ok people another chapter! damn I have no life, 4 chapters in one day! lol.I dont own Vampire Academy, only my made up characters and the fanfic.

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Dimitri's POV

That single tear falling down her cheek ripped my heart out.

I still love her with all my heart, but I could not bear myself to look at her after I made her my own personal blood whore. I love her, wanted her to be mine for a moment but then that changed when my Strigoi self decided to kill her.

When Lissa turned me, I could not help but to hate myself for what I've done to Rose. I did not understand why she still loves me when I made her suffer. I wanted to kill her but she still believed in me. Believed that I could surpass my fears and nightmares of what I once was.

I saw her run away from me; it should've been like this from the beginning. She might as well go back to the arms of Ivashkov; she can find happiness with him, as much as it hurts me to say this she will be happy with him.

I stayed where I was, I did want to go after her and tell her that I still loved her. I just couldn't live with myself after all the horrid thing I made her go through. I looked up to see the priest come to me; I noticed he still could not believe I was turned back to a Dhampir. I could tell for the way he spoke to me.

"My son, it is truly a miracle to have you back." He said in a soft voice.

"Father I do not deserve this." I said glancing at him and then I looked at my guards.

The priest knew that this was something more than just a talk. "My sons please give us a moment alone. You do not need to go far away if you want, but this is truly important to him." My guards agree, and walked over to stand in front of the church doors.

"I see that you are in peace in here. Just as that guardian who interrupted me, but the way she ran it was as if she saw death herself. Tell me son, did you truly intend to hurt her that way?" He was talking about Rose get away, I felt guilty for interrupting him. But then I realized what he just said: 'did you truly intend to hurt her that way?'

"I know you care for her. I see it in your eyes, but I do not understand why hurt her when she can help you heal your wounds."

I was surprise to what he was telling me. Did he know about our relationship? Could he see that clearly I still love Rose with all my entire being?

"What are yo-"

"I do not need to know your entire background to know when someone cares about the other." He interrupted me. "I could see it in you two. Just because I am talking the word of the lord, does not mean I am not paying attention to my children." He suddenly touched my upper back gently and turned to me. "I could tell that you were hurt, but looking into her eyes some of that went away; she is your consort that you're looking for, she's the strength that you need. It is rare to see something like that nowadays, you two share something special and you are the one who is destroying it."

"I have to, it is for the best." I said guiltily.

"No, it does not have to be this way. You are not seeing what you are doing; you are hurting yourself and hurting her more. I saw the love in her eyes and you are destroying it by pushing more guilt in it. My son, I do not want see you two getting hurt."

"I can't father. I just can't."

"My son, all I am telling you is; love never dies. Even if you don't want to admit it yourself or to others, the love we feel for a special someone it is always going to be in our hearts. New people can come to your life and you might love them, but a love that is far more powerful than you can't control it is always going to stay and probably hunt you forever."

I didn't understand how he can see my relationship with Rose this clearly. He knew this, what only I and Rose knew about. He knew what I was feeling and what I was doing to myself and Rose. So I had to ask. "How do you know about this?"

"I once knew a couple like you two. He was a Moroi and she was his guardian, they had an attraction with each other that none of them knew how to stop it. Until finally they gave in and were together for years, but one day he disappeared no one knew where he was. Then he came back but he was not the same, apparently Strigoi took hold of him and make him do horrible things. When they both were together he told her he didn't love her anymore, it hurt her to hear those words coming from the man she love. She never gave in when he told her that, until one day. To hurt her he slept with another Dhampir woman, it killed her to see her only one love doing something like that. Days passed by and there was a Strigoi attack, she fought them and when she knew her beloved was in danger..." He paused. "She protected him with her body; she scarified herself to save him. She died in his arms. Days later in her funeral, he discovered she was going to have his child. He could not take it anymore and killed himself after her. Before he did such lamentable tragedy, he told me he wanted to be buried next to her. And so, to follow his last wish the three are resting in peace together."

I was out of words; this is really something similar to what I have with Roza.

"My son, what I am trying to say here is that bad things can happen at any time. Happiness does not come to our world the way we want it. We go through serious phases to gain our own happiness, and if you don't do anything to fix it. It'll be too late. That's why I want you to forgive yourself and let her help you, so you both can be happy. I've forgiven you for the things you done when you weren't yourself, it is time for you to do it yourself..."

I understood what he was saying, but…

"Father, she and I protect the same Moroi. We can't be together, I've promised Princess Dragomir I would protected her no matter the situation. If I give into Rose, I would not protect my charge but Rose. Also, Rose and the Princess share a bond together."

"You can work things out. Don't say 'you can't' when you haven't try." He said. He got on his feet and smiled down at me. "Well son I hope you think about this, don't hurt her any longer. Because she will never love anyone as much as she loves you, there is only one person in this world that no love can be compared, and I think you don't want to see her with another man who is not you." With his warm hands he touches the sides of my head. "Be with God my son, and think about the happiness you two can bring to each other's life. Forgive yourself and let her give you her strength." With that he walked away.

I stayed there for what seem hours and hours, until the guards came to collect me. I think they grew tired of being here at the church but this was the only place I could think clearly.

We were by the church stairs when we saw guardians giving orders and running. I didn't know what to do but the guardian inside of me knew something was bad.

Ewan Hart, one of my guardians who looked to be twenty-seven years old dark hair grey eyes, six-five feet and a hundred and twenty pounds. Wanted to know what was going on and to know if we all could help.

"Darrel what is going on? Why there is a commotion?" Ewan asked.

"There is a Strigoi attack. Three Strigoi try to get inside court, we interrogate them before we kill them and they told us seven more are coming. The thing is there is no sign of them." He glanced at me and started to look something in his jacket pockets. Then he took out a silver stake and handed to me. "You have to help us, you are now a guardian it's an orders from our superiors."

"What do you mean?" asked Ewan confused.

"A female Dhampir went outside the court. She hasn't come back yet. Guardian Galen let her go through the gates but she is not coming back."

"And who is this female guardian you speak of?" asked my other guardian, Ralph Maddox.

"Rosemary Hathaway."

Ewan and Ralph turned slowly at me. I knew deep in my heart that it was my fault; Rose going out the court walls was my fault. The way she ran off crying and heartbroken was one of the reasons she would leave the court.

"If you don't do anything to fix it, it'll be too late…" The words of the father echoed inside my head. "Too late…"

I prayed, I prayed to God in that moment that Rose would be okay. That she was alive and be inside the court, but something inside of me told me I was wrong that Rose was in danger and a whole formed right inside my heart leaving me all alone and scared for her life.

"Lissa!"

Lissa! Lissa was in danger and I knew that I was the only person who could protect her in this circumstances.

I ran to where the voice came from, I could see Lissa was inside the lobby with a Strigoi. She was up against the wall her feet not touching the floor at all. I could see that she tried to struggle but the Strigoi only harder his grip on her neck. I knew she would lose consciousness soon and if I approach the Strigoi he would kill Lissa instantly.

I need it a distraction first and take Lissa away from the Strigoi immediately.

Think Belikov, think!

I saw Christian from a far looking horrible at the Strigoi. Then I had it!

"Christian! Light up the Strigoi on fire. Only the back, don't harm the Princess. I will do the rest." I told him.

Immediately, fire was in the Strigoi's back before he could drop or kill Lissa I launched myself straight at them. I took Lissa in my arms and pushed the Strigoi away from us. I landed on the floor with Lissa on top of my body so she doesn't get hurt, I make us crawled a few feet away from the Strigoi.

"Christian, it's time to stop." I told him. The flames dim a little but his clothing was still on fire.

Christian came closer to us and hold Lissa, I moved from Lisa to stake the Strigoi. In his this state hi didn't out up much of a fight, he was trying to take his shirt off when I staked him. He did not realize until too late when I staked him, his eyes widen surprise when I drove the silver stake into his heart.

I could not help but wonder where Rose was, and if she was ok. She was outside the court, probably fighting for her life or worst.

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