My crush

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Matt sat at the table in the room, while Mello was on the bed, channel surfing. He was very nervous to have Matt in the same room with him again, plus there was an awkward silence between them.

"So, Matt why are you sitting all the way over there?" Mello finally asked, since the silence got to him.

"I don't know, do you want me to sit over there?" Matt asked quietly, he was trying to enjoy his new game, but kept getting distracted every now and then because he'd think or look at Mello.

Mello bit his lower lip as he looked down and tried to say "Yes." But as soon as he looked up and opened his mouth to speak, Matt was already seated next to him. Mello blushed and looked back down.

Matt noticed that Mello was blushing and looking down; he quickly saved his game and shut it off. Then placed his hand at the bottom of Mello's chin and raised his head making him look at Matt.

"Mello, what's the matter?" He asked, getting in closer to his face without realizing it. Making Mello tightly shut his eyes, still afraid from what happened before, sad to say, but those two were his first "experience".

"N-nothing…M-matt?" Mello shuddered.

"Yeah? What is it?"

"I li…um, do you…" Mello took a deep breath and looked at Matt this time. "Matt, I like you… a lot, please don't hate me, but I really like you more than a friend." Mello gulped finishing the rest of his sentence staring at Matt.

"Mello, I like you too. Heh, I have for a bit, but there was never a right time to tell you…I remember that much. Reading the important stuff that I write down everyday helps me, it's sort of like a journal." Matt smiled.

Mello was very happy and leaned in to kiss Matt on the lips, but a horrible image came back from that day and stopped him. He whenced gently and looked up at Matt.

Matt looked at Mello with a confused look on his face. He tired to lean in and kiss Mello, but he had pulled back. It was starting to irriate Matt, so he pinned him down on the bed and looked at him for more than ten minutes. The both of them staring back at each other in total silence, before Mello spoke up.

"Matt, please stop…You know what happened if you wrote it down, in your "journal" so please." Mello pleaded, looking Matt right in the eyes, with a sad expression.

"Mello, you'll never be able to get rid of that fear if you never help yourself get over it in small amounts." Matt whispered, looking right back at Mello, right in his eyes as well.

"Yeah, just please stop with my wrist and just hug me for now."

"That's better." Matt smiled, as he laid down on top of Mello slowly putting his arms around him at his back.

"I'm going to get used to this and shortly I'll be able to kiss Matt without whencing or backing away. I just hope that we'll be here for awhile so I can get over it faster." Mello thought to himself, while he smiled andheld onto Matt gently.

After seven minutes Matt quickly licked Mello on the lips and smiled down at him. Mello was a bit shocked, but after he got a taste of Matt's saliva it wore off quickly and opened his mouth slightly for Matt to explore. Matt leaned in closer and slid his tongue into Mello's mouth exploring in every part that was available. Mello gave slight moans as Matt was exploring his mouth; he rather liked this feeling and was very warm on the inside. Mello never wanted this moment to end.

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OK, next chapter will be out soon. Next week or so. Heh.