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XXIV- Worthless
I walked back to the infirmary, people looking at me weirdly maybe it's because my right hand is completely soaked in blood or maybe it's the fact that I had just lost my best friend. Who cares? I don't
The last few days went by quickly, most of the time I stayed at my cabin alone. Well people come by and ask if they could keep me company. But I just refused; I just needed time for myself. The only person that could accept keeping me company was dead.
I felt alone, more alone that I had ever felt before, people were trying to cheer me up but what's the point? They could never cheer me up like he can.
I felt in need, in more need than I ever felt before, people gave me food, water, everything a human could need but they all tasted bland. Because I wasn't in need of those things, I was in need of him.
I never knew that loosing him would affect me this way. I know that I would be a wreck but not like this. I never left my bed, I never took his sweatshirt off,I never want to lose his smell.
I never wanted to be like this.
They're going to burn his shroud tomorrow, and I'm not even sure if I'm ready yet to see him. To see his face pale as snow, to see his eyes, his gorgeous eyes closed, to see him, dead.
I was always the strong girl, the resourceful one, the brave one. But that's just because he was the one driving me to do all those things. Now that he's gone, nothing was driving me.
He was my bright and shining star, the star I relied on, the star that made me feel that everything was okay. But that star had been shattered into a million pieces right in front of my eyes.
He was everything to me; I based my life on him. And he's gone, just like that.
All I have now is our memories together. But it wasn't enough, it was short, it was too short. I wanted more, I wanted more memories, I wanted him to be mine and I to him, but that's not going to happen anytime soon
I wanted a family, a family with him, kids running around the house playing and I was watching over them, I wasn't going to get that anymore.
All I want to do now is to be alone, alone from the world, alone from everything, just alone.
I was never strong, I was never resourceful I was never brave. I was none of those things. He was the strong one, he was the resourceful one, he was the brave one. I was just going on a ride with him.
Now no one was driving, no one holding on to the steering wheel. No one to give me directions, no one to hold onto.
I just got to accept it and move on right? I just have to get on with my life and make the best out of it.
I can't just accept it, I can't just move on. I just can't let him go. He's too much a part of me. There's a gaping hole in my heart that only he could fill.
I feel numb, I don't want to feel anything anymore or see anything.
I feel worthless.