A/N: HOWDY! so this idea was Louis'! woo! go Louis! :D I quite like it but, no doubt i'm going to get some stick for it being 'unrealistic' *cough-fanfiction-cough*. I got a pm about Louis so at the bottom of this chapter I'm going to explain!
"Stop laughing at me!" Peeta huffs at Gerry and I glare at Gerry. Peeta is still trying to work with his prosthetic and at the moment kind of looks like a robot when he walks.
"I'm not laughing!" Gerry lies and I throw a piece of popcorn at him. "I'm giggling at the film!"
"The film ended five minutes ago!" Peeta shouts and Gerry smirks. "Fuck off, guys. If you aren't going to be supportive you can leave." He says and Gerry's face falls.
"Nonono, Peet! I'm sorry! I won't laugh anymore! Come on bro!" Peeta laughs and Gerry his kisses him suddenly and I stare as Peeta blinks multiple times before Gerry pulls back. "Love you!" He says then leaves.
"Did he ju..."
"Yes, Gerry did just kiss my boyfriend and yes I am very jealous." I say and Peeta smile and looks away. "Peeta..." I trail off and walk towards him.
"Katniss, don't." He says and I sigh. Peeta rarely touches me anymore and if I make an attempt to touch him he makes an excuse to get out of it. He's even resorted to saying he sleeps better alone so I don't share a bed with him and frankly, it's tearing me apart.
"I'm not." I say and walk past him out into the kitchen. "Do you want anything?" I call and he growls.
"If I wanted something I would get it myself!" He says and hold the countertop and sigh.
"That's now what I meant."
"It never is. Good night, Katniss." He says and I roll my eyes. Once I hear his bedroom door close I creep up the stairs so as not to wake any one else and into my room.
I don't sleep much that night. Hell, I don't sleep much at all without waking up and screaming. Tonight I don't have nightmares, I just feel odd. Like something is going to happen, I can't say what but, it is making me restless.
It's eight in the morning and I can hear a lot of commotion downstairs, I slip out of bed and pull a face at my pyjamas that are really just short shorts and a vest. When I open my room, I can't help look into Peeta's room, the door is open, he's facing me but is wrestling a t shirt over his head, my eyes latch onto his body and I moan a bit. He pulls the shirt down and looks at me.
"Do you know what's happening?" I ask and he shakes his head before moving towards me.
"No, do you?" He asks and I shake my head as well. We walk down the corridor together and head down the stairs. My body stops moving halfway down when I see Mr Mellark, Rye and Evan talking to someone tall wearing dark jeans and a bomber jacket on the top, carrying a blackholdel bag. He turns to look at me and my hands fly to my mouth.
"Hey, Catnip." He murmurs and he drops his bag as I run down the stairs and launch myself off the fourth stair from the bottom, Gale catches me and laughs but his laugh soon turns to sobs and we sob together. No one else says anything, my legs are wrapped around Gale's waist and my arms around his neck as we cling to eachother.
"Gale!" I cry and he clutches me tighter. Neither Gale and I are aware the my vest has risen and his warm hands are on my bare back but, Peeta does see. He sees us clinging to each other. He sees us crying together.
"Prim." Gale says and I nod my head in his neck. I don't know how long we're like but when I eventually unwrap my legs from his waist, no one else is stood there. "Wanna go to the woods?" He asks with a smirk and I nod - we always used to go to the woods together.
I run upstairs and quickly pull on some sweatpants and a simple t shirt and flip flops. I head into the kitchen and Gale is talking to Mr Mellark. I stand beside Gale as he pulls apart a bread roll. His back is straight, his shoulders back.
"So you're in the army?" Ben says and Gale smirks a little.
"I work for the goverment sir." Gale replies carefully and Ben narrows his eyes.
"What, like a spy or something? I thought you were dead." Ben says and Gale nods.
"I work for the goverment." He repeats. "My death was vital in the... Position I was needed in." Gale says, considering every word.
"Well, you're welcome here for as long as you need."
"Thank you, sir." Gale says and I smile at Ben before I whistle for Max. He trots to my side as Gale and I step out the back door into the bright sunshine.
"So, what the fuck?" I ask straight away.
"I can't tell you everything Katniss, I can tell you that my death was vital and I am sorry you had to go through it." He says and I throw a tennis ball for Max, he walks to it.
"You couldn't have left me a note or something?" I asked and he pulled an envelop out of his bomber jacket inside pocket.
"I found a photograph in an old box of mine." Gale says, changing the subject. "Of us." He says and pulls the photograph out of the envelope and passes it to me. I smile, the photograph had been taken when Gale and I took Prim to the in town circus, we're all sat on a huge elephant smiling widely.
"Cute." I say and he nods and puts the photograph away.
"How's school?" He asks and I shrug.
"Good I guess. Everyone treats me as the girl who's little sister died though." I say sourly and Gale throw the ball for Max again before sitting on one of the swings and I sit on the other.
"It's only been a week since you've been in school again, Catnip." He says and I glance.
"How would you know that?"
"I work for the goverment." He says and swings a little. "The goverment knows everything. Therefore, I know everything."He says and I look into the woods.
"What do you do?" I ask and he sighs.
"I help people." He says and I nod, it's something he would do. "I help people get away from things, I help finish things, I help make thinks. I just help." He says and I stroke Max's fur as he falls on my feet.
"Have you killed anyone?" I ask and Gale looks at me.
"Yes, multiple people."
"Why?"
"It's what I do." He says and I roll my eyes.
"Are you like, an assassin or something?" I ask and Gale smirks.
"Sometimes, I'm here to kill you right now." He says and lunges at me playfully. I laugh and jump over max. We run around the garden like little children, I'm a few metres onto the wood when Gale catches me and we fall on the floor. Me on my back and Gale ontop of me. "I failed an assignement, Katniss." He whispers and I stare up at him, he brush my forehead with his thumb. "If I had succeeded the social would have lost all files on you and Prim." He says and I sigh.
"What happened?" I ask and he frowns.
"I blew up a school." He whispered and I tried not to gasp. "My colleague was a traitor and he fed me lies. I didn't think it would happen." He says and his eyes fall onto my lips. The his lips fall onto mine. He's gentle but demanding when he slides his tongue to part my lips and starts exploring my mouth. It feels so good to be kissed like this and now a peck on my forehead so I lift one arm to his hip and kiss him back.
Peeta's P.O.V
It just so happens that my room has a window that looks out into the garden. It just so happens that there is a gap between some trees. It just so happens that I see Gale and Katniss together.
I had watched then talk and then laugh and then chase eachother and now I watch them kissing. I hope it's only kissing. I can see Katniss' hand on his waist, pulling him closer to her. I fear that my jaw is permanently clenched shut now and that my teeth are grinded to dust.
They aren't kissing anymore, Katniss is chasing Gale and a sour taste fills my mouth.
They're out there running and I can barely walk anymore. I look down at the prosthetic and angrily I sit back on my bed and unstrap it. I don't know what to do once it's off so I throw it, it crashes over my desk and falls to the floor with books and papers and sketches. My eyes fall onto the locked drawer and I drop to the floor and drag myself towards it.
The key hole is there to purposefully deceive people, there is no key. Any magnet will open the drawer if it is close enough to the handle. I grab the magnetic ball on my desk and hold it near the handle until it clicks softly. Then I pull the drawer straight out of the desk.
I move myself and the drawer onto my bed and I stare at the silver frame containing the photogoraph of Katniss and I when we went to the fancy dance at the summer camp. I carefully pull it out but rage fills me and I throw it at the wall.
I gather up all the stupid sketches I've drawn of her and rip them as many times as I can before throwing them too so they fall around my room.
I scrunch up the menu of the various diners we went to and had sex in the bathrooms of and threw them roughly. And they hit the walls of my room and joined the mess.
The rest of the stuff in the drawer was just that; stuff. I pick up the drawer and hurled it again the floor to ceiling mirror in my room so it smashed because I never wanted to see myself again.
My heart was racing with anger and pain and I didn't know what to do, I grabbed my crutches and I moved to my wardrobe. I took out every pair of shorts that I own and held them in my arms as I moved to my desk and sat down. I grabbed scissors and chopped up all of my shorts into little pieces, tears cascading down my angry red face.
"Peeta?" I looked up momentarily at my dad and brothers.
"What are you doing Peeta?" Evan asked and I continued to snip angrily.
"I'm never going to need them again am I!" I scream and they looked shocked. "Shorts! Fucking shorts! Why would I wear shorts when I don't even have two legs!" I screamed and my dad blinked back tears. I laughed and moved to my bedside cabinet with the scissors using my crutches. I reach down and took out the condoms. "I won't need these anymore!" I yelled and Evan looked bewildered. "I won't need these if I can't even get it up! Yeh! I'm a fucking cripple! Well no! I'm not a fucking cripple because I can't fuck! Who gives a god damn shit!" I scream as I cut each condom in half before throwing the scissors across my room as well.
"Calm down Peeta." Dad said and I threw a book in his direction.
"Fuck off!" I screamed and he rushed out of the room. "You guys can sod off as well!" I shouted and to my shock Rye and Evan stepped into my room and shut the door.
"You told the doctors everything was fine down below, Peet." Rye said as he stooped to pick up shards of my mirror.
"Oh yeah! Because I co..."
"Stop shouting at us." Evan butted in and I swallowed.
"Katniss was always with me, how could I tell her that I couldn't get hard?" I asked and fell backwards on my bed. My brothers milled around my room, cleaning the mess I made as I lay there and stared at the ceiling. "He's staying, isn't he?" I ask and look across at Rye.
"Yeah, he has nowhere else to go." Rye responds and I screw my eyes shut. "Come on buddy." Rye and Evan pull me up and I look at them confused. "Leg on or off?" I shake my head and they hand me my crutches.
"What's going on?" I ask and they smile.
"We're taking you to the doctor to get you sorted." Evan explained and smiled at me.
Katniss
It was surreal to have Gale back. We shouldn't have kissed and I told him so. I explained how Peeta's barely been touching me and he listened and nodded before we started a childish game of tag.
Then we sat in a tree in the woods and watched everything go past us. We barely spoke and it wasn't untile we heard an owl that we realised it was dark and we headed back to the house.
"Just in time." Melissa smiled warmly and Gale offered to carry the plates in with her. I did too and I carried two plates into the dining room, I put one down in front of Evan and the other down in front of Peeta. Peeta moved away from me and my heart ached. Gale passed me a plate and I thanked him and took my seat beside Peeta.
"How was your day?" I asked Peeta and he looked at me.
"Nothing happened really. How about you?" He asked and I was about to answer when he continued. "Anything fun happen?" I blushed a little and looked at Gale momentarily, he was talking to Melissa.
"No, not really. Just catching up with Gale." I say and started to eat my casserole.
"Well I did find something out." Peeta says and I nod. "From my bedroom window, I can see almost everything in the garden." I froze. "Especially this one little bit in the woods." I swallowed and turned to Peeta but he already had his back to me and was talking to Evan.
"Peeta." I said and he ignored me. I felt my heart race as I stared at the back of his head.
It wasn't until later that night when I followed Peeta into his bedroom that he finally looked at me.
"I'm tired, Katniss." Peeta said roughly and I closed his door.
"So am I Peeta. I'm tired of you making excuses. Gale kissed me and I kissed him back because you haven't touched me in weeks!" I spill and Peeta sits on his bed. "Am I doing something wrong?" I ask desperately. "Are you not into me any more or something because I'd rather you just said than drag me along Peeta! This isn't fair on me!" I say loudly and Peeta hangs his head. "You don't love me anymore do you?" I ask my voice sounding strangled, Peeta looks up with wide eyes.
"No, oh god Katniss I mean yes, I mean I do! I love you!" He cries and sink down onto the bed next to him in relief. He pulls me against him and I whimper at his touch, my hands balling his t shirt. "Katniss, I am never going to not love you! I promise you! I won't leave you, Katniss." He whispers and I look up and slam my lips to his and he kisses back, both of us moaning in relief.
"So what is it?" I ask when I pull away.
"Its-I cant-I just..." Peeta stutters and I cup his cheek with my hand.
"What is it?" I ask and he blushes.
"I can't, you know, get it up." He mutters and I frown.
"What do you mean?" I ask, confused and he bites his lip.
"I can't...stand to attention." Peeta says embarrassed and I shrug my shoulders. "I can't get an erection, Katniss." He says finally and my mouth forms an 'o'.
"Oh, Peeta! Why didn't you just tell me!" I sigh and he scratches the back of his hair.
"It's embarrassing! We used to do it all the damn time and now I can't at all!" He falls back on the bed and I stay sat up.
"I don't care." I say finally and Peeta scoffs. "Peeta, I love you. I love you how you are. I don't care." I say and Peeta groans.
"You already had to give up so much because I have this stupid ugly thing." He indicates his prostethic leg. "I don't want you to have to give up children and sex as well." He sighs and I stand up.
"Okay, I guess I'll go fuck Gale then." I say and head for the door.
"What!" Peeta sits up in shock and I smile at him.
"I'm kidding!" I say and move back to him. "Peeta, I'm not giving anything up. I'm adjusting. Just like you are! I've never wanted children." I say and Peeta's eyes look sad before he regains his composure. "Not til you swept into my life and changed everything I thought was right, you showed me that it's okay to love someone as long as you're strong enough. I don't want to be without you ever again." I say and drop to my knees to kiss him deeply. "It was never just sex though was it." I whisper and he looks at me with a cocked head.
"How do you mean?" He asks and I brush his hair out of his eyes.
"I think I loved you from the start. It was always making love, Peeta." I admit and Peeta smiles at me.
"Look who's beeing cheesey now." He says before kissing me sweetly again. I pull away.
"One last thing though," he nods as he rubs the end of my plait between his fingers. "This is not stupid or ugly." I say, tapping the leg. He flinches. "Lay back." I say and he does so. "This leg is part of you, Peeta, so it's beautiful. Don't make it any less so." I push up his jeans to the buckle and take the leg off Peeta, he tries to cover up his stump but I glare at him and he stops. I have to admit it makes my stomach turn slightly. The thick stitches are still visible but I lean down and kiss every one of them.
"I love you, Katniss." He whispers and I smile at him and strip to my underwear before slipping between his covers.
"Good. Now get in here, hold me and let me finally sleep properly again!" I say and he pulls his top over his head befor shimmying out of his pants and joining me in bed.
"God I've missed this." He murmurs and I smile as I cuddle into his body, relishing the look, smell, feel sound and taste of everything that is Peeta.
A/N: Kate: As I said I am going to explain about our new buddy Louis! So basically, my dad was previously married to a woman who already had a son -Louis- he was almost one when my dad and his mum got married and a year after that she committed suicide because she was severely depressed. Louis was put into my dad's care because my dad was basically Louis' dad at that point. My dad and Louis moved over here to England when Louis was three and there my dad met my mum! when my mum got pregnant my dad insisted they got married because he didn't want everyone to feel that he just slept around! They weren't in love. Dad and Louis moved in with me and Mum and woo! Louis went travelling for a year and came back a week ago and found out my mum and dad were split up (yeah, he was pretty pissed off no one told him) and my parents told him he had the choice of who to live with. Louis chose to live with my mum and me because me and him are closer than he is with my dad and he is also 'concerned' about me after the thing with HARRY.
Louis: yeh, pretty much what Kate said, but she missed the point that her dad and my stepfather is a complete a***hole.