Firstly, thank you to all that have reviewed or sent me a review through PM, much appreciated
Keep a lookout for an updated old fic within the week.
I'm extremely ticked off with Episode 3, how come none of them are pushing Shannon for a reason for her erratic behaviour, especially her reaction to Charlie touching her (I thought that was a giveaway that something serious was up, like come on Lawson and Charlie!), Lexi worked it out but she didn't say anything and when she trashed the locker room and was holding that bag, Kerry just let it go, arghhhhhhhh, someone please help Shannon!
Loved the convo between Josh and Lawson about Shannon needing space, and Josh telling him that his stuffed :D
Loved the end though with Shannon going to see the baby, at least something good came out of a terrible situation.
This is using part of the end of tonight's episode.
Enjoy
Disclaimer: I obviously don't own Rush.
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"I killed her Lawson." Shannon says.
"No, that's not true" He replies
"She would still be alive if I had got there…"
"No, Listen, listen, she wanted the money, plain and simple, she wanted the money so she refused protection, and there is nothing you could have done to change that." Lawson says while staring deeply into her eyes in an attempt to get through to her.
"Thanks." She says looking down, avoiding any contact from being initiated.
"Are you sure your still with us." He asks standing up a bit disappointed in her response and believing Josh was right about him being stuffed.
"Yeah." She says looking at him from her locker with tears welling up in her eyes.
"That's a good thing." He says before walking out, deciding she would come to him when she was ready.
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"Jesus! You feeling better?" Kerry says out of breath as she ran to inspect the noise she heard from the Intel office.
"It's okay, I will fix it." Shannon says from her position in the middle of the bench.
"What is it, is it you and Lawson?" Kerry asks while ensuring no one else is within hearing distance.
"No." Shannon replies while looking hesitant and looks around the room before looking at Kerry.
"Look, if you want to talk, you know about anything." Kerry says taking in Shannon's appearance and noting she looked like a scared little girl the way she was sitting there.
"Thanks." She replies shortly.
"Look, this job, this job is no place for a lady, you know if you care too much, if you're going to feel too much, you're not going to survive, I spoke to your counsellor and she says your fit for work, so if you want to do this." Kerry says.
"Yes, I do!" Shannon insists.
"What's in the bag?" Kerry asks.
"Nothing." She replies.
"It can't be nothing, something is going on Shannon, and I have a feeling it's to do with the bag." Kerry says walking closer.
"Don't come any closer, it's nothing." Shannon says while sounding scared and cringes away.
"Out with it Shannon." Kerry insists as she takes note of Shannon's reaction to her advances.
"The answers are in there." Shannon says handing her the bag.
Opening it, Kerry begins to inspect the items inside it and notice it appears to be a rape kit. Pulling out the images, Kerry see's that they are of Shannon with bruising and blood over her body.
"Oh god Shannon, you were raped." Kerry says shocked.
"Yes." Shannon said.
"And you didn't tell anyone, you didn't report it?" Kerry asks in disbelief.
"No, I told the counsellor, she kind of figured it out." Shannon replies.
"Do you still have the bruises?" Kerry asks sitting down next to her.
"Yes." Shannon replies.
"Why haven't you reported it, how did it happen?" Kerry asks slowly putting her arm over Shannon's shoulder when she doesn't cringe away.
"His a cop, it happened two nights ago, the night I missed all of the calls from you guys, I went out with some old friends, one of them was a guy I worked with years ago in Special Ops, we were good friends, he was like an older brother to me, that's how it always was with us, then all of a sudden he just advanced on me when we left the club, took me to his car and, and…" She stumbles along trying not to cry.
"He raped you." Kerry says trying to keep her voice as calm as possible.
"Yeah, he was twice my body weight, and I fought him off best I could, but he had his gun on him, so I sort of gave up, I was scared I was going to die, and then when he let his guard down, I grabbed the gun out of his hand and ran off, I dropped it outside of the car and I ran as fast as I could until I got to the main road, I went to the chemist to get what I needed, got home, performed the necessary stuff for a rape kit and had a shower, I went and saw Tash and she gave me the morning after pill at the insistence of her not asking any questions about it." Shannon says.
"Why didn't you report it though?" Kerry asks.
"Because he is a cop, I'm a cop, it's embarrassing that it happened to me, I should be able to protect myself, and I felt like I brought it onto myself because I willingly went to his car with him." She replies.
"It's not your fault Shannon, you can't hold yourself responsible, you trusted someone who was meant to be your friend, who was meant to be like family to you and he took advantage of that, you put up a good fight against him, and he should have known you didn't want to go there with him because you are involved with someone else." Kerry says.
"I know, I just don't know what to do." Shannon says as she sobs into Kerry's shoulder.
"Firstly I'm going to file a rape charge against him with all of this evidence, I will get back up's before I hand it all in, and we are going to tell the team, Lawson has a right to know, you can't keep pushing them away, they won't judge you." Kerry says.
"Yeah, it's the idiots fault for what he did to you Shannon, and you're an idiot for thinking you were going to deal with this on your own, we are all here for you, and I'm going to make sure this idiot is going to pay." Josh says coming from around the corner where he had been lurking while he had eavesdropped.
"Can you call Lawson, and explain?" Shannon asks Josh.
"Yeah of course." He replies.
"I just think it will be better if it came from you and you can get him to calm down." She says.
"Sure, I'll call him now." He says pulling out his phone.