Epilogue

"She's gone."

But Snape's voice didn't reach my mind, although his presence next to me did.

This is how Snape must feel.

I suffered what Snape suffered.

The pain was so immense that there was nothing else that I felt. It was the pain of imminent loss. Never again be comfortable in this world, all because of my feelings for Alanis.

Today, as Snape had taken over my task, I had regained my life, freedom and confidence, but now I lost everything, even more than this worthless life.

Was this it? Was everything over? How could I live without her?

Alanis was now beyond this world, I never felt so alone. Now everything had changed terribly. The world lost its brightest and most powerful opposer against the dark and this loss had been devastating. I had lost my father as he was sent to Azkaban and had lost my mother, as she turned her back to reality, but this was different. This was a pain beyond even that.

I had called Alanis my related one, had kissed and desired her, served the Dark Lord together with her in order to save us. But now, as she was entirely taken away from me I did fully realize the truth.

I loved Alanis and there was nothing more important on this world to me than her.

Alanis' life had still been in the store for her, a life with me, but it was just taken away.

Alanis deserved to be worshipped. And therefore I would live for the both of us. I just understood that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up. Therefore I would begin to try to love each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one I had and even if it couldn't be the fullest just because Alanis was not at my side.

And there lay a combat ahead of me that I would never be able to win.

Because some day I knew she would be lost entirely for me. She would cease whirling around in my thoughts, stop haunting them and will be buried deeply within my memories. Time will extinguish her from my mind. I will pass every moment fearfully of that day.

The day when I even will forget that fear.

But I won't forget how she changed me. Her presence ripped into my heart deeply and Alanis just settled herself within it and won't ever fade.

She would rule me until the end of my life.

Mankind's greatest gift and also its greatest curse, was that we had free choice.

We can make our choices built from love or from fear.

I would built my future on both of it.

Alanis had been the good part of us, converted more and more to the dark as long as she was with me and that's why I would now take on this change too. I would fight for the light just because of Alanis. I would let her change me to the good.

I would avenge her.

I would support everyone who wanted to destroy Voldemort.

To achieve salvation, I would support even the only man that now was left being able to save all of us. I would back and shield him from the evil ones that were once my fellows.

I would help Harry Potter.

Just for Alanis. She marked my path to the light.

I would accompany Severus Snape, would join his sorrow and fate.

I will be the light, that lives in the dark.

I will be the dark, that lives in the light.

I will be the true Draco Malfoy.

Now, my dear readers, we reached the end of my first English fanfic.

I hope you all really enjoyed it!

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Thank you very much, Olivia