted to snicker, but she stayed silent. Sif's face was pale with fear, this somehow tickled Loki. She couldn't help it, she knew it was wrong but there was no turning back now. She flicked the lighter a few times before the lighter finally ignited. Loki tossed the lighter and stepped back as the floor became engulfed with flames and Sif shrieked. Loki wanted so badly to laugh but she didn't. She remained still as the other girl glanced around in a panic. She reached for the fire alarm, just as Loki had hoped someone would. Loki quickly picked up one of the molotov cocktails from the crate and pulled out a new lighter. She lit it and tossed it in the direction of the fire alarm. The cocktail exploded on impact, Sif had ran before it met the wall.
She heard the sound of screams from the inside of the lunchroom. Loki rubbed her hands together as she started to walk down the hall towards the other side of the lunchroom. The gas in her can had been depleted, just as well. She still had plenty of molotov cocktails. She heard the sound of shrieks and the echoing of running feet. She didn't bother to turn. Just as she passed the double doors of the lunchroom a bunch of a kids burst through them in a panic. Loki stayed still as she watched them swarm into the hallway, running past her to the other side. Of course this would be for naught. Loki pulled out another cocktail and lit it she threw it on the ground and started to run further down the hall just as the other students screamed in fear. She heard various things along the lines of "Why are you doing this!?" but, Loki ignored it as she lit the next cocktail and threw it at the corner of the hallway. She watched as the flame burned bright, shocked that people were too busy panicking to try and stop her.
"Stop!" She heard. Perhaps her assumption was made too soon; she turned around to see Fandral and Hogun at the end of the hallway. Loki licked her lips under her mask as she pulled out the next cocktail, Hogun was running towards her at this point. Loki turned her head to see a group of students running their way. Loki threw the cocktail in their direction, and a chorus of shouts and cries were heard. Instead of coming for her Fandral and Hogun ran to their aid. Loki started to walk again she eyed the end of the hallway that she had started on, the fire was still burning bright but now administrators were trying to extinguish it. She chuckled a little as she lit her second to last molotov cocktail and threw it in their direction then proceeded to walk away as the string of screams echoed the hallway. The entire corridor had been burning. Loki admired her work for a moment. This was interrupted by her being hurtled to the ground. She cringed in pain as whoever tackled her attempted to turn her over and pull off her gas mask. Loki thought quickly and pulled out her lighter and placed it against the person's clothes until they ignited. She kicked the person off her and took a glance at the flaming individual when she stood. Her eyes widened behind her mask when she saw it was the assistant principal of the school. Loki took her final molotov cocktail and threw it against the already burning hallway. On impact the flames became more violent, causing people to focus on that instead of her. Loki quickly ran to the stairwell and descended into the gym where she knew she'd be able to get back to the cellar and ultimately out of the building. Loki was anxious, she could've been caught if she wasn't careful but when she got to the gym it was empty. She darted through it and ran into the hallway, trying to decipher where she'd find the cellar entrance. Loki ran down the hall in a sort of panic at this point. She was cursing herself in her mind. She should've at least tried to figure this out before. Loki ran into a corridor and examined the doors until she spotted one that an "Authorized Personnel Only" sign. She ran back and slammed into it until it budged, she wasn't very successful. Loki ran into a classroom, there was no time to waste. She crawled on one of the desks and pried open a window. The classroom was below ground level. She peered through it first to make sure no one would ambush her on the other side. When she saw the coast was clear Loki crawled through the window and onto the grass, exasperated. It was too soon for her to relax; she got up off the ground and started to run. Through her peripheral she could see the fire department and the police cars pulling up to the school. No time to check the damage, she had a date. Loki glanced at her watch as she ran; it was forty minutes after one. Perfect, when she finally reached her initial spot she stripped. This time she really stripped, down to nothing. Loki had been panting the entirety of the time since she left the building. Her anxiety was settling in because she knew she wasn't home free yet. When Loki was done undressing and gathering up her clothes she made a mad dash back to her family's house.
Luckily, the woods were the best place for her to be at the moment. She wasn't so much as crossed by any living person for the whole time that she was running. She slunk into their home through the back door and was quick to go into her room and hid her "armor" in her secret wall hole in her closet. Loki made her way into the guest bathroom; she knew nobody would be checking it anytime soon. She hopped into the shower and let the water run down her body. Loki felt powerful, like she had been recharged. She leant on the shower wall as the beads dripped down her face. She was still for a moment, realizing the deed she had done. Was anybody dead? Surely Thor had heard about the incident by now. All of the reporters and local television stations would most likely be circling their county's high school and stealing the spotlight from Thor. Just as she planned. Loki started to whimper and before she knew it she was sobbing uncontrollably in the shower. Why? She was torn; part of her didn't want to hurt Thor. She loved him more than anyone. But, it was so obvious that he didn't care for her the way she did. He was the favorite on all levels. Family, peers, even strangers. Loki quickly snapped out of her weep-a-thon when she remembered why she did it in the first place. With the deepest hate she secretly hoped that she was successful in burning her molesters alive. Loki continued in this line of thought when she thought of Thor again. Loki jumped out of the shower and walked out of the guest bathroom. She didn't bother to even to get a towel, she made her way into her room to get redressed and go to Sigyn's house to "pick her up".
Loki whistled as she made her way up Sigyn's walkway and rang the doorbell. She tapped her foot a few times as she glanced around the yard. Finally the door swung open revealing the blonde in a pencil skirt and a frilly sleeveless dress shirt. Loki raised a brow as she examined her.
"Hello, Love." She said as she slipped her hands in her pockets and stepped into the house. Sigyn's expression was that of fear.
"Loki, you were supposed to pick me up two hours ago what happened?" She squealed in concern. Loki examined the home as she spoke then finally turned to the shorter girl.
"Oh that? I thought taking a nap would be a good idea. Oh how wrong I was. I'm sorry darling." She sighed, placing a hand on Sigyn's face. The blonde was still uneasy.
"Loki, somebody attacked the school." She whimpered.
"What?" Loki leant forward and squinted to accentuate her faux surprise. Sigyn started to sniffle before she wrapped her arms around Loki's waist and brought her into an embrace. Loki awkwardly started to pat the girl's back.
"It's all over the news, some psycho in all black and a gas mask. The whole west wing was ablaze. It's so scary." She choked. Loki's expression remained stoic. She knew Sigyn couldn't see her face. Her eyes drifted away from the shorter girl and to her television in the living room. Loki broke the embrace and headed closer to it.
"We are here at East Mount Asgaurd High School where the entire west corridor, location of the cafeteria has been brutally attacked. They say the criminal in question was cocky yet silent. For every move they had, he was a step ahead." The reporter on the screen recited.
'Cocky?' Loki thought, she screwed up her face a little bit. At this point Sigyn was standing beside her and watching as well.
"It's reported that no one is dead but eight people have been taken to the hospital and three of them- including the assistant principal- are in critical condition." The television added. At this point the news was simply cutting through shots of the inferno. Loki stared with a blank expression.
'Hm, no harm done.' Popped into her mind, after all nobody was killed, it could've been worse. Her attention turned back to the television when a student in a stretcher appeared on the screen.
"Me and my friends were sitting in the caf and we saw flames and smelled smoke so we tried running the other way but he was there and he threw these bottles of gas. We moved just in time but my friend has asthma so she couldn't go anywhere and she passed out and we were trapped." The girl rambled on. Loki was no longer interested.
"Loki?" Sigyn purred. She turned her head to face the blonde and raised a brow.
"I'm scared…" She continued. Loki grasped the girl by her arm and brought her close, holding her. Loki heard Sigyn sigh as she shivered. Loki decided to stroke her hair in the similar fashion her mother did to her.
"We should just be happy that we weren't there." Loki murmured as she began to stare at the TV screen again. The same girl appeared once more.
"If it wasn't for Hogun and his friends, I'd probably be dead…" She whispered, looking into the camera. Loki's insides felt like flames, the words echoed in her mind. Not only did these bastards live, but they helped everyone get out of the building it seemed. Loki let her malice brew but masked it for her girlfriend. Loki exhaled hard and pulled away from her, heading for the door.
"Come on. I want to make sure Thor is okay." Loki said, trying to sound honestly concerned but deep inside she needed his misery to band aid the results of her subpar school attack. After all, this was all to get a rise out of him in the first place. Was it not?
A/N:
DTR: Define The Relationship. I think it's a Midwestern term, I dunno. It's safe to assume this story takes place in bumblefuck. Anyways-
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